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how do you forgive yourself when you’ve made really bad mistakes as a child and some now? I’m having a hard time feeling like I deserve to get better and be treated for OCD. I have thoughts that what if it’s not OCD and I need to be treated for something much worse. The mistakes I made when I was younger I consider morally wrong, and the ones I made recently I sortve consider but it was fueled by OCD and not a direct harm I guess just crossed my own moral boundaries. I believe deep down I am a good person, there’s a lot that proves that, but there’s a lot that says otherwise. I know everyone makes mistakes but I can’t shake this feeling. I also have this weird thing with feeling like my mistakes fall under a “extreme” category, like think about a prison and how the really bad sickos are all together, my brain tells me I fall under THAT.. and belong there. I just want a normal life, whether that’s a family or me just being happy on my own. But I feel like I can’t…. I’m so young!! Why me :( I feel so gross and like a fraud 24/7, and that I can’t even have friends or a partner because I would need to tell them eevery mistake I made and let them decide from there. I feel like my OCD case is so much weirder than others but idk. If you read this thank you!

Hi, I'm 17,about to be 18. I've been struggling with these thoughts for the past 8 months. I was wondering if someone experienced ever the same because I feel im "different". BACKGROUND: (I'm not diagnosed with Ocd but seeing a local counselor) About 9 months ago I cheated on my boyfriend with this guy S (who blackmailed, manipulated and molested me). Since then when I realized that what i did was very WRONG and so I started ruminating picking apart every single interaction and telling my boyfriend, i tried to remember every single detail because otherwise I felt like i was being a fraud and hiding things to save myself, i had many crisis about it because I had also what i think was false memory ocd. My boyfriend forgave me idk how tbh I still wonder. CURRENT STRUGGLE: Months ago I was sure I didn't wanna S in any way and i was sure even when everything happened. For the past 2 months tho I've been having thoughts like " Do I love S?" "I love S" "S is hot" "Would S find me hot?" "What if I want S?" " What if I don't love my boyfriend enough?" "What if I secretly want S?" "What if I see my boyfriend as a friend only?Do I?" And I tried testing my reaction to intimate scenarios with S, I'm scared I like it i dont really wanna love S or have any secret attraction, I wish I didn't have any of this and I want to be sure of my feelings for my boyfriend because I know I wanna be with him and I see a future with him like he brings me comfort. But a part of me keeps trying to convince me otherwise. Sometimes I think I'd rather die than have these thoughts. Does someone experience the same thoughts? Am I alone in this?

Hi, I'm 17,about to be 18. I've been struggling with these thoughts for the past 8 months. I was wondering if someone experienced ever the same because I feel im "different". BACKGROUND: (I'm not diagnosed with Ocd but seeing a local counselor) About 9 months ago I cheated on my boyfriend with this guy S (who blackmailed, manipulated and molested me). Since then when I realized that what i did was very WRONG and so I started ruminating picking apart every single interaction and telling my boyfriend, i tried to remember every single detail because otherwise I felt like i was being a fraud and hiding things to save myself, i had many crisis about it because I had also what i think was false memory ocd. My boyfriend forgave me idk how tbh I still wonder. CURRENT STRUGGLE: Months ago I was sure I didn't wanna S in any way and i was sure even when everything happened. For the past 2 months tho I've been having thoughts like " Do I love S?" "I love S" "S is hot" "Would S find me hot?" "What if I want S?" " What if I don't love my boyfriend enough?" "What if I secretly want S?" "What if I see my boyfriend as a friend only?Do I?" And I tried testing my reaction to intimate scenarios with S, I'm scared I like it i dont really wanna love S or have any secret attraction, I wish I didn't have any of this and I want to be sure of my feelings for my boyfriend because I know I wanna be with him and I see a future with him like he brings me comfort. But a part of me keeps trying to convince me otherwise. Sometimes I think I'd rather die than have these thoughts. Does someone experience the same thoughts? Am I alone in this?

First of all I am French so sorry if my writing skills are not the best. So I guess I have always suffer from OCD. I always needed to check things to seek for reassurance. First that was with objects, closed door, windows, stoves … But about 3 years ago it’s started getting worse, I mean I started to understand that something was wrong. So I started to be scared to pee myself in public. So I started to touch my legs to see if everything was alright ( I still do it ).But I somehow find a way to calm my anxiety and to keep it undercover so I never talk about it before the 1 December 2024. In fact, something happened the 1 December 2024 and since then I have been struggling so bad due to a false memory on a real event. So to give you more context I always felt really anxious after parties. I always needed a friend to tell me that everything was ok. 3 years ago my boyfriend and I started dating. He is really so perfect for me is like the man I have always dreamt of I have never felt anxious near him or because of him. But after a party with or without him I still always check if I didn’t do something bad to feel better and not stress about things that did not happen. And recently I had OCD thoughts about cheating. Like for exemple at work a male coworker acted strange with me and I started panicking because I told myself that I had sex with me but didn’t remember it. It stayed a week in my mind because I didn’t want to cheat on my boyfriend I thought I was an horrible person. And then this obsession started to calm down because I knew that it was impossible. But I went to a party with my uncle we had few drinks but I wasn’t wasted drunk we finished the night into a club and a guy started to say flirty things to me and I know I told him I was in a relationship so the discussion stopped and I went dancing. While I was dancing I started to felt anxious and needed to check with this guy if I wasn’t firlty and if nothing happened he told me that no and that he wishes me the best for my relationship. But the day after I started to feel so anxious I had the feeling I cheated on my bf I felt so bad and so strange because I knew I didn’t do anything but I was so scared I did it and forgot ( it’s impossible because I was talking to my bff and bf the entire night and I told them everything that this guy told me) the day after the party I asked my uncle if I did something bad he told me no but the even with his confirmation I wasn’t in peace I was so scared that I did something bad that will cause me to lose my boyfriend. So I told everything to my bf I told him that I know I didn’t cheat on him but I was still so scared I did. He reassured me but I felt even worst because he was the one reassuring me and I was feeling like the bad one. So I asked a friend to asked the guy of the party If something happened that night he told her no so I felt better during a week but the feeling came back because i was scared that he didn’t understand the question and so give a wrong answer. Now it’s been 2 months I still have some doubts I now I didn’t do anything but I am so scared I cheated on my bf. Sometimes it’s like I am trap in the past and I can move on from this event that didn’t happen. I am scared of losing my boyfriend and of being a really bad person it’s so paralyzing. Sorry that was long ahah

So, I know my capacity to get fixated on things. And it's normally something that's relatively remote but, my latest issue is really getting to me and I was wondering if people have any advice. I'm avoiding getting too into specifics, as I don't want this to get reassurance-y but, in essence.. I came to the realisation recently that people who I'd been "friends" (feels like the wrong term now) when I was younger were not very nice people, and normalized a lot of very unpleasant behaviour towards other members of the group. They really normalized it, sold themselves as figures of authority, as older and more responsible and grown-up than others, and looking back, they acted horribly. And coming to this realisation, that I'd been manipulated into just accepting their behaviour has just... broken me. My OCD has latched onto it and I can't stop feeling irreversibly tainted by it. I've talked to others about it, and they've reassured me, told me it's not a big deal and that I hold myself to too high a standard, but none of that sticks. I feel better for a bit, then think 'Maybe when you told them you were skewing it to make yourself look better' or 'Did you leave out a crucial detail'. I keep ruminating over and over, trying to remember exactly how everything played out, trying to figure out if I fed into the behaviour, if I did something bad myself (because y'know, I feel like I was accepting of it at the time, so what does it say about my own values?). I know I need to stop doing all this if I want to improve, but then some part of me keeps saying 'So, you're just going to let yourself off the hook then?' Normally, I can rationalize my own fears to some degree, assure myself something won't happen, but the realness of the situation, and the fact I only came to understand the reality of it because the thought had been bothering me means it feels so much more all-encompassing. I know confessing in itself is a compulsion, but I keep feeling that if I'm not I'm somehow concealing what I 'really am' from others around me, and any positive interactions are me deceiving them in some way. I feel like I can't enjoy anything in life right now, and a good part of me feels I should not enjoy it ever again. If anybody has any advice on it, I'm all ears. Or even hearing if you relate to these feelings, I might appreciate the solidarity at least.

I was sitting next to my daughter. Idk what happened it was like I twitched and my arm went toward her. But then i stopped middair. I dont recall the details but ocd says i was doing something inappropriate or touching inappropriate. Thats not who i am. It could have been an involuntary action or i extended my arm and than got anxious so brought it back but i tried ignoring it and had false memory now

I was maybe 6 or 7 and she was maybe 5 or 6. The only thing I remember is that maybe I was on a bed and I think she got on top of me (dry humping with clothes on) and I remember we were under a blanket but I don't know if that's true, I don't know if I got on top of her or she got on top of me? Or maybe I wasn't on the bed but I just saw her? or maybe nothing happened? Or maybe it was someone else on the bed? Or maybe she was just on the bed sleeping because, I have a memory of seeing her sleeping because I think she had a skirt on that day? I don't know, it's stressing me out not knowing, I'm scared and what if I really did SA? I've seen a lot of TikTok on COCSA and I'm thinking that maybe I committed this act, didn't I? I don't know Because I was on TikTok and I got three TikToks in a row talking about SA and I'm thinking to myself, what if I really SA this girl when I was a kid, and I'm a really bad person and in reality I don't have OCD. What if this is a sign that I really did it? I don't know, it scares me, I don't know how to tell if I really did it or not. I'm scared, like why can't I remember the details of this scene? Why can't I remember what happened before and after? And was I really there that day? And was it really me in that bed? But if I had really SA someone I'm sure I would have remembered and hated me all my life for putting someone through that

When I first discovered OCD I felt like I was an exception and the anxiety and intense fear I had was just the overwhelming guilt you get after you realize how messed up your life is. Then I learned about what was actually going on and got some relief. And after a while I started ruminating more and more about and turns out what I did was NOT okay. I felt shame for it before that, but now I feel even more intense shame. I’ve been going through the same cycle over and over, being even more cautious of myself than ever. To note, since my event, I’ve NEVER done this afterwards in my life according to my memory and I was young when it happened, but not old enough to understand how serious it was. Since then, I’ve ruminated, compulsive searched, scanned over messages/conversations I’ve sent, look for forgiveness groups and felt like I’m just someone who’s actually shameful for what they did and afraid of consequences. What do you do with this? To me, I feel unforgivable, and my whole life is just an inconvenience to others.

Please read this. I’ve had ocd pretty much a lot of my life but never knew what it was until my senior year of highschool. I’m 21 with 2 kids and i believe i’ve had pocd a little bit before my daughter was born (which was 8 months ago). It made me start looking at all kids differently and i hate it. But it really started triggering me about 3 months ago. I’ve been thinking if i’d intentionally touched or harmed my kids the wrong way, or any kids for that matter. This started giving me false memories (or at least hope they are). I’ve been having panic attacks, yelling at myself, punching walls, praying, and even thoughts of ending my own life. I grew up in a severe toxic household throughout my childhood and teenage life. I’ve never wished that on my kids since i became a dad. I wanna give them the life i never got. I look back my photos of my children and i feel like i’m a complete fraud of a dad. I cannot look at my kids or be around them a lot of times. I can’t hold my daughter right. I can’t change their diaper when they need it. Even my son came and was hugging on me the other night while i was watching tv and i acted like a stranger to him. I can very little do this stuff sometimes because it’s either i get relief or i push my thoughts as far back as i can. I get scared if i did something to not just my kids, but any other kids in the past. I have such a a great life and such a beautiful family. It was hard and stressful at first being young with a family but i couldn’t be more thankful at all for them. I’m just so lost and stressed right now that i just don’t know what to do anymore

Really need someone to talk to about my pocd and identifying if the memories are just false memories or not. Research tells me if it’s something you can’t remember for sure and are distressed by then it didn’t happen. Please someone help.

Its making me feel like I cant remember things properly... making me think i unknowingly explicitly chatted with a minor online... making me question every woman Ive ever been explicit and explicitly cybered with... intrusive thoughts of me "explicitly cybering with a minor" and of me going to jail because my worst fear of "unknowingly cybering with a minor(s)" coming true... im genuinely depressed... and I feel so alone... uncertainty has brought me nothing but hell... and theres no getting out... it feels like im waiting every day for my intrusive thoughts and fears to be proven right, and ending up with me going to jail... I have never felt more alone... I just keep getting intrusive thoughts that one day, when I become famous or get my dream job, im going to get a future moment of any girl I explicitly cybered with in the past, saying... "Hey, I was a minor when we explicitly cybered and while you didnt know, im going to get you arrested or cancelled." I cant even be excited for the future anymore...

TW// sexual trauma, family ocd Please, anyone give this a read any advice helps. I’m going to try to keep the short. Basically, when I was younger, a family member of mine was very careless when they would engage in sexual act. For example, they would m/sturbate in the same room as me, not caring if I would see or not I guess. They also emotionally and verbally abused me a lot throughout childhood. I also went through other sexual trauma from other peers at school at a young age, and from a distant family member. I also was very hyper sexual as a kid. Throughout my growing up, I developed some sort of incest fantasy, but never really was fully comfortable with it. I am assuming my brain was sexualizing what I saw, as it has done that with quite literally everything. It was up until a certain age, around 14, when I realize these thoughts are bothersome, make me uncomfortable, and I do not want them to be there. I am around the family member I mentioned at the beginning 24/7, as they are an immediate family member. I love them dearly, but this is messing up my relationship with them. I’m very irritable around them, any sound, noise, or site, that suggest that they may be touching themselves again, triggers me very badly. Either with anger, groinal responses, or just uncomfortableness. We share the same bed and sometimes I’ll wake up in the middle of the night or something and I’m just sitting there listening or glancing over to see if this family member is doing anything inappropriate. I mentioned before these groinal responses cause climax even without me touching myself. So then this leads me to feel like I violated this family member, or did something inappropriate to them. Which leads to false memeries also. This makes me feel so gross. I hate all of this. I probably sound like a freak . If you read this, thank you.

I have POCD with false memories, and this is hell. My nephew was sitting on my lap yesterday (usually I avoid him, but he wanted to come sit on my lap so I didn’t want to be mean and not let him) when I was holding him, I kept getting thoughts like ”you will kiss him” ”I might lose control” ”I need to know if I’d actually like to kiss him” ”I need to remember this moment perfectly so I know what I did or didn’t do” and the whole time my mind was racing. I felt like I was dissociating. And then I started to feel the false attraction feelings that I get sometimes when I see him. My brain mixes cuteness with attractiveness now. So when he was sitting on my lap I had to look at him to ”test” if I was attracted to him. I felt an urge to act on my thoughts. The whole time I got these images in my head and they instantly felt real. I got home and got a panic attack. It is horrible and it feels so real I just want to know the truth. His parents were sitting in the same room but they were talking to each other and not looking at us all the time. I don’t know what is real and what’s not real anymore and its scary. I don’t want to live without knowing what kind of person I am. Now I have a false memory about this, at least I hope its false. i fear that I acted on my thoughts because I also felt that weird feeling of attraction. I feel like this is proof that I am that kind of person and might’ve done it? I can’t take this anymore please someone share if you have similar experience or am I the only one?

Hi, I’m new here!! I’m praying I don’t get judged for this. But, back in late May of 2022 ( literally right before I graduated high school), I added this one random girl from my school on Snapchat. She posted something about a graduation party , so I swiped up on her story basically saying how I can’t believe we’re almost graduated. She replied and we had a really short and simple conversation. The next day ( i believe) , we started talking a lot , and I just so happened to see her at the highschool when we were grabbing our graduation outfits and doing the rehearsal. When I saw her irl, I kinda got turned off ( I heard she was kinda crazy) , and on top of that , she was a little ugly irl. I remember seeing her Snapchat bio , and she was close friends with my female cousin ( a year younger than me) , who I happened to experiment sexually with when I was 10-11 years old. I remember going to work later that day and having sort of a lightbulb flick thought ( it wasn’t a good thought though) , what if my cousin told her about what happened when we were younger? So I started to kind of panic and immediately distanced myself from that girl. I also experimented sexually with one of my female friends when I was 10-11 , and from that day onwards, I’ve been pretty much living in paranoia and a little bit of guilt about someone finding out and my life being ruined . On top of that, It’s gotten worse to now sometimes I wonder if a girl I added off of quick add ( Snapchat) is underage even if they told me they were 18+ or had 18 and above in their bio, and I get so much guilt and anxiety about that. I even had a quick thought last February on what if I did something inappropriate with my younger cousin when I was 15-16 but I just can’t exactly remember when it happened , and it still eats me alive when I think about it, because I don’t know if it happened or not. I’m sorry for the long vent, I just wish I felt normal again. No matter how much I try to do things that old me used to do, life always feels “ off”. I always kept the top part about when I was younger a secret up until early (ish ) 2024, then I vented to one of my best friends and he told me that that’s a normal thing to do at a young age. Since then, I have told multiple friends and they all say they did similar stuff, but my brain just can’t accept that. Please help me, I quite literally overthink everything nowadays. 2021 was the last full year that I felt normal ( coincidentally, the best year of my life so far) . It’s not just about sexual related things either, sometimes I’ll wonder if I messed up something at work or hit a car while driving/hit someone and drove off. I just wanna live my life how I was supposed to live it after highschool ( carefree and happy) before whatever it is ( I think it’s ocd) hit me unexpectedly. Thanks to anyone who read this , I just needed to pour it out regardless of how negative I felt typing this, I hope someone can relate , because I feel so alone in my head at times.

I lost my little girl 2 years ago, she was 8. The first 6 months were a myriad of grief but around the 6 month mark I started questioning my feelings for my husband. We've been together 20yrs but like put of the blue I had an intrusive thought, 'do I love him?'. I have another daughter with the same condition as my eldest so I know her life will be short. I should be spending quality time with my family but I am consumed with what could potentially be ROCD. It started with 'do I love him?' to 'has he ever cheated on me?' and even false memories that he hurt me. It consumes my thoughts all day everyday and is spoiling life. I've told him at every stage and he is much more understanding than I would be. He is my 'safe place' but I just can't stop the thoughts. Everything is triggering, romantic films (is our love like that on screen?) to a news article about a woman being raped (has he ever raped me, would he ever rape me?). It's making me a non-present mother to my daughter and a lack lustre wife. It's spoiling my life. I can't even begin to think about my daughter that died, it makes me feel numb but the thoughts about my husband tie me in knots. Does this sound like it could be ROCD and does anyone know if bereavement can trigger it. My husband thinks my brain can't cope with losing the kids so has fixated on me and him (told you he was patient and understanding). I feel like I'm going mad in my own head and I'm scared and lonely. Thanks for reading x

I feel like a really terrible person right now, I keep replaying this, and no matter what I can’t remember what happened, it’s like my brain is purposely not letting me think about it. Without wasting any more time, I’ll get into it. Basically, I was at Walmart, and looking at cards with My Dad, I saw anime ones, took pictures of them for my sister, even ones that were anime kids, because I did my best to ignore it, so I looked at a Hunter x Hunter card, I stared at the black haired kid, being all like “ I’m glad I’m not having any thoughts about this, I’m glad I’m having normal thoughts and not thinking anything” I felt happy, then as soon as I looked at killua (white haired kid), everything collapsed. I don’t know what happened, my brain won’t let me remember. But I’ll give bits and pieces. I think that I had false attraction, and something in my head, said “oh, I wouldn’t mind being attracted.” “He is attractive, and I’m attracted to him.” “I remember a girl thinking he is attractive and he is” “ It’s not wrong to be attracted” “ I don’t care about his age” .. something along the lines of that, and now I’m panicking super hard, because I’m worried if I said those things, I feel like I ruined my life that I’m a pe//do and deserve nothing, idk what to do, I feel terrible… I remember when I was having the intrusive thoughts, I was panicking and was worrying, but it kept playing out, and I kept hearing things talk, it was drawn out too long, that now I feel convinced that I was saying those things, I tested it too, and I can confirm that I didn’t say that, but why am I still not convinced? I know I wouldn’t say those things, I was hoping the complete opposite would happen. My brain kept making me feel like it wasn’t wrong and it was okay. Maybe that’s why I’m so convinced I did that. I’m just spiraling super bad right now, I don’t know what to do or what to think, I don’t know if I said that or not… even if I did test it, I genuinely just feel like I said it, and I wanted it, because I still feel uncertain, I still feel like I said it, part of me just wants to be like oh I did and so I can move on, not because I agree with it, I just don’t know what else to do… I’m really scared.

Ok so about 48 hrs ago I was watching YouTube shorts, going through and i stumbled upon a video saying, some people don't believe in the Bible because it was written by men. And ever since then my brain has been going crazy. This doubt is like never before and idk what to do about it. Like literally I'm freaking out. But at the same time I feel like I could give two craps. So here is the kind of thoughts I get. Like I get thoughts saying. How do you know, this or how do you know that. Or like my mind sometimes says bad things, that degrade Jesus. But also at the same time my mind is trying to tell me he is fictional. But I dont believe that atleast i dont think I do. I don't want to believe that. Literally just 48 hours ago my faith was fine, I was talking to God and having a great time and now since then idk what to do. It's like I'm lost my complete faith in God. And idk what to do, it's like my mind is trying to convince me he isn't real, and I'm not sure what to do. I feel like I'm deliberately trying to not believe in him and idk what to do. Idk if I'm ok. I really don't......

Help. TW/nsfw.. incest ocd and trauma Any help or advice please… I need a little help. I have a family member who put me through a lot growing up, emotional and psychological. But sometimes they traumatized me by not being careful of their sexual stuff around me. Like pleasuring themselves while im in the room or not caring about pornography on their devices while around me. Anyways, my brain has sexualized and fantasized this moments since it happened when I was little. Anyways now that im older that family member and me still are around each other. I get these strong groinal responses whenever it seems like they are touching themselves again or I hear something that sounds like that. The groinal responses get so strong that it can cause climax even if I don’t touch myself. But anyways this groinal feeling and climax has happened while I’ve been around this family member. Either when we sleep in the same bed or are in the same room. They don’t know about this as I am scared to talk to them about this since they caused some of this trauma. Anyways, since this has happened around them it feels like I violated them in some way even though I know I didn’t. And also I started having false memories like “oh what if you did something inappropriate to said family member while they were sleeping and u forgot”…. And I know that’s not true deep down but I let it worry me too much that now I can’t differentiate between what’s real and what’s not. They know about my ocd and I told them about this fear and they said they would know if I hurt them when they were sleeping and to not worry myself. But it’s hard to explain what triggered it since THEY are the trigger. I am scared me having these groinal responses and allowing my body to climax from it (i just sit there and let this disgusting feeling pass, like im not sitting there touching myself) while being near this person is a violation of them. Any advice or help. I feel so weird and gross. I love this family member dearly as they raised me.

Help. TW/nsfw.. incest ocd and trauma I need a little help. I have a family member who put me through a lot growing up, emotional and psychological. But sometimes they traumatized me by not being careful of their sexual stuff around me. Like pleasuring themselves while im in the room or not caring about pornography on their devices while around me. Anyways, my brain has sexualized and fantasized this moments since it happened when I was little. Anyways now that im older that family member and me still are around each other. I get these strong groinal responses whenever it seems like they are touching themselves again or I hear something that sounds like that. The groinal responses get so strong that it can cause climax even if I don’t touch myself. But anyways this groinal feeling and climax has happened while I’ve been around this family member. Either when we sleep in the same bed or are in the same room. They don’t know about this as I am scared to talk to them about this since they caused some of this trauma. Anyways, since this has happened around them it feels like I violated them in some way even though I know I didn’t. And also I started having false memories like “oh what if you did something inappropriate to said family member while they were sleeping and u forgot”…. And I know that’s not true deep down but I let it worry me too much that now I can’t differentiate between what’s real and what’s not. They know about my ocd and I told them about this fear and they said they would know if I hurt them when they were sleeping and to not worry myself. But it’s hard to explain what triggered it since THEY are the trigger. I am scared me having these groinal responses and allowing my body to climax from it (i just sit there and let this disgusting feeling pass, like im not sitting there touching myself) while being near this person is a violation of them. Any advice or help. I feel so weird and gross. I love this family member dearly as they raised me.

Sometimes I think " do I like kids?" "Would i get aroused if I saw content with kids?""What if I'm a pedo and cant accept it?" "What if I'm ok with these thoughts?" "What if I'm not distressed enough " "What if I enjoy these thoughts?" , i avoid kids as much as i can, i cant look at them bc I'm scared I'm gonna have some groin like response. I keep testing if I'd get turned on or if I'd have some groinal response to sexual scenarios with kids. Sometimes I think that if I took my life this would be over and i wouldn't have to think about this and i wish i doubted something else instead of things like this. I had similar situations just with different topics such as if i loved or found sexually appealing a guy while in a relationship and i kept asking myself those questions for months and i avoided going to school for weeks and when I went I'd cry and have anxiety attacks. I had it with past actions i obessed over and felt the need to exploit every detail and be honest because otherwise i was being a fraud. I had it for sexual things that happened when i was a child. Im not diagnosed with ocd but should i tell this to my local counselor? Can someone help? Give me advice or tell me anything?