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People are always talking about their contamination ocd and all that stuff and i know its selfish but like I wish that was all I had. I have never had a worse subtype than what I have now and its hell.

I love Terrifier and I love horror movies but I have these intrusive thoughts or fear ever since Terrifier 3 came out and I feel extremely bad about cause it’s not about me. Every time I hear someone talk negatively about the director and creator my brain goes “what if you support that?” Or “What if they’re actually sick in the head for making that movie?” Or “what if you’re a bad person for liking movies with so much blood and gore” or something like “the director is a bad person for making a movie like that you should not be watching that” or “you shouldn’t like that character” and etc. I feel so bad😭 and my ocd brain is asking “is he a bad person” “should I not enjoy this?” Etc. like I can’t enjoy shit with negitave Nancy’s and Joe’s on the internet and shit😞😭

I feel like my therapist knows my issues well enough by now, why haven’t we started erp or why hasn’t she given me any strategies to help when I’m triggered? I’ve had 4 sessions. She just says we have to stick to the method that she works by, but if I don’t know when we will start the work that actually helps me, how can I feel confident in sticking with the therapy? I am so unsure. I keep asking her but she never gives me an answer. It’s not too much to ask to know when the help will actually start is it?! If the next couple of sessions go by and we still haven’t talked about strategies or erp, I will get so anxious because I can only afford 12 sessions 😔 I don’t know what to do. People are saying to be patient and go with it, but I can’t trust it. I would have expected to start some sort of erp plan. If in the next couple of sessions we haven’t started it, what should I do? (I get really triggered by phrases like red flags or that doesn’t sound good in the comments, just objective advice would be so appreciated 🙏🏻)

I think I've developed hives from my frequent disinfecting..

I have come so far in my therapy and days like today feel like I’m just still buried in OCD. Sometimes it is so insidious and I don’t realize I’m in a loop. Once I do realize it, it’s hard to get out. I thought sharing here may help, as I never have, but I know you guys will understand. It’s so hard to decipher between regular anxiety and obsessions and compulsions. It has all just become one big ball of panic. Anyway, I’m just struggling today - so thanks for listening.

I’m struggling so much lately with feeling so different in comparison to others with ocd. I feel indenial , like I don’t really have ocd and like others probably think I’m guilty. I hate feeling this way constantly. I feel like such an outcast like I don’t belong in this community because I’m a big ‘fraud’. I suppose it’s the ocd doing this to me.

I was in this game with this person and I noticed his voice was deep, and his avatar looked attractive to me?? and my brain was like “his voice is so??? And his avatar kinda fine too” like omg, shut up, I’m not taken yet but I still want to be in this relationship with this other guy, I feel like there’s nothing I can do and I’ll always be a cheater, I don’t even know how I feel, like do I actually want to cheat??? And it freaks me out because I don’t even know how I feel? Because sometimes I’ll get a feeling that agrees with it, like I’ll have that feeling that wants me to date them and then I’ll hear something like “yeah I would” / “yeah I agree with that” ,, now I feel like I’ll be a cheater and I’m really scared, I would NEVER cheat, nor would I trade this boy for anything, but I can’t do it. I just need to know what to do.

Can anyone talk I really need some questions answered please

Hey guys, I hope you’re well! My names Matt, and OCD has struck me again 😂 When I was 10 years old I had to attend therapy as I was having excessive intrusive thoughts. P.s. I didn’t even know this was possible at the age of 10! I then completely forgot about it, until 2.5 years ago when I started experiencing ROCD. I really couldn’t understand why I was feeling/thinking this way however, I soon after remembered my struggles as a child and then realised my OCD had returned. Also, my mum has serious OCD so I guess that could be why too. I had a a really hard battle with my emotions and mood due to this however, the last 1.5 years had been really good and I managed it well. I got married and had the best day of my life. 3 months ago, a thought about having an affair in my head appeared, and BOOM, it’s back again. I’m struggling a lot right now however, I’ve accepted that this could be a re occurring theme throughout my life, and it’s time to learn to deal with it again. I’m back on medication and have started ERP therapy, so hopefully it’s on the up from here. I’m not here to list off my triggers and thoughts as this would be me seeking reassurance however, I’m here to show that recovery is certainly possible!

recently i have had a huge problem with picking my skin so it's smooth. i was up all night last night picking my skin and everytime i tried to stop i felt extremely uncomfortable and nauseous. i cut my nails to like nothing and bandaged my problem spots but im still picking at my skin. i simply don't have enough bandages to cover my whole body lmao. i would love some advice on how y'all deal with that.

After months of not obsessing about my ex, last night I had a very heavy dream that lasted for hours about him. In my dream he was lovely, I was obsessed with him and most of all… I was happy. So fkin happy. I woke up feeling like I loved him. My heart was full. When I realised it wasn’t true, it felt like my heart was shattered all over again. It’s been 3 years since he left me. It shouldn’t hurt anymore. It sounds so silly, but it feels like a huge setback.

At the core of OCD is the feeling of losing control—over your thoughts, feelings, and sometimes even your reactions. This can be overwhelming, especially for someone who feels entitled to control their surroundings and body. However, the truth is that we have limited control. This misconception often leads to a struggle when OCD takes over, challenging that deep-seated belief in control. Consider this: when you get on a bus, you trust the driver to navigate the roads. You trust a pilot to fly and land the plane safely. Yet, in life, it can be hard to accept that something greater is guiding us. Yes, there might be bumps along the way, but trust in The Owner of All to lead you where you need to be. We often think we control our thoughts, emotions, and actions, but it’s really our brain at work. It shapes our perception of reality and our reactions to it. So, let’s humble ourselves and recognize that we’re not truly in control. We’re passengers on the train of life. Embrace the journey with its ups and downs—it’s all part of the adventure. Let's not blame ourselves for the ruff road and bumps along the way. Be kind to yourself; you’re doing your best.

earlier i got a thought but it didn’t cause me anxiety and i brushed it off now i’m worried it was my true actual intention and i can’t remember if it was i don’t know why it’s not making me anxious, maybe cos i know how bizarre it is and that i wasnt actually doing that? but my memory is so blurred and i dont know anymore

I got a cold and its been more than a week now and i still have symptoms, and im worrying alot. I have problems still with fear, i cant sit with it. Im working on sitting with sadness and it helps alot but with fear and sometimes with anger its hard cause it feeds itself. If im sitting with the fear of having a health problem, it just gets worse, then i start to think about what should i do, and it gets worse cause i worry more and more. I was checked by a doctor and got meds but im still worrying that i should go back, and now im worrying about having other problems, i should go check out everything, but im afraid they will find something...Im trying to expose myself slowly, i will go get my heart checked cause i want to start training, then if im not recovered then i will get a check up on my sinuses, im willing to do these, but then im also worried what if i have cancer or any other illness, and i have to do alot of check ups that i dont wan to but if i dont do it then im ignoring my health and im keep worrying and it doesnt stop. Today i heard black mold is dangerous to you and i know we have some kind of mold in the bathroom and im worrying alot about that too.. And thats my problem with fear it doesnt stops until i force myself to push it away. If i just sit with it it feeds itself and im keep being stuck and now i start to not enjoy things and im afraid i will get depressed... Is there a way to go through fear without getting certainty about things? Like my health? Alot of people share this mindset that you have to go to check if everything is okay but i dont find that good..

Does anyone else ever feel like they urinated on themselves, even though they know they didn't. But, I also have weird sensations on certain parts of my legs as if maybe I did, yet I know I didn't. How come I am having these feelings and have an urge to check and wash my legs? I know it's my OCD, but I just feel. Like I can't ignore it. Please share any tips or experiences that y'all can share?

I started work again this year after not working for a few years. I was fine for the first couple of months, then I started to notice anxiety creeping back in and stress, couple of weeks ago my ocd flared up and I couldn’t sleep. I’m thinking maybe the job I have is too stressful for me. It’s not that the job is a trigger for me and to continue would be a good form of exposure, it’s that it’s a high stress job, and maybe not good for my health overall. Anyone else with experience in this?

lately i’ve been feeling depressed. nothing has been making me happy. i have a girlfriend of 3.5 months and she’s always made me happier than anything. i’m always texting and calling with her. i draw her pictures and buy/make her things in games. i’ve never felt so loved/in love, but around 3 days ago i stopped feeling any positive emotions. i normally feel an overwhelming love for my friends, family, and especially my girlfriend, but i just haven’t been able to. i keep going back to my girlfriend with these thoughts. what if i don’t actually love her or what if im ahead of myself? what if i dont even know her? but i know i do. the other night i somehow cheered up and immediately felt that overwhelming love for her again. i started feeling depressed again though, and the love/happiness feeling went away again. for everything and everyone. but i’m scared with my girlfriend. is this rocd? my thoughts keep going back to her even though she hasn’t done anything. i don’t want to break up but my mind keeps going to that. why? i love, want, and need her. she is everything to me, even though i can’t feel love at the moment? this has never happened to me. it’s making me sick with anxiety. i couldn’t eat yesterday, and i had to force myself to eat today. although i can’t feel love, i know i love things… if that makes sense? i know i love my mom and my cats and my friends, even though i cant feel it at the moment. so why is it so scary with my girlfriend): please help

Its making me feel like I cant remember things properly... making me question every woman Ive ever been explicit and explicitly cybered with... making me doubt my memories on their 18+ verifications... intrusive thoughts of me "explicitly cybering with a minor" and of me going to jail because my worst fear of "unknowingly cybering with a minor(s)" coming true... im genuinely depressed... and I feel so alone... uncertainty has brought me nothing but hell... and theres no getting out... it feels like im waiting every day for my intrusive thoughts and fears to be proven right, and ending up with me going to jail... I have never felt more alone... I just keep getting intrusive thoughts that one day, when I become famous or get my dream job, im going to get a future moment of any girl I explicitly cybered with in the past, saying "Hey, I was a minor when we cybered and while you didnt know, im going to get you arrested or cancelled." I genuinely despise my life. God has allowed me to suffer and suffer with no end. There is no happiness. There is no hope. I genuinely wish I didnt exist. Maybe my mom and my dad and my sister and my dog and my cat wohld be better off. Maybe everyone ive ever wronged would be better off. Screw this world.

Hi to all, I’ve been struggling with a decision recently. So, let me give a little background. I was diagnosed with OCD in kindergarten and met with the school psychologist once a week until second grade. My symptoms and harshness varied on a month-to-month basis. Some days in fifth grade it would be so bad I would be trying to push in my chair “the right way” for 20 minutes. My parents and I haven’t really spoke about it since middle school. My mother thinks that I don’t have it anymore because I don’t speak to her about the symptoms I experience, which is a lot. I’ve done plenty of research and a lot of my actions and thoughts align with OCD, so much so that I made a long list. I’ve considered looking for a therapist or something to get diagnosed but I’m scared to talk to my parents. I’m a very closed off person. Anyone have any advice/words of wisdom?

Hey guys! So, for those who have contamination OCD and that struggle with “taking showers normally”, do you have any tips for showering with OCD? It is hindering me from getting into the gym as frequently as I’d like because showering with OCD is just so exhausting (more exhausting than going to the gym, funnily enough) so any tips on how you overcame/are overcoming something like this? Thanks so much in advance!