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I need tips on how to sit here, wanting to confess, but I can’t. It’s like torture. How do y’all deal w this????

If I am living in the moment, I’m good. As soon as I realize I’m doing well I get hammered with instrusive thoughts. It’s like OCD says…not so fast. Don’t forget about me. I know to just accept the thoughts and move on. Has anyone else experienced this?

I have intrusive thoughts everyday I feel like there making me crazy does any one have any tips on handling them .

Hello there, i always dreamed to get instantly rich so that i did not have to meet and deal with people in my life, i always dreamed to be rich and be able to live alone for the rest of my life. The idea of making friends/finding soulmate terrifies me , i always try to hide it to the public and try to make it look like i want people to meet, but in reality i am horrified at the idea. That i will meet someone that cares about its own feelings only and never feeling anything about my feelings and emotions , to be backstabbed, to be betrayed , to be hurt by that someone. I had past negative experiene both with my parents and with people, i am always afraid "that group of friends will drag me back to that bad company". I also feel weird and a sense of inferiority around people of my same gender , because i know they are better then me, always the need to compare, and i can't stand it. I don't want to be around people , they only give me negative feelings and the fear that something bad may/will happen to me. I prefer to be left alone . I want a life of solitude and only to be focusing at my own plan of self growth that i built for myself. Sharing that with someone makes me feel rather unwell , i am a very private person, i don't like to share my life with somebody else , that is not me. I don't want people to disrupt or ruin my life .

Has anyone else had thought where you feel like you're constantly upsetting the other person? I truly want my life back.. I feel like im going crazy quite honestly, but also, any thoughts of jealousy for no reason? Even tho you know for a fact no one would cross or cheat on you ?

does anyone else feel their ocd gets so much worse at night or even when it gets dark?

Thoughts on staying away/limiting time on social media. I know it’s toxic and not helping but is that just because it triggers me? Should I keep it as a exposure ?

hi everyone, im new to this therapy & it has been really daunting leading up to getting help. I’ve been struggling immensely with emetophobia for my whole life, but it has taken a huge toll on my life within the last year and a half. my emetophobia has progressively transitioned into agoraphobia and I can’t ever leave my room. just this last day was my last straw, when my roommate came home with the norovirus. he’s not very considerate when it comes to staying clean and quarantining so my head has been spiraling wondering when or if I’ll get it too. i haven’t slept in 3 days & haven’t eaten & I feel that im inducing more harm to myself. I just want to feel better, not worry so intensely. I want to live a normal life without restricting my meals or restricting public places & constantly asking my boyfriend for unfortunate reassurance that I’ll be okay. I really hate to be that girlfriend. if anyone sees this, I really hope that I do get better & that if anyone struggling with the same obstacle as me can get through it. it’s draining, it’s daunting, & so much for one to handle.

I was just wondering can OCD switch between two specific themes. Recently my theme had changed from false memories (reassurance) to obsessing over news(Russia and the potential draft) and now it has switched back to my original theme while the new one is still subtext in my mind. Is this common and does anyone have any advice (I’m seeking out NHS talk therapies as don’t have the money for anything else)

4 years ago I had hocd with a girl classmate, I was scared of being gay and like her, not so long ago my ocd came back, that thought came back and then changed to another girl, now AGAIN came back, because he changed her style and now have glasses, I can accept she looks pretty, but it started when I was scared of my boyfriend falling in love with her, now I think about her constantly like, having the need to be better than her, I hate this I don't have life, it started today because I dreamed about her chasing my bf.. I want my bf to see that I am in fact prettier and better than her but then, my hocd just comes and tells me it's me who is in love and in denial.. I hate this, I love my boyfriend, I'm not gay and I don't like her.. help does someone knows what's happening???!!?

I feel so down right now for no reason and I feel guilty feeling bad about my well-being because some peace are dealing with wars and cancer and my pain isn't half or real compared to their pain but I can't take it anymore and I feel uncomfortable going to therapy and my family is broken my dad is abusive and mom and brothers don't really care I don't have any friends that they could help but OCD getting me crazy by signs I think I am seeing and I can't get help cuz my ocd tells me if I find happiness something bad may happen to my family so this is why I can't find a solution sorry for the long post I just feel so lonely right now I just want to fade away

Hi, I always get thoughts whenever I see or get any type of interaction with certain type of people that I will turn into them and it gives me alot of anxiety and has to do compulsions to get out of those thoughts. If I try to avoid the compulsions I get their faces, The expressions on their faces. It's not just if I see them, There faces comes anytime, While I am eating, Studying, Walking. Please give some advices on what I can do. As I don't know what to do.

I am getting better at this, but I really want to research, confess, talk to someone when my thoughts flare up. Anyone have anything else they do instead of compulsions? Trying to avoid creating another compulsion, but any healthy ideas to do something else instead of one?

I have no idea what thoughts are REAL, sincere guilty thoughts, and what thoughts are FAKE OCD guilty thoughts. I don't trust my thoughts... it's an awful, weird feeling. Almost sickening that I don't know which thoughts are real.

I can't.I even can't post my story. I am 15 years old suffering from OCD. It just feels so bad, so bad. From trying to get hurt by banging my head in the wall, I just feel things are not okay with me. I am a student. I want someone to get in contact with me - someone to understand my story and support me. I hope it reaches the correct audience, someone who can get in touch. Thank you so much.

What do you do when you questioned something about God or thought something bad about Him and now fear that He will never forgive you, especially since you still have doubts and questions about Him?

I'm kind of a techie person and I've got a PSVR2 headset and controllers. I like playing games with stories to progress as opposed to those VR "experiences" that are more like a playground for playing with the engine's physics and things like that. I find storied games more immersive and easier to lose yourself in I've noticed when I'm feeling really anxious or intrusive thoughts are bothering me a lot, I'll play VR to distract myself. I don't know if it's an avoidance compulsion to try to shut out the intrusive thoughts and anxiety they bring Does anyone else have any escapism habits like this?

Does anyone have a really hard time feeling like you deserve good things?? I have so much guilt from things I have done in the past and from these awful thoughts that I don’t feel like I deserve anything enjoyable. I stopped drinking coffee and tea and stuff because I feel like it’s a reward and it makes me feel guilty, but I had a cup this morning and I feel bad about it. And I feel like I’m just writing this so someone will tell me not to feel bad so I can have it without guilt. That’s not what I’m looking for, I just want to know if anyone else is dealing with/has dealt with this? I also worry that I don’t actually feel that guilty, and that these things aren’t that big of a problem to me. Like maybe I’m just wanting therapy so I can have an excuse to have/do things I enjoy again without feeling guilty. It feels wrong. There’s things I do miss, and I feel guilty for wanting these things. I feel like someone who really cares wouldn’t even think about wanting to have nice things.

I feel like I am at the top of the age bracket here. I have lived so long with OCD and finally getting targeted help. It fascinates and frightens me. I wish I had this earlier in my life.

I feel like I’ve become more selfish since opening up to my family about ocd. I’ve yet to been diagnosed, but I’ve talked to them about intrusive thoughts during a really bad period. Sometimes, I wish I didn’t open up and kept it to myself. I feel like I expect them to know when something is wrong, and im more focused on myself. I miss how things used to be, and how I could talk to them without them knowing them something is wrong with me. I feel like they treat me differently now, and I’m aware of that in the back of my mind. They don’t call me out of things they would’ve before, and I think I use this as an excuse for my bad attitude at times. I feel like I isolate myself a bit more because of this, but I know I’m in the wrong here.