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I was watching a video on tiktok where someone said palpitations after eating can be cause by pots I get this all the time after eating now I m scared I might have :/

Good evening everyone! Long story short- I had Health OCD 12 years ago but was never diagnosed. No idea how that’s even possible, I had every sign and saw 2 licensed psychiatrists but they labeled me with GAD. Knowing what I know today, it was 100% Health OCD. I fought it for 3 years until one day I literally surrendered. No training and no NOCD…but I remember breaking down sobbing and accepting that my fate might be terminal. Obviously I’m still here and my fate wasn’t terminal and over time it went into remission. For 12 years! Gone! Amazing! Looking back, I still had minor signs but my maintenance dose of Cymbalta kept me straight and steady. Until I decided that I didn’t need Cymbalta anymore and I got off it cold turkey last January. Well, it came back with vengeance and brought a new theme. I finally got a proper diagnosis and found NOCD. It’s helped me but I’m still fighting - after two major relapses. I’m doing all my techniques but the voice is still loud in the mornings. The ruminating is still there. It definitely ebbs and flows and I’m questioning my meds again- Cymbalta seemed to help the last time… Anyway, I got to thinking about how I managed to heal the first time and how I just gave up, literally. I am wondering if that’s what it takes? My new theme has me fearing a local stalker- that he will come after me. I know…it’s not about the theme. But, as much as I want to surrender and get better…my fight or flight is trying to keep me safe from this evil convicted felon. Those of you who have succeeded, did you finally have to give up too? Or can you use the ERP and meds to eventually quiet it? Thank you and much love.

my puppy licked in my nose and i’m scared about that disease that you can get that can cause you to lose your limbs!! omg i’ve been on google for hours!!! i know it’s rare!! but i don’t want to be the one to get it!

I want to beat OCD/GAD? because I'm tired of being this shell of my former self. My brain has been hollowed out by the chainsaw of fears while my body remains fixed in place, unable to run. I once loved to sing and write. I once remembered conversations with others. I once was actually able to hold them myself. Now, I can barely complete coherent sentences without my thoughts veering off. My OCD leaves me exhausted. It's so hard to feel rested when you think something awful is going to happen all the time. I have started to affectionately call it Chicken Little Syndrome. However, it doesn't deserve any affection. I am supposed to be savoring the little songs my toddler sings or the jokes my husband cracks, but I am worrying about making ends meet or about inadvertently not being able to help my patients. Why did I have such issues with time management last shift? Why couldn't I focus on other simple tasks? People have shown me so much love and I can't even think of the proper way to respond, nevermind coming up with something clever, eloquent, or creative. I am a shell. A chainsaw of fear. My family is so good. They deserve to have me back.

Travelling has been so good for me. At first I felt like my life was in danger, I was skittish as hell and like a scared puppy. There have been times I’ve gone to hospital with injuries and times where I’ve had deadly diseases but I’m through that. I took the advice of travelling slowly so I’ve been in this village for eight months. I’ve weeded out the riff raff and I have friends now. In the UK I was finding it so hard to connect with people as friends. There were people I spoke to and visited regularly but since I left they stopped all communication giving strong “you are a nutter” vibes because I had a panic attack. Anyway people aren’t judging me here and they have religion so are kind natured and accommodating. I move on to the next place in two weeks where I will see less foreigners. I’m not particularly bothered about this as I only really speak to Indians anyway and it will be good to practice my Hindi. My best friends here are the street dogs and the little children who sell fish food and flowers come a close second. Those children will be getting a bumper parcel of coloured chalk before I leave. Best activity was going down to the ghat (steps leading to the river) and just watching the Ganges flow by while people are meditating and doing yoga. This was the best activity by far and it was free. I came here to see if I liked travelling before committing to full time travel. I love travelling solo and I’m more at ease with my own company than I thought I’d be. I’ve done a short course in English teaching and the next step for me would be to do a diploma in that. I can earn £1,000-£3,000 a month teaching English in India at a school but tbh I can more than cover my expenses by teaching for a couple of hours a day online. I have to leave in March to sort out some finances but I’m sure I will return whatever. When I’m back I’m going to begin the process of learning yoga. Yoga is always the suggested form of exercise for my illness and Rishikesh is yoga central. I’d like to learn to teach it and there are teaching courses everywhere here. I don’t know what I’d like to do then if anything. I’d have English and yoga teaching under my belt and I do have other irons firmly in the fire. Maybe I’d like to just wander and help those that need it. That is the thing that most comes to mind. I’ve been homeless, in homeless hostels, lived on council estates and in the drugs world and I’m old enough and wise enough to know who needs help and who is just taking advantage. I know money isn’t always the best form of help unless you are wise enough to give it to an organisation with the experience to know how best to spend it. Hmm yes, I am just sitting by the Ganges with meditators and yoga practitioners contemplating life and the future… I hope everyone’s recoveries are going well.

This is ruining my day to day life. I don’t think health related ocd is my theme but I do often get intense anxiety when I feel “off”. I was in a coma for 8 days due to grand mal seizure in 2020. So I’ve kind of chalked up my stress about my health to a sort of ptsd relating to that event since it came out of nowhere. I didn’t date and was fully celibate for over 2 years until this past may when I finally decided to start seeing someone. We had unprotected intercourse probably ten times and protected the rest. We ended things at the beginning of august. I met someone new (my current bf) who had a full STD panel done and was good. I had a partial one done and was good, I had plasma taken in October which I know tests for hiv (didn’t do it for that reason, didn’t even have this concern then) they never said I was positive but what if it was too soon? I was having nausea randomly the past few weeks. Not all day but at random times. I was googling knowing I’m not pregnant and read so much how that means you can have HIV. Reading this few articles has sent me into a spiral and is consuming my days. I can’t think about anything else. I’m so scared. I don’t think I have other symptoms but I know it can take time. Idk how to shake this. I can’t stop trying to go back and think of every time I ever coughed since may or everytime I had a runny nose or headache because what if it’s hiv? I feel disrespectful feeling this way because What if it’s not but it’s on a constant loop in my head. I’m terrified TERRIFIED to get tested and confirm my fears. I stayed at a waterpark with my family and following had a terrible itchy rash that the dr told me was scabies I contracted from our stay. I was the only one to get it. Could that have been HIV? I’m sick to my stomach daily over this

Hello, I am still very afraid that I’ve gotten scabies since 4 months back. I’ve been to 3 different doctors and they’ve like slightly looked at the spots and one dermatologist quick with like a big thing that zoomes in the area. Either way, everyone has told me it’s nothing but I still get a little itchy here and there, and I GET RANDOM SCRATCH MARKS ON MY BODY and it says that those can appear with intense itching at night and when you sleep but I don’t feel like I can do that because I don’t have like intense itching. Either way my friend booked us a trip and I got new scratch marks but my time with my dermatologist told me it’s after the trip and I don’t think they have it before, and I’m so scared I’ve contaminated everyone around me. Should I go on the trip or should I cancel and should I stay home until the 29th of January…., I sound crazy but I’m so afraid. I can’t sleep or think

I'm having a very hard time with contamination and health concerns OCD,I feel I'm about to give up. My parents even if they live extremely far from me and I haven't seen them in more than 6 years ago, still they don't really try better ways to help me through the distance. They have an immense lack of empathy, kindness, understanding, patience and compassion about my situation.My husband has become a monster, so mean and heartless. I'm all alone with my toddler. My hands are absolutely destroyed due to the over washing. I have waited 2 weeks to be able to open and use some makeup I ordered, but as I saw the box was opened Istarted to think what if someone has deliberately tampered the makeup, or polluted it with something very dangerous as Anthrax spores? And I never dropped that belief, I asked here for opinions and suggestions on how to deal with that. I got so helpful, kind and good answers, still I couldn't do a change. Now when I was reading a little more about OCD to try to find more help. I crossed with this, I didn't know, after reading this,l feel completely disappointed, to live with OCD, depression and anxiety it's not life, now reading that we are in higher risk of developing BD and Schizophrenia, it's awful. In days like this..I wish I was dead or never even born.

I need a place to write this out. 18+ only I’m having a pregnancy scare even though there was no P in V action. I’m worried semen might’ve accidentally gotten on my boyfriend’s hand. I know he did not touch himself. I was 1 day outside of my fertile window according to my cycle tracking when the non P in V sexual encounter occurred. I started having very minor left ovary pain 6 days before my period, along with some GI issues. There was flecks (like seriously 2 tiny SPECKS) of blood when I wiped 4 days before my period I’ve never noticed this before my period before. I had my period on time and regular. But I read that girls can mistake implantation bleeding for their period so I started to worry. I took a pregnancy test 3 days after my period ended and it was negative. My left ovary pain is still present the same as it was before my period, but now it’s coupled with minor lower back pain and GI issues. I keep worrying about being pregnant and that I took my pregnancy test wrong. I keep googling symptoms and quizzes trying to see how I compare. I don’t want to take another pregnancy test because I know how this loop works but I can’t stop overthinking.

Obviously I’m engaged in ERP here while also taking SSRI (Luvox 250mg and Buspar 7.5mg), but I was wondering if anyone had good luck with a natural remedy (cbg, ashwagandha, etc) or alternative therapy (acupuncture, hypnosis, ketamine)? I would like to supplement what I’m currently doing and I’m seriously thinking about ketamine. Much love y’all!

Hi everyone! So one of the ways my ocd has manifested has been through fear of getting sick, being sick or getting someone else sick (guilt) - for the new year I’m really trying to not complain or say anything negative because typically I complain a lot about common things like “my head hurts” “my stomach hurts” “I have this symptom do you think I’m okay?” “Feel my head if I’m not” basically just constantly worrying. I also freak out if someone around me has even a sniffle or anything off of the norm. I also own a lash business where I have clients and I still wear a mask and have a mental internal breakdown if someone comes in seemingly sick. Anyway - since I’m trying really hard for this new year to work on this and scale back on talking about things to my boyfriend friends and family only if it’s really something I’m going to come here for advice instead Today I went to the gym my boyfriend owns and he threw up in the bathroom after sudden nausea. He said it was because he drank coffee too fast and I do believe that then he felt fine. I mopped the bathroom for him incase any throw up missed the toilet since he had to finish his client. Then I left and I did my normal sanitizing of my phone hands and everything as I do when I leave the gym. I tried to remain calm and I got home and did my normal morning routine trying not to think more about it He said he felt fine and normal again still but then about an hour later he texted me that he threw up again but this time blood, and that his friends then said they didn’t feel great (not stomach problems, but just sick) and I was with them all on Monday. So anyways I know these things are inevitable but I’m really trying not to freak myself out. I have to accept if I get sick I get sick but I have extreme fears of being sick especially because I see clients and don’t want to get sick in the middle of an appt randomly if that’s when something would decide to come on How do I deal with these types of things better?

Anyone been in bedbound situation with pain who has been helped by dealing with ocd fear of pain?

I've been dealing with a sex addiction for many years now. I've been constantly googling about my situation, desperately wanting to find someone in a similar situation to mine just so I don't feel alone and have someone that understands. I haven't found an exact situation but similar ones and it still doesn't help. I can't help but do this compulsion because I need a distraction from my bad thoughts and physical symptoms. Everytime I try to Google about my situation I get strong groinals and I don't mean to be aroused by this stuff, I just want to find someone that is in the same boat. I read so many different stories just to feel less alone and it sort of helps in the moment but not long term and I just end up coming back to the posts. Several nights I've been struggling with insomnia symptoms and I can't shake them off. I've been worried about this for months now and I just hope it goes away completely and never comes back. Because of this now I'm worried I'm going to develop prostate cancer in the future because of this prostate infection that I have. I don't know if it works like that but now I'm just scared for my health and I don't think it will ever go away

A few months ago my mom told me that she thought I was autistic when I was younger because I had a few sensory issues- and ever since then ive been going on loops and loops about if I am or not and ive been wanting to ask my mom if I am 😭😭😭 like if she ever got me idk tested for it- should I ask her?? Or is it just a compulsion

Writing this bc idk if anyone else experiences this? I have been having OCD intrusive thoughts related to my 2 cats. They are 7 and 11 years old and I am terrified of them passing away one day. I grew up with them but now that I’m 25 and have my own apartment, I took them with me so I’ve been spending a lot more time with them recently and I’ve grown attached to them. I have intrusive thoughts that tell me “what if you didn’t completely lock your door and you get home from work and they’re not in your apartment anymore”. My therapist told me to record myself locking the door as a way to prove to myself that I did it but this doesn’t help me. I also bought an automatic cat feeder with a camera on it so I can check in on them at any time but I try to limit myself because I don’t want to obsess over checking it. I also had to use Drano on my shower drain last night and felt so paranoid that it was going to make my cat sick bc he likes to lay in the shower sometimes. Meanwhile, I ran water like the directions said to so that it would all be washed away. Just curious if anyone else experiences these intrusive thoughts related to their animals. Living alone, just me and my 2 cats, has caused these thoughts to increase. And I really worry for myself for the day that they pass away.

Last year in April, I've been diagnosed with a condition that "may or may not" become cancerous, which has sent my OCD into overdrive. I get blood work every 3 months to check on it, but I'm told my risk each year is low. I've had so many somatic symptoms the past year, I just can't tell what's real and what's not. I feel absolutely insane. I've started trying to make better health choices, getting involved in sports, and I'm trying to work on some personal projects, but this fear has so much power it stops me in my tracks. I've been doing good with it for the past few months. However I had to print out the doctors order to get the blood work done in a few weeks, and I have been Googling and panicking ever since. I feel literally stuck in bed on my phone. Looking at YouTube videos about the disease, Reddit stories, research papers... but I also realize NONE of this is helpful. But I feel literally trapped right now. I don't know how to get up and stop it. I planned on having a good day today and I feel absolutely stuck...

Sometimes I'll see sexual content throughout the day. I have a crush on someone but I feel like it's lessening a bit because we aren't really talking. I doubt she feels the same way back but it's still kind of there. I still see sexual things online and it's mostly not intentionally. I've been mindlessly scrolling Instagram and sexually implied things have come up, whether it's fictional characters or celebrities. I even have thoughts about sexual things like porn. It feels like I'm slipping. I really don't want to watch porn but I've been feeling so low and worried about my health concerns I've just been mindlessly scrolling Instagram with nothing else to do. Now it feels like I'm hurting this person even though we aren't even in a relationship or that I'm being unfaithful to myself. Don't know if this is ROCD or if I'm just not ready for this at all

As most of us know, any form of birth control can have many side affects on how we feel. I was wondering if other women out there have had worsening symptoms of OCD or anxiety when you’re on birth control. What kind of birth control are or were you on if you don’t mind sharing. What works best for you? I believe my emotions are really intense which makes OCD even worse. I’m considering trying another method/brand.

I feel so tired of this heal concerns and contamination OCD. Before Christmas I ordered some makeup from Sephora in Sweden, I wanted to try the Rare Beauty makeup. So when I got my package I noticed the box was 75% opened from the glue sealing that boxes have just above the strip that means to be pulled and open the box. It seemed mire a like problem with the glue from the box. But sadly for me it wasn't like that. I almost immediately started to think: what if someone has opened the package? What if someone has used it? What if it's contaminated? What if someone opened it to put something dangerous there like some biological dangerous thing like spores from some bacteria like Anthrax? I know it's too exaggerated. But in my mind feels like there's a chance for that, since there's always evil people who tries to harm others with aby excuse like being exteeme religious, political ideas or some prejudices, racism etc. So all of that made me BELIEVE something it's wrong with the makeup. All the boxes look good and clean. But as they don't have any stickers to seal them. I also thought what if. I cleaned all the makeup bottles but I haven't dare to open or try them, they have been there in a safe place in the living room since before Christmas until now. I Still struggle as I can't drop that believe away. I ordered it once more, I got it today, and the package was even more open this time, just like 2% of the box was closed. I decided to call to Sephora, I told the woman at the customers service about my condition with OCD. She was so kind and said she was going to investigate with the warehouse. She asked me for some photos. She reminded me I can return everything as long as I haven't used it. I have considered to return everything, but I feel almost stupid that I won't be able to use the makeup even when I'm so eager to do so. If I return it I will OCD to gain over me. In fact I don't seem to find anything that is really perfect or good enough. If there's someone who could please tell me what has worked for you when being so extremely overwhelmed and så red about something being contaminated or dangerous. I'd like to get some opinions and advices in what should I do? Does this sound even possible for you? Am I letting the OCD take so much control over myself? Thank you

Huge TW for health and disease-related OCD and mention of fear of a pet's death Hello everyone I'm new to this app and wanted to make a post introducing myself by telling of a recent story that made me realize that what I thought was just anxiety is probably full-on health OCD. This all happened last month. I always wanted a pet so I made the decision to adopt a very sweet cat I met at a shelter who was instantly attached to me at the hip. She didn't scratch much and I never saw her bite or hiss, very mellow and gentle and she loved attention. I did all the research, bought everything I needed and I was good to go. However, on the first day I saw blood in her poo and this sent me down a spiral. I asked a vet about it during her check-up and everything came back normal. I still couldn't stop worrying about if she had a disease that would make her suffer and I wouldn't have any idea and she'd just be dead the next day (cats are experts at hiding illness) or that it could even be passed to me, even —I don't want to say the name but it starts with an r and it's very deadly— became a near constant worry even though she had ALL her updated shots, perfect health-checkup at the vet, and there was just literally no way on earth it was possible for her to have it. I was constantly obsessing over both our health, and even before I got her I would obsess over my own health with freaking out about getting cuts or getting sick from people in public, etc etc. the list is literally ENDLESS. I thought I was slowly healing from it which is why I thought I'd be okay with having a pet. After the worries were just not calming down, with a heavy heart, for her and my own sake, I made the decision return her to the shelter and it absolutely broke my heart. She didn't deserve that and I still miss her everyday. I still hope she at least was able to go to a good owner without these types of issues. Man I just want to be able to have a pet like everyone else does without having an awful time.