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A bit hopeless. I feel like my efforts to overcome ocd are mostly in vain.

Does anyone else struggle with sexual orientation OCD? I am a male who identifies as straight but for awhile Thought that I was bi sexual cuz I thought I was experiencing same sex attraction, but now that I’ve become aware that sexual orientation OCD is a thing and has a name, I can see that that is what I was struggling with. Yet, I’ve still had people say to me that I am gay and this n that, and I don’t know why. Maybe it’s cuz I am not as masculine as other men? Maybe cuz I have a higher voice? Maybe cuz i don’t have that strong alpha male posture? I overthink this. Just cuz someone told me that they think i am gay, doesn’t mean I am. This is where my Sexual orientation OCD kicks in, & I start thinking oh my gosh well if this person n that person n that person thinks im gay, then maybe i am! But the thing is is IM NOT! I am attracted to women and I wanna be married and have kids, & I can see how I have been obsessing about my orientation because of what others have said about me. Anyone else dealt with this?

Hi everyone, I recently went on vacation and had dinner at the hotel's buffet. I selected some seafood and placed it on my plate. After that, I used another spoon to add some fruits to my plate, I think the spoon accidentally touched the seafood on my plate. I'm now overwhelmed with anxiety over the possibility that someone allergic to seafood might use that same spoon for fruits and have a reaction. How do you handle these intrusive thoughts? Thank you.

The other day I was in the kitchen and the children I work with were in a rush and I was trying to push them out of the kitchen. When that happened, I was nudging them out with my hands and legs. When I was nudging a child forward, I noticed a sensation in my leg near my crotch area that I was pushing, but it wasn’t gratification and it wasn’t sexual. But I feel awful because I recognized the sensation but didn’t move my body. I continued to push forward. Now I feel like I’ve committed a heinous crime. When it happened it was very subconscious and unaware. I was not imploring myself to do anything else or really anything at all. It was just that weird feeling in my leg but I still feel awful that for 2 seconds I continued to push them forward. It’s driving me insane that I feel like I tried to continue to push forward. Now that I’m writing this, I can recognize that I was not trying to be weird or anything and I think my mind is tricking me. But it still SUCKS!!!!!!! I hate having OCD!!!!! I know I didn’t do anything and I’m a good person. But I don’t know how to be comfortable with this one.

I’ve been with my partner since I was 20. I had one relationship prior to him and little dating experience because I was religious/ covid happened. I’m having extreme OCD that I haven’t dated enough people to see who is truly out there for me/ everyone else has more experience than I do. On top of this, I believe I am bisexual and have never been with a girl (but I have sexual orientation OCD as well so who knows.) What is the best way to go about this that aligns with ERP? Would breaking up my perfectly healthy relationship be giving into my compulsions just to go date others?

Anyone deal with sexual thoughts regarding family members? Makes me sick. I know it’s OCD and I’m constantly trying to remind myself I’ve been here with other content before but it’s so disturbing. Also has anyone had past themes resurface again? Thank you in advance to whoever shares.

I get so scared when I confess that I didn’t confess enough. I have to stop. This is good motivation to get out of this loop. Does this happen to anyone else?

I cannot stop thinking about and judging my girlfriend (almost 23) for sleeping with a 34 year old before we met. She said she didn’t know his age and thought he was younger (I made her find out his age for my own ocd purposes) its ruining our relationship and my view of her. Please someone give me some sort of advice. I thought I was going to break up with her when she told me, but I just am devastated and have no clue what I’m feeling.

Does anyone think ERP therapy costs are really unreasonable? I stopped NOCD because I had BDD concerns, too and now go to another Telehealth therapist who is $225 per session. TWO HUNDRED AND TWENTY FIVE DOLLARS!!! 😡 I got an email about NOCD going to $210 per 1 hour session. It was $170 when I did it, which was already ridiculous and I felt taken advantage of for sure. Am I the only one who thinks this is just ripping off people when they're down and suffering and desperate for help? Doesn't it seem predatory and exploitative? That is a lot of money . . . and I'm now about $8,500 into getting help for my ROCD and BDDBP. The way I see it, $80 a session would be unreasonably high but $225?!?! $210??!? It’s just Insulting and a scam, especially when people (like me) were suffering so much they couldn’t hold down a job and can already barely afford food and rent. Do you agree?

I m scared I have more than just depression I been depressed for too long been trying to fix it but go back and forth with it I m scared I may need in medicine but I m no on it and I m terrific right now :( maybe I have bipolar or who knows

was hugging my cat and she got annoyed and meowed and i got sad and thought how could anyone hurt any animals then i start getting thoughts like u want to hurt one u want to really hurt one even ur own cats and it made me scared but i have little anxiety it made me sad tho. when i was little i had kicked my dog and that came up in my memories and now im scared i will hurt my pets. when i was younger i was weird and i have memories spaced out of me doing weird/bad stuff that i would never do now but it makes my ocd worse. I hate this :(

Has anyone tried N-Acetyl Cysteine for their OCD? My psychiatrist told me to buy it from the store and try it. Wondering if anyone’s had any experience and what’s it like?

Just watched a video that said that you're unhappy and with the wrong person if you find someone else attractive while in a committed relationship. OBVIOUSLY, I have ZERO desire to cheat... yet the comments and this video triggered me to think WILL.....

I love God & Jesus so much and having these awful blasphemous thoughts suck! I’ve been through this before and eventually got over it but it came back! I get cussing thoughts, rejection thoughts and just the opposite thoughts of who I am and what I value! I love them so much and I get scared what if I’ve said these intrusive thoughts out loud! I don’t think I have but the thoughts can be just so loud! Any advice to move forward past these thoughts? I’m trying to remind myself God & Jesus loves me no matter what but it can be hard when I’m being plagued by these blasphemous thoughts that make you doubt yourself too! Makes you doubt if you’re a Christian for these awful thoughts! Please any advice? Will God & Jesus be with me no matter what? I love them so much!

Anyone else struggling with false memory ocd and believing you have ‘evidence’? I don’t mean feelings I more mean finding real details, coincidences or clues/ making links to things. It’s all becoming very real, and it’s so hard to explain.

So, I have coworkers that will not stop making jokes about “being OCD and wanting things organized” which is very typical, and annoying. A part of me wants to explain to them what OCD really is and that it’s kind of frustrating to hear them talk about it without knowing what it’s really like. But I’m also embarrassed and feel awkward about saying anything. Ugh

has anyone experienced going through a breakup and experiencing ocd thoughts, i’m having them about reasons why i ended it, lots more. just want to see if anyone relates

My images are weird, they feel “close” and it’s strange that they are blurry with a background yet I’m still sort of aware of my actual surroundings whilst my intrusive image can be taking place anywhere. What about you?

If you’re like me, you use alcohol to cope and it kinda pushes the OCD thoughts way down - temporarily. My question is, does quitting help in the long term?

My brain keeps saying what if it’s not OCD and you are in denial and you are just using OCD to cover it all up…