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I imagined being a trans and i felt excited about doing HRT and it felt pleasurable and very wanted this time 1000% I am done , i am dying please help please

Sometimes I question if I even have Harm OCD because I’m still able to use knives around family members. I’ll be chopping vegetables in the kitchen , but then the harm thoughts will appear and I’ll try to finish as quickly as possible and throw the knife in the sink. If I’m not avoiding knives all together would that still mean I have Harm OCD ? Are my compulsions more mental than physical ?

So I've been struggling with this for more than 1,5 years... My ocd about my relationship began so suddenly. At first it was just anxiety,but later it was about an old friend of mine. I had a huge crush on him before my bf and since I met my bf I didn't feel anything anymore and we just grew apart. Until my ocd thoughts started about the old friend. I keep comparing everything with him until I feel satisfied with the fact it's feels better with my bf than it would with the old friend. I don't want him!!! He wast the person I needed and me and my bf have such a beautiful relationship and I love him so much..the ocd goes and comes but it's always about the old griend and sometimes I begin to doubt the fact it's ocd or it's just meant to be with the old friend?? But I don't want that!!! I am so happy with my bf and I don't want the old friend!!!! I keep revising the same sentences to comfort myself and I can get trapped in the thoughts for minutes! How can I stop this...what if it goes on for more years ugggg....hoping the ocd goes away soon again. Because sometimes the thoughts do go away but now it's back...

This question is from a religious perspective. I know we have to be good, but we cant be all good, we have to stop sin, but we cant stop sinning fully and we are saved either way, cause its not our actions that sends us to heaven, its God's grace. So anyone who accepted Christ as their saviour its saved, he can still sin, he can still be a bad person, unkind with people, have sex before marriage, do bad things, he is still saved. This makes me angry cause i try everytime to eb a better person and sometimes i just get tired cause i get alot of temptation and i fight to not act on it and be kind person but then i get tired of it cause of many things, and i see people that accept Jesus but they still live an earthly life and enjoy their life better than I do, and they will be in heaven too. Im not saying thes shouldnt, im just talking about whats the point of all of this? If i try to be a better person i get hit by how sinful i am,i feel guilt and i want to avoid being sinful but it doesnt work, and i feel guilt repenting, and there are others who just live their life like others. I have really bad sexual temptations, i dont know if i will be able to not have sex with my girlfriend(when i will have one) im always thinking that i will fight somehow, but there are other christian who doesnt wait till marriage and nothing bad happens, they feel a little bad but they still do it, they are happy, and i will be there struggling to not sin, and maybe it will even do bad for the relationship... What's the point? I struggle with this alot, if im saved why do i have to fight so hard to not sin if im unable to be fully sinful but im still saved? It's like we know its bad to steal food from a store but they would say " you wont get fined or penalty for that but pls dont do it" you will say okay but what happens if youre starving and you dont have money? You dont get any penalty, of course you will steal instead of dying by starvation, and then you live freely... they still welcome you to the store. I know this shows how God really loves us and its beautiful, but then why try to be soo good, why try to be like Jesus if we can never be like that... and as i said many "sins" doesnt seem like its really hurted someone, like i know christian people who had sex before marriage and they still live happily. Or i heard people saying they dont feel bad or guilt having sex with random girls and they are christians... Im struggling with having thoughts that many things i do is a sin and i want to think its okay Jesus saved me, but i feel like a bad person, that i use Jesus pain to just sin...

Hey everyone, Ive recently started taking meds for my ocd which has gotten bad over the last year. Ive done some light research on the side effects which has me worried a bit. Havent faced any so far but I am scared of having sexual dysfunction, decreased libido, or massive weight gain. Would love to know your guys thoughts on how you’ve navigated this.

Everyday I wake up and I work hard to figure out how I can become a better version of myself, as if myself at this point in time and anything before this was a “worse” version of myself. I didn’t realize this was ocd until I was diagnosed but ever since I was young, I have never felt ok with who I am and it’s the reason why I even persue my dream so ruthlessly, Making music is my passion but ocd completely ruins it for me. Does anyone else feel like their ego is shattered or that they are stuck in their own head and can’t see through their own eyes?

First time poster here - sorry if I’m doing anything wrong! Wanted to add the trigger warning incase it flairs anybody’s OCD! I was diagnosed 3 years ago during the pandemic at age 25 with contamination OCD which turned my life totally upside down. Around 1 year ago I got a new job and everything was going well, then 6 months or so ago we found a small amount of carpet beetle larvae in the house. Since then my OCD has been horrendous around checking for them and checking my hands and feet constantly. I know it’s irrational as they’re harmless and we’ve dealt with them and found no more larvae since. I was getting better with my compulsions but found an adult one a few days ago and everything has flared up again! Turns out they’re a common thing in our area according to the local Facebook groups. It’s so frustrating! Has anybody else dealt with this kind of thing? Just looking for some tips I suppose. I’m having therapy and on medication but feeling really lost at the moment.

Been having some harm intrusive thoughts tonight when trying to sleep and I really wanted to vent but then I got scared that if I discussed it out loud or wrote it over text that the devil/one of his demons would hear and tempt someone to do something harmful to me/those I love. I have therapy tomorrow but now feel like I can’t tell her what I’m going through because of this fear. Any help?

Do cats remember if you snap at them once? (yelling and stuff)

If you haven’t heard the gospel, here’s it is: Jesus, the only son of God, was born as a baby—fully human and still fully God. He lived a sinless life on earth, something no human could ever do. When he was 33 years old (we guess), he accepted that he would be put to death, even though he hadn’t done anything to deserve that. He accepted his imminent death because it was actually part of God’s plan (which God had envisioned even before the fall of mankind). He was put to death by being lifted up upon a cross, which had been foreshadowed in the Old Testament. Just as in Numbers 21, when a snake had been lifted up in the desert, and all who had looked upon it had been healed, so the Son of God was lifted up, so that all who look to him will live (John 3:14-15). Jesus died on that cross, taking upon him all the sins of all the people, both in the past and in the future. His death removed the need for animal sacrifice, which in the past was needed to atone for the sins of God’s people. Jesus was in the grave for three days. The authorities were aware of a prophesy that Jesus would rise the dead, so they commanded that the grave would be guarded and the tomb sealed. (The authorities were concerned that the disciples might come and steal the body and falsely claim that Jesus had risen). But Jesus really did rise from the dead. The stone at the entrance to the tomb was rolled away, and Jesus was alive. The men guarding the tomb were afraid to the point of seeming like dead men. At first, Jesus was seen by the women who had followed him closely in his life. Then Jesus appeared to Peter, then the disciples, then to over 500 Christians at a time. Most of these people were still alive (and able to testify to what they saw) during the time that some New Testament books were written. During a period of forty days, Jesus presented himself alive and spoke to many people. Then, in the presence of his followers, he was lifted up to heaven in a cloud. As his followers were looking up into the sky, not able to see Jesus anymore, two men (angels) dressed in white suddenly stood beside them. They said, “Why are you looking into heaven? This same Jesus, whom you saw taken into heaven, will return in the same manner that you saw him taken into heaven” (Acts 1:11). This is the gospel. I can’t tell you how much God has shown up in my life. And I have a huge story about how God has helped me get incredibly better in my OCD. Discussion welcome:):) Have a great day!! 😀😀

i wake up with bad racing and intrusive thoughts. had a super bad one about hurting my dog and now i’m having a hard time being around her. i’m so sad

I'm struggling so badly with not closing my eyes for fear I see someone's privates!

Am I the only one that, when gets disgusted at horrible intrusive thoughts or images feels like I'm faking it or isn't disgusted enough? When I see those intrusive images in my head I feel shaken and like about to cry, like when you see something from the uncanny valley. But then I feel like I'm faking being disgusted at it, and I'm so afraid that I might be secretely liking it. Something like that just happened now and I was triggered so much by it.

I feel like when I watch escenes of women performing oral sex I want to do it too, but this didn't happen before, it feels like it really turns me on, and regular porn it's not as exciting, almost not arousing, is this something that can happen?

So, this evening I was cutting my kids nails and toenails and when it was my son’s turn, i was cutting his toenails and one started bleeding, well I’m like oh my gosh, did I mean to do that and so on. Well in my mind I was like what is that happens again, it did on the second one, mind you his toenails are weird. But I start stressing and think what if I wanted to and thought what if I meant to do it. I just need to ask has this happened to anyone?? I’ve been going through a lot of stress lately. And when I cut my daughter’s nails it was fine.

When you struggle to stay present, what’s something you can do to help that isn’t compulsive. When I loose my presence I become very vulnerable to sticky thoughts. Or maybe sticky days create a loss of presence. I’m thinking about making a few rules of thumb like: avoid confrontation, stressful media, making big decisions and maybe sticking to a to do list that includes extra self care. I’m on the upward swing but still have these days where I’m lost inside my head. Probably around 4-5 a month. I’m trying to accept that it happens without making OCD worse. Love some feedback.

Tw, groinal responses (18+ convo) Can someone tell me what the difference between a groinal response and true arousal is? Is there any true way of knowing other than you don’t want a groinal response? My groinal responses tingle, sometimes feel like I need to pee or a stinging feeling (I’m a female) and it’s usually mainly focused on just the feeling between the legs and nothing else. When I’m feeling arousal (from what I know) there’s a core heat and aching up the loins then pleasant feeling. I feel calmer in this state then with what I assume is groinal responses. That’s the only way I think to see them differently. If anyone is an ADULT and would like to also talk about their experiences, leave a comment below thanks

This is a little new for me. Each time I figure out or find peace with the OCD to the point where it’s practically nonexistent a flare up happens and suddenly I’m back to feeling “off” and not normal and thinking in my head all day all kind of ocd related thoughts. Endless questions and connections of things that are not at all related. Soo darn annoying. You guys, how do you keep pushing past this!? What tips do you have for this dealing with the feelings after the flare up. The worst part is being able to laugh and smile and just live life again and then just boom feeling soo awful again. Anyone experience feeling off after flare ups??

Is it normal when you see a trigger and you start worring you become more self aware of your groin area? to the point that I start feeling tickles or something, like I feel more my groin. Is it like self induced? Same thing as telling your mind not to think something, but to your body.

Does anyone deal with the feeling like they're about to lose control or go crazy. It's really upsetting and hard to deal with, especially since it ties into multiple themes for me.