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In our latest post, we explore thoughtful and engaging responses for those moments when OCD is used flippantly or harmfully. Here are some ways to respond to those inevitabilities! Facing misconceptions with grace and humor can be a powerful way to educate others about OCD. BUT IT'S NOT ALL ON YOU! When you can, refer to other resources (that's why we have our page) and use these faux pas as a chance to remind yourself of the community you have. We aim for a day where people who have OCD are met with the empathy this disorder deserves!

Yesterday I tried to commit suicide because I started remembering things from my childhood that I did to another child and ask I kept thinking I remembered other instances of doing other things to them and I am really disgusted with myself and I don’t deserve to live. I’m scared to tell any even my therapist because of what she might think of me. I’ve also have intrusive thoughts about children, I know that I don’t find them attractive but my brain tells me that I do and I get all of these weird thoughts in my head all at once and I don’t know what to do, I don’t know if I actually did this to them or if I’m making it up because of my trauma and anxiety. I tried asking them if they remembered me doing anything uncomfortable when we were children and they said no and were getting annoyed and dismissive.

No matter what I do I can’t stop ruminating thoughts. I feel so frustrated. My mind is so loud and the thoughts are just on a loop. I feel paranoid and can’t stop obsessing. Anyone have any helpful suggestions? 😣

I feel like over a week ago I had about 4 really GOOD days in a row which I’ve never had before! I was able to concentrate a lot more I still had the thoughts but it was usually just the same one that popped up every now and again, no new ones and I really felt like this was the start of getting better. Well fast forward to now im on day 3 of really bad days!!! My awful intrusive thoughts are on loop again I can’t seem to concentrate, im constantly ruminating!!! I feel like I’m constantly creating new thoughts in my head that are awful!! I’ve started mindfulness again which I feel just have been what helped me have the good days because that’s the only thing I’ve stopped really. Anyone who else gone through this??????

It'll be several months before I see a psychiatrist but lately i've been having what feels like mood swings that involve a lot of intense crying and dark, racing thoughts/disconnection from myself, but I keep snapping out of it for moments and suddenly everything feels okay. I was having this problem a couple weeks ago and it stopped after about a week and now it's starting to happen again. I'm just curious as to how you bipolar + OCD folks tend to feel or react to both disorders or how they might impact each other. I promise I won't read into it that much lol. I've been suspicious about being bipolar for over a year now. I've just never had these swings this consistently. (And no, I don't think it has to do with my period just yet. Last time this happened it didn't have anything to do with that either.)

This seems to be quite a prominent theme for me. I have this one Italian friend and he very strongly oreferes white women in what he's attracted to. Then I had this Filipino friend who said he finds all races attractive, but white women more so on average. I had this other Filipino friend joke that his type was "basic white women", when I talked about how hot I thought Filipino girls were. However ive had other friends mention how they like girls of all races, and my Arab ex bf mentioned how he usually finds indian and Arab girls to be pretty. I'm just kind of uncomfortable with racial preferences and it makes me wonder whether people find me hot

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hey guys. me & my gf recently found out that she might have bipolar disorder. we can to this conclusion bc she does have on & off states of happy & sad , i know thats very difficult for her. but honestly i am fearful that with my ocd, can we even handle eachother? a while ago, my anxiety used to flare up during her episodes (they don’t anymore, now that ik that she doesn’t mean to be upset with me most of the time) All im saying is that this is a tricky situation.. what if my ocd is flaring while shes in the middle of an episode? how can we comfort eachother? what if she doesn’t know she to comfort me anymore? idk.. i have this gut feeling that im hopeful for the future, but i just cant shake this doubt. & now im scared to have kids omg

Can intrusive thoughts be so intense? It seriously feels like someone else is in my brain. My thoughts consist of “What if I just..” “It would be so easy…” and they are horrible so so so horrible. I hate these thoughts so much but why do they feel this way. I would never ever do any of these things but sometimes I can’t help but think what if I do? What if I give in. It’s so terrifying. Does anyone else experience intrusive thoughts that genuinely feel like it’s you for a second and then you feel immense regret?

i feel like i’ve been losing feelings for my girlfriend even though i love her very much deep down the only sign that this might be ocd is that i gain feelings in the morning, lose them during the day and gain them back in the evening what does this mean

ROCD is such a curse. I just want to be able to be held by him and feel love again without doubt. I want to be able to look at him and not be overcome with anxiety. I want to be able to be kind to him, to not constantly focus on his flaws and be distant and critical. I love him and it hurts that I feel this way. it's just been so hard today. Hopefully tomorrow is better.

I've lately been having anxiety flare ups, where I feel my temperature raise followed by extreme all or nothing thinking where I dwell on the thoughts of dying or getting sick. In these moments it feels like a haze is cast over me and everything feels like doom. I have no desire to harm myself and when I get this anxious I have thoughts themed around me no longer being here as well as my family or friends never expecting me to do that. It hurts me because I spend a lot of time stewing over the thoughts only for the anxiety to eventually come down and I have some clarity. But these thoughts can be very convincing that something is wrong because of my strong reaction to them.

Do you ever get hung up on the fact that at one point in time, you did not have detectable symptoms of ocd? I literally did not have contamination ocd until Covid. I used to lay on the ground with the dog, go out and come back home and lay on the couch in the same clothes, put my phone and keys on ground etc. Now I can’t even walk in my socks in house because it’s going to contaminate the couch when I put my feet up. Now I can’t sit on my couch unless I change my clothes, and now if I even have to touch my phone when my hand is “dirty,” I have to wash my hands, wipe my phone, and wash my hands again. This really sucks. I wish I can go back to a time where I wasn’t like this.

Anyone have any intake or advice on what to do with regards to trying to sleep but your OCD won’t stop having you think that emptying your bladder before bed even though you know it’s empty but your mind doesn’t think or feel right about it so you go repeatedly and develop a cycle?

I am thinking about going on Prozac, my mom is against it and I am not really sure how to tell her I need it. My OCD has been affecting my daily life, it ruined me and my ability to stay positive and enjoy life, I don’t have motivation in life anymore and I don’t see a point in living, I would not harm myself because obviously I don’t want my loved ones to be sad, but I want to be able to enjoy life again, I want to not burden my family and my boyfriend anymore. All I talk about is my OCD, what are the pros of Prozac? Is it addictive? My mom is against it because she wants me to face OCD instead of running away from it by taking medication and depending on them, which I get. But I would only want to take them while I am in Therapy, I dont want to deal with OCD on a 24/7 basis until I am done with ERP, I just had my second ever therapy session yesterday.

I’m a 13 year old girl and I think I have ocd. But im not sure. At around maybe 8 or 9, I remember giving signs, like touching things 5 times or 10 times, and other things similar to that. I’m now 13, and I feel like lately it’s gotten worse over the last year or so maybe. Here’s a list of my compulsions. I stay up until 8:00 AM or 9:00 AM counting to 5 because if I don’t God will send me to hell and I need to ask for Gods forgiveness. I love God In The Name Of Jesus Christ Amen At night before going to bed, I need to g and fix my bed at 7:50 AM and only :50 because if I went to bed at 56 it’s the devils number and I love God In The Name Of Jesus Christ Amen When scrolling, I need to scroll 5 or 10 times Before going to bed, I need to shake my sheets 5 times, shake my pillows 5 times and shake my blanket 5 times. And there’s way more regarding around do this or you’ll go to hell, it’s really exhausting. My parents noticed the way I act but they just get mad at me for it, I just really want to get help.

I came back from my psychologist and she told me that I suffer from massive anxiety, with that a bit of depression and the ocd plays on it. So now I have to cope with that and find the powers. If someone has something empowering to say, I’d love to hear 🙏🏻❤️

I’m tired. I’m absolutely tired. i cry and cry. i don’t know who to turn to. my ocd/pocd is physically weakening me. Also I’m someone who likes to interpret dreams. so I dreamt of me swimming and when I searched the meaning, some said I’d go to jail. & this sent me spiraling. please help. i really really wanna do therapy but mom says I’m not at that stage where I need therapy yet.

so i haven’t been dealing with false memories or real event odc for a whole now but i literally just woke up from a terrible triggering nightmare at first i was ok and relieved when i woke up but now doubt is setting in and the part is in the dream i think the person is made up. but i have doubts i think i got this dream because i was thinking about kissing my partner right before i fell asleep and yesterday i was looking for a video of my little cousin and i had an intrusive “what if” but i was able to brush it off. so it may be that all i know is that i keep getting flashbacks and i hate it it’s disgusting and i hope its not true. and i don’t think i could accept it if that is the truth its just so wrong

What’s the first intrusive thought you had that took you into an ocd spiral which eventually led to your proper diagnosis? This is a judgment free zone!