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If you haven’t heard the gospel, here’s it is: Jesus, the only son of God, was born as a baby—fully human and still fully God. He lived a sinless life on earth, something no human could ever do. When he was 33 years old (we guess), he accepted that he would be put to death, even though he hadn’t done anything to deserve that. He accepted his imminent death because it was actually part of God’s plan (which God had envisioned even before the fall of mankind). He was put to death by being lifted up upon a cross, which had been foreshadowed in the Old Testament. Just as in Numbers 21, when a snake had been lifted up in the desert, and all who had looked upon it had been healed, so the Son of God was lifted up, so that all who look to him will live (John 3:14-15). Jesus died on that cross, taking upon him all the sins of all the people, both in the past and in the future. His death removed the need for animal sacrifice, which in the past was needed to atone for the sins of God’s people. Jesus was in the grave for three days. The authorities were aware of a prophesy that Jesus would rise the dead, so they commanded that the grave would be guarded and the tomb sealed. (The authorities were concerned that the disciples might come and steal the body and falsely claim that Jesus had risen). But Jesus really did rise from the dead. The stone at the entrance to the tomb was rolled away, and Jesus was alive. The men guarding the tomb were afraid to the point of seeming like dead men. At first, Jesus was seen by the women who had followed him closely in his life. Then Jesus appeared to Peter, then the disciples, then to over 500 Christians at a time. Most of these people were still alive (and able to testify to what they saw) during the time that some New Testament books were written. During a period of forty days, Jesus presented himself alive and spoke to many people. Then, in the presence of his followers, he was lifted up to heaven in a cloud. As his followers were looking up into the sky, not able to see Jesus anymore, two men (angels) dressed in white suddenly stood beside them. They said, “Why are you looking into heaven? This same Jesus, whom you saw taken into heaven, will return in the same manner that you saw him taken into heaven” (Acts 1:11). This is the gospel. I can’t tell you how much God has shown up in my life. And I have a huge story about how God has helped me get incredibly better in my OCD. Discussion welcome:):) Have a great day!! 😀😀

i wake up with bad racing and intrusive thoughts. had a super bad one about hurting my dog and now i’m having a hard time being around her. i’m so sad

I'm struggling so badly with not closing my eyes for fear I see someone's privates!

Am I the only one that, when gets disgusted at horrible intrusive thoughts or images feels like I'm faking it or isn't disgusted enough? When I see those intrusive images in my head I feel shaken and like about to cry, like when you see something from the uncanny valley. But then I feel like I'm faking being disgusted at it, and I'm so afraid that I might be secretely liking it. Something like that just happened now and I was triggered so much by it.

I feel like when I watch escenes of women performing oral sex I want to do it too, but this didn't happen before, it feels like it really turns me on, and regular porn it's not as exciting, almost not arousing, is this something that can happen?

So, this evening I was cutting my kids nails and toenails and when it was my son’s turn, i was cutting his toenails and one started bleeding, well I’m like oh my gosh, did I mean to do that and so on. Well in my mind I was like what is that happens again, it did on the second one, mind you his toenails are weird. But I start stressing and think what if I wanted to and thought what if I meant to do it. I just need to ask has this happened to anyone?? I’ve been going through a lot of stress lately. And when I cut my daughter’s nails it was fine.

When you struggle to stay present, what’s something you can do to help that isn’t compulsive. When I loose my presence I become very vulnerable to sticky thoughts. Or maybe sticky days create a loss of presence. I’m thinking about making a few rules of thumb like: avoid confrontation, stressful media, making big decisions and maybe sticking to a to do list that includes extra self care. I’m on the upward swing but still have these days where I’m lost inside my head. Probably around 4-5 a month. I’m trying to accept that it happens without making OCD worse. Love some feedback.

Tw, groinal responses (18+ convo) Can someone tell me what the difference between a groinal response and true arousal is? Is there any true way of knowing other than you don’t want a groinal response? My groinal responses tingle, sometimes feel like I need to pee or a stinging feeling (I’m a female) and it’s usually mainly focused on just the feeling between the legs and nothing else. When I’m feeling arousal (from what I know) there’s a core heat and aching up the loins then pleasant feeling. I feel calmer in this state then with what I assume is groinal responses. That’s the only way I think to see them differently. If anyone is an ADULT and would like to also talk about their experiences, leave a comment below thanks

This is a little new for me. Each time I figure out or find peace with the OCD to the point where it’s practically nonexistent a flare up happens and suddenly I’m back to feeling “off” and not normal and thinking in my head all day all kind of ocd related thoughts. Endless questions and connections of things that are not at all related. Soo darn annoying. You guys, how do you keep pushing past this!? What tips do you have for this dealing with the feelings after the flare up. The worst part is being able to laugh and smile and just live life again and then just boom feeling soo awful again. Anyone experience feeling off after flare ups??

Is it normal when you see a trigger and you start worring you become more self aware of your groin area? to the point that I start feeling tickles or something, like I feel more my groin. Is it like self induced? Same thing as telling your mind not to think something, but to your body.

Does anyone deal with the feeling like they're about to lose control or go crazy. It's really upsetting and hard to deal with, especially since it ties into multiple themes for me.

I broke up with my partner because I didn’t feel like it was fair to her to have to be with someone who was in constant doubt over his attraction and the relationship long term.. now I’m missing this person and am having a hard time trusting my decision or what to do next.

If anyone wants to talk, or put together a support group with a bunch of us so that we can chat and be there to support each other that would be great for me! I have been having a really hard time with HOCD recently accompanied by False Memory and Real Event OCD, and I don’t really have anyone who understands or can agree with me on this. Not for reassurance purposes but just for peer support! Would be helpful!

i’m very unsure if i have OCD and am consistently feeling like i am a bad person or seeking attention for trying to reassure myself that i have it (i am not trying to attention seek it but growing up i was diagnosed with GAD when i was young because i had an existential episode about a poem.. and i have always felt that there was something else going on). when i feel this way i go on long rabbit holes of videos about ocd and have honestly become so conscious of every part of it that i now feel like im experiencing some sort of “meta OCD”. i feel that if i really do have it, its taken over my life and every waking moment is me thinking about it and sending me back on a path. lately i have been also feeling a fear of knives, bugs in my food, bleeding, etc. just want some feedback thats all.

I feel so unhappy. I have the most beautiful guy in the world as a boyfriend, and living with my intrusive thoughts is becoming unbearable. I just want to feel in love with him as I were before, with no intrusive thoughts. My ocd started all in a sudden: one day I was so in love and obsessed with him and the day after I started ruminating and never stopped. I can’t handle this anymore, it seems like I’m denying something that it is inevitable, that is I can’t love him because I’m lying to myself about my sexual orientation. I’m so tired, really, I don’t want to be lesbian because I don’t like being with girls, I don’t like the idea of being with a woman, I don’t want to be sexually involved with them, I don’t want to marry a woman. But then when I think about it, I automatically think that it’s because of society that taught us to behave as heterosexual. I really love my boyfriend, I think my ocd started because I am so scared to loose him. I love spending time with him, I love when he is around, I love talking to him, I can see myself in a future life with him, and he’s the perfect person to have children with. I just want this for my life, is it possible that everything can change from one day to another?

My OCD is at its worst when I drive. I have been struggling with it really bad this week and it’s so disheartening cause I have to drive to work and try to keep it together when I’m screaming inside. I have been in accidents that were my fault and I have been told my whole life that I am a terrible driver. Ever since my last accident 2 years ago I have been terrified every time I hit a bump in the road that I hit something. I keep looking in my rear view mirror. I live in an area with narrow streets, I’m terrified I’m going to hit a mirror or something. On the way to work today I was shaking the whole drive over. I try to drive really slow but I feel like it’s making it worse. I want to stop driving completely and not get my car fixed it’s so bad. I have struggled with ocd about other things but this one has been the hardest to shake. I’m crying in the bathroom cause I discovered a new scratch on the car and I’m racking my brain trying to figure out when it happened. I want to just let it go but it’s sooo hard.

What differences did you notice when you started to actually resist compulsions? Are intrusive thoughts less frequent? Less intense?

Please don't read this if you are underaged or sensitive to topics of POCD and sexual content. I only want adults to see this and not otherwise. There's something that I couldn't get off my mind the moment I saw it the other night. Last night, there was a YouTuber that I watched that turned out to be a pretty negative person and wasn't professional with their fans or the environments they themselves hosted. They've done pretty bad things, but one of them is save a folder of sexual content that involves fictional minors. Seeing an example of it in a video that talked about this person triggered me greatly and it affected my thoughts for a bit. As I called it out in the comments, there were some people saying it wasn't that bad or that fiction is fiction. I can understand that real children aren't harmed when this stuff is made, but what are the chances that people viewing it proceed to awful videos of real children being harmed by horrible adults taking advantage of them? Someone told me that watching fictional content of this doesn't always lead to real life pedophilia, but I think it's still quite concerning. Especially if some people are saving it. I guess it'd be one thing if someone who is addicted to pornography seeked it out and faced immense guilt, shame, and really hard feelings of not ever wanting to do that again ever, but I don't think the person in the video felt that way about their actions. It would also be different if a young teenager is exposed to a variety of adult content and stumbles upon videos featuring characters that are around their age, which unfortunately happened to me many many years ago. I guess it does depend on the person but it's overall still very disturbing and unsettling that this stuff is just freely on websites people can browse on like YouTube or adult sites. There are people that may just want to see videos of fictional adult characters they find very attractive and that's not bad, but then related searches point to characters who are minors but are either aged up or just depicted in these situations and it's really bothersome. I've made posts about this from time to time in the past and it just bothers me a lot, but some people say it's a big grey area and others full on defend it and don't see that it's bad. I just don't get it.

I’ve been struggling the past year with my OCD. I left work for a bit to go to an outpatient program. But I’ve been fighting myself for a promotion. Everytime I turn around I end up “messing something up” or forgetting how something is done. In return get a talk from my supervisor that I am not near a promotion because I’m still not getting to where I need to be. Recently just this week, I was assigned a task I did a bunch of times and literally looked at it like what is this. My brain just forgets how something’s works and 2 years into a job I’m still referring to how to process docs.. I’ve been more forgetful and can’t concentrate on anything. People say something at work and I’m like what just happened. I started ERP therapy just a couple months ago and someone said it gets worse before it gets better. I honestly just wanna quit and take time for myself. The stress of trying to make a living and pay bills is driving me to a place where I’m becoming so unstable. I’m putting so much pressure on myself to be better at work when getting out of bed, taking meds and showering is still a job to me. Has anyone else just struggled with expectations of life. And you wanna just be left alone. I’d love to work part time or something but with todays costs I couldn’t make it. Is this all OCD related or even depression? I don’t feel I was this forgetful or that I “sucked at my job” in my words. It makes me feel incapable of doing any type of job because I’ll probably “mess it up”