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This is for the ladies. Has anyone got through menopause with OCD and is now post menopause? I’m having such a tough time with hormones and my ocd. I pray this gets better. Having a double whammy with this has been tough. Thanks

I am getting married in two months. Today was a terrible day. I went to church with my fiancé and there was no attraction at all and I felt I was towering over him so much taller. I couldn’t stop thinking about the attraction all day long. It just got worse as the day went on. What do I do in these situations. It is so bad at times:( what should I do when this happens

Hello fellow OCD sufferers; Long story short I will be purchasing my own place and taking on some responsibilities that I’ve never had before (taking on and caring for a family members pet). Maybe I was ignorant to everything, but it suddenly hit me in the face overwhelmingly with stress and anxiety how much this was going to take and this new endeavor. While it should be “good stress”, my OCD will take what it can and my dormant SO-OCD has started to get rear its head. My question to you all is, in times of stress and change, does your OCD flare up or get worse? If so, how do you pull it back in, and lessen the noise as well as the stress/anxiety.

I have known for a while that I may have OCD. After downloading this app and reading everyone else’s experiences, I am certain I have OCD. In the past few days, I have had serious relationship doubts and my thoughts in general have become so loud that it’s debilitating. There are so many voices that I can’t move or do anything. I just shut down so I can shut them up. Now, basic decisions are paralyzing. I can’t make a grocery list, pick a tv show, or decide when to leave for school. My brain just freezes now when I have to make any sort of decision. Any tips on how to get past this? How to shut the voices up so I can finally think for myself?

Hi, i have been on and off with my SOOCD and I have been really good at understanding that my thoughts are just thoughts, yesterday i seen a masculine lesbian and it triggered me and I got severe anxiety because I was expecting some thoughts to come as I had been triggered. I then got thoughts “you find her attractive don’t lie”, when I seen her I do not personally think she is attractive looks wise and all that, but all my mind is saying to me now is I do and I am lying and it’s started to just get to me i just want to shut off and get the thoughts away from me😫then I seen on tiktok this person had SOOCD and then turns out they were gay and I just am spiraling.

I’m going for my first run since my most recent OCD flare up last year. Running is a huge trigger for me so this will be a pretty big exposure. Hoping I get through it! I used to love running. 🥺

18+ Have you ever said something to someone that came off as very creepy, but it wasn’t intended to be? Like your delivery was super awkward in the moment, and you somehow expressed a compliment, joke, remark, etc. in a way that sounds much different than you intended? I was telling my coworker when she was joking about making an onlyfans that “respectfully she could make bank” but i phrased it in a different way that sounded super suspicious. I feel super guilty even though i know i didn’t mean to make her uncomfortable. I am so tired of feeling disgusted all the time with myself for not being able to communicate like everybody else.

I have to go and do photoshoot for a bride today (I’m a content creator) and it’s the first time I have to go to work outside of the house since the flare out began. I’m in anxiety. I don’t want it to ruin it for me. Helpppp

My husband has been struggling with ocd for honestly I think most of his life. Officially diagnosed in the last two years now with paranoia as well. It’s difficult. I struggle myself with some anxiety and depression and overthinking situations. And we both have struggled self insecurities and insecurities in our relationship. He always tells me I don’t want to loose you after he has been is a dark place and needing reassurance. Right now we just feel very disconnected after a situation. I been trying to be as understanding as I can. And acknowledge that we both need to not seek so much reassurance from each other. Anyone have any tips on ways to feel connected again after an intense ocd episode?

Having low self esteem make my ocd and depression way worst I have so much to work on low self esteem ocd depression ptsd and the list go on the low self esteem come from always been skinny and people pointing at it but I was thinking I shouldn’t care if people think I m too skinny or no but I do I guess I care because my self esteem is low :/ need to work on it

Hello I've been on fluoxetine for 3 weeks now The first two weeks my intrusive thoughts got much much worse Almost to an unbearable point Now I feel restless legs and hands Also my sleep hasn't been so bad since I've been taking alprazolam but still I wake up some times at night I'm taking 40 mg a day Should I be worried?? I was reading about some real crazy side effects and bad stuff that just made me fell worse And right now I'm not sure I'm really in danger or it's just my ocd attacking me I don't wanna develop akathisia And I've been feeling some uneasiness in my limbs but not to that point I think

feels like i’m in deep denial idk wtf to do i’m freaking out i can’t sleep i just want to feel normal again 😭😭😭 i wanna be a girl not a boy 😭😭

These past couple days, Ive had 2 huge panic attacks in a row. I’m getting worried because they were kind of the worst theyve ever been. I couldn’t function at all and if my partner weren’t with me, I’m afraid I wouldnt have been able to move or get up. I was convulsing and couldnt stop having the worst intrusive thoughts. I was so disappointed in myself that I started having super intense suicidal thoughts and couldn’t speak. I really hate ocd. I ruined some of the most fun days that were planned out in a trip too. Idk what to do anymore

I wanted to ask because I have this problem that my intrusive thoughts have completely attached to my ocs. There's one character I have, she has blonde hair and has a name pretty similar to my younger sister but not (the oc's name is Charlotte Wine who is a 32yr old women) and I had this for a while. I don't know what to do about it and now I completely avoided drawing or sexualising her because it now mixed up my little sister's name with hers and vice versa. I'm scared that if I do that I would be doing something horrible and criminal. The character was never based on my little sister so I don't know what to do about this. And I've just completely avoided drawing her and stuck to what's safe. It makes my uncomfortable just drawing her now because my brain attached itself to it

I haven’t been on this app in a while but randomly decided to open and scroll through my old posts… I can remember the guttural feelings of despair. The hopelessness that I would never get better that this was simply my life. I’m proud to say it did end, most days my symptoms are sub clinical and I wouldn’t say I’m “back to who I was before OCD” but only because I like who I am now better. At the time this app was the only social media I could stand to scroll through without spiraling I am so greatfull to this community if anyone has any questions or needs to talk feel free to comment.

Hey everyone! This is my first time posting on this app and I’ve been wanting to write my story for a while, but was always so scared to. Now, i feel comfortable enough after reading so many relatable posts and stories when it comes to suffering with ROCD. Every relationship I’ve been in, ROCD has always popped up in different ways. The same questions will always pop up, “Am I with the right person? Am I attracted to him? Can I see a future with him?” And then the BIG and SCARY one, “Do I love him??” Eeeeek!!! Currently, I am in a happy and healthy relationship with my marine boyfriend for more than a year now. The first couple of months of dating him, there was no doubt in my mind that I didn’t love him or find him attractive. I was head over heels for this man and always had a hard time saying goodbye whenever he had to go home, which was two hours away (ik not too far, but never knew when the next time I was going to see him since his work schedule was always up in the air). ANYWAYS, my ROCD started flaring up in this relationship around month 9 when we started talking about our future together since he will be moving to another state in few months (life of a marine moving bases every couple years). The feeling of the ROCD symptoms wasn’t like WHAM here’s ROCD! It started popping up slowly. First, I started getting anxious with the idea of moving, which is completely normal, but then, questions like “Am I ready to move and leave my family in a few months? Can I see myself getting married to him? Is he the one?” It was like a domino effect and more dominos kept adding on and getting scarier. Lately, it’s been thoughts like “Do I find him attractive? Do I like his side profile when he drives? Is he annoying when I hear his voice on the phone?” I always feel like a horrible person thinking these thoughts and I desperately want to go back to how to my normal self in this relationship. It feels like im always self sabotaging every situation like celebrating holidays together and hanging out with our families. I never feel present during the fun times with him and I’ve been feeling this way for five months now. Every time I see him now, I feel this heaviness anxiety ball in my chest and my heart beating fast like I should run away from him. DEEP DOWN, I know that’s not what I want but these scary thoughts have been going on for so long now, it’s getting unbearable to the point I just want to give up and break up with him even though DEEP DOWN that’s not what I want. I feel like even that deep down feeling is disappearing and I don’t feel like my happy self anymore. It’s physically and mentally exhausting to the point I don’t want get out of bed. The only time I feel some sort of relief/peace is when im home alone or at work (preschool) to keep my mind busy. ROCD IS NO JOKE and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. I sometimes feel like maybe it’s not ROCD. My mind is so mean to me and back and forth. It’s horrible to suffer with this pain and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. Just know that if you are dealing with something similar, you are not alone.

I cut someone off in the middle of what they were saying because at the last minute I knew what they were talking about. I apologized for this and how I worded what I said, and they didn't really acknowledge it but they don't seem mad at me. I feel like a really shitty person though. This is something I want to stop doing through text

Just feels like i can never win in life... I dont ever have a special talent that makes me stand out from anyone... I cant win at games, nor ever have a victorious moment based on my skill instead of luck... i just lose and lose and lose... from having OCD based on real events, to my OCD gaslighting me into thinking my fears are true, to just never being able to ever win in life once in my life... i have no one in my college who understands... let alone anyone who cares... Maybe I deserve this because Ive done bad things in life... maybe I deserve this because of my childhood mistakes... who knows... Im just in a state of giving up on ever being happy because I genuinely feel like nothing works out for me, either by my own stupidity or just life being a bitch...

So here’s how my life has been, I was one day watching TikTok and suddenly a random fearful thought popped up in my mind saying “what if im secretly gay” and I had anxiety for the rest of the night and continued since December 20 to now. But here’s the thing. Im still sexually attracted to women and i even just have gotten a girlfriend which is a girl that I have wanted for 2 years and never got the chance and even felt really sad that she went with another guy and stopped talking with me. But now I’m scared that I’m secretly gay and I don’t love her. When she came over we started making out and i got a boner and even leaked a little if you know what I mean. The whole time I was hard when she was over. But then when she leaves and I’m alone the thoughts start to come back and I pray but I heard that praying doesn’t do anything and people who were trying to pray to not be gay would still end up being gay. But before all of this I would always want to find a girlfriend and I even like this one girl in my school who I would daydream about us together but now I don’t feel nothing to her. I’m also scared that in the future I’m gonna try to do gay sexual things with men to find reassurance or something.

Anyone else who spends every day with their partner have times where they feel disassociated and just don’t feel anything and panic that you don’t feel anything- makes me sad when I get agitated at everything he does when I feel like that