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Like I want to know this cause I have guilt, anxiety, sadness and all of these feelings more than the other feelings. So what is considered as happiness in this recovery process?

Do you have this feeling that everything must ne perfect in your relationship or you have a problem and you need to break up? I went with my boyfriend to the New Years Party yesterday and everything was fine, we were having fun. Then it comes to the fact that all of our friends go dancing and my bf is now not into dancing at all (because of his health he doesn't wanna dance, because he is not comfortable with that). And then I had a lot of intrusive thoughts that I'm not having fun because of that, what If I want something who will be having wild fun with me, even when he wanted me to go dance with our friends and he is completlty okay with sitting alone for a while, I felt a lot of guilt and I had thoghts like I should be with someone who is having fun with me, we are young and I want to party and maybe its just not a match (and we are together for a couple years and he is amazing bf) I've almost cried 2 hours at the Party because of the fact not everything is looking exactly like I wanted. This is not the first time I had something like that - its always when anything is happening not exactly like I imagined. If someone maybe had that? Maybe you can tell me some tips or a good words, because for now on the one hand I feel guilt that I could even think that and on the other hand I still have this thoughts that I just need to admit that I need something else

I want to move out at 18 I'm 17 now My birthday is in July I want to move out because my mother used to abuse me and I went to go live with my father but we have been arguing and today he called me scum because I didn't get him anything for Christmas My mom and dad divorced when I was young and my dad now has multiple girlfriends and their children bought him gifts and he is mad at me because I didn't buy him one I'm getting tired of everything I think I want to move and live alone by myself so I can be happy I'm saving up money but I don't think I have enough I live down the street from a restaurant I think I want to work there so I can save money but my dad won't let me I don't care anymore I just want to be happy does anyone have any advice or tips Happy New Year's I love you all 💓💓💓

have y‘all ever experienced emotional dependency on a friend? like when you are feeling down, they are the first one to go to for emotional support. and when they are busy / can’t give you attention right now, you feel sadder? i’ve always been like that but now this collides with my so-ocd and it’s the worst 😔

I think one of the hardest parts about getting help (besides the high cost) is telling my parents I want help. I’m not sure how to approach it. I’m asian. My mom has always said, “western therapy does not work on eastern minds”. I get that, and I don’t want to feel judged or questioned when I say I want help. I also don’t want them to worry about me too much, I think that’s my biggest concern. I don’t want it to be awkward. However aside from these feelings, I know that I need it and I know that it’s what’s best for me. I don’t want to keep this feeling in anymore as I have for years. I’m excited for what this new year has to offer for me.

I think I got dumped. It is less than 24 hours and she is making excuses and now ghosting me. I mean she has Asperger’s but she responded with “I’ll probably see you”. We haven’t been anywhere or done anything for me to upset her, I suppose she just changed her mind. I’m a big believer in Karma so I just see this as something better down the road. It is a shame though because she was an intelligent woman with hobbies, interests and opinions. I was kind of fascinated with what was to come. In fairness she wasn’t mean and although I’m disappointed I am not hurt. I’m used to this now and I see the humour in it. Happy New Year lol. 🤣

Dose anyone else get this or is it just me going crazy about this going to jail ocd fear it’s almost like the thoughts don’t stop it’s the fear of being locked away and forgotten so much fear can someone please share their take on this and what to do or where this stems from

You know what I really hate about this stupid disorder? That up until my first stuck intrusive thought (when I was 26), I knew who I was. I was happy. I had goals. I had friends. I was the most confident I’d ever been. Then from that very moment, it’s been 10 years of me being anxious, losing my life, losing just about everything. Not even sure who I am anymore. Questions after questions after questions of wether I’m attracted to someone, sexuality, ROCD, SOOCD. And not once have I felt myself. How can a healthy, happy 26 year old man go from one day knowing themselves to the next, 10 devastating years of not being able to think about ANYTHING OR ANYONE else except my theme? How?! I hate it.

Hello im an 15 yr old boy and i think i have hocd. I think i got it because of the Bohemian rhapsody movie(this is so random sorry). But yea i know to myself that i am not gay and I'm not attracted to men, And my whole life that i only have romantic feelings to women and i already have a gf, i love her so much to the point that i dont want to leave her and have children with her and marry her, and go to heaven together. but after watching that movie i got scared because i didnt know freddie was bisexual and i was shocked.And thats when it started i got scared i ask myself am i gay or not i simply answered that im not gay but i was so scared that im in denial can someone please help me i prayed and prayed and talked to God. And i cant stop crying please help me i want this to end and i want to be normal again. And i dont really want to lose my gf.

Why I wish I didn’t have ocd So it all started back in march 2023 where I was in a Minecraft server my ocd being itself nagged and nagged me about organizing the schematic files so I got angry at it and did something I would regret dearly I would spam rage type the keyboard and create a schematic group something that inst deletable so I asked the staff to delete it and they kept delaying it and banned me for it and they also said I was unfit to play on a public server because of my ocd this made me very angry so I reported the server to mojang several times and they did nothing about it now don’t get me wrong I don’t care about Minecraft or the builds my ocd only cares about the technical aspects of things I just know that if the roles we’re reversed I would not get away with it because I have bad luck I tried contacting them again but they pretty much said “it’s over with it’s done” which made me feel like I had to move on and more or less like a product And trust me I tried to keep it together and be this non ocd normal person but things didn’t work out Something needs to be done about this server Also other real event things causing me more stress like losing a wire and items in the past I can’t function I can’t sleep and I can’t eat How am I supposed to live like this I already have white hair at 17 because of the stress But those dipshits don’t see it that way they just see the worst moments not the good ones That why it’s so hard to compete with those without ocd and why I don’t want to live anymore

I've been having mood swings all day so I haven't been able to go anywhere for New Year's Eve. I'll be feeling fine then out of nowhere start crying. Then I feel exhausted with little energy and no motivation to do stuff. I've been sleeping most of the day because it feels like it's the only thing I can do. At one point my mood turned dark from frustration and began thinking about unaliving myself. Luckily those thoughts didn't last long though.I wanted to go to a friend's house tonight but it looks like I'll be staying home doing nothing.... 😔 I feel alright right now but it's hard to say when that will change... I feel crazy because one moment I'm content and motivated then the next moment I feel hopeless and numb. And anytime I try talking to anyone I start crying.

Happy New Year! It's going to be another year for us to conquer OCD! But I know this time of year might leave us feeling down. If anyone has anything they want to talk about, or if you'd like to vent/talk about something getting you down, or if you just want to chat, or anything, I'd love to listen! :) It can or doesn't have to do with the holidays. (And don't worry about being a downer on the New Year, I'd like to listen if you want to talk about anything that's bothering you) If you need something specific out of a conversation (i.e. you just want me to listen and don't want me to comment or give my opinions or thoughts), let me know and I'd be happy to oblige! And, of course, I'm no therapist. Just thought I'd give that disclaimer. Also, if I respond in a way that seems like the conversation would logically be over but you still want to talk, I'll still be ready to listen! Sometimes I don't have a bunch to comment, but I'll listen for as long as you want to talk! And here's a fire for a fireside chat if you want 🪑🔥🪑🛋 Love you guys!

Is it possible to just basically instantly forget you’ve molested somebody? I’ve been dealing with a ton of false memories lately and suddenly I got an image of me molesting somebody. I can’t actually recall ever doing this, it’s the last thing I’d do. There’s a lot of proof as to why it doesn’t even make sense to have happened. I’ve always been 100% sure I had never molested anybody. Is it possible to just fully forget that in a really short amount of time?

is it safe to assume that if a harm thought makes me feel anxious it’s just another intrusive one?

I keep having this reoccurring feeling that I don’t actually believe in god. Sometimes I feel numb towards. I’ve just deal with so much because of religious ocd and I just don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t want this feeling though. And I’m worried it’s real and that it means something. It’s like I worry that I don’t actually believe in god because I’m not freaking out about going to hell anymore. I wish I had my old relationship with Jesus back.

Sometimes I'll see sexual content throughout the day. I have a crush on someone but I feel like it's lessening a bit because we aren't really talking. I doubt she feels the same way back but it's still kind of there. I still see sexual things online and it's mostly not intentionally. I've been mindlessly scrolling Instagram and sexually implied things have come up, whether it's fictional characters or celebrities. I even have thoughts about sexual things like porn. It feels like I'm slipping. I really don't want to watch porn but I've been feeling so low and worried about my health concerns I've just been mindlessly scrolling Instagram with nothing else to do. Now it feels like I'm hurting this person even though we aren't even in a relationship or that I'm being unfaithful to myself. Don't know if this is ROCD or if I'm just not ready for this at all

I’m scared that a memory I have is real BUT I want to try and remember it as good and nothing happened Worried I’m suppressing something and that’s why I can’t remember What should I do? Anyone relate?

do y’all ever feel like this MUST be real? like it FEELS real. i got an intrusive urge to kiss a female on the shoulder. ruminating did not help me to get rid of that feeling. it feels like i want it. but i do not want to want it. i’ve been dealing with this subtype for almost a year now and it gets worse day by day.

I’m so confused and it’s infuriating. My head and my heart are constantly at war with each other. One minute I could be so sure of my feelings, and the next I’m second guessing everything. I don’t want to mess it up this time. He’s been my biggest supporter the past couple months, I’ve grown a lot with him. So why do these thoughts keep coming back. Im undiagnosed and my biggest fear is that I don’t have OCD and these thoughts are true. I can’t do that to him. I feel so lost.

With erp I’ve been doing better these past few days, I used to love reading but I haven’t been able to with the fear of feeling like I’ll enjoy the man’s perspective of being with a woman, instead of the opposite. But I just started a new book and I’m being triggered so much :( it feels so hard to try to imagine from the woman’s perspective, I can’t even put a man’s face to the characters anymore. It’s like all of sudden I feel even more like I’ve been lying to myself about deep down not feeling like I’m gay. Fantasizing about either sex doesn’t work anymore, I feel like I enjoy the thoughts about the woman