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Worrying so much is so comforting somehow. I feel as though it’s the norm. I’m a little hesitant to part with it. I’m scared to feel nothing when I’m supposed to be worrying. I hope this doesn’t sound ridiculous.

I feel like this has completely consumed my daily life, I’m nauseated, light headed and on the brink of crying. I’m with someone who is Avoidant Attachment. So he’s already kind of withdrawn. Every time he texts someone or I feel like he’s holding his phone weird, I immediately go to “he’s sleeping with someone else” It’s completely possible that he could be cheating, but I don’t want it to consume me so much.

I'm starting to think that certain of my trauma struggles are turning into OCD. I have such a fear of people saying good/kind things to me. I associate it with what happened to me as a kid, where I was told good things and later told that those good things weren't really true, that people were telling me what I wanted to hear. So now I feel like I have to be harsh with myself in order to be "safe" from hearing later that the nice things were a lie. Basically avoiding something normal or good out of fear that something bad will happen like it did in the past. I know this involves trauma, but is there an OCD component to it that could be helped by treating it as OCD?

I am constantly comparing myself to others I don’t compare myself to others in anything else besides morality and music but it’s like yeah I can acknowledge that I’m better than a lot of people at music or whatever but to me those people don’t really matter because why would I compare myself to someone who is worse than me? Whenever I see someone who is better than me I’m like wow I suck, but if I see someone who is worse than me I’m like wow I’m actually talented. Same with morality. I am constantly convinced I am a narcissist, I find others pretty selfish and I have dedicated my life to being the most selfless person I can be. I don’t talk about my accomplishments and I also don’t talk about my talents. I really hate people who brag for no reason so I try to not do that either. I also make fun of myself a lot because I want to be relatable to people or whatever, so those are the people who I’m usually around, are self deprecating people because I am intimidated by confident people. I feel like they think they are better than me but in reality I only think that because I think they are better than me. If I hear someone who is self deprecating or whatever I will try to cheer them up, but honestly nobody does the same for me but I wish they would. This means that in relationships the other person usually ends up with confidence while I have none but I know it’s not their job I just wish other people would help me in the same way I try to be there for them and then I get resentful when they are it’s so fucked up and wrong.

Im feeling so anxious cause of my pocd and real events ocd based on extremely horrible childhood mistakes... Here are the facts. - I made a severe horrible mistake of a sexual nature 3 times at the age of 13. - someone told me about what the mistake was and what it meant earlier in the week before the mistakes happened... - i had no idea what the mistake even was before I learned of it, much less ever do it.... - i had forgotten about being told about the mistake and what it meant, and the severe mistakes happened later in the following days... - it never happened again and I feel extremely guilty at the age of 22. I dont ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way shape or form... I've asked my mom about this so many times and every time she tells me that it's not serious anymore, that the person is okay, and that I'm not a rapist or a P or a chomo... I was told what this word was, but I had forgotten it... I did not have full knowledge or full understanding on how horrible this mistake was... I was 13 at the time… now I’m 20… my POCD and real event OCD call me a P or a chomo because of the real events… while my mom reassures me all the time that it’s all over, that it’s not serious anymore, that the person is okay, and that I’m not a P or a rapist or a chomo, but when I was doing compulsive research, I remember when I saw a post on a non OCD forum about someone’s similar situation to mine and two people said to the person that they m*lested and that they needed  to turn themselves in… I don’t ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way shape or form… i didn’t know how horrible the real events were when I was 13… I really didn’t… and after the real events I never did anything like that ever again, and I never once ever thought (before, and after) about doing stuff with kids in any way shape or form... I never once fantasized about kids or wanted to do anything with kids… I was 13 and didn’t realize how horrible the actions were at the time and I never did it ever again… I never once fantasized about kids before or after the real event… I don't ever want to ever harm a child in any way shape or form... I seriously don't ever want to do that to any child in any way shape or form and I seriously don't ever want to do anything like that to any kid now or in the future… I never have had any fantasies about kids and I don't ever want to... I don't ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way shape or form... I was 13….. and after the real events I never did anything like that ever again, and I never once ever thought (before, and after) about doing stuff with kids in any way shape or form... I never once fantasized about kids or wanted to do anything with kids…  I was 13 and didn’t realize how horrible the actions were at the time and I never did it ever again… I never once fantasized about kids before or after the real event… And it’s comparing me to actual P’s and chomo’s who did stuff from 12-15… and making me think I’m a P and a Chomo because of it… I don’t ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way… 😭😭😭 and I get intrusive thoughts of people calling me a P and a chomo and me getting arrested… I don’t ever want to ever be a P or a chomo… the real events happened only 3 times and I really didn’t know how horrible it was… I don’t ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way… I don’t want to ever be attracted to or harm kids in any way… 😭😭😭

Hi guys just wondering what are some good medications for OCD. Thank you

Has anybody cured ocd to completely 100%. If yes, please help.

U guys for some reason when I think my baby looks cute or is being nice I feel something in my private and I worry. This also has been happening with my dog. I’m scared

What medications are you all on or have been on? Experiences? Side effects? What has worked and what hasn’t?

I have adhd and ocd so I have no short term memory and my ocd loves to feed on that. Sometimes I try and force myself to remember things to try and improve my adhd symptoms, but I can’t tell if these are me trying to push through adhd or doing mental compulsions for ocd. Like I’ll think to myself “what if you forgot to wash your hands free going to the bathroom before you touched your phone?” Which may be true , and then I get bored and don’t want to continue the thought , but the thought makes me anxious so I force myself to relive the memory to see if I washed my hands or not. I can’t tell if this is me just trying to improve my memory or if I’m doing mental compulsions. I wish I had a different brain. Every time this happens it hurts my head. I can’t tell if I should stop or push through to remember.

i haven’t been diagnosed with anything yet, but i have OCD symptoms, specifically POCD. when i was 11, i would play with my niece and nephew (i believe they were both two or three years old) and suddenly i would get random graphic intrusive thoughts. i never wanted to do that kinda thing, the thoughts scared me. i didn’t tell anyone for a while because i was scared they’d think i’m a horrible person. and sometimes when i would play with the kids, i would get scared that the adults would think i’m doing something bad to the kids, which was never the case. i’ve never felt attracted to them or any other child either. 11 is an age i was at puberty, and a lot of people say that people realize their attractions during puberty, and that’s been kinda scaring me. if i was one i think i would know by now, but i’m just scared. i’m not attracted to children but sometimes i’m afraid i am.

The past few months have been really rough. And yes there is a trigger warning because it’s pretty intense.. I suggest not reading if you struggle with keeping your ocd in check and utilizing the tools to get better… So I have been struggling with suicidal ocd. It’s been so hard. I know it’s ideation and it’s ocd because it’s intrusive… I don’t want to think about it… but it got so intense that I’m not even sure what to do with it anymore. I’ve been doing exposures almost every time I encounter it and sitting with it. It takes all of my time… during work, social interactions and even when I’m just alone. I can’t seem to shake it off. And I’m a Christian and a firm believer that God is able to understand and move in this situation. So with that, it’s been hard to fully accept when He speaks life back into me… the thoughts and the intrusion is so precise and dedicated to my demise… it makes me feel stuck. And with no one to truly understand it makes me feel lonely… I’m not sure if anyone else is struggling with this or not. I assume so. But if any professional or more experienced person has any advice, that would be truly appreciated.

Hi guys, I was playing a video game tonight relaxing, when I forgot what I was thinking doing and then got anxiety because of not knowing my OCD? I hate anxiety it’s the worst! What should I do about forgetting and the anxiety?

I’m feeling so hopeless. Every aspect of my life has been affected by ocd. Every single part of it. Every action that I take, ocd. Every thought I have, ocd. I don’t know how much longer I can do this for. I’m really not seeing a way out of it. Every relationship is affected. The person I love the most in this world, ocd affected. I don’t have anything anymore. I hate myself so much. I hate that I let my ocd ruin my life.

Does anyone ever think they have some type of serious illness when they get sick? I had the stomach bug on Sunday and I also have a cold and today I still feel nauseous and I have a fever, I have been watching Greys Anatomy while being sick which was not the best idea😭I overthink all the time about having cancer or developing some horrible illness and not being able to live the future I look forward to. I have convinced myself I have something more than a stomach bug and that I’m going to be diagnosed with some type of stage 4 cancer. I do this all the time , not just when I’m sick. It’s starting to affect how I live life, any time I am having fun in life or look forward to what my future could be there’s always “you could have cancer right now and not know it” that absolutely ruins everything for me. I don’t know what to do anymore :(

Help please

My bf of 4 years just broke up with me for unrelated reasons, but now i’m getting these weird urges to be with masc women. is this normal? do i have to do this? i dont want to follow through but it feels like im fighting so much

From what I'm understanding with ERP, we aren't supposed to do any of our compulsions or anything to comfort ourselves when we have these thoughts. I just don't see how I'm ever going to feel better if I can't do anything to comfort myself so that I can feel better. I hope that makes sense. Anyone able to explain how this works?

i have a crush on this guy in my grade, but my brain keeps reminding me of this other guy and its making me really u comfortable

Im really anxious , i feel like i have an attraction towards a cousin relative of mine , an i know ill never act on it but im freaking out . I try to jus forget it but whenever it pops up i feel disgusting like im so anxious , to make matters worse i have a partner and its giving me urges to tell my partner , an im freaking out. I dont like this , is there anything i can do to fix this or sooth my nerves