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Hello All! I unfortunately like the rest of you suffer from OCD. It's a very aggravating, relentless, and upsetting thing to have. I currently suffer from Scrupulosity. I am from the Christian Faith and my OCD likes to put thoughts and statements in my mind about the Devil in my head which is totally unwanted. If anyone else on here suffers from similar what helps you go through your day and keeps your faith in Christ strong? Some of my OCD thoughts and statements are totally opposite than my faith. I find it challenging to live my Christian life when my ocd torments me mentally with the other? Any tips?

I had an ocd episode late this morning and I can't keep living myself like this. I wrote on my journal I feel like s****** is the best option for me. What made everything worse is I requested time off on june 1st because I was going on a day trip to see my sister. My manager denied because other ppl request time offs that day and my request was already too late. It's so frustrating because it's a part time job and I'm only scheduled to work only 4 hours (I had times where I worked a 3 hour shift) twice or even once a week. Whenever a shift is available, I always take it because I need I need the money. The one day I take a day off, I get denied. I can't switch shifts with anybody because no one won't be available.I can't afford to quit because in today's climate, it's so hard to find another job. It's just everything has been so difficult lately. With ocd, my life does not matter anymore.

Someone please help me, I’m begging if anyone is willing to listen to me and help me I’ll listen to their problems as well I’m just not in the right mind space rn

Alrighty here comes another one.. so I was panicking earlier about an K-pop idol who I don’t like at all only envy and I told my boyfriend about the rocd thought and then I proceeded to rmb the last time I had an thought about this K-pop idol super early on in our relationship like a scenario fantasy? I can’t even call it a fantasy because never in 1 million years I’ll ever go after this girl I simply only love my boyfriend, but basically I rmb having an scenario/thought of me being part of the group and simply having fun and making fans and just having fun and then I have this very brief memory? Idk if it’s false or not but it seem too real to be false? But we was dating and we like kiss I don’t rmb and I don’t think nothing nasty happened and I hope there wasn’t but basically me and my boyfriend was both scared and worried and he said he couldn’t deal with the fact of me having a crush on her during our relationship and I was like pause bc I don’t even remember a ounce of attraction towards her just something who I wish I was like and I told him if I’m being genuinely honest I don’t remember liking her in that type of way and this thought only happened once but then when I was explaining it to him and I was thinking how can I even think like that if I didn’t like the idol in that type of way and like I don’t think it’s entirely impossible bc my brain do go on autopilot a lot and I was spacing out and just letting it happen! But now I’m panicking what if I did but didn’t know? It just doesn’t makes sense and I just really need help bc he said if I did liked her very early on in our relationship it will be a deal breaker and I’m scared and confused

can rocd come in like a what-if-he’s-cheating-so-i-have-to-make-sure-he’s-not way? lol. most of the times my bf hangs out with friends (mostly male), i get the thought that maybe he’s hiding from me that there will be a girl (THE girl) over there too. i know in my heart that it’s irrational but i can’t tell and i always eat the urge to ask him who’s coming :( i feel bad for this

I need help or resources. I am having a terrible OCD episode since yesterday night! Anxiety was bad last night when going to bed. I just don’t know what to do!

Can someone please help me. The other day out of no where my brain is trying to convince me that I no longer love my boyfriend which is scaring me and terrifying because I’ve been with him for almost 4 years and we live together and planned our future together but now my brain is now nit picking everything thing he does, trying to convince me he has so many flaws to break up with him or noticing all the perfect things he does to love him all over again. I’m scared and so upset am I falling out of love or is just ROCD? It just won’t leave me alone I don’t want to be with anyone else but I’m scared my thoughts will fully convince me I don’t love him anymore or don’t want to be with him anymore 😞

Worrying so much is so comforting somehow. I feel as though it’s the norm. I’m a little hesitant to part with it. I’m scared to feel nothing when I’m supposed to be worrying. I hope this doesn’t sound ridiculous.

I feel like this has completely consumed my daily life, I’m nauseated, light headed and on the brink of crying. I’m with someone who is Avoidant Attachment. So he’s already kind of withdrawn. Every time he texts someone or I feel like he’s holding his phone weird, I immediately go to “he’s sleeping with someone else” It’s completely possible that he could be cheating, but I don’t want it to consume me so much.

I'm starting to think that certain of my trauma struggles are turning into OCD. I have such a fear of people saying good/kind things to me. I associate it with what happened to me as a kid, where I was told good things and later told that those good things weren't really true, that people were telling me what I wanted to hear. So now I feel like I have to be harsh with myself in order to be "safe" from hearing later that the nice things were a lie. Basically avoiding something normal or good out of fear that something bad will happen like it did in the past. I know this involves trauma, but is there an OCD component to it that could be helped by treating it as OCD?

I am constantly comparing myself to others I don’t compare myself to others in anything else besides morality and music but it’s like yeah I can acknowledge that I’m better than a lot of people at music or whatever but to me those people don’t really matter because why would I compare myself to someone who is worse than me? Whenever I see someone who is better than me I’m like wow I suck, but if I see someone who is worse than me I’m like wow I’m actually talented. Same with morality. I am constantly convinced I am a narcissist, I find others pretty selfish and I have dedicated my life to being the most selfless person I can be. I don’t talk about my accomplishments and I also don’t talk about my talents. I really hate people who brag for no reason so I try to not do that either. I also make fun of myself a lot because I want to be relatable to people or whatever, so those are the people who I’m usually around, are self deprecating people because I am intimidated by confident people. I feel like they think they are better than me but in reality I only think that because I think they are better than me. If I hear someone who is self deprecating or whatever I will try to cheer them up, but honestly nobody does the same for me but I wish they would. This means that in relationships the other person usually ends up with confidence while I have none but I know it’s not their job I just wish other people would help me in the same way I try to be there for them and then I get resentful when they are it’s so fucked up and wrong.

Im feeling so anxious cause of my pocd and real events ocd based on extremely horrible childhood mistakes... Here are the facts. - I made a severe horrible mistake of a sexual nature 3 times at the age of 13. - someone told me about what the mistake was and what it meant earlier in the week before the mistakes happened... - i had no idea what the mistake even was before I learned of it, much less ever do it.... - i had forgotten about being told about the mistake and what it meant, and the severe mistakes happened later in the following days... - it never happened again and I feel extremely guilty at the age of 22. I dont ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way shape or form... I've asked my mom about this so many times and every time she tells me that it's not serious anymore, that the person is okay, and that I'm not a rapist or a P or a chomo... I was told what this word was, but I had forgotten it... I did not have full knowledge or full understanding on how horrible this mistake was... I was 13 at the time… now I’m 20… my POCD and real event OCD call me a P or a chomo because of the real events… while my mom reassures me all the time that it’s all over, that it’s not serious anymore, that the person is okay, and that I’m not a P or a rapist or a chomo, but when I was doing compulsive research, I remember when I saw a post on a non OCD forum about someone’s similar situation to mine and two people said to the person that they m*lested and that they needed  to turn themselves in… I don’t ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way shape or form… i didn’t know how horrible the real events were when I was 13… I really didn’t… and after the real events I never did anything like that ever again, and I never once ever thought (before, and after) about doing stuff with kids in any way shape or form... I never once fantasized about kids or wanted to do anything with kids… I was 13 and didn’t realize how horrible the actions were at the time and I never did it ever again… I never once fantasized about kids before or after the real event… I don't ever want to ever harm a child in any way shape or form... I seriously don't ever want to do that to any child in any way shape or form and I seriously don't ever want to do anything like that to any kid now or in the future… I never have had any fantasies about kids and I don't ever want to... I don't ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way shape or form... I was 13….. and after the real events I never did anything like that ever again, and I never once ever thought (before, and after) about doing stuff with kids in any way shape or form... I never once fantasized about kids or wanted to do anything with kids…  I was 13 and didn’t realize how horrible the actions were at the time and I never did it ever again… I never once fantasized about kids before or after the real event… And it’s comparing me to actual P’s and chomo’s who did stuff from 12-15… and making me think I’m a P and a Chomo because of it… I don’t ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way… 😭😭😭 and I get intrusive thoughts of people calling me a P and a chomo and me getting arrested… I don’t ever want to ever be a P or a chomo… the real events happened only 3 times and I really didn’t know how horrible it was… I don’t ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way… I don’t want to ever be attracted to or harm kids in any way… 😭😭😭

Hi guys just wondering what are some good medications for OCD. Thank you

Has anybody cured ocd to completely 100%. If yes, please help.

U guys for some reason when I think my baby looks cute or is being nice I feel something in my private and I worry. This also has been happening with my dog. I’m scared

What medications are you all on or have been on? Experiences? Side effects? What has worked and what hasn’t?

I have adhd and ocd so I have no short term memory and my ocd loves to feed on that. Sometimes I try and force myself to remember things to try and improve my adhd symptoms, but I can’t tell if these are me trying to push through adhd or doing mental compulsions for ocd. Like I’ll think to myself “what if you forgot to wash your hands free going to the bathroom before you touched your phone?” Which may be true , and then I get bored and don’t want to continue the thought , but the thought makes me anxious so I force myself to relive the memory to see if I washed my hands or not. I can’t tell if this is me just trying to improve my memory or if I’m doing mental compulsions. I wish I had a different brain. Every time this happens it hurts my head. I can’t tell if I should stop or push through to remember.

i haven’t been diagnosed with anything yet, but i have OCD symptoms, specifically POCD. when i was 11, i would play with my niece and nephew (i believe they were both two or three years old) and suddenly i would get random graphic intrusive thoughts. i never wanted to do that kinda thing, the thoughts scared me. i didn’t tell anyone for a while because i was scared they’d think i’m a horrible person. and sometimes when i would play with the kids, i would get scared that the adults would think i’m doing something bad to the kids, which was never the case. i’ve never felt attracted to them or any other child either. 11 is an age i was at puberty, and a lot of people say that people realize their attractions during puberty, and that’s been kinda scaring me. if i was one i think i would know by now, but i’m just scared. i’m not attracted to children but sometimes i’m afraid i am.

The past few months have been really rough. And yes there is a trigger warning because it’s pretty intense.. I suggest not reading if you struggle with keeping your ocd in check and utilizing the tools to get better… So I have been struggling with suicidal ocd. It’s been so hard. I know it’s ideation and it’s ocd because it’s intrusive… I don’t want to think about it… but it got so intense that I’m not even sure what to do with it anymore. I’ve been doing exposures almost every time I encounter it and sitting with it. It takes all of my time… during work, social interactions and even when I’m just alone. I can’t seem to shake it off. And I’m a Christian and a firm believer that God is able to understand and move in this situation. So with that, it’s been hard to fully accept when He speaks life back into me… the thoughts and the intrusion is so precise and dedicated to my demise… it makes me feel stuck. And with no one to truly understand it makes me feel lonely… I’m not sure if anyone else is struggling with this or not. I assume so. But if any professional or more experienced person has any advice, that would be truly appreciated.

Hi guys, I was playing a video game tonight relaxing, when I forgot what I was thinking doing and then got anxiety because of not knowing my OCD? I hate anxiety it’s the worst! What should I do about forgetting and the anxiety?