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I have Postpartum OCD and was wondering if other moms out there have experienced this as well? I’ve wound up with harm/SI/etc. and just want to connect with moms that experienced the symptoms of OCD come on with their child’s birth?
I can’t stop oversharing I have to talk about my mental problems over and over again because I have ocd and cptsd and I need to make sure that the things I feel are normal and that I’m not a bad person. I never know if my anger is justified or not because whenever I showed any negative emotion besides sadness I was ridiculed and shamed. If someone does something that bothers me I need to ask all my friends (like ten different people) and make sure that how I feel is normal and okay. Is this something anyone else does? Like I have been suicidal but haven’t really told anyone until today and then I told all my friends because I told them that I was almost institutionalized today because I felt like I was being over dramatic and needed them to validate me. I thought I needed to kill my self since my ocd convinced me I had NPD and was manipulating everyone around me. And then I felt bad for being suicidal about it but I felt like I needed to them what I was feeling so they would reassure me that I’m not a bad person or being over dramatic for what I did. because I called the campus police on myself but then I needed to talk about it to process it because I can sometimes suppress things quickly and then never work through them
I can’t say that I have OCD but I’ve seen the various themes and I feel as I have it and well my life has been very crazy for the last 5 days. Right now I’m struggling with harm and somewhat religious ocd I’d say and becuase of the thoughts I have gotten panic/anxiety attacks and can’t keep myself from shaking and feeling very hot or cold becuase of these thoughts. I have also dealt with health, sexual orientation, etc in the past. But harm and religious ocd has really shaken me like crazy I’ve had thoughts of harming my mother and yk I don’t wanna say the word but yk it and I get really scared that maybe that my mind really wants to do it but I today I cried for the first time in such a while thinking about my mom and it kinda gave me relief because I seriously felt I have lost my emotions but I feel way more relaxed and joining this app today and seeing people’s experiences has given me hope
Hey guys anybody out there with staring OCD? Let’s talk about it!
Does anyone else try and have honest conversations with yourself with SOOCD? I’ll randomly be like “okay truly try and think if this is you it’s okay”. And when I do this it just always feels like I’m in denial
I worry when i hold my baby and observe her features like her hair or eyes or nose and i think shes adorable and cute as child then i get groinal responses i worry is it inappropriate even if i keep looking after these ocd thoughts and groinals. If i dont do any compulsions then i worry im doing something wrong and only if i do compulsions then im actually not.
The more I try to ignore the ocd and just live my life and let the intrusive thoughts, memories my ocd tries to alter, and false memories it creates flow without reacting to it, the worse it’s getting. I can’t do this anymore😩
I had the worst panic attack of my life today. It was horrible and I thought I was gonna have to call 911. I am so scared of losing everyone I care about I just want to be better. I have false memory ocd and I am in a spiral and I feel so out of touch with reality. If anyone has some techniques or advice that could help please share.
So I saw a knife in the kitchen two days ago and my anxiety went off the charts. And my brain is now saying I might do something to my mom. What the hell is going on with me? And now I feel scared, worried and don’t even want to be in the kitchen. So sone help me. What is this abs what do I do??
everyone says to hold in the confessions and not tell my bf to break the cycle. but what if they’re real actions in the past? doesn’t he deserve to know? i feel like i used to be sneaky (without bad intentions, i was just scared of him being mad at me) it feels genuinely like i’m lying by not telling him these things i’ve done. but also, once i start i can’t stop
Hi! I am wondering if anyone has experience with switching from one SSRI to another. I have been on sertraline (Zoloft) for going on 6 years. I have noticed that over the years i have had to gradually increase my dosage for the same therapeutic effect. I’ll be in remission for 6 mos, 9 mos, 2.5 years all within increasing dosage and now I’m on the maximum dose. During the past 5 years i have gained about 130 pounds. But im actively working on that. My sertraline is not packing the punch like it used to. I used to have maybe 1-3 anxious or ocd days a month, now i am having close to 15-20, my depersonalization is creeping up a little bit on me too, i have been able to function and maintain my household and attend school and work. Before medication i was quickly disabled because i was in ocd thought loops all day and couldn’t catch a break. So for that i am thankful. My psychiatrist suggested that we do a direct switch on my medication. go from 200mg sertraline to same dosage 200mg fluvoxamine (Luvox) i obviously know that i don’t feel as good as i once did, im still sleeping well, which wasn’t the case before, i wasn’t sleeping eating or even remembering to brush my hair so much so that i had to cut some of it out because it was so knotty because i was so terrified of the thoughts i was having and all symptoms that came with it. It’s like a monster that haunts you and follows you and wants to get you. I am so scared to switch my medication, the sertraline combined with buspar is the only thing i have ever been on and got so lucky when it worked wonders… i am sad that im having to switch. I am also nervous as to what my brain is going to do when it gets another pill for the first time and its so used to getting the sertraline daily. I am nervous to experience an exacerbation of symptoms. I’ve came so far in my healing journey and i know im capable of dealing with a lot of what ocd brings, i just know i should feel better than i do right now, and have more good days than bad. I know something doesn’t feel right and that in itself means it’s time for a change. I’ve been contemplating this medication change since October 2023. I have been about 7 months with more bad days than good. If anyone has any encouragement or advice it would be greatly appreciated. My psychiatrist seems to think the switch is the first thing we need to do, and he hopes that the only outcome is i feel better and wish that i had listened to him months ago about switching.
I started smoking 🍃almost 3 years ago it wasn’t that frequent until last year. Last year I got broken up with and my ocd and depression became severely extreme. Since it was easier I started smoking carts everyday at first it was okay until about 8 months end I ended up going to er for lung inflammation. It’s been 3 months since that and I’ve been trying to quit since then I haven’t owned my own but I’ve resorted to edibles and using other peoples almost everyday. I’ve started to feel extremely stupid I can’t learn anything or focus at all. Every word goes in one and out the other I don’t remember anything. And my head hurts I’m so stressed out because I’m so scared of the permanent damage I’ve done is it reversible? Will I forever be stupid and feel like I can’t learn anything even if I quit. If I stop my ocd is so horrible and I’m depressed, if tried meds and therapy but nothing works.
Good morning everyone I’m having a bad morning and I wanted to know what things you use to cope to feel better. I want to watch my favorite show but I keep doom scrolling What are coping skills you use that make you feel better?
Been checking this lately but is it ok to experience both my mental image and reality at the same time? Example: I can have an intrusion of a car crash pop up whilst sat in my kitchen. I can see both the crash and the kitchen at the same time like a double layer I’d say the image is more vivid than reality for a moment
Hi. My name is Alec. I've had this app for a year, maybe less, but never used it really. I don't know why, if it's a lack of motivation, or confusion about myself. Maybe a lot of things, piling on top of each other, day in, day out. I've had no platform comfortable sharing things with, no real community to try and be a part of, because I couldn't take the first step. I'm shooting a light into a dark night here and I don't know where this is going but here I am. I don't know what medical issues I've had, and my whole life it feels like whatevers been going on with me has been swept under the rug or categorized as just another part of autism. I may be on the spectrum with aspergers, diagnosed, but it always felt like there was something else, like these people just generalize my brain into something easy to work with. Well it's not. My brain has periodic attraction to minors, but that's being nice for the sake of it. They're kids. KIDS. And any time I've wanted to come out and get some help, maybe float the idea of someone coming out to people with that issue, I always hear the same response. Commit suicide, people like that deserve death. "If you in any way are attracted to kids, there is no excuse, people like that should be;" shot, stabbed, raped, etc. So I never have seeked anything or anyone out for help, and just sat in my own disgust and lust that I've grown numb to it. I think my brain obsessively targets a mindset to make myself feel less bad about drawn porn of the content, because that's all it's been, growing numb to sickening ideas and maybe even normalizing it. You can never be as mad at me or anything as I am, because I have to deal with these thoughts just about every day. I don't know if it's much better, but I don't look up CP. While I can't help these strange obsessive attractions, I've put so much energy directing it into fictional porn, specifically the drawn stuff, just so I couldn't be tempted in real life, and seems to be working so far, but if I can snuff out this issue for good, I don't know how I'd feel, but I hope relieved. That's simply a smaller chapter in my life, despite its vulgarity, so still be aware that I am being vulnerably open right now to a bunch of strangers that may not want to see this. I dont know. I really don't. There has been no option for me that I could find, and I'm already past the option for suicide, so I'm just crossing fingers that maybe some answer will come to because who can afford a therapist when they have no money, and listen to the comments of an ultimatum for various problems probably associated with a mental issue is murder or some twisted version of justice? I simply just want to figure out what's wrong with me, and maybe even fix all of my mental problems and blocks, despite this being an app for a target group of people. Maybe this is my root, who knows. But thank you anyways.
Seriously major trigger warning for this one!!!pocd!!! Take care of yourselves! Okay wow, this is really hard for me to talk about. I've never talked about this with anyone before but I've struggled with it long before I even knew what pocd was. I've always had intrusive thoughts about...that. They often involve inappropriate people weather they be relatives, inappropriate ages in either direction, and sometimes both. It makes me feel like an absolutely horrible person and to some extent I'm sort of hoping that I actually do have ocd just so that I can know I'm not disgusting. It's to the point that I actively avoid seeing family and always turn away whenever something like a diaper commercial comes on because I don't even want to think that! Anyway about a month ago I had this dream. It was almost like I was in gta kinda??? (I've never played gta) I know that sounds weird but I basically was running around a city causing public disturbances with a faceless friend. It was odd because sometimes it felt lucid enough that I could control myself and other times not at all and I think I knew it was a dream. Sometimes it would even be like an out of body expirance like it was in 3rd person. I also wasn't in my own body. It was like I was playing a character. I was and older man probably around late forties early fifties who was tall and slim (im 18, afab, 5'7, and chonky.) Anyway we ran into this like children's dance studio??? At one point I was in a child's pov and they all started climbing the walls to get away from us. But I ran in there as the older man and started...SAing the dance instructer and then one of the very young students and I couldn't stop. The police then showed up and that's when I woke up. Ever since that dream I've literally been unable to cope. I really don't know what to do. I feel so horrible and dangerous. I haven't even really been out of the house since it happened and I feel like my general anxiety has quadrupled. I'm so scared. I keep thinking that dream could have revealed who I "really" am. It doesn't help that SA has been a topic i literally couldn't get out of my head in general ever since I was young. Like I don't believe I was ever SA'd but for some reason it's like something I've read a lot about, heard a lot about, etc. I just can't stop thinking about it and because of that I keep thinking that im so hung up on it because I'm actually a horrible person. I don't know what to do but please if anyone can relate just a little bit or knows for a fact that this is ocd please tell me! I don't think I could live with myself if this wasn't ocd and I really am just a terrible person.
Okay, so, I know it says I have a conqueror badge, which is partially true, but doesn’t tell the whole story. I’m better, NOCD and medication have helped, but I’m not where I want to be yet. There are still things I can’t get past. For context, I have COCD and POCD and they feed into each other. A few things I still struggle with thinking that they contaminated or going to cause harm to someone: • Any kind of bodily fluid, especially my own. (I worry with my male bodily fluids, that I could somehow spread this to people and worry especially that I could spread nastiness to children.) • The floor. For whatever reason I feel that the floor is really gross and that I’ve put bodily fluids on the floor and they are going to be spread to people. (Same type of issue) • Sink handles. • Shoes and socks and my own feet even after a shower. • Trash cans, bags, and dumpsters. • Playing cards. • Other people’s cell phones. • My phone after using it in the bathroom. • Doing laundry. I could use some advice on dealing with these things. A huge thing for me (and here’s where I say only 18 and older should read this,) is a very natural thing that happens to me a lot. Pre-ejaculate. This probably causes me the most stress of anything in my life. I get this often, even when not feeling sexually aroused. I worry that it’ll get on my clothes when I go to the bathroom and then I’ll end up getting in on someone. I worry that it’ll go through my clothes and same result. I worry that when I take my clothes off and some is in my underwear that I’ll get it on the floor and then it’ll end up in my feet, socks, shoes, and/or anything that goes on the floor at all. I worry about getting on the machines or my hands while doing laundry and have to scrub my hands after doing my laundry and/or wipe down the machines or use paper towels to open them/close them/start them/stop them or just touch very specific spots on them. I worry that I’ll get it on me before bed and then my bed will no longer feel clean and safe and I’ll feel like I need to wash my sheets/wipe down everything that comes into contact with my bed. I’m so scared of the possibility of all these things that I avoid doing things like touching my feet or shoes without washing my hands, spraying down the floor with Lysol Disinfectant spray, wiping down anything I think may have had contact with something that may have gotten some on it. I don’t know what to do anymore. I want to be able to just exist and not have to shower before bed or as soon as I wake up or have to wash my hands while I’m doing laundry. I could go into more detail about the other things but they’re relatively self-explanatory. The precum thing is not so I wanted to be v more in depth while describing this issue. I do not have any attraction to children btw, (Back to the POCD) I will protect every child I can. And that’s why this freaks me out so bad because I worry about other peoples wellbeing over my own. Please if anyone has any ideas. Help me. Thank you.
I’m going through what is hopefully just a really bad hypochondria episode where I’ve convinced myself I have schizophrenia. It’s been about 8 months and I’ve been through a range of crazy symptoms but the most prevalent symptom is getting crazy delusional thoughts like “what if my wife is a demon and trying to get to me” “what if nobody is real and these are all monsters/demons out to get me” etc etc. the thoughts are absolutely terrifying and they make me look at people differently, and i have to question myself whether I truly believe the thoughts or not, they feel so real, when they come on I almost catch myself genuinely feeling paranoid that they are 100% real and having a panic attack, but then the tiny bit of me that’s still rational brings me back to reality. And from then on I have to question myself all day “do I really believe this?” “Well you technically can’t disprove those things” “if it’s not real, then why does it FEEL real?” “This really is schizophrenia” “ what if it’s not schizophrenia but ACTUALLY real?” “who do I go to for help?” “What if I can’t trust anyone” etc, it’s literally hell. I can never give a satisfying “No, I don’t believe this” to these thoughts. I can go days and weeks and be able to confidently shrug them off and tell how ridiculous they are only for them to come back with a vengeance the next day. I could really use some reassurance even though I know it’s bad. I have never been like this before until I started obsessing over schizophrenia. I’ve been like this for 8 months now.
i’ve (22f) been out as bisexual for almost five years and i’ve known i love women my whole life. I’ve always still been “attracted”to men but ever since i opened myself up to women it feels very different and more comfortable, but i am worried this is just because of men-related trauma. i feel like i am lying to myself either way if i call myself bisexual or a lesbian. I have a really hard time distinguishing how i really feel from my so-ocd making me choose a label for myself. I know i love women but it really confuses me if i still like men or not. Like i said this might not even be my ocd talking, just confusion lol. but the ocd is making me obsess over figuring it out. is anyone else dealing with something like this?
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