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It’s been a dream of mine to go into the military ever since I was a little kid. I’m supposed to be leaving for the Marines sometime this year but the way things are going with my OCD, I might not even get to go. I got a video on my fyp on tiktok about a marine being in possession of cp and that really triggered me. I know it’s my OCD and everything that’s causing the “what if?” questions but I’m just so annoyed about it. Like why can’t people not do that stuff?? AND HE WAS MARRIED AND HAD KIDS. Sometimes, I don’t even want to go into the military because of how many predators there are in there and people hide it and cover it up. Honestly, I’m scared that the military is going to change me in a bad way, you know? I really want to go in for the opportunities and the travel but do I seriously want to sign myself off to the government to be around people that I hate? Kinda wack is all I can say about it. It’s either Marines or go be a firefighter, which I was already planning on doing after I got out of the military. I really wanna help people so that’s why I wanna be a firefighter. With the marines, I want the experience, I’m supposed to be an aviation mechanic but now I’m scared :(.

Can anyone share their experience with alternatives to pharmaceutical, eg naturopath et al. Cheers

Today I had one of the worst episodes of my harm OCD. I woke up from a nap and was in a derealization state. Then my harm OCD told me I was going to snap and loose control and that I craved it. I was disgusted with my self and started to cry and have a panic attack. I was convinced that I’m a bad person and has murderous intent towards my parents who I love so much. It was so real that I legitimately got terrified. Once I calmed down, I feel very guilty now and feel like I am a bad person and one day I will snap. I don’t want to hurt my parents at all but my mind tells me otherwise sometimes. It’s a living hell. Even right now I’m suffering an anxiety attack and even question if it is OCD or if I’m legit just going crazy. I have almost convinced my self that I’m just a nut job waiting to snap. I just started my OCD medication and therapy but I wish it could all just go away

So I feel like recently I've been getting over my Sexual Orientation OCD Theme. Either that or I've just been kinda tired of the thoughts for now lol. I still worry about it but I'm just kinda lazy to worry about that in the moment haha. Cause I've been loosing sleep over that. Anyways I had this tans-Ocd theme pop up like 2 months ago but it lasted like maybe a week and the SOOCD was just more prominent so that's what has been stressing me out recently. But the Transgender theme is back again and it stressed me out when I had that thought not too long ago. It's cause I was taking pictures of myself. Like Selfies because I think I look attractive and I like giving myself some self confidence you know? Plus I take pics of myself to use for drawing references. I like to draw and crafty etc. So it's the art within haha. Anyways. I was looking at my pictures and observing them etc. And I notice that I have like guy features? Idk how to explain it but sometimes I can see the small male features on my face or whatever you'd identify as male features. But then I had a thought like oh I'd look good as a guy. And it like raced my heart. And that's how it happened last time when this Theme popped up. I think I was tryna like pop a pimple and was looking at my face and I noticed some male features. And that's how it started too before. But now I'm just worried like what if I wanna be trans or something? And now when I think about wearing girly clothes it's like my brain doesn't want it?? Idk how to explain it. But growing up i was a bit of a tom boy because I only have brothers so I just felt more comfortable dressing up that way. But I always wanted to dress more feminine as a girl but I think I just felt uncomfortable doing so because I wanted to fit in I guess? Like I wanted to wear the girl stuff but I'd always resort to wearing a graphic T and whatever because I didn't have to try looking feminine cause I was insecure or just idk felt awkward I guess. But I'm so confused tho cause I always wanted to be the princess, I always wanted to be the girl in Fan stories or idk you know? Like I loved always reading Fan fiction LMFAO and I was always the girl cause I wanted the guy to date me LMFAOOOO. But anyways yeah idk. My bf has mentioned sometimes he'd think about it too but as a normal thought. But idk. I'm also into games and comics or like TMNT etc. and more boyish things as well? Cause that's what I grew up with so I'm just familiar with that but I also loved Disney princess and stuff. But now I just feel fake and don't know what I am now? Like was I forcing myself to like those girl things cause I was a girl growing up in a society where girls only like girl things and vice versa?l Or was it cause I actually enjoyed it but was a lil embarrassed cause I was the only girl growing up. UGHHHhh Plus I remember I didn't wear make up through out high school or not much now cause I always believed in natural beauty and stuff cause I remember always being told I have to wear this cause of this ans that. Or when there was times I wanted to wear a skirt or dress I always wanted to wear my converse but then get told I can't wear shoes with a dress so then I just stopped lmfao. But now I do wear skirts here and there but now I just feel awkward. Anyways I just have this Theme and it's stressing me out if I'm in some sort of denial I'm trans or something? Nothing against Trans people, I support those who are. It's just more like a identity crisis cause my brain is just going and going. I just wanted to know if anyone has gone through something similar or had the same experience? Thank you for anyone who replies!

I’m just looking for some hobbies to keep myself busy. I currently play guitar and go to the gym but I cut my fingers playing guitar today in class and idk how much longer my moms gonna be able to afford my gym membership with my trainer so I’m just looking for things to do. Videos games drawing and watching movies don’t really interest me I like physical stuff a lot more and I’ve been thinking about getting involved in after school clubs but I’m mainly focused on hobbies for the weekend so I’m not bored out of my mind going crazy from intrusive thoughts so any suggestions help

I feel like im loosing my mind. I feel like i experience derealization or what. I feel confused like very very confused. I cant even think normally. Im just tired. I feel like im loosing myself. Im scared that everyone tells me that i have OCD, but what if this is all true? I dont think and im scared that other so-ocd sufferers dont feel this way as i do. I feel literally, LITERALLY so convinced that this must be true. It feels like i already accepted that this is true. Im done. My brain is broken. I even started to have thoughts like what if i have schizophrenia or dissociative identity disorder. Help me please. Do i have psychosis or what?

I have been taking Prozac 40mg daily it seems to be helping my ocd . I read that 60-80 mg has seemed to help people more with ocd Wondering if anyone has any experience with this. Thanks

I have a contamination fear but what really bothers me as that I take souch e tea time getting cleaning done. I know with a contamination fear people might think that my home and everything is just super clean, etc. However, that is not the case. The reasons is because there are things in my own home that worry me and I either avoid them a much as I can or take forever when I am cleaning. Does anyone have this issue facing them? I wantba n I e house. I really do but to ve honest I never wanted this house. But in the beginning I feel I kept a tidy house but the more I worry about in mynhouse the less work I get done or if I get it done..it TAKES a long time to do it!!! Any help?????? If I wasxnit

i think i'm past the point of no return. I can't possibly justify what happened this time. I tested for attraction and I imagined a scenario and I think that I felt attraction or that I found it attractive. I can't tolerate this. I don't know what to do. I feel that this time was undeniable. I felt an immediate spike of anxiety.

Everything feels so real. I think learning about non-offending pedophiles has really screwed with me. I feel like I’m not even doing compulsions anymore like I genuinely cannot remember if I do them or not and the groinal responses are messing with me. I keep having intrusive dreams and I’m in that half asleep state and I feel nothing after that or I feel weird like a good weird, I don’t know. It’s a really weird feeling when I get those thoughts but I don’t like them, I don’t think. All I know is, I keep seeking reassurance and I feel like I don’t have OCD because the way I feel, like the way I get worked up isn’t the same as others. Whenever I try to watch a show, like 9-1-1 or daily dose of sunshine, I feel like I’m watching something I shouldn’t be. Or if I’m just on my phone, I feel like something is going to happen. I feel red flags whenever I’m on my phone, like somehow cp will appear. I know that OCD is the doubting disorder but my god, this is just crazy. I feel like I’m going crazy. Everything is just nonstop, it’s so constant and I’m genuinely scared that I’ll do something when I get out of my room. I don’t know anymore, this whole OCD thing is just making me lose my mind.

Our quest for certainty in the universe demonstrates our intrinsic recognition of a source or entity that possesses Absolute Knowledge, often referred to as The All-Knowing or Allah (God in Arabic). When we cease our pursuit of identifying this source of certainty and instead embrace uncertainty, we are, in essence, submitting to this deity—known as God, Allah, Elohim, and by other names. This submission is an acknowledgment of the existence of a deity that holds the Absolute Truth with certainty. May we all find healing through our submission to The One Source of Truth, whom we call God or Allah

Hi everyone, Lately, I’ve been feeling confused and anxious about my sexuality, which has been challenging to navigate. I’ve always identified as straight and am currently in a happy relationship with my boyfriend. However, I’ve recently started questioning if I might have some attraction to women, which has caused me a lot of anxiety. To be clear, I’ve never experienced romantic or physical attraction toward women in real life, but I have watched lesbian porn in the past. Now, I can’t help but worry that this might mean I’m attracted to women after all. On top of this, I’ve noticed a decrease in my sexual desire for my boyfriend, which only intensifies my concerns about both my sexual orientation and my relationship. This confusion is something I’ve never dealt with before, and it’s starting to take an emotional toll. If anyone has experienced something similar, I would really appreciate any advice or insights on how you worked through it. What helped you find clarity? Someone mentioned that my anxiety might be OCD-related, though I’m not familiar with OCD in this context. I’d love to hear from anyone with experience in navigating these kinds of thoughts or anxiety. I’m open to any personal stories, resources, or guidance on how to approach this situation, both for myself and in communication with my partner. I want to better understand what I’m feeling without being overwhelmed by fear. Thank you in advance for your support!

Hi everyone :) i need hobby ideas what are things that require you to take care of something? (As in like taking care of a pet/plant)

I started seeing every little thing as a sin. Or at least things that will bring bad karma. Everything, even little things like listening to music or enjoying a meal. In my eyes, everything everyone is doing is mostly sins and it terrifies me to death. It scares me to the point of paralysis and I can’t even do anything anymore because everything is a sin in my eyes. I’ll definitely spiral if I think about it more, but if I don’t, I feel like I’m lying to myself. I don’t even have confidence that this is OCD anymore. What if I’m right (I’m not necessarily wrong according to my religious doctrines, not that I’m a 100% sure) and nothings going to help me, not even therapy? And if most things humans do are sins anyway, what’s the point of anything? (See how it starts relating to an existential crisis) I’m terrified that no one’s gonna be able to help me anymore. I feel like I’m at wits ends. I don’t practice Christianity btw. Any insights or even “me too”s would help.

how do i snap my self out of a suicidal ocd episode? it’s constant thoughrs i feel scared and hopeless. i just want to be better, any suggestions help

hey, my boyfriend recently came to me and opened up to me about him thinking he has ROCD. i am trying my absolute hardest to understand it all, and came to the realization that i might have it too. we have been dating for almost 2 years now and we’ve been on such a good streak lately if that’s what you want to call it. the bad times aren’t truthfully bad at all. but i get so anxious when he goes out to the bars without me every weekend. and then he gets anxious because of how i respond too it. so basically im just asking for some tips i guess, because i truthfully do think he is the one and could spend the rest of my life with him. but there has got to be an easy way to get past this.

I started feeling better, more calm and relaxed but then I remembered that I’m literally heartbroken and single and I went back to feeling like shit again, all the anxiety came storming back. Why does it have to be this way, I don’t know what to do with my life anymore.

as I'm too triggered by my intentions behind wearing something. So a few days ago I talked to someone about women's attire, who is Muslim. so she told me everything and gave me an example where I'm still stuck and that is she said in her university there was a girl who was Muslim and she used to come to university fully covered but would wear eyeliner and a different kind of eye lenses and would walk in such a way that boys would be after her!! And I'm literally stuck here because it is possible to be like this even if someone is fully covered? And today morning I just saw a post after waking up immediately and that is a Muslim girl saying that it is weird and kinda dislikable to see girls wearing shiny glossy wet kinda lipsticks. And I totally understood this vibe she meant something hot or sexy kinda thing that girls do. but what am I doing? I feel like im doing the same thing. i want to look good and want people to see me but not something that I'm dying for it I'm not that kind of person, right? And am I even supposed to know? I dont know my own intentions and tbh I really want to be a smart bold strong and sorted personality to everyone. even in front of men. Am i considered as those girls then? And am I wanting just boys' attention? And I'm even scared to red lipstick. I've always loved red lipstick it suits me a lot. But now just now a scene came in my mind that is "I'm wearing red lipstick and I'm drinking something through a straw and a small portion of my red lipstick is in my straw now and I've come with a guy and I let that guy see that swatch of red lipstick on my straw. And you know what kind of feeling it is creating?? And was I always like this??? And why are these kinds of particular things and scenes coming rapidly?

I told my mom about the intrusive thoughts. Tw for mentions of abuse:) So something happened where I ended up freaking out on my abusive dad and I ended up still feeling bad about it and like I kinda just spilled. I almost said everything but it was late so she said she doesn't really want to get too into it right now but she was still helping me. I freaked out on my abusive dad and I ended up feeling really bad about my reaction. He tried to scream at me so I screamed louder for some reason. He called me the R slur and tried acted like he was going to hurt me physically but my mom stepped in front of him. (No one got hurt !! He tried to scare people like he's going to beat them up but he never does. He's leaving very soon.) I decided to tell my mom about how bad I felt and I feel a lot better about the situation. She said she wishes I didn't freak out like this because it drains my energy but she gets where I was coming from and I'm entitled to snap under those circumstances. He called me names and just started freaking out on me for no reason but this is just his typical behavior. I felt bad for the whole situation because I was just trying to be nice with him because he keeps on ignoring me like I'm not there. I ended up telling my mom about how I feel like I'm a bad person. I told her I feel like I don't deserve anything and I feel like I messed everything up. I told her I feel like I traumatized my brothers and sister and her and I said the intrusive thoughts are constant. I told her how I feel like I hurt everybody. I told her about how I just got out of a 12 day on and on cycle of panic attacks. I told her almost everything because I can't do this anymore. My sister was there and even said that and she even said "there is a whole OCD theme for this btw" it was a little funny but I was kinda hyperventilating at the moment so I couldn't find it funny :(. My mom and sister talked me down and made me feel a lot better. I feel bad for putting them in that position to do that and I didn't mean to😭😭. I don't know how it happened to be honest 😭 my sister even said that she can't think of anything bad that I've done with makes me crazy relieved because I feel like im always doing something wrong. I feel like I'm always weird and I'm always messing something up and that I don't deserve anything and that I'm just a terrible person. My mom put it into a perspective that she's freaked out on us like I've freaked out before too and we aren't traumatized or hate her and I feel a lot better. I do do a lot of weird and crazy shit that I'm not proud of. Even things she doesn't know about but I feel better knowing that she's been here for a lot of the things I have done and she still doesn't see me as a bad person. And I'm hoping it's not just because I'm her daughter. I'm so tired from crying and freaking out and yelling but I thought I would post about this. I feel kinda good. I'm still anxious and still getting intrusive thoughts but they aren't as bad right now because I talked about it and I keep thinking about what she said. I have a lot of OCD themes that feel constant in my head so I'm not going to label this.. if this finds you it finds you lol. Have a good day <3

I really don’t know what to do- I’ve been making it so much worse with compulsions, watching death anxiety videos or videos about why I shouldn’t be scared over and over, and getting on the same Reddit forums about death anxiety over and over all day. I’ve never felt this bad in my life and nothing feels real, I feel trapped in my own life and can’t see the way out of this theme, I’m feeling so depressed and I can’t care about anything. The rumination is awful and now I’m getting intrusive thoughts about my own corpse and everyone I know. It feels like my life has been reduced to a single line, like a timeline and I’m slowly moving across the timeline. I contacted the suicide hotline the other day but it didn’t really help, I don’t want to die and I don’t want to kill myself but life feels like it will never be the same and like I’m living in a nightmare.