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hey guys. me & my gf recently found out that she might have bipolar disorder. we can to this conclusion bc she does have on & off states of happy & sad , i know thats very difficult for her. but honestly i am fearful that with my ocd, can we even handle eachother? a while ago, my anxiety used to flare up during her episodes (they don’t anymore, now that ik that she doesn’t mean to be upset with me most of the time) All im saying is that this is a tricky situation.. what if my ocd is flaring while shes in the middle of an episode? how can we comfort eachother? what if she doesn’t know she to comfort me anymore? idk.. i have this gut feeling that im hopeful for the future, but i just cant shake this doubt. & now im scared to have kids omg

Can intrusive thoughts be so intense? It seriously feels like someone else is in my brain. My thoughts consist of “What if I just..” “It would be so easy…” and they are horrible so so so horrible. I hate these thoughts so much but why do they feel this way. I would never ever do any of these things but sometimes I can’t help but think what if I do? What if I give in. It’s so terrifying. Does anyone else experience intrusive thoughts that genuinely feel like it’s you for a second and then you feel immense regret?

i feel like i’ve been losing feelings for my girlfriend even though i love her very much deep down the only sign that this might be ocd is that i gain feelings in the morning, lose them during the day and gain them back in the evening what does this mean

ROCD is such a curse. I just want to be able to be held by him and feel love again without doubt. I want to be able to look at him and not be overcome with anxiety. I want to be able to be kind to him, to not constantly focus on his flaws and be distant and critical. I love him and it hurts that I feel this way. it's just been so hard today. Hopefully tomorrow is better.

I'm having issues with hit and run ocd recently. It's very hard for me to even drive anywhere anymore. Everywhere I go I feel like ive hit someone's vehicle without me noticing, even though there isn't any damage to my car I can't stop thinking that I've side swiped someone or hit someone's car while backing out or something and didn't feel it. Has anyone else dealt with this? If so, was there a way you could make the thoughts go away? It's all I can focus on and it's giving me a sort of task paralysis where I'm so focused on the thoughts I can't get anything I need to do in my daily life done.

I've lately been having anxiety flare ups, where I feel my temperature raise followed by extreme all or nothing thinking where I dwell on the thoughts of dying or getting sick. In these moments it feels like a haze is cast over me and everything feels like doom. I have no desire to harm myself and when I get this anxious I have thoughts themed around me no longer being here as well as my family or friends never expecting me to do that. It hurts me because I spend a lot of time stewing over the thoughts only for the anxiety to eventually come down and I have some clarity. But these thoughts can be very convincing that something is wrong because of my strong reaction to them.

Do you ever get hung up on the fact that at one point in time, you did not have detectable symptoms of ocd? I literally did not have contamination ocd until Covid. I used to lay on the ground with the dog, go out and come back home and lay on the couch in the same clothes, put my phone and keys on ground etc. Now I can’t even walk in my socks in house because it’s going to contaminate the couch when I put my feet up. Now I can’t sit on my couch unless I change my clothes, and now if I even have to touch my phone when my hand is “dirty,” I have to wash my hands, wipe my phone, and wash my hands again. This really sucks. I wish I can go back to a time where I wasn’t like this.

Ughhhh I have a new theme today that I’m a psychopath and I can’t shake it. I’ve taken some quizzes and I have a low chance. But I just fear I’m actually a terrible person and can’t heal from my past mistakes. Can anyone relate?

I’m a college student and I’m experiencing extreme burnout. I have so many assignments and exams piling up, but I just can’t get myself to start any of them. I am an extreme perfectionist and I have very high anxiety and this makes starting tasks related to school very difficult. I ended up wasting my entire spring break thinking about all the assignments I have to do. It is the last day of break and I have done nothing yet!!!! I’m so stressed out, I don’t know what to do. Why can I never start things when I want to. I always have to think about a task for an excessive amount of time before actually starting it.

Anyone have any intake or advice on what to do with regards to trying to sleep but your OCD won’t stop having you think that emptying your bladder before bed even though you know it’s empty but your mind doesn’t think or feel right about it so you go repeatedly and develop a cycle?

I am thinking about going on Prozac, my mom is against it and I am not really sure how to tell her I need it. My OCD has been affecting my daily life, it ruined me and my ability to stay positive and enjoy life, I don’t have motivation in life anymore and I don’t see a point in living, I would not harm myself because obviously I don’t want my loved ones to be sad, but I want to be able to enjoy life again, I want to not burden my family and my boyfriend anymore. All I talk about is my OCD, what are the pros of Prozac? Is it addictive? My mom is against it because she wants me to face OCD instead of running away from it by taking medication and depending on them, which I get. But I would only want to take them while I am in Therapy, I dont want to deal with OCD on a 24/7 basis until I am done with ERP, I just had my second ever therapy session yesterday.

Trigger warning for anyone who is in the depths of their obsessions and compulsions. I’ve struggled with SOOCD on and off for years. As I’ve stated before the thoughts don’t necessarily disappear but they no longer bother me the way they used to. Part of my personal ERP is to accept that maybe I’m just bi and fall somewhere on the spectrum. I know I like men and like being relationships with men (I’m a woman) but I do think women are pretty and hot but don’t ever want to act on that or date one…so my question is, are there different levels of being bi? Like attraction but not romantic?

I've been struggling for years now and beat myself over why do i dont recover, and it makes me kinda angry that just now i realized all i watched is how to set a compos on how you react to your thoughts, to not start panicking and be kind with yourself and i did that and i still got frustrated and now i see cause these still doesnt teach you how to deal with limiting beliefs. I was loving myself and sometimes it felt good but i realized im not doing anything with the beliefs and thoughts i carry with myself. We dont have just ocd thoughts tho... everyone has limiting beliefs that doesnt help. Yet i cant find it how to deal with them. Its not just ignoring or accepting, that doesnt change your belief system. Replacing it is a fighting too which makes it worse so what helps? Many therapist tells you to think about how it makes you feel or to go back time see where it comes from. This is so not helpful for ocders cause i did that, it made me retraumatize myself by the stories my mind made up and then i couldnt tell whats reality and what was what i made up, and then i thought im avoiding reality... Sorry this really isnt about ocd but when realized that all that i did now was just setting the filter on how i react to things i have but i still dont know what to do is made me so angry... cause you can be super kind with yourself in every situation, you can be kind if youre trying to fly with a plane but you cant, kindness will not teach you how to fly, you need that to be able to focus and not rumminate but you still need to learn how to fly...Back to the therapist advice, how should we think about where it comes from, how it made us feel and think about the thoughts if we get spin out and this is what we have to actually stop doing? Its so fckn annoying tho that we learn that rumminating and thinking about why we had this thought is useless, doesnt help so we have to stop it, BUT in other therapy we will teach you to think about why you had that thought and how does it makes you feel...

Anyone else struggle with this theme? What has helped you? Its a fear that I will loose control. Even just reading the word triggers me. I don’t want to die and it’s constantly on my mind ruminating.

I’m a 13 year old girl and I think I have ocd. But im not sure. At around maybe 8 or 9, I remember giving signs, like touching things 5 times or 10 times, and other things similar to that. I’m now 13, and I feel like lately it’s gotten worse over the last year or so maybe. Here’s a list of my compulsions. I stay up until 8:00 AM or 9:00 AM counting to 5 because if I don’t God will send me to hell and I need to ask for Gods forgiveness. I love God In The Name Of Jesus Christ Amen At night before going to bed, I need to g and fix my bed at 7:50 AM and only :50 because if I went to bed at 56 it’s the devils number and I love God In The Name Of Jesus Christ Amen When scrolling, I need to scroll 5 or 10 times Before going to bed, I need to shake my sheets 5 times, shake my pillows 5 times and shake my blanket 5 times. And there’s way more regarding around do this or you’ll go to hell, it’s really exhausting. My parents noticed the way I act but they just get mad at me for it, I just really want to get help.

I came back from my psychologist and she told me that I suffer from massive anxiety, with that a bit of depression and the ocd plays on it. So now I have to cope with that and find the powers. If someone has something empowering to say, I’d love to hear 🙏🏻❤️

I’m tired. I’m absolutely tired. i cry and cry. i don’t know who to turn to. my ocd/pocd is physically weakening me. Also I’m someone who likes to interpret dreams. so I dreamt of me swimming and when I searched the meaning, some said I’d go to jail. & this sent me spiraling. please help. i really really wanna do therapy but mom says I’m not at that stage where I need therapy yet.

I’m currently really struggling right now and I’m not sure how to feel. The past 2 weeks my marriage has been awful, for so long I’ve always brainwashed myself into thinking everything is fine. But it’s not. My marriage is toxic. We fight horribly very often and I hate that because we have a 2year old. I’m constantly worried that this toxic cycle is going to affect our little one. Sadly I’m the only one that thinks about this. My husband never tries to get a therapist, he constantly says that’s I just need to learn how take his behavior in, he threatens to call my family and “expose” me everytime we fight, he uses my trauma against me when we fight, he constantly wants to isolate me from all family members which is extremely depressing for me. I know my family has some narcissistic tendencies but since I work with a therapist I’ve learned how to not let their tendencies affect me… I already lost my dad almost 2 years ago, so it doesn’t help that I have a husband who always encourages that I cut off my family members. What irks me the most is how cocky he is. I love that he’s confident but I hate how he uses it in a way where he thinks I’ll never find anyone better than him… and he treats me as if I find him extremely attractive when I unfortunately don’t anymore… that attitude has been a major turn off for me. I’ve also made it very clear to him that I want to be single, I’ve been saying this for months. I told him I’m tired of our toxic cycles and I see how it’s effecting my mental & physical health. For my own sake I want to see what my life is like without him. What upsets me is how much he tries to treat me as if we’re all good, like we’re a happy couple. And the moment I open my mouth everything crumbles… but why? All because I’m reminding him how I truly feel? I’m tired of these games of fighting like crazy and then playing love dovey after. It’s messing with me. Since things have gotten progressively worse I find myself longing for a previous partner of mine. Someone that treated me so well and nothing compared to what I’m going through now. My husband knows my ex and I had a conversation together not long ago, nothing flirtatious at all. Just a little catch up as we haven’t spoken in years, he’s very close with my family so we were bound to talk again one day. The not so great part and this may sound ridiculous but I feel like I could tell that he missed me. Almost like he was still waiting for me. I started to feel very impulsive , like I needed to be with him immediately! Because why not ? I’m so tired of being unhappy it’s making me dread my current marriage more and more. My heart just wants to be happy again. I want to be with someone who respects me, who treats me well, someone who can be there for me… I don’t get that. I feel like it makes sense for me to long for someone else. 😞 But at the end of the day I try to remind myself that I’m feeling many emotions right now and that my ocd is trying to make me make decisions asap. But I know that’s the wrong thing to do, especially when feeling very impulsive. I’m also trying to let my feelings subside over my ex.. because truthfully I don’t know how things would be if I were with him, I don’t know him that deeply anymore, it’s been so long. And lastly before going into any relationship, I feel as if I need to work on loving myself first. It’s hard.

so i haven’t been dealing with false memories or real event odc for a whole now but i literally just woke up from a terrible triggering nightmare at first i was ok and relieved when i woke up but now doubt is setting in and the part is in the dream i think the person is made up. but i have doubts i think i got this dream because i was thinking about kissing my partner right before i fell asleep and yesterday i was looking for a video of my little cousin and i had an intrusive “what if” but i was able to brush it off. so it may be that all i know is that i keep getting flashbacks and i hate it it’s disgusting and i hope its not true. and i don’t think i could accept it if that is the truth its just so wrong