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Anyone tried Fluvoxamine for their OCD??

This is a little win for me, I had rated the exposure quite high in things that would trigger me and it didn’t trigger me half as much as I thought. How often and how many times would you suggest doing exposures? And do you do the same ones?

Can anyone relate to the fear of blood clots? That makes up 80% of my OCD. I’m primarily health OCD but I also have religious OCD. I’m a Christian (I think) and I’m terrified I’m not actually saved and am not going to be with my family when I die.

I'm back, unfortunately! I'm trying to remain positive as I have been doing so good, but I have a question.....I have been taking 2 (100mg) Zoloft for a while now and it has helped tremendously, well unfortunately I started running low on them and my appointment to have them refilled is tomorrow, so I had started breaking them in half to get me by. Well, I am on day 3 or 4 of just taking a half instead of 2 whole ones and I am just curious if it's possible for my symptoms to start appearing again so soon? Considering I went from 2 a day to a half, anything feedback is welcomed!

Hi ! I have hocd and my ocd told me that if I discover that I could prefer woman more than my parter I would have to leave him unless I'm lying to myself. After overthinking it, I came to the point that it could exist a women that would be sexier, more understa,more nice than my partner. I came to the idea that it was okay and because I love him and I don't need more , and I was afraid about this thought because I'm just scared about homosexuality. But no matter what I tell to my fear, I'm still afraid about it because I feel like I'm mentally blocked about it and that I have to leave my partner to go with a women , and if I don't do that I will never feel relief . The fact is that I know that's ocd and I don't want to do it. I love my partner and I just want to undo this blocage. How can I do?

6 weeks of a higher dose of Zoloft than I was on previously and I’m finally notice a big difference 🫶 just two weeks ago I was crying to my mom so frustrated saying how much Zoloft and therapy is it going to take to feel normal again. Recovering is a HARD process but it’s possible…I’m not out of the woods yet but let this be a little glimmer of hope for you today

My boyfriend left me at the beginning of the year because he couldn’t handle my constant paragraphs or hours and hours long of conversations over my intrusive thoughts. Which I do understand, it all revolved around sexual/relationship/Pocd/a lot more… it began to affect his mental health and well being.. I’ve started doing it again after he’s coke back, multiple times, in the past 2 days I’ve done it twice. He told me he cannot handle this and it’s affecting our relationship. Even when he’s standing there telling me please I don’t need to hear this. Or has told me countless times he understands and trusts me and knows I have ocd, I just keep pushing my boundaries with him. I feel so shit I literally have a whole mental breakdown hitting myself in the face and screaming and crying my eyes out and more if I can’t confess at times. Ocd is the most horrible thing I’ve ever been through. Can anyone give me advice on how to stop confessing? Can anyone give me some ERP techniques for my types of ocd. I’m actually so lost

Hello everyone, I’m interested in peoples experience with taking Sertraline and how it helps to control intrusive thoughts? Been on 50mg now for just under 8 weeks but this week feels like I’m going backwards. Tiredness, increase in sticky intrusive thoughts and fatigue. Started obsessing over my dreams at the weekend and think I have a cold too which is not helping. I don’t really feel the anxiety like I used too, feels like a can of coke that has been shaken waiting for the can to be opened if that makes sense! I have seen the doctor this week and because my GAD and PHQ scores are 0 and 2 it was decided to stay on 50mg with the a view of coming off them in about 6 months if I feel it is something I want. ERP starting on the 25th October.

Today was a crash day. After multiple long days of school, working out, and late nights I sort of crashed today. I had some paint stuck on my hands that wouldn’t come off, and I accidentally spent an extra 20 minutes in the shower obsessively trying to get it off. As the day progressed and I slowly got more stressed, I could like physically feel myself getting like uptight and OCD. I could physically feel my eyes bulging almost and in the strangest way I could feel like a pressure in my head that was onset from the OCD. I can normally tell that I get more OCD when I’m tired and stressed and today was especially evident. I didn’t want to go to class, and everything in me wanted to just sit in my car and scroll through social media. I went to class but then could not focus whatsoever on the assignment. After this I went home and napped for a couple hours. This seemed to help a lot. But then I woke up stressed because I remembered a job I was supposed to do but didn’t get done because I was sleeping. The rest of the day was much better. Sleeping sorta of resets my brain. And the rest of the night I was in a social setting. But it’s so frustrating because I feel like I can’t control whether I’m in this state or not. And some days it’s much more subtle than this. This past 3 months as a whole have been immensely stressful. I have noticed my disfunction and ruts come every semester. I was dedicated to getting over this, but after a really terrible breakup I am in this sort of hole which has me feeling alone and overwhelmed by this mental inability to keep up. No one I know has OCD. The breakup was a huge tole though. I’ve tried everything to heal, to numb, and to cope. Everything healthy and unhealthy. But I just can’t comprehend how someone can go from 1 week “let’s get married” to the next “God is telling me to break up with you”. And apparently the next part of that process for her was getting with her camp co-counselor. Less than a month later. And I’m left with the pieces and the lies. This was someone I’ve been best friends with for years. It has been betrayal, and heart break. I know all that’s in the past though. And I’m trying desperately to forgive her. But I can’t get her out of my head no matter how hard I try. It’s been 3 months, and still no luck. She’s in my dreams, and in my thoughts. The days never seem to get any better. I had this grand future built in my head, and now I have to rebuild the pieces with what I have. I just feel so rejected and alone. Thankfully have had friends and family to talk to. But I feel like I really need therapy. I’m rediscovering the deeper issues such as childhood trauma, and coping mechanisms. But I need someone to help walk me through this. I have someone set up but it’s been weeks of miscommunication trying to get a date set up. I’m supposed to see him next week so I’m hoping that goes well. I’m never really on this app. I have a hard time getting to a journaling state of mind, because when I open up my thoughts it’s like Pandora’s box, and I just want everything to get out at once. I don’t normally have the patience to do that in journaling however. So this entire post is just a journaling rant. Maybe someone has a relatable experience or some insight.

Anybody else pick their fingernails then put the nails in their pocket? I’m going through a not littering phase.

Does anyone get thoughts like what if i want to go back to my ex? What if i like him? Etc etc or compare my previous relationship with my current one, like oh maybe he would’ve done x or y differently, And start fighting in my head thinking its true, and feel like im lying to my partner. Please comment so i feel less alone and not crazy, and actually relax from this

i’ve done some pretty shit things in the past and whenever i hang out or talk to my friends, i can’t help but feel like i should tell them what happened. i don’t wanna seek reassurance but i don’t know how i should go on with our friendship with knowing i have done something bad as a kid. only one other friend (+ siblings) knows about this but other than that no one knows.

I’m really scared and frustrated. I was doing okay. Yes I had intrusive thoughts here and there but I was able to calm myself down till now. So I’ve been in a relationship for over a year and 11 months almost two years basically and so the other day some kid randomly pretended to hit me (old friend) and I was like “what the hell count your days” then I told my bf knowing he wouldn’t like what that kid did and he didn’t and my bf said it sounded like I was playfully playing with that kid to for saying count your days but I said it as a joke I wasn’t being for real. So I started to feel like I can’t talk to guys without my bf getting upset or jealous. Like personally I joke around a lot with my friends I’m really funny I say random things, use accents, just anything and people laugh and I feel like I can’t do that with guys cause then my boyfriend will get upset. So it makes me feel kinda trapped like if I can’t talk to males or do things like I used to like yes I know I’m not supposed to be touchy like of course not I love my boyfriend but I don’t want him to tell me to not talk to males but then it sounds like I want male friends and I hate it cause I shouldn’t want that it’s more like I wanna be able to have a convo with one without my bf obv getting upset or jealous. Then again it just sounds like I want male friends and I hate that so much. It makes me feel and think do I miss being single and free?? Like no being single was so boring now I have my bf I don’t wanna think about being single and free my mind tells me to go be single and mess around like I used to. I don’t want to. I hate the words “don’t commit young go out and explore” because it makes me feel like Im missing out and I don’t wanna do that you know? Like why can’t I just be happy and secure in my relationship :/ without these thoughts. These are the most bothersome thoughts ever. I don’t wanna think about them nor do what they tell me but it feels like I do but no :/

When i see couples together, specially people who been together for years i get so triggered and start thinking that can’t be me because i dont see a future with my partner, i want this to stop. Please lord help me. These thoughts are stopping me from going out, making plans, being happy together. We have a vacation next year and im scared to go, because im going to be ruminating and disconnected. I’m scared we move in and i cant control my mind

Hi all, I am genuinely curious about everyone’s coping methods when they are trying to go about their daily lives. I am doing a good job at not giving into my compulsions, but the accompanied anxiety and dread caused by the obsession is too much for my normal day-to-day functioning. Any tips, tricks, etc. that you are willing to share?

I got a lady a soda because she was going through some hard times... i felt that it was the right thing to do so i wanted to do something kind for her... but my POCD and real events ocd... it just makes me think im a horrible person for my real events... no matter how hard i try to be good for others... I have pocd and real events OCD regarding explicit anime/explicit cartoon content too… (14, 17-18) i didnt know what the content was or what it represented at the time, the content was on public sites and some of them said the characters that were underage in canon, were 18+ in the content, so I thought they were safe to watch… I thought it was safe to view because it was on public sites and animated... i didnt even know what the content was or how horrible it represented... I don’t ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way shape or form… The explicit anime characters looked and were really young… and i avoided most of the content… but i thought some of the content wasnt Pediphilic because they were on public explicit sites and had millions of views and was animated... I didnt know how horrible the content was or what it represented… I assumed that some of the content was safe to look at because it was on public sites and had millions of views… i didnt know that this content was or what it represented… but doing my research made me gag and puke… i dont ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way shape or form… they were anime characters that looked extremely young… i didnt know how horrible the content was or what it represented… When i was looking at explicit anime content (i was 19 and was making sure the characters were over the age of 18) I accidentally looked at characters that were 17 by mistake... (three times even though the site said all characters have to be 18+) my pocd is saying im in denial for this... this, combined with my previous pocd and real events based on this... makes me just feel so alone...

Im fully aware that OCD attaches to everything and anything but I recently started having heart palpitations and chest pain, I have experience with panic attack and anxiety attacks but this feels different. I went to the hospital and they did and chest x-ray and blood test, they said it all looks good but before being released my BP was very low which made them retest me before letting me leave. I still feel off experiencing physical symptoms but I don’t want to go back to the hospital because I don’t want to do a compulsion. How do you know what’s real and what is just your OCD? 😭

i have experiences nearly all categories of OCD, big pure o. if you have any questions ask me and i’m sure i can give you an answer. no reassurance!

When I was 14 during Covid, I had a episode for six months of constant compulsions every night. When I turned fifteen compulsions were almost completely gone on their own!! When I got into a relationship I completely gave into my ROCD and they consumed me. Then it went away almost completely. Then it would come back the strongest I’ve ever dealt with. Does anyone else have this? Sometimes when it’s almost gone I’m like nahhh I didn’t have ocd, then when it comes back I’m like HWAT ELSE COULD IT BE THIS IS TORTURE.

Dear NOCD, I am still having some trouble with these thoughts, and I am afraid that no other website would come close to understanding it so much as this. People on other sites are way too judgmental and they could even hurl the worst obscenities towards me and not even try to repent. I spent two weeks ranting about them with such pure rage as to actually threaten them. That's how bad the obscenities hurled against me were, I feel wrongfully accused. I almost refused to let it go because those users despise me now. Why should I listen to them? Why should I try to make them repent for something brutal they had done to me a couple of months back? I felt such pure rage at those people that I felt like targeting them in real life, and the delusion that they possibly knew my IP address and that they might be part of a secret network of Redditors making my interactions on that site as miserable as is humanly possible gave me comfort, and the truth looked like premature death itself. I wish I got rid of POCD because it truly is something that I will never talk to anyone else about except on this board. In addition, I am afraid these thought patterns have gotten worse, as I go to great lengths to avoid children and adolescents. I won't even let them into my house or anywhere near me, period. I fear for my life because of POCD. Being accused four times on Reddit is simply a death sentence for me, and I have to go retreat into NOCD to make sure that such accusations and defamations of my character never happen again. Thoughts? Truly yours, MatthewDHall