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Has anyone here ever been able to get relief from an intrusive thought by ruminating and going over and over it in their memory to try and figure it all out? Is it even possible?

I’m trying my best to resist the compulsion of seeking reassurance with a friend, I really really want to text her and tell her my thoughts to see what she thinks about it, but I know it could be a compulsion :(. Any tips for keep resisting?

I have trouble feeling like I even love my partner. Like I see those OCD memes like ‘when I love my partner so much and I’m so in love but then have intrusive thoughts about our relationship’ I’m like … how do you even know you love your partner lol. I feel so identified with my intrusive thoughts I feel like they ARE the relationship, they ARE my feelings, and constantly feel that lack.

I was fine for so long, didnt have any intrusive thoughts, but i saw something on facebook that triggered a form of ocd i thought i recovered from over a year ago. Im so afraid that there is something wrong with me. I’m so afraid what if i do something super horrible that i don’t want to? What if i go crazy and something bad happens because of me? I dont want to have these thoughts i just want to be normal.

I feel like I'm having a mini episode of some sort. I think it might be PMS-related, and it doesn't feel good. I feel like I'm depressed and stuck and every little thing is wrong. Like I was thinking of straightening my hair today, but then I got really anxious because I know I wouldn't look like myself after. Feeling out of touch with my self-image even in the slightest makes me start to spiral. I often say that when I'm having an episode, I feel like "nothing". I don't feel like me, I don't feel like anyone, I just feel like absolutely nothing. I don't feel like a person. I feel like a zombie. I feel dead. I feel gone. I have an appointment with an ACTUAL, real, female psychiatrist, but it's not until July. I'm scared of waiting that long. I'm just so very sad right now. I feel stuck and I wish I had the proper help NOW. I don't feel like any meds I've ever taken have helped at all. I just always assumed if I wasn't having an episode then that meant they were working. I'm starting to be convinced that there is no help out there for me, and that I'll never have answers and will just keep living in the dark, guessing for the rest of my life.

I couldnt word it before but now i can so i write it down. I always feel like im avoiding and now i know why, because people say dont go there, dont think about the thoughts, just notice it then focus on somethinh else. And for me when i try to not go there i feel like ik avoiding cause the urge of thinking about it is so strong that i have to fight to not go there and it becomes a fight then my mind sees that im having a problem so it gets worse. And then when i try to ignore or shift my attention it becomes an avoidance like its just too much power on trying to not focus on it. Also i start to say i dont want to think about this cause i know its ocd and ita bad for me but it gets worse and worse and then i feel like nothing helps cause i still avoid even if i try to do what i should do... any advice?

Ive been doing great for months but since yesterday have been having intense obsessive thoughts about global Politics and war for no reason. I think it will pass but it is hard...

I had some drinks and ate dinner last night and now wake up with anxiety. Sitting up in bed because I can hear my heart rate and am focused on it. I feel so bad!

still always scared and worried that deep down im a p, that the signs have “been there” (signs being weird stuff i watched as a kid and also me being very touchy with other kids as a child). my pocd spiked when me and my best friend found out her ex is an actual p. i just hate this i don’t even trust myself and the groinal responses are unbearable. i really don’t like this im scared im gonna die alone. me and my friend were having a convo abt ped0s yesterday due to her ex and i know a lot about them bc i researched about them because of my ocd but now im scared she thinks im a p or im just a p in denial who just covers it up with ocd. as im writing this im getting really bad groinal responses and i don’t know why. i use to be fine and got better with my pocd why is it back and 10x worse

Is it possible to go a whole 6 years of your life completely normal and then suddenly have an intrusive thought that you may have harmed someone yearsss ago? And upon looking for ‘evidence’ of this event you start to find things that add up, and then get paranoid it’s real when you don’t think it is? Some things add up , some things don’t.. This thought may be getting mixed with other real events honestly I don’t know anymore, but I think maybe checking myself into a ward might be my only solution.

i don't know if I can continue my college. I have undiagnosed ocd and i haven't talked with a psychiatrist yet. My course is very hard, it requires a lot of attention and i cannot give that. I feel like crying, we had our 1st quiz today and I failed. I failed as a student and as a daughter...

This one’s new for me but ocd is loving repeating a specific word right now out of the blue that sparks so much anxiety and makes my harm ocd act up too. I have a little complex mix of religious ocd and harm ocd. Anyone else know how to cope with word repetition.

I recently discovered what disassociation is and realized it’s your bodies way of telling you it is in fight or flight. I feel like I’ve been stuck in this state for about 2 years now but overall things have been so much better. I don’t understand how to make it go away, it almost feels like now I’m stuck in this cloud and I’m no longer truly present. Does anyone else experience this?

I struggled with severe ocd since I was in 2nd grade and now I’m turning 19 so I’ve had it basically my whole life, I’ve had it bc my dad abused my mom when I was little all the way up until I was a teenager and it really hurts me and affects my life. I have intrusive thoughts and images of loved ones getting hurt and I constantly overthink about my relationship and it got worst since I became a mother bc I ALWAYS worry about my daughter and I’m scared and it makes me panic I always think that if I listen to certain songs,take showers,get cute,put on certain clothes,or just take care of myself in general that something will happen and it makes my mental health worse and i have severe anxiety I struggled with pyschosis for 2 weeks and addiction to pills I don’t have money to get a therapist or even health insurance please help me how to stop it bc even when I try to let the thoughts pass through it hurts me and makes me freeze and not even be able to breathe bc of it and I can’t even say certain words bc I overthink that something will happen and it makes me want to take my life

I'm dating this genderfluid person and now I'm apparently pansexual. According to them. So uh yeah. That's happening. And wtf do I do cuz I really like her (pronouns are she/him) it didn't bother me initially but my friend brought that up and it started freaking me out. She's okay with me calling her my girlfriend. And like I'm straight but I'm not? I'm confused.

Does it ever feel like sometimes you're "forcing" yourself to have intrusive thoughts? or you're thinking of things you don't like on purpose to make sure you don't like your thoughts? Even in personal or intimate moments with yourself or others? What is this called and how do you stop it?

I’m 29 weeks pregnant and keep having intrusive thoughts about my husband sexually abusing my husband. And what’s worse is that I’m having groinal responses. It makes it so confusing. These thoughts are obviously repulsive and make me horrified. But the groinal response makes me question if I am turned on by something so awful??? I mostly have pocd. What can be done about this? Also, I have handled my ocd in the past successfully. This feels like if I am aroused by this then maybe I need help. It’s also making me like freaked out even when I am aroused by normal things, like my husband.

I did something that at the time, I didn’t think was wrong but now I feel super guilty. I didn’t cheat or anything but I feel really bad about it. People have told me not to tell my fiancé cause it isn’t important and it would honestly just hurt her. But shouldn’t I tell her if it’s something that could hurt her? It feels like I’m hiding something. Any advice please?

I can’t carry on with this feeling of doing something (rape) intoxicated, it’s gone on for months and just think I done it all, my life’s ruined

Lately I’ve become really worried that i could somehow run out of food at the house and not be able to obtain more. I’m not lacking food or money really, but I’m getting scared if I eat any of the food i buy i won’t have food later and so keep getting takeout to avoid digging into my stockpile of food. Is this OCD? Does anyone else experience this?