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“You’re too young to let the world break you.” - Kim Taehyung of BTS I know that it was not the usual people who read these but I still want to apologize to whoever it was. Earlier I made a post trying to be respectful and trying to commemorate the lives lost 25 years ago today. I was trying to get across the point that I am eternally grateful for the people serving my country and am mourning the thousands of lives lost 25 years ago. I was saying how grateful I am for my religious freedom and I do admit i may have sounded like I was being snobby about my religion but I was not trying to be rude or make anyone mad. I did clearly anger someone though. After I came home from school the first thing I saw once I came and sat down was “You should be ashamed of yourself” I deleted the post after reading insult after insult to me and the words that I meant to be kind. The person that I will leave anonymous was saying that I was using the pain of others to my own advantage. I had not read over the text before I posted it so maybe it did come off that way but I was just trying to be kind. To whomever this was, if you see this, I am sorry, I did not realize the message that my words were conveying. I am sorry that I wasn’t more aware of what I was putting out and how it might make others feel. If you do read this, please forgive me. And if you are not this person and you are the person who stood up for me, thank you. And if you are neither of those people, hello, sorry for the dump. And please give me your thoughts on my daily quotes. Love you guys 😭💜😣

I’m struggling this week to stop picking my fingers. They are getting really red and inflamed. I’ve put band aids on them to hopefully stop me need to pick but I just tear the band aids off so I can continue picking… 🙄 I have a lot of general anxiety and personal trauma that I’m moving through right now. But I’m not sure why this compulsion is so strong. I can’t identify and specific fear behind the picking. It’s just a habitual never ending action… any tips on body focused behaviors?

Sorry, this is long, but I really need to talk to someone. I am feeling pretty low. I have had OCD since I was a little kid. I have a few themes but the one that has caused me the most significant problems the last few years is Just Right OCD. It was more “manageable” before I took a new role for work at my company (I work remotely). I’ve been at my company for 7+ years total, in my current role for 2.5 years. It is a hard job with lots of critical thinking & decision making. It became obvious within about 6 months that I had began amping up my compulsions & I was working 14 hour days (secretly) just to accomplish my necessary tasks, or at least to feel like I had done enough. I even got written up a year & a half ago because my boss saw I had been working late & not putting it on my time card. I had never gotten written up at a job ever. I had always been considered an exemplary employee. That is my first and only black mark on my record. I am respected & well liked by my peers & management. I was struggling in every aspect of my life and last September it became unsustainable as our workloads increased. I began applying for some other jobs within my company (I LOVE my company), but wasn’t getting any interviews. I shadowed a couple departments I’d like to work in, in multiple roles. I met several managers & employees that I clicked with who said they would put me at the top of their list if anything opened in their departments. I waited for months & no jobs opened. I kind of broke in June & took medical leave from work. My doc increased my meds, I started ERP in mid July and went back to work early August. I have been practicing my ERP & making progress in my therapy. It’s been hard, but I know I need to do this to help myself. Last week positions opened in BOTH departments. 3 openings in one of them! I found out they before they were even posted because a couple of their employees I had shadowed with reached out TO ME to encourage me to apply. I can’t tell you what a relief it was. I applied for both departments immediately after they were posted. I asked for the low end of their offered wages, like $7/hr less than what I make now (my current position pays more because it’s a lot of decision making etc.). I also reached out to the managers that I had previously shadowed with to let them know I was applying. They all said they were happy to hear I was applying & said they would look for my application. They sounded like they actually wanted me, it didn’t sound like lip service at all. I hadn’t heard anything from either, so I went to the jobs portal, because you can see statuses of applications. The one I wanted most, the one that had 3 positions, the one I had 4 people recommending me for, said “No longer under consideration”. Not even an interview. I don’t understand how I could have that many people say they wanted me & then not even get an interview. I was absolutely gutted last night. I feel so hopeless. My husband said maybe it’s just a mistake on the job portal, which I don’t think it is. But I can say in the past they have always contacted me by email or phone to let me know right away. I haven’t been contacted by anyone yet. Even though I personally feel like I’m a failure at my current role, I regularly get accolades from management & customers. I’ve been recognized at our all associate meetings. I even got a promotion & raise (that I didn’t ask for) in May. I don’t understand why no one will give me a chance. I can’t keep doing my current job because not only is it triggering my anxiety & OCD, but it is just not a fit for my natural emotional capabilities. It’s too much for me in every way. It has taken such a toll on me. The other position still says “Under consideration”. But I only have 1 person recommending me for that role. Also I had applied for that role back in November of last year & didn’t get an interview then. I really thought with the one I wanted I would be a shoe in based on the number of recommendations, shadowing, 2 managers telling me they were going to put me at the top of their lists & the fact that they had 3 jobs to fill- Today I logged into my current job & we had a record number of tasks. We usually have about 8-10 new per day but today we each were assigned more than 20! Since it’s impossible to accomplish that many in a day they will just stack up & I’ll fall behind and my stats will show I’m not getting them done in time and customers will start calling me & yelling at me. I don’t know what to do because it’s just too much & I’m more than overwhelmed. I have cried at least once a day for a year & the panic attacks are pretty frequent. I don’t know how to keep pushing.

My first period class this morning decided to talk about suicidal thoughts/ the act of suicide, trying to figure out whether or not it is a sin or if they will go to hell. Manu people in my class were very passionate about the idea of if a person struggles with suicidal ideation then they need to repent or else they’ll go to hell. It was so traumatic hearing that. I’ve had people tell me in the past that I’m cursed for having anxiety and ocd and that conversation just sounded so similar to that. To say it’s wrong for a person to struggle with that is so evil and it was so traumatic hearing that people truly believe that. I was so triggered by this topic because, with my ocd, I’ve dealt with suicidal thoughts and it’s gone to the point of me playing out how people would react to me killing myself and if that would trigger other suicides and then it would be my fault. I also have some friends who almost went through with suicide. Hearing that these struggles are sinful is so mind boggling to me. Yeah, obviously it isn’t a good thing, but to call it a sin and that someone needs to repent for genuinely struggling with something that deep and personal is so inane. I am so angry and triggered and traumatized and hurt that I had to heat a whole class debating about this. I left the room and had 2 or 3 panic attacks today because of it

Hello, this is my first post here. I have been very disappointed about therapy and would like to ask for your opinions. I started going for the first time this month and I've had four 45 minute sessions, however I feel like there's not any progress at all. Before I started going, I had the most distressful OCD episode of my life, only four days before starting therapy I was able to manage it by some advice that I heard: 1. Stop debating the thoughts and 2. Don't believe your brain. My therapist in every session makes me talk about potential causes and my childhood etc. and I feel like we're not getting anywhere from there. Maybe it's too soon to judge but every time I leave I feel worse because she poses a question and I feel like I'm hanging by a thread from it and it makes me overthink even more. I haven't gotten any helpful advice from it how to deal with it etc. The only thing that's holding me is the past advice that I heard outside of therapy and the talks I've had with my sister who has suffered with OCD. What do you guys think? Is it supposed to be like that?

im new to this app so hi, but i'm wondering if anyone relates to this post? to be clear im not diagnosed with anything!! but for the past year i've been wondering if i have ocd or not, one of the biggest red flags is my emetophobia it first developed when i was in second grade, i worked myself up the night before about a little math quiz- i was convinced that i would fail and it would ruin my life all night i was struggling to sleep, when i did fall asleep i would wake up stressed the fuck out. i woke up a total of 3 times the next day my stomach was hurting and 2 thoughts circled my mind- i'm scared i will fail and im scared i will throw up. i kept going to the bathroom and hoping that i jsut had to poop, but nope. i took the quiz and felt a little relieved but now i was completely focused on my stomach aches and that there was no redemption for the quiz. i got home and immediately threw up around 3 pm- and i couldn't stop throwing up since that day i made up regulations in my mind like: -don't wake up more than 3 times at night or you will throw up -everyone throws up around the time they were born (i was born around 3pm) so i couldn't eat till a little after 3 -wait exactly 30 minutes after every meal before physical activity, an hour or 2 to be extra safe -burping more than 16 times means you will throw up etc etc, i can't remember the rest but there were other things like i couldn't go or talk to certain people if i associated them with throw up. even my friends, when they threw up i would stay away from them for a solid week bc otherwise i would get sick i haven't thrown up since then, i actually rarely get sick some regulations went and new ones came i started uni 2 yrs ago and i've been slowly letting them go, but i kept up my rules for a solid decade- NEARLY MY WHOLE CHILDHOOD i always thought it was just a weird phobia, but when i talked to people with emetophobia they didn't have such strict restrictions as i did i slowly learned about ocd and i sort of related the phobia to it and as time passed other things- like my avoidance tendencies, degrading thoughts, and obsession with little events around me have consumed my time and behaviors. so now im curious what others feel, think, act, etc. am i more similar to people with ocd or to people without ocd? what is it like not have the thoughts i have? and obviously i have doubts- like im just being overdramatic and the people around me think im just a little funny but 2 people have mentioned ocd when i explained my emetophobia- one is a therapist and the other is a student in psychology. again doubtful... but curious as to what the people on here think and if anyone relates?

I had an intake session with a licensed therapist a few weeks ago and she confirmed to me that what I’m experiencing is indeed OCD. Took tests and questionnaires that helped with that diagnosis. Mine is mostly ROCD, False Memory OCD, and intrusive thoughts and visuals that I can’t shake away and must seek reassurance for. I do have some contamination OCD and physical compulsions, but they’re not as severe. I said I was interested in medication along with therapy so they referred me to a psychiatry office. I was set up for an appointment with a psychiatric nurse practitioner. She talked more than I did and didn’t really lead the conversation, so I was just mentioning whatever I could muster and come up with in this vulnerable and stressful scenario. She kept interrupting me and sharing her own experiences. I couldn’t share everything I wanted to share. At the end of the appointment, she said: “you know, you can’t have OCD if you don’t perform counting compulsions or are overly neat/clean, you don’t have many physical symptoms, so I’m just going to put Generalized Anxiety Disorder as your diagnosis.” I felt very dismissed and upset by that. Like I’m sorry I don’t have a visible obvious type of OCD. I did get prescribed medication at least, so I guess that’s a win?

Sometimes I feel like I’m the only OCD sufferer with this subtype. It started about two years ago and has never truly gone away, although it has gotten better. While I’m mainly an artist, I also really LOVE philosophy, philosophizing, and a bit of theology too, as somebody who believes in God. But what’s cruel about this is that philosophical fears are also what drive my existential OCD, and it’s really hard to balance my interest in philosophy with my philosophical compulsions. I know some people will tell me to stop reading or looking into philosophy, but I don’t know what to do about that. On one hand, I genuinely enjoy reading this stuff since it intrigues me and intellectually stimulates me, but on the other hand I find myself compulsively researching it and reminding myself of philosophical ideas in order to ease my anxiety. There’s also the fact that philosophy doesn’t have any easy answers that really frustrates me sometimes. Additionally, while ERP does help ease my anxiety over this, it can also bring some mild depression too, and it just exhausts me sometimes. Just wanted to know if anybody else struggles with this subtype and how they manage it. Just tired of feeling like I’m the only one.

I just saw a TikTok that basically said “having OCD when the news is talking about AI destroying humanity, food recalls, surveillance, gun violence, etc.” and it hit on something I’ve been thinking about a lot. I feel like one of the hardest parts of OCD for me is that the world genuinely does have risks. Food does get recalled. Bad things do happen. Technology does raise privacy concerns. There are things in life that we can’t guarantee will be okay. And my OCD LOVES that tiny opening. Because then it becomes, “See? This isn’t irrational. You SHOULD be worried.” And suddenly I’m trying to figure out where normal awareness ends and OCD begins. I’m realizing more and more that recovery can’t be about proving that every fear I have is unrealistic, because sometimes the thing I’m afraid of genuinely could happen. It’s learning that I still don’t get to have 100% certainty about it. I can be aware that risks exist without spending my life trying to eliminate every single one of them. Which is much easier to type than it is to actually practice lol. Curious if anyone else struggles more with OCD when there’s a little bit of real-world truth for it to latch onto?

Looking for some tips to get better sleep.

this is really embarrassing for me to admit, but i believe i have a thing called “anxiety incontinence” and for a couple of years it’s been taking over my life. at one point, i was so afraid to go outside because i was worried about embarrassing myself in public. i constantly go to the bathroom despite not having to, and I would have these “feelings” knowing it’s my mind/body playing tricks with me. it’s a bit better, but i still really need help with the issue. i recently got my first job and i need help with dealing with this problem. right now i take propranolol, though in the past i used to take sertraline, and my doctor noted that i can take both if needed. i’m not sure if my issue is a part of a subgenre of ocd, or anxiety, or a mixture of both.

I’d love some erp ideas! I suffer with magical thinking ocd, mental contamination, harm ocd, pocd, health ocd. All of it!! Mental contamination is the worst one so far. They all like to take turns at being the star of the show but mental contamination is the worst one by far. I can’t buy shit because the fucker is contaminated somehow. I also deal with memory ocd which I try to remember something I did that I might not have done in the first place and trying to organize everything I’ve done,or the amount of times I was embarrassed, was wrong or ashamed of. Maybe I deal with some guilt ocd even if it’s not bad, just silly as hell. I try to remember shit that didn’t happen or try to organize shit in my head. It’s just never helpful. I end up ruminating and doing compulsions. I start getting confused about everything because my brain is so wrapped up in trying to help myself ease the anxiety and so it has no room for other important tasks. I dissociate a lot. I do have trauma so that is definitely one of the underlying reasons for certain. I get ocd while typing too. I get a bad image or thought and for it to not be or become true, or if I don’t want it to happen I gotta delete what I wrote and start fresh or I’m doomed. It happens no matter what I’m doing. When I’m doing a coping skill like reading, drawing, coloring, sitting with my journal, etc. it always goes after things I enjoy and gives me thoughts I don’t want to think of. It causes intense suffering. OCD literally holds a stick and just pokes me for fun. I start dealing with health ocd bc when my ocd gets bad, I get mentally ill and forget, repeat things that don’t need to be repeated bc it’s just feeding the ocd, I think there is something terribly wrong with me. I think I’m mentally sick and physically sick and just don’t know it yet. NOOCD doesn’t take my insurance. It’s bullshit. I’m not picky with a counselor to talk about life and sadness or whatever but when it comes to my OCD, they need to care, understand to the root, have it, or studied it all for years. If I had one wish that would come true, it would be to cure my ocd. I’d take that wish over winning a billion dollars. That says I’m suffering. It’s not a joke. People laugh or find us dumb but they don’t know how it feels to fist fight with your head. It’s not fun. I have a counselor outside of this. But, ocd isn’t one of her studies. Trauma is which can help ocd because ocd I learned so our body’s way of trying to find some control, while just losing it because we’re not trying to find control in the way we’re supposed to so we unintentionally/subconsciously find different ways without even realizing it. I think it’s a survival technique that isn’t helpful to us obviously. Although ocd can be stemmed from trauma, it’s also a separate mental illness so I need to find the right tools for me. I’d appreciate it if anyone can maybe comment some erp skills that have been effective although difficult at first to get down, I’d be forever grateful. Anything helps.

I wanted to make this because I know how awful intrusive thoughts can feel. When you’re in the middle of an OCD spiral, it can genuinely feel like you HAVE to figure the thought out. You might start analyzing it, checking your feelings, asking yourself the same questions over and over, or trying to convince yourself that the thought doesn’t mean anything. I know how scary and exhausting that can be. I’m obviously not a professional, and everyone’s OCD is different, but these are some things that have genuinely helped me: 1. Stop trying to solve every thought. This one is probably the hardest. OCD wants an answer RIGHT NOW. It wants you to know exactly why you had the thought, what it means, whether you felt something when you had it, whether you’re a good person, etc. But you don't have to figure all of that out. Sometimes I remind myself, “I don't need to solve this right now.” Even if I still feel anxious afterward, I try to move on anyway. You’ve probably heard this tactic a million times, and you’re tired of it (I’m talking about myself if you couldn’t tell) but trust me, it really helps. Try your best! 2. Let the thought be there without giving it all of your attention. You don't have to force it away. You can notice it and then return to whatever you were doing. It might feel uncomfortable at first, but you don't have to sit there and examine it. I was a huge slave to this for a while and it sucked, so please don’t go into the rabbit hole of coming up with new thoughts or obsessions. 3. MUSIC!!! Any fellow music lovers? Whether you like Taylor swift, Metallica, The Smiths, or whatever- music has genuinely been making my life better. When my thoughts are getting really annoying , I’ll put on a song and focus on it as much as I can. I’ll listen to the beat, the instruments, the different sounds, and whatever else I can pick out. Sometimes I’ll play a song I know really well because it’s easier to focus on. And if you can't get to music for whatever reason but you have a song stuck in your head, you can actually try to overpower it with your thoughts. My bad if this is a compulsion- but genuinely this helps me a bunch. 4. Get up and do something. Even if you don't feel like it. Take a shower, draw, clean something, play a game, watch a show, go outside, talk to somebody, do homework (or work, I see you employed pees)- literally anything that gets you back into your actual life. OCD can make you feel like you have to stop everything until you feel better, but you’re allowed to keep living while you're anxious. 5. Be careful with reassurance. I know how tempting it is to ask someone, “Does this mean I’m bad?” or “What if this thought means I secretly want it?” because you just want someone to make the fear go away. I understand that feeling SO much. But sometimes getting reassurance only makes OCD come back with another question five minutes later. Try reminding yourself that you don't need a perfect answer to every scary “what if.” 6. Don't judge yourself for having a bad day. Please, please remember this one. Having intrusive thoughts doesn't mean you're going backwards. Having a really bad OCD day doesn't erase the progress you've made. Sometimes your brain is just more annoying than usual, and that's okay. And if you're reading this while you're in the middle of a spiral, I really want you to know that you don't have to figure everything out tonight. You don't have to understand every thought. You don't have to make the anxiety disappear before you're allowed to do something you enjoy. Put on your favorite song if you can. Go do something small. Give your brain something else to focus on. Let the uncertainty sit there for a little while. I know it’s hard. I know some thoughts can feel absolutely terrifying, and I know how badly you just want your brain to give you a break. Please don't be mean to yourself for struggling with something you never asked for. You're still here. You're still trying. :3

Every day has been feeling so unbearable and unmanageable lately. I can barely function. My dissociation and depersonalization/derealization is constant and its really starting to scare me. I don’t recognize myself in the mirror anymore and i need help but i cant go back to the psychiatric hospital because i was just in there for like 30 days getting stupid ect treatments and im completely traumatized from the whole experience. I can hardly sleep at night and the ocd and panic spiral is non stop. I dont even know what to do anymore i feel so hopeless and out of control. I had to move back home with parents. I dont trust myself to drive. I stopped working. I stopped running. Its like everything that made me who i am has been stripped away. I miss music and i miss my boyfriend bit im so disconnected from all those things right now. Even right now typing this i feel completely ruined and broken. I cant think straight. I can hardly even speak straight. Im just very very very scared. Looking for support. Okay thats all. Im just really NOT OKAY.

any tips? for when a theme / thought(s) you had overcome before come back again and deeply bother you?

Hi. I was in remission for about three years from harm OCD. I am absolutely terrified to harm my kids. I went to therapy, but I don’t feel like I completely followed through with ERP. I have been on 5 mg of Lexapro and that seemed to calm my mind. It has now spiked and I have spiraled for about a week now. I just want positive feedback to getting better and staying better and that this is just temporary. I’m not sure if this is seeking reassurance, or just seeking hope. I would love to know some tips and tricks for staying consistent with yourself on your journey.

13 days and still feel like my anxiety and like little panic attacks ?

18+ please. I had met my current best friend in Junior year of highschool, and we only became truly close during our Senior year and the following few years. She's been basically the only person I've associated with (outside a few buddies I had before graduation) amidst my depression and my life basically falling apart. I've done a lot of rumination over my handful of years of having her in my life, and the conclusion I've come to is that I've been absolutely terrible to her, despite the fact that she swears up and down that it's not the case. The first point of rumination is just all the times I've said creepy/perverted stuff to her, tried to engage with her in a sexual way, etc. There's been so many moments throughout our 4+ years of knowing each other where I would say something dirty/flirty in hopes something would blossom, and it was either so ill timed she would call me out on it, or she didn't really realize the implication. A handful of occasions I had been a bit pushy/trying too hard without really realizing it, but as I've grown as a person over the last few years I end up remembering and feeling gross about it (and scared that some of it could be legally considered coercion.). I'm also struggling with a couple of false memories, or at least, what I HOPE are false memories, convincing myself that I either have tried/wanted to touch her inappropriately without her wanting it at some point. She tells me that I haven't done that and she would remember if I did, but I'm so scared that I've wanted to do so at some point and convinced that I've tried at this point and the thought horrifies me. I sometimes feel like I only ever became her friend for sexual reasons, or something. Something I'm horrified could be true. A point my mind holds against me often is how I'll video call with her when she's in a state of undress, and it's like, I'll want to do it more because of it? As scummy as that sounds? What makes it worse, is that I talked to her the other night about things that we often do together that in my eyes are an intimate thing, whereas she sees them as stuff she does with close friends. Showering on the phone, stuff like that. Which makes me feel worse for pursuing a relationship like that with her when it was never there at all. The second point is largely a byproduct of the first point, where I had often felt immense guilt over my previous actions and would profusely apologize and deliberately avoid her for long periods of time. She's told me that I've caused her a lot of pain doing that to her, despite me feeling like it's the right thing to do quite often. So despite everything I've talked about, like I said, my friend doesn't have any issues with me. She swears up and down that I'm too hard on myself, and when I ask what exactly she wants out of our relationship, she says she just wants me to keep being who I've been, who in her eyes, is her chill friend she can talk about whatever with and play games with. All of what I've talked about isn't even a factor. Something me and her have talked about is how she's pretty dense when it comes to social things, so part of me can't help but wonder if I really have been as horrible as I think I have been, and she simply hasn't had it click. Despite everything, I can't STOP doing some of these things. I've cut back on the more serious things, but I can't help but occasionally throw her a compliment or try to flirt a bit. It's like an impulsive thing I feel like I have to do. Again, she says she doesn't care. But is it not a concerning behavior? I care about her so much, man. Maybe high school me was only thinking about sex. I don't know anymore. All I know is that even if I didn't care back then, I DEFINITELY do right now. She's such an amazing person and easily the best HUMAN I've ever had in my life. That's why this is tearing me apart so thoroughly. The idea that I've been so horrible to the only person who actually CARES about me at all makes me lose sleep.

Is it worth it to email my professor about our flipped quiz and me using my notes? Our quiz was online, to be done at home, but wasn’t on a lockdown browser and you could freely open and switch tabs. I thought I remembered hearing it was open note and then the free tab switching solidified that thought. After taking and submitting it I realized what if I had misheard it, and I cheated? I looked it up and while canvas doesn’t tell your teacher what tab you went on, it has timestamps of “when a quiz lost focus” or when you leave an online quiz. I also didn’t find anything on canvas that said it wasn’t open notes, but nothing that said it was. I wasn’t using ai but my class slides I have downloaded. I’m not sure if she will fail me for the quiz or the class or if she will do anything at all about it. I really can’t fail this class because it’s a major requirement and is only offered in the fall and it’ll set me back a year behind, there’s also the financial and gpa aspect. My roommate said to email or talk to her tmr about it, but the other said I should wait till she releases grades/sends me an email about it. I’m not sure if it’s worth it to talk to her tmr after class, since she’ll probably have some graded by then or started. I feel like bringing it up will make it worse and I’m just freaked out. I can loose 10 points on a quiz but I can’t fail the entire class.

hello. ive never been “tested” or anything to find out if i actually have it or not, but ive been convinced for about a year and a half that i do. i thought id download a support app like this and ask from people who actually have it: does this seem like something worth reaching out to a professional about? - i consistently drive myself crazy/give myself headaches/mentally burn out by repeating the same line in a song over and over again against my will. nothing i seem to do makes it go away until it simply fades. this can last anywhere from 5-90 long minutes. - i think ive come to the conclusion that i have some kind of dermatillomania. i often find myself picking at my skin (all over my body: back, fingers, face, knees) when i hadnt realized it prior to catching myself. i find it hard to stop once ive noticed and can also get into obsessive fits over being able to pick at my skin until it is completely smooth/flush with the rest of the surrounding area. this can also stem from me simply feeling my own skin and finding an “impurity” like a bump or something. it used to be so bad that i would try to tear my goosebumps off if i ever got them. - i need to have everything meticulously planned out before i do it. for example: lets say i want to relax in bed and journal a bit. that would be impossible without about 2+ hours of prep beforehand. i have to shower (which is its own hellish process), make my bed, clean my room, make sure my room is at a certain temperature, make sure the pajamas i want to be in are clean (and if they arent then i would wash them), get all my journalling supplies together, find the right music to play, etc. i feel paralyzed if i cannot prepare for things like that. if i desperately want to do something but dont have the means to “prepare” for it, then i become obsessive and irritable. this also applies to work/school. if i cant do a project, take notes, write a paper/lab, or anything right the first time, i struggle to start it at all. - i have crippling social anxiety. im constantly thinking about what the people around me are thinking. i feel hyper-aware of peoples emotions and the changes in their attitude/behavior. it is so tiring to deal with and i cant turn it off. - i have indecent thoughts about people i would never ever ever in my life consider willingly. these thoughts extend to family and friends, and in ways im even terrified to think of. i oftentimes have thoughts of someone close to me r@ping or assaulting me (even though i know they would never do that). ive heard this is a pretty solid sign of OCD but im just not sure. i am disgusted by these thoughts but they are relatively easy to shake out of my head compared to the whole song lyric thing. - i am perpetually unsure of what is real or not because i daydream so lucidly and so frequently. i will be stuck talking to someone in my head and be called out more times than id like to admit. this is one of the bigger reasons i think im going crazy… please if anyone has any input or advice/instruction on what i should do, please help