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Every single time my head itches and a little oil deposit comes off when I scratch it I’m convinced I have lice. I got lice when I was a junior in high school but that was 3 years ago and ever since I’ve been terrified I have it. It got so bad once I spent my last $10 on lice treatment when I didn’t even have it. I used to wash my hair with lice shampoo every other day just to prevent it. I’ve noticed the obsession gets very bad when I’m highly anxious and then I just can’t stop scratching my head. The same type of thing happens when I’m too full or when I have a stomach pain, I think I’m pregnant. I know I’m not because I’ve had safe sex and I’m on the pill and I’ve had my period 3 times since I last had sex. Someone just tell me how I can stop spiraling myself into this

I’ve always had anxiety and ocd about throwing up but then it went into just horrible panic attacks where I needed someone close to calm me down like my mom or gf. It subsided and I was doing great for years. But it’s come back and now, I live in NYC, for the last 2 years I can’t take the subway anymore m, I can’t get on elevators or planes. It’s controlled my life. If im on there alone I get panic attacks. It happens automatically. I’m scared that the subway is going to get stuck and I can’t get off same with the elevator and plane. I’m scared of having panic attacks now and I just have a huge general sense of anxiety everywhere. I just feel off constantly now. I really want to get my life back and not care about these things. Anyone else dealing w the same?

I have so so much anxiety all the fucking time. I feel like I’m going to lose my mind.

How do people NOT freak out about their heart?? My Apple Watch sometimes tells me that my heart rate is under 50 and sometimes it says it’s like 130. It really freaks me out. The other day an app told me my heart rate was 30 but when I measured it manually it was 70. I feel as if I skip a lot of beats as well. Ugh. I had two ECG and other than tachycardia, they came back fine. I just can’t stop thinking about it.

Hello everyone, so my ocd has kind of changed into statements like “you don’t love him, break up with him.” “You’ve never loved him” “you don’t like sex with him” “you think he is grows” “you don’t want to be with him” “you’re lying” “you guys will never be the same.” It used to be more of “what if” questions and it’s starting to be more believable. It feels as though this is my truth. Did this happen to anyone else and is it still rocd? I’m very confused at this stage of my journey so any insight would be great!

Trigger warning? I don’t know what to do. I like this app, I like how I can express myself, seek and offer help. But it’s becoming a compulsion to read everyone’s post and afraid I’ll miss something important, something I can relate to or help with. Should I stop? I can’t check as often as I used to and I was okay in the beginning.

*Long post so apologies. I just wish someone can understand where I am coming from and share their thoughts / emotions or experiences* I have not been diagnosed by a professional about my mental health, but I am pretty sure I experience OCD and anxiety on a daily basis. It all started from being really sick when I was little .. A bug hit me that I had never dealt with before that had caused me to throw up profusely. After this, from since I can remember I am “scared” of germs. If I knew someone was sick, I would contaminate myself from them and avoid all contact. I used to bring my own cutlery to restaurants. I have to wash my hands and use hand sanitiser most of the time. If I start to feel a little bit ‘icky’ I would be on google search to find out if I had symptoms of the bug. It has become such a strain and I have really bad anxiety about the fact of not wanting to be sick. I avoid eating in low rated hygiene places and I have to double check that certain foods are cooked / prepared (ie: chicken) is cooked properly. ... My other OCD situation is a little bit different and I’m unsure as to why and what. I have intrusive thoughts in my head that range from: not wanting to drive in the fear of a car crash. ??? Or I get worried sick knowing that my family and/or partner are driving long distances in fear that I will lose them to an accident. I make sure that they message me during and after commuting so my mind is at ease. I also have a distressing time processing about my childhood; I was once sexually abused that still makes me feel sick to this day. But because of this ... I have had thoughts of sexual “exploration” with my sibling who has nothing to do with my abusive past????? Nothing has happened between me and my sibling of course .. but my OCD is creating false memories that I can’t seem to get rid off? It makes me feel so sick and that I can not live with myself because of this. I then try to flashback all the memories of my past to see if there is some truth about it but it just ends up making things worse ???? I’m just really struggling in my current relationship because of this as it’s not the most comfortable or normal thing to talk about. Any help would be highly appreciated as I feel like I’m losing my mind over it. Sorry for the long text, there is more to it but I just wanted some of you to get the brief understanding of things.

Hey guys I’d love your opinion on some stuff! I’ve had my first instrusive thought about being depressed/suicidal on September 13th 2017. I got intrusive thoughts where I had depression and thought I was gonna end up killing myslef to a point where I really convinced myself I was depressed and would constantly look up depression symptoms. Then it somehow became into thoughts being bisexual cause I thought a girl was super super super pretty which was October 28th, 2017 but this spiraled into Harm/killer OCD thoughts after watching a violent scene in the movies and thought I enjoyed it and it’s been torture for me ever since. A year later here I am. Harm OCD has prolly been the hardest! At first I was so bad when I was scared to talk to people and felt guilty becoming friends with them Because they’re Talking to a serial killer. Some days are good. Some days are terrible. I can’t stay out too long and feel anxious going to places sometimes because it might spike my killer thoughts again. If I was able to survive a year without meds do you guys think I’ll be able to get rid of this killer thoughts without meds? I’m convinced where therapy won’t ever help me... and I gonna suffer like This forever. I have health insurance and I don’t know where to start and who to go to.

Does anyone here have ROCD? What is it like for you?

What is ERP and can you can you do it yourself?

I’ve finally given up on having friends. No one cares for me as much as I care for them. It’s a horrible feeling. So horrible I’d rather be alone ??‍♀️.

I had a panic attack at work today, like full on crying, and had to leave early. I’m so embarrassed and scared to go back tomorrow

Does anxiety make you feel like ur gonna go out of control and your about hurt someone like even kill someone (my fear is harm ocd) and I feel like I’m Going insane I even begin to cry thinking I’m gonna be like this forever sincenits already been a year... is this actually anxiety or am I becoming a psychopath mental serial killer?

I have several OCD themes currently. It’s pretty much entwined in my entire existence and has been for decades. I was only diagnosed a few months ago and have been making progress with ERP on my contamination issues which is an amazing feeling. To have some control over this has made the future seem bright. Unfortunately lately I’ve been struggling with questioning my 10 plus year marriage (something I’ve dealt with on and off the entire time). My feelings had been solid for at least the past year with no obsessing in that area so it’s really very disturbing to experience this now just as I am getting a slight handle on my OCD. I’ve been so distracted with this the past 2 weeks I haven’t been able to make much progress. Just now I considered the possibility that OCD is behind this. Has anyone ever found that OCD started to sabotage you in one area when you were making progress in another? Is this possible?

I’m really not feeling well at all because of my OCD. How do you know when you need intensive treatment? I guess I follow up with my doc and therapist.

So I’ve had HOCD nearly a year and still haven’t seriously thought about therapy. It’s gotten sorta better but nothing significant, I always end up slipping back into the cycle. I don’t really have time or energy for therapy but is it bad that I’ve just tried to deal with it on my own this long?

Just got finished with my erp for Hocd and because I decided to look at the most gayest pics because I want this shit to be done with I almost gave up doing this smh. But now when I see the pics I start to think hmm I’m a try that on a chick haha and then I smile and I’m like yeah buddy! So I’m getting better but it’s kind of weird too because I’m getting aroused as I’m switching my thinking to trying that with a chick which is good but then I have to keep looking at the gay pics while I was just getting aroused thinking that and it sucks because then it makes want to look up naked pics of chicks so I can jack off to them smh haha but I still have to look at the Gay ass pics smh.

Anyone got advice on how to explain to my parents/friends that I have OCD and need help, I can’t cope alone anymore. I need support from someone.

Does anyone else get weird about the whole “knock on wood” thing? Like, okay, it’s a silly joke superstition thing, BUT ALSO I do it all the time, it’s starting to get kind of obsessive-compulsive, like I literally pulled over yesterday and got out of my car to tap on a tree because I said something that required ~the knock.~

so i’m not looking for reassurance or anything, just advice. so I have really bad HOCD, and sometimes it cans feel as if I am really gay. I hate that feeling and no matter what I do, I can’t seem to convince myself that it is just OCD trying to trick me. I have liked guys my whole life, but I have never been allowed to date, so a boyfriend seems so scary. I know for a fact that I want a husband in the future, but when I think about being in a relationship, I freak out. does anyone have any advice on how to change my mindset??