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can relationship ocd come and go? I was fine for like years now it’s back.. makes me think it’s the truth

During school, I went with my friends to get food but there wasnt enough room in the car so my friend offered their lap to sit on. I said yes and went to sit on her lap but there wasn’t enough room vertically for my head so i ended up laying down across the people in the back seat. I made sure my head and butt were on my female friends but there was a guy sitting in the middle so i arched my back a bit so it wouldn’t touch him. i felt really uncomfortable the whole time but there wasn’t anything i could do because we already started driving. I made sure he didnt touch me and i didnt touch him but i feel really guilty and i dont know what to do. I dont know if i should tell my partner or not. My friend that offered me her lap was trying to console me saying that its okay and that i didnt touch him and she made sure that he didnt touch me but still. please help

Now i know i need to accept when i feel anxiety or fear, ive been avoiding it or pushing it away.l, cause im afraid ir will take me and to be honest i cant really deal with fear. I noticed when i feel it a I say its okay, im feeling this but theres no danger and by this i pushing it away. But when theres is signs of an aczual danger i ho crazy. I try to push away the fear but it says that "there is a sign, we are in danger, are you crazy?" Ane i keep spinning. I heard alot about accepting thatbwe feel anxiety or fear but thats always makes me accept that theres a danger. Cause im accepting what i feeling but then my mind wants to know if theres a danger and im spinning over that, then i feel like i need to avoid it cause i cant handle... or if i say theres might be a danger or there is i go crazy... then i start to have the selfharm automative thoughts and in the panic i cant see that its ocd, im trying to say it but i feel like im lying, then everything feels true... i cant accept that i feel anxiety but its not a danger but even this you can see i start to rumminate over "okay i feel this but is there a problem? Yeah is see this this is a problem, im avoiding, i have to do something about it quickly, then i try to stop to not act based of fear but i feel bad cause im avoiding. I cant see the reality when i feel panic or afraid, even trying to see reality becomes compulsive. What im dealing with now is that i get hit by anxiety, i accept it and i get a feeling that but theres no fear and i get hit by this toxic good feeling like i avoided a danger and i dont like it cause that feeds the fear

Today i started job of coordinator at a school. I wanted to come out of my comfort zone which is actually my room and i wanted to come in the outside world. I thought i would get better if i spend some time outside but my ocd just flared up. I felt like the environment was not clean enough. I felt like people coming out of the restrooms contaminated everything. I felt the doorknobs and all the stuff was contaminated. Now i feel i am contaminated. After coming home i touched alot of my stuff which is also contaminated. But i cannot wash everything everyday so may be i would delay it to the day i leave the job which i dont want now. I want to do it least few months. I also have magical thinking ocd. I think if i get married and met my husband or his family in my contaminated clothes something is gonna happen and their house will be contaminated too. So i have to wash my whole wardrobe. I am feeling so anxious right now. Cannot do anything but sitting with thoughts

Sorry to be TMI - I haven’t been on this app in a while but I’m genuinely so scared. I have struggled with health ocd for a while now but I’ve had a few months without any worry? But I started stressing a few weeks ago about a lot of stuff in my life , I’ve struggled with vaginismis etc from stress so this isn’t the first vaginal issue I’ve had - but anyway- I have had some symptoms of UTI , I’ve had itching, burning pee, vaginal pain etc and urgency - I have been to the emergency hospital in panic and been on 2 different antibiotics - I did a urine test in the doctors and everything is fine? I still have some symptoms and I can’t stop panicking I have cervical cancer or something ? Has anyone had similar physical symptoms like this from health ocd ?

About 2 years ago when my daughter was younger she would get scared at night sometimes and come sleep with me. One night I woke up to her saying “mommy!” So I briefly woke up and said “sorry mama” and moved over and fell back to sleep. When I woke up in the morning I thought nothing of it at first figuring I probably just rolled over on her but then my ocd kicked in making me believe I must have done something horrible to her and it has bothered me so badly ever since. While I know people without ocd wouldn’t think anything of it, I have been questioning myself and feeling so depressed ever since. Has anyone else experienced anything like this?

I'm having such a hard time dealing with a false memory, it kills me to know that I'm not going to get the details of this memory. My aunt tries to calm me down by telling me that I didn't do anything bad to my little cousin, but I can't stay okay for long. The fact that this memory occurred on a day when we were just starting to wake up makes it worse, because immediately the thought comes that my aunt might not have been fully awake at the time to confirm anything, plus it's practically impossible to ask my little cousin to remember anything either. But all of this is frustrating because I have a memory of waking up and just lying there thinking about random things, apart from the fact that my cousin never changed with me, he never acted as if I represented some kind of danger. And one thing that also confronts all these bad thoughts is that at that time I already knew I had OCD, I always remember what they say about people with OCD never doing what the intrusive thoughts say they are capable of, and at that time I was scared to death just thinking about something bad, like, I didn't even want to think about it, how would I have the courage to do it? And on top of all that, I remember the memory I have of just lying there thinking about random things, why doesn't my mind trust that? Why does it keep coming up with horrible details that make no sense? Like, before I discovered OCD I never behaved like that, I never wanted to hurt anyone, why doesn't my mind just focus on that? I know they're traps, but this idea that I'm a bad person is desperate, it makes me think that I'm not worthy of living, that I don't deserve good things and that I'm deceiving everyone and myself. I don't know how to get out of this cycle, sometimes I'm okay but it always comes back, it's like something saying "No matter how much you run away, you've done something bad and you're not as good a person as you try to tell everyone" or something like "The only way to get rid of this is to have all the details and you'll never have them". It's just scary, I have no words, it's scary and suffocating. How can I live with it?

hey guys I’m going through a pretty bad ocd flare up right now and it really sucks :( I haven’t been sleeping properly as my anxiety wakes me up at night. A lot of new things are happening in my life + I recently got triggered by something. I know it will eventually pass but it’s just exhausting right now

sometimes when I read all these posts I just start crying 😭😭 I hate that we are all suffering like this… ocd is not for the weak and its so frustrating 😭 Im really tired honestly… my ocd has its good and bad days but im just exhausted by all of it. I cant enjoy simple things because my ocd has to overcomplicate every little thing and create these “signs” as to what I am and what I am not. Ive had ocd for over a year now im a just upset 😭😭😭 I dont want to live like this forever… I have a lot of people who say, “you can talk to me if you want” and its really sweet 💓 but I dont think anyone can understand what I am feeling because even I cant… I dont know what im doing- how im feeling- who I am- or even what my values are 😭 ocd just makes me question everything. I am a 14 year old girl 😭😭😭 how am I supposed to know what to do? Ive talked mom about my ocd a few times and she tries to help but she doesn’t even understand 1/5th of what I go through daily. I appreciate her caring even if its a little but I just want some help 😭😭 I am a bit scared of therapy though. But im willing to try but im not sure if my mom will let me… Ocd just makes me feel so unlovable. I hate it.

Okay so I have deal with harm ocd for like month now, but for like 3 weeks when I first started I was scared and depressed because of my thoughts, and there were thoughts about hurting my family to the point were there not alive anymore and I would cry and pray constantly because I was scared I will act on my thoughts, but now that a month has passed, I still get those thoughts but this time I’m not scared anymore. Like yeah I just get little scared that I will act of these thoughts, but not as bad. I feel like I don’t have any more empathy, or like emotions. Like I feel like I’m becoming an evil person because I don’t feel scared about the thoughts anymore. And it kind of worry me because if I don’t feel anything will I most likely act of my thoughts ????????? I need help. What do I do ? Is this normal?

My OCD is getting really exhausting, it makes me take double the amount of time in almost everything. I really don’t want it to be part of my life. I have had OCD for as long as I can remember, and mine goes through phases where some months it’s less things to do, but for the last few months it has been crazy. I have intrusive thoughts and bad anxiety, if I don’t stick to my routine or do things a certain number of times my brain involves it with something bad is going to happen, and if it doesn’t feel perfect to me I have to do it again. It is just getting so annoying at this point and I need to learn how to always stay at a low amount of OCD, because I know that it will never fully go away but I want to get it down as much as possible.

Ive chatted with romantically attached women on the explicit chat website... people on the site tell me im a good person and that people on the site are here for their own reasons, or their partners allow them to be, but i still feel horrible about the two women who were keeping secret from their partners... (not the ones whose partners allow them to be on there...) this one girl is the one i regret the most because she was in a relationship with the girl on the site and didnt want me to tell her... i feel like a horrible person... even though many people on the site tell me im not... and that its all fantasy and not real... me and her have chatted several times so i feel like a bad person because of those several times... and ive wanted to chat with her... i feel horrible because of this... i only want to be a good person... i only want to do good things... but no matter how many people on the site reassure me, i still feel horrible because of this...

Please can someone tell me if this is part of ocd: I get physical discomforts and itchy sensations everytime I try to relax or to sleep. I feel the need to scratch or adjust my clothes or rub my hands and this goes on for hours. I feel exhausted and when I do ERP the sensations get worse or keep coming back.. help

Can anyone talk to me, im feeking really awful and panicked right now

Does anybody else have an extreme fear of engine oil or any other car chemicals? I have been suffering with contamination OCD for the last 8 or 9 years and feel alone with this kind of OCD towards chemicals.

Hi, I have been struggling in my relationship due to ROCD and would love for someone to weigh in and help. Here is my story: My boyfriend and I have been together for 5 years. We got together young and are only in our early 20’s now. About two years ago I developed an extreme anxiety disorder. A few months into this disorder I also developed OCD in the form of sexual orientation ocd and relationship ocd. It immediately affected my relationship no matter how much I didn’t want it to. I immediately felt like maybe we shouldn’t be together because I don’t truly love him. Or I actually love girls so therefore can not be with him. This has been happening now for two year and it is still a daily struggle. I have people in my life that are major triggers because when I am around them all I can do is think sexual thoughts or obsessive thoughts about possibly wanting to be with them. It is so hard to know if I am actually gay or not and no matter how hard I try to figure it out I can’t. It also makes me deeply sad because I so so badly want the relationship back that my partner and I had. We had 3 amazing years before all of this and now that feels like a distant memory that I may never experience again. I feel like I am trying so hard yet it isn’t getting better and I’m afraid it never will. I want to feel the same love I used to for him and without all the fear and doubt. If anyone else has experienced this please share if there was anything helpful for you. Thank you.

I work in social work and today I went into a home that was infested with fleas. I immediately freaked out. Once getting back to the office I was freaking out, my boss didn’t understand and wanted me to go back. I ended up not listening literally stripping in the parking lot throwing my clothes away and going to a truck stop to shower. Anyway, I’m still stuck on feeling the need to shower every time I go near my car since I was in it before I could shower the first time. Obviously I need to go to work and use my car and I know it doesn’t have fleas but any tips on how to feel better about this? I’ve been too anxious to go near it and every time I do I feel the need to flea bomb the car, throw my clothes out, and shower.

It's been a couple of years going through my mental health journey. Long story short I had an identity crisis after smoking a lot of weed consistently. Psychosis runs in my family along with some other mental health issues. I started to question everything about myself I broke down in front of coworkers and they started tormenting me. Purposefully taking fallic shaped objects and dangling them around my face. Telling me I'm gay, purposefully triggering me by messaging me you don't know who you are multiple times a day. It was psychological warfare. Everytime I tried to stand up for myself my body would freeze and I would go into survival mode. I would black out and suppress these memories to make myself feel better. It became a habit. At home I was also getting bullied by people that I thought were friends. One of them grabbed my testicles and told me to repeat after me "you're gay". I remember repeating "you're gay" back to him as I was in survival mode and had no control of my body or mind in the moment. I couldn't even see clearly or hear my own voice. This happened 3 more times. I now think I say my trauma out loud after I'm triggered. I believe I go back into my trauma moments and repeat things people may have said to me while I was "spaced out" in the past. I have some memories but they are very foggy and I feel as though I can't trust my own mind right now. I'm scared to go into any social situations because I'm afraid I may say my trauma responses out loud. So do I have HOCD which is then triggering my trauma? Can trauma create OCD type symptoms? I am doing trauma threapy but should I be more focused on OCD therapy?

Any moms over here with little kids would like to be friends ?