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I don’t wanna say what disease or illness is making me over think because I don’t wanna trigger anyone but I’ve had a really bad spike :( anyone know how to cope with severe health anxiety and rumination
I don’t know if anyone else deals with this but my ocd sometimes will be like “you don’t deserve to feel good about yourself” and then I end up not caring about my self progress and my self care. How can I get out of this mindset?
Recent world events have me stressing so much about the state of the world and I’m panicked that the world is gonna end and I won’t be able to live the life I want and the thought of other people suffering is incredibly distressing. It’s stupid I know. But I can’t rly enjoy anything. The second I enjoy myself a thought pops in like “hey you can’t be happy right now, remember this?” And it’s super stressful. I know I have no control so it’s pointless to stress about but I felt this way during Covid too. I hope nothing escalates to the point of like, apocalyptic catastrophe but my brain won’t let the thought go. It’s so silly I know.
Hello all, I’ve been dealing with OCD for years, and doing ERP therapy for several months to a year, and trying to really dive into doing exposures. I’ve done better with some triggers, and have improved since I first discovered I had OCD, but I still have the almost constant undercurrent of anxiety and I can get so tired. I don’t want to fall into feeling like this is going to last forever, but I also want to be realistic about the chronic nature of OCD. Do you have any tips for how you keep yourself encouraged even after what seems like a long recovery journey?
TW‼️‼️ So about 2 years ago I was sexually assaulted and triggered of a fear that I might of or will,I don’t really remember but I think it was a compulsion,I remember my friends and my sister and we were all outside and there was lots of people, I can’t remember the thought process but I remember walking and seeing who I thought was my sisters back turned and it turned out it wasn’t, i remember walking and thinking if I do brush past my sisters back it wouldn’t matter but I can’t remember if I was thinking “if I do brush past her bum or her back”and I’m so scared, I remember walking past and my elbow brushed past my friends bum and I’m scared if I did it on purpose or not I really can’t remember clearly,I immediately ran home and cried my eyes out, I know this probably sounds weird,
Typically every Friday I attend a faith based recovery. It's based off a 12-step program but it's for anyone who has any sort of hurts, hang ups, or habits. I started going roughly 2.5 years ago when I was fresh out of the hospital and where I accepted Christ into my life. Like I said, I typically go most Friday nights and my mom goes too. One week they'll have a lesson and the next week they'll have someone give their testimony. Which is always moving to hear because you hear people's stories of how they dealt with so much and how Christ saved them. Well I feel my ocd is hooking onto this because sometimes I would Choose not to go. When I don't go, sometimes I'll feel bad. I'll worry if my mom, or the people there will think less of me if I don't go. Or I worry if God will be disappointed for me not going. So it's like if I choose to go, I feel I'll be going to prevent that. Then, if I choose not to go, I'll wonder/fear if I should've went and what people may think. So I'm curious what y'all may use for decision making ?
Idk if I actually have feelings for my coworker or if it’s hocd, before this I never looked at her that way but now it feels like I’m actually attracted to her. I find myself subconsciously checking how I feel around her and I always end up feeling something. The thing is I Can’t see myself in a relationship with a girl, I cannot see myself committing to a girl. Intamicy with a girl does not seem satisfying to me at all. However for whatever reason with my coworker I find myself constantly checking how I feel and then end up feeling something like an urge to kiss her or an urge to be close to her, I never had that before. So now I constantly ask myself can I see myself with her in this situation? In this situation? And the answers are always no but I always find myself asking the same questions. I don’t know if I’ve been thinking about this so obsessively that I’m conditioning myself to be okay w the thoughts and even think I might like them but I never once in my life wanted this, I never looked at a girl and thought oh I want that or had girl crushes or paid any attention to them more than the typical oh she’s pretty. I even have moments where I don’t think about the hocd and I’m working and we start talking and I feel nothing. It feels like a friendship but other times completely out the random I become conscious and check the feelings. What does this mean??
I am sure that by going to talk therapy that I actually didn't really need to go to I opened up the door for my mental health problems and the OCD that has come from that by talking about my previous grief and trauma and basically re living it all when I had already dealt with most of it in my own way
When certain thoughts related to rocd doesn’t cause any anxiety what to do then? Is it the truth?
Today has started off rough, I just have that horrible anxious feeling and sense of doom. My brain is scattered and I want it to stop. How do I sit with anxiety without ruminating when my brain tells me I have to figure this out and think about it?
does ocd make you isolate yourself from others and your interests? it feels like life has been zapped out of me for a long while now and i haven’t been able to do the things i love because something is holding me back i haven’t been talking to my boyfriend as much as i should because i’m afraid that i’m not good for him. or i’m afraid that he doesn’t love me anymore or if i’m cheating/if he’s cheating? it makes no sense and i know growing distance from people makes it worse, but i can’t get out of where i am right now i haven’t drawn or written because i don’t want any of my art to reflect where i am today. it’s been a big coping mechanism for me, but now it feels like i have nothing any help?
Im working on understanding what spiritual warfare means, and before i used to avoid this topic because it made my obsessions worse. I used to have that fear that satan tries to manipulate me to do bad things and this just made the obsessions worse where i felt like i will do them(basic ocd feeling like you want the thoughts) and when i found out about spiritual warfare, it made the whole thing worse, cause i believed in that more. I was afraid i will sell my soul to satan, i even felt like some part of me wants it, and what if it happens,I will let satan take my soul and nothing will help me take it back cause i will not feel like i want someone to save me. So i rather dealt it like its not real, however i still saw this topic many times. Now i learned about that but i still questioning if we really have to give so much importance to that,cause i see alot of christians talking about it like "you have to be ready,ask God for help cause noone can save you from this, its a war for your soul" and i dont want to say we have to act like its not real, cause it is, but i still see that many including me views this in a fearful way. When you identify every negative thought as satan tries manipulating you or he talks ro you, you give so much importance to the whole thing when maybe you just deal with thoughts...and i say this cause i suffer with that. It makes your ocd even worse(if you have obsessions about satan) if you say every negative thought is from satan and demons, you just put yourself in more fear. And many times i dont like to ask God for help when i feel anxious or scared, not beacuse i think i can do it without Him, its because i know that this will make ocd worse cause its reassurance seeking...and i feel like God knows why i do that, sometimes i have to remind myself that God is not stupid,He know my thoughts and my intentions, why i do things. This whole thing gives too much importance to our thoughts and ocd and we will just feel worse or live in this cycle forever. I hope God made me post this to help others who has the same problem and im not misleading anyone, cause i suffered and i still have problems with this. Also if you know more about spiritual warfare please share it cause i want to know how to view it so it doesnt make me spin.
I know this is terrible. And I shouldn’t be having thoughts like this but I read someone else who had these thoughts and my brain remembered a time I had an intrusive thought about my brother and it made me think what if I’m attracted to my brother. Now when I’m around him I get worried I’m going to have some sort of physical feeling or attraction to the point I basically freak myself out and have intrusive thoughts that I do or am while talking to him. And now I’m just avoiding even being home. Ik it’s awful and I never felt anything like this before and I know I don’t have any but I keep thinking about the feeling aspect. And whether those feelings/thoughts were true.
I’m struggling with every type of intrusive thought ocd you can think of at the point. And even if I can get over the it’s just a thought part all I can think about is the guilt and shame of even feeling the way I did in the first place. I mean I feel so sick that I felt that way I want to seek reassurance because I feel so unlovable because of it. I know that my thoughts are just thoughts. But sometimes the thoughts feel so real and like I have actual feelings attatched to the thoughts which makes it worse and feel like more then “just thoughts”. Idk if that makes sense.
I’m so stressed. And not stressed as in normal stress but im on a ledge and i’m so close to the end of it. These feelings in my soul are pushing me closer to that edge. I feel like i’m about to explode. Im sick of living like every god forsaken day. I see no point nor purpose to be here besides the fact that I would be a dead son, student, friend, and etc. Im only here because of other people and i’m so done. And i’ve had these god awful mood swings where one moment i’m happy sometimes even better than usual and I get stuff done and I smile. Then like the next day it’s back to where I was, cold dark empty and alone. I feel hopeless, I can’t control my emotions and it’s so overwhelming. I want to scream and cry and rip my hair out. Im only 15. Why couldn’t I be like other teens? Why couldn’t I just have a normal family life? Why couldn’t I have what everyone else has? Why do I fucking struggle while everyone else gets to exist as happy as ever. IM DONE. Im so sick of this constant cycle. And it doesn’t fucking help that my dad is gone. WHY ME? I have always been kind and loving to people even when they don’t fucking deserve it and this is what I get? I pray, I hope things change cause I don’t want to see tomorrow if this is what will happen.
Anyone tried Fluvoxamine for their OCD??
This is a little win for me, I had rated the exposure quite high in things that would trigger me and it didn’t trigger me half as much as I thought. How often and how many times would you suggest doing exposures? And do you do the same ones?
Can anyone relate to the fear of blood clots? That makes up 80% of my OCD. I’m primarily health OCD but I also have religious OCD. I’m a Christian (I think) and I’m terrified I’m not actually saved and am not going to be with my family when I die.
I'm back, unfortunately! I'm trying to remain positive as I have been doing so good, but I have a question.....I have been taking 2 (100mg) Zoloft for a while now and it has helped tremendously, well unfortunately I started running low on them and my appointment to have them refilled is tomorrow, so I had started breaking them in half to get me by. Well, I am on day 3 or 4 of just taking a half instead of 2 whole ones and I am just curious if it's possible for my symptoms to start appearing again so soon? Considering I went from 2 a day to a half, anything feedback is welcomed!
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