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I’m really really upset and panicky. So I’m a senior in high school and I’m going to college next year. I want to go to this college out of state (which is amazing) but also since my home life isn’t very tolerable I need to get away from my family. But my mom is set on forcing me to attend this instate college five minutes from our house. She said she’d save money if she made me go there because I would just stay at home and my parents wouldn’t have to pay room and board. I can’t stay at home. I’d lose my mind. Not for four more years. And I love this out of state college. During the whole college process my mom has shot down and killed two of my college dreams (the college I like now was not my first choice). This whole time I’m supposed to planning and making decisions for my future, but I’ve just been doing what she wants and I’m sick of it. I feel like I have no say. And if I end up going to this instate college and have to stay home I’d lose my mind. Words cannot describe how much I hate it at home. I just feel helpless and I’m so mad because my mom loves to complain about how her parents screwed her over and made her do things she didn’t want to do while she does the same things to me. She’s such a hypocrite and I generally feel very indifferent towards my mother. We’ve never been close. She’s very picky and critical. Her mood is unstable and she’s delusional at times. I need to leave the house and grow up. I’m just scared she won’t let me.

Hi all, I hope everyone is doing well! Can some of you that experience Harm OCD and or developing schizophrenia (or any other mental health issue) OCD give me some out of the box exposure suggestions? I’ve seen to get used to my own exposures and I’m looking to challenge myself a bit more.

This is really stressing me out,I’ve started ERP and it’s been really hard,but it feels like I’m enjoying confronting my thoughts and as though my gay side is coming out naturaly now?This is causing me so much anxiety

One experience that a significant number of people with OCD have is getting over one set of obsessions and compulsions just to get stuck on a different set. - Imagine yourself as a fish, and OCD as the person fishing. The hook is the compulsions- it's how OCD really traps you and drags you places that you don't want to go. To tempt you into biting the hook, OCD loads it with bait, scary or gross thoughts, sensations, or urges that capture your attention. - When you nibble the bait, or try to solve the obsession, OUCH! The compulsion hook gets your lip and it's hard, painful work to get yourself off the hook. - Sometimes what happens in therapy is that little fishy us learns not to bite the bait that ice usually sends down. And that is awesome, until OCD baits the compulsion hook with a different obsession. If we haven't learned to look to see whether there is a hook in the bait, and then to not bite all bait with hooks, OCD will catch us and reel us right in again. .. - so, moral of the story, identify any bait on hooks (uncomfortable thoughts that make you want to do repetitive behaviors) and don't bite them! Even if the bait is different than what you expect. - What was something OCD baited you with that caught you by surprise?

okay y'all I would like opinions,I am a social worker in college right now. One day we talked about people taking their own lives. My dad took his own life about 6 months ago and I was triggered by this presentation so I quietly walked out of class. My teacher said she would not give me credit for coming to class which bothered me because I stayed for a long portion of the class. What do y'all think was I in the wrong? please be honest.

Rose-Thorn-Bud daily check in :) Share these three things with us: - a rose AKA a highlight or best part of the day - a thorn AKA an uncomfortable part of the day - a bud AKA a goal for yourself or something you're looking forward too I'll go first. My rose is that my supervisor complimented my paperwork at field. She is super picky with paperwork, so getting it right the first time is a big deal. My thorn is that I found out one of my break light on my car is out. I'm annoyed that I need to go fix it. And finally, my bud is to cook dinner for myself tonight

My ex said he is dating someone else..m I'm broken

Is medication necessary for OCD recovery? I used to be on buspirone a few months ago for anxiety and while it worked for a week or so it started making me feel very lightheaded so my doctor told me to stop and suggested supplements instead. Sometimes I wonder if I need to be on medication but I’m afraid of the stories I hear of people trying a bunch of different ones because some made them a lot worse.

I just found out that some of my most trusted friends that I genuinely loved as friends are all fake and laughed behind my back.

What’s the point in trying? If people say you can’t be 100% free of ocd you can only “manage” it, seriously tell me what’s the fucking point? I’m not up for dealing with a broken brain for the rest of my fucking life

Is it really okay for me to relax about STDs? I’ve never been diagnosed with one but o always feel like my tests can’t possibly be accurate? I’ve been tested about 16 times total but I worry about it all the time. Is it enough to just NOT have sex with other people? Cuz I feel like I have undone my negative results by using public toilets and experiencing splashback, not washing my hands enough before using the toilet etc and I just feel like I’m gonna be accused of cheating when I haven’t cheated. I don’t want to be dumped. What if I contracted STDs without being with anyone else? He will obviously leave me because it will look like I cheated when I didn’t. I’ve not been with anyone else since being in a relationship with my partner I adore him I’m terrified I will contract something somehow or i ALWAYS had an std which didn’t show on my tests and it will only be passed to him one day years down the line when I least expect it and he will leave me because he will think I cheated and leave me I feel like I can’t afford to relax. If I’m not prepared it might be more likely to happen and shock me or something. I did have sudden unexpected breakup three years ago with someone I was with for ten years who kicked me out with no warning. Could this be why I’m a fucking freak now?

I need some advice on this, I was diagnosed with OCD a few years ago and I managed to be free for a few years by don’t giving attention to the thoughts and by giving my full attention to the outside life and not was going on inside my head. After stressful event OCD is back and again I feel that is something else. I am currently for the first time on CBT therapy but I am still on the early stages. My therapist told me that changing my attention to something else when the OCD is at its full blown is good technique but eventually I will need to face the thoughts and try to challenge them. The problem is that the moment I turn inside it’s like I have a train of thoughts that self doubt everything. When I am on this state I cannot challenge anything on the opposite I doubt that I have OCD and I try to understand if my symptoms suggest that I have something else and the fear and anxiety gets worse. I fear that I have something else and that I am a bad person. My big problem is when I am working. I work in an office and I need to sit in front of pc for 7-8 hours. The moment I start working these thoughts kick in and I feel that I cannot find any escape. I cannot do something else to turn my attention somewhere else and find my self doubting and searching was going on with me. And slowly slowly I get so scared that I come to face where I pass something like an anxiety attack. Is there any technique that it can help me to avoid what is happening to me, do no reach the levels of anxiety attack. I try to hear loud music, to concentrate on the pc but it didn’t work. I feel like I am trap somewhere that I need to sit still and just suffer with the thoughts until I reach the level of the full blown anxiety attack. Thank you for listening, any advice is well appreciated.

Hello friends! I’ve never made a post before but I could really use some advice and support in this moment from other people who experience the same thing as me!! I found out about my OCD a few months ago. I’ve struggled with HOCD and POCD and I think I might be experiencing ROCD right now. I’ve been dating my boyfriend for over 6 months and he’s wonderful. I’ve had a lot of bad relationships and this one has been completely different. He’s healthy and loving and understanding. He’s been with me on this whole OCD journey even before I knew that’s what I had. I just told him I was having these thoughts about my sexuality that I couldn’t get out of my head and dreams that were really scaring me. It’s been a hell of a 6 months but he’s been consistent. We’ve been in a long distance relationship which comes with its own challenges for anyone. But I have found myself just having a ton of anxiety every time we talk recently. I also just graduated from college and I’ve been in a lot of transition. I moved back home for a few months to get help from my family and a therapist and to figure out what was going on which ended up being OCD! All along my plan was to move to be with him. I have been planning on it but pushing out the deadline back and back because I’m scared. But I’ve set everything up for this week; shipped my car, I’m paying rent for an apartment, and I have a plane ticket for this Wednesday. There are a lot of positives to me moving; more structure and routine than I have here, trying to figure out if this is the right relationship, I’ll be close to Nashville so I can pursue my music dream, my therapist can keep doing sessions with me until I can start seeing a therapist there. But basically I’m panicking about moving as it’s getting closer. What if I get there and I’m isolated and fall apart? Or put too much pressure on the relationship? Or maybe the relationship is wrong because I keep getting anxious? Maybe I’ve never actually lived him and I’ve been faking it maybe were too different and I’m going to move there and ruin my whole life and his. Any thoughts on big moves like this? Or if what I’m experiencing sounds like ROCD? What should I do

I know I don’t have schizophrenia, but my fear is that I will develop it. I felt like I was seeing things out of the corners of my eyes tonight. I thought it was my dog a few times and nothing was there. Any advice on dealing with this theme?

I just wanted to ask something that's about how the app blocking your profile works? Like is it permanent? The support chat had told me the block would be removed after 48hours but it wasn't removed and had to delete my previous account (@chamomile)

Can health ocd be on the theme mental health ocd ? Like afraid of other disorder

Hi guys I’m just looking to see if anyone knows if this is a normal part of childhood development or if anyone experienced this as a kid: Is pretend sexual play normal in kids? Like me and my friends would pretend to be mom and dad and or we would make our bratz dolls kiss or make babies or basically playing games with children my own age that involve sexual behavior. I’m extremely distressed by this right now because I am a little concerned this wasn’t a normal part of childhood development. Mind you I’m now in my 20s so I have no idea why this is coming up into my mind as an OCD theme at the moment lol. Also to preface, Growing up I was always around older kids too so I knew a lot about mature topics before a lot of my peers because my friends at the time that i was around were 3-4 years older than me!

does anyone have any advice for not being able to stomach any food at all?? every time i try to eat or drink water, i get unpleasant images in my head. i haven’t been eating properly or drinking ANY water at all for the past week or so. distracting myself isn’t enough anymore :( any advice??

I am 20. Around a month ago, I suddenly remembered something very bad I did when I was ten. At the time (when I was ten), I didn’t think twice about it, but ever since I remembered it, I can’t stop thinking and obsessing over it as I do not understand how I could have ever done something so bad. It really bothers me, and now I am contemplating wether or not I am a bad person. I have read many articles about this, scanned them, looked for people who have done similar things. According to them, I have past event ocd. I can understand that, but I consider what I did too bad for it to be that. Here’s what I remember of it: When I was 10, my sister was 7, and around that age we would often just walk around naked, wrestle, and etc just like kids. This is probably why I didn’t think twice about what I did. At that time, I would hump various things, not knowing what it meant. I can faintly recollect humping my sister. I do not understand why I did it, but it bothers me a lot and makes me wonder if I am a bad person. I realise it’s horrible, but I didn’t know what I was doing at the time.

So I'm concerned with a suggestion I got from an online therapist who knows about OCD. I've told her about my particular issues and thoughts that I'm having and messaged her today letting her know that I've been really depressed feeling. I'm experiencing existential OCD and she mentioned to try to stop thinking about the philosophical questions because they don't have answers, so I'm just running my mind. She mentioned putting a rubber band on my wrist and using that to bring awareness when I'm having those thoughts and to stop them, (or maybe to divert my attention to something else). Is this conflicting with what we know about OCD treatment? I thought thought stopping like this was ineffective. I'm willing to try anything, but I also want to make sure I'm doing things right and not making myself worse. As a note, this is an online therapist I just started with. I have an in person one that I just started with as well, the online one was because I felt so depressed this week and felt like I needed extra support.