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Has anyone tried N-Acetyl Cysteine for their OCD? My psychiatrist told me to buy it from the store and try it. Wondering if anyone’s had any experience and what’s it like?

Just watched a video that said that you're unhappy and with the wrong person if you find someone else attractive while in a committed relationship. OBVIOUSLY, I have ZERO desire to cheat... yet the comments and this video triggered me to think WILL.....

I love God & Jesus so much and having these awful blasphemous thoughts suck! I’ve been through this before and eventually got over it but it came back! I get cussing thoughts, rejection thoughts and just the opposite thoughts of who I am and what I value! I love them so much and I get scared what if I’ve said these intrusive thoughts out loud! I don’t think I have but the thoughts can be just so loud! Any advice to move forward past these thoughts? I’m trying to remind myself God & Jesus loves me no matter what but it can be hard when I’m being plagued by these blasphemous thoughts that make you doubt yourself too! Makes you doubt if you’re a Christian for these awful thoughts! Please any advice? Will God & Jesus be with me no matter what? I love them so much!

Anyone else struggling with false memory ocd and believing you have ‘evidence’? I don’t mean feelings I more mean finding real details, coincidences or clues/ making links to things. It’s all becoming very real, and it’s so hard to explain.

So, I have coworkers that will not stop making jokes about “being OCD and wanting things organized” which is very typical, and annoying. A part of me wants to explain to them what OCD really is and that it’s kind of frustrating to hear them talk about it without knowing what it’s really like. But I’m also embarrassed and feel awkward about saying anything. Ugh

I'm in an amazing, beautiful relationship with the literal LOML. I absolutely love and adore my boyfriend. But relationship OCD has been plaguing me for 6 weeks straight. We were going through a super rocky time mid-March, and about 2 weeks after that is when the ROCD started. First, it started with thinking I cheated on him with my coworker (which I had no proof or evidence) and I slowly got over that 2 weeks later because I knew I had no proof. But then like always the theme restarts and I started obsessing about the fact I had intrusive thoughts about this coworker. Thoughts that maybe I liked him, thoughts about fantasies, thoughts about wanting to be with him. I don't think I had a problem with it because I think I just thought it was OCD, or knew it was OCD. I'm sure all this ROCD and overthinking started because of me and my boyfriend's rocky time, and in that time, I was extremely worried about him cheating on me. I don't know how to heal. I have fully convinced myself I purposefully thought all these things about that coworker. I've talked to my boyfriend about my struggles, and he's told me many times he knows it's OCD and even then, we are happy as ever and I've clearly chosen by boyfriend and I never did anything or even flirted with this coworker. I have never flirted or done anything inappropriate with this coworker. My boyfriend and I both know that. But I can't help but feel so guilty for the thoughts I had. I feel like they were real. They feel so real. I told my boyfriend I'm terrified I had a crush on this coworker, and he comforts me because he knows I only love him. I did not tell him about the sexual fantasies (I think I mentally pushed them away. I don't remember if I did because it was over 1-2 months ago.) because that would obviously just cause him pain even if it was OCD. What sucks is I have to work with this coworker still. He causes me so much anxiety, I prefer when he's not at work and I avoid talking to him at all. Before all this anxiety and ROCD, we would talk and joke all day at work (with our other coworkers too) and it was just a running joke for everyone (not just me) to pick on him. But now I convinced myself I was just flirting. We would only ever chat/text about work, like our clients and just never anything work inappropriate. I'm so scared. I'm so guilty. I feel like I emotionally cheated. Please someone guide me.

has anyone experienced going through a breakup and experiencing ocd thoughts, i’m having them about reasons why i ended it, lots more. just want to see if anyone relates

My images are weird, they feel “close” and it’s strange that they are blurry with a background yet I’m still sort of aware of my actual surroundings whilst my intrusive image can be taking place anywhere. What about you?

If you’re like me, you use alcohol to cope and it kinda pushes the OCD thoughts way down - temporarily. My question is, does quitting help in the long term?

My brain keeps saying what if it’s not OCD and you are in denial and you are just using OCD to cover it all up…

i feel like having this ocd is making me transgender. i constantly imagine myself as transgender like starting to use t, coming out to my family and my boyfriend. i would really prefer to not be a boy but i don’t even know what i want anymore. and now my voice is triggering me because i sound feminine. what’s going on 😭 im freaking out

Can’t do this anymore. Been suffering from this for two years straight and it just keeps getting worse 😔

Ever since I caught my... now-ex, I guess... having cheated, and I worked the nerve to talk to him and break it off in a surprisingly strong and boundary-concious way for myself, I have been looking at housing areas around me. I can't move out soon even if I wanted to since I want to apply for disability and that can take a year or so, I have no job and no saved up money because we used it all when he had no job/refused to get one and was hoping it would be quick and easy for him to find one (took him 4 months). I have no car so I was/am checking mover services over and over. I keep looking at the bus routes in the city to make sure the apartments that are available NOW are around them, which I know makes no sense because there is job guarantee they will be available later. Which... leads me to checking again the next day. Or later that day. All stemming from discomfort that he is just still lying even "just as roommates" and it is a trigger for my ROCD even without being in a relationship anymore. I am so frustrated. This would be my first time moving out on my own. The uncertainty and fear and distrust here is eating at me but I have no friends or family to go to so, I'm just... stuck.

This is probably the worst part of my ocd. When I have a flashing image I have to start adding details, thinking of scenery and making a little story up. Now I find that my stories actually have some truth, there’s details that are in favour of my false memory ‘evidence’ almost. I find myself doubting all day everyday due to these details.

Please only read this if you are 18+ (contains mention of s**cide) I have had severe body dysmorphia since beginning college. I’ve been skinny my whole life and have an entirely flat chest. I was doing really good for a while, but I made the mistake of looking at social media today… There is an influencer who is built exactly like me and I always go to her page to find positivity…I looked at some of her recent posts and the things men and women were saying about her were horrific. Among some of the many hate comments were things like “nightmare body”, “genetically inferior to other women”, and just brutal things each of which would take a person years to recover from hearing. There were countless gifs of dancing skeletons, and a lot of surprisingly attractive people brutally bashing her. I haven’t felt suicidal in years and all at once I see very little point in going on. The world has finally defeated me and I just can’t see what the point is in seeking happiness if I could only ever possibly be lying to myself when i feel good about myself.

Ughhh I don’t understand why. I guess maybe it’s because I haven’t been sleeping well but my stomach has been killing me. I’m currently here at the ER waiting to be seen to make sure I’m not getting some kind of stomach bug because my OCD thoughts went CRAZY a few hours ago

I've been writing borderline obsessively the last week or two. My story has come along way and has a few ocd themes within the story with some characters. The main characters have moral scrupolosity and harm ocd and I'm very happy with how the story is fleshing out. If I were to turn this into a trilogy, I've imagined this as a movie as well. I want people even without ocd to relate to the struggles and cry their eyes out on one scene in particular, and I'd be surprised if they don't. If you could write a scene to describe your internal struggle, what would it look like, how would it play out? I'm not looking to steal ideas as I'm strictly against it (why I haven't read any of the many books I've bought recently until my story is finished). I'm just looking for inspiration, the feeling that I want my scenes to invoke in the readers or viewers.

When you wake up and start actively thinking and worrying about it all, you're bringing it all into your head. Like they aren't intrusive anymore. You just think about them and worry, with me just thinking "oh my god, I'm g..." like I've convinced myself. But I don't want to have convinced myself. Worrying all this thinking is gonna be in my head all day. I feel anxious. Does anyone recognise this?

Do compulsions change? The onset of symptoms started a month ago and since then I’ve been diagnosed 3 times with ocd. 3 times because my anxiety got so bad that I was a psychopath that I had to make appointment after appointment with therapists/psychologist. Not even a psychologist telling me I wasn’t a psychopath was enough. Ig making the doctors appointments was a compulsion. Since I obtained these three separate diagnoses for ocd it seems to have calmed me. This is weird and now I’m doubting I have ocd. My day is still bombarded with thoughts and I believe I still have a compulsion but it’s not like I used to do. I used to Google 6+ hours daily when I was in my worst phase of it. I’m productive now but am avoidant of anything that has to do with serial killers, violent crimes on the news, and even some words that trigger me because they’re related to my themes. My most obvious compulsion or at least I think it it’s a compulsion is shaking my head and saying no either out loud or in my head. I do this subconsciously now when I do almost anything. I’m just used to it and I do it especially when the thoughts hit or if I’m triggered by anything I mentioned above. I doubt I have ocd because I’m not consumed and impaired like I was a few weeks ago because of it. Sometimes I wish I could just go back to that because it would ensure that it was just ocd even though it was hell and at one point had me thinking about suicide.

So I just did the DOCS assessment my therapist assigned me after my first appointment and I got a low score on on it (14) which means I don't have OCD. Did this happen to anyone else? I finally thought I knew what was wrong with me and that ERP therapy would work, but now I'm worried that my therapist won't be able to work with me or that my thoughts actually mean I'm a terrible person because I don't have it.