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Is it possible for your ancestors to curse you??? I keep getting intrusive thoughts about my relative that passed away and my thoughts are saying that they’re gonna curse me with one of my biggest fears. I’m so terrified right now. What if these thoughts were to actually come true..??!!!

I’m starting my first year at college after this gap year I used to improve my mental health aka ocd, and I’m not super sure how this will go. I’m living on campus, and I’m super excited to start classes and move in, meet new people. I just know it will be overwhelming, and if anyone has tips on coping with that, so my ocd doesn’t go absolutely wild, it’d be greatly appreciated

Does anyone else get this sinking feeling in their gut, like something terrible is about to happen? I use to panic over it but now I know it’s my OCD, it’s just so random, like all the sudden my brain is like SOMETHINGS WRONG OMG OMG DONT BE ALONE DONT LEAVE OTHERS ALONE 🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨

I have pocd and i’ve started feeling better about the whole thing but I can never fully get over it. I don’t have panic attacks over the intrusive thoughts anymore, but I can’t help but feel so grossed out and whisper “ugh i hate myself, i wanna kms” to myself. It’s like every time i start feeling happy about anything, I get reminded of the fact that I have disgusting thoughts that I shouldn’t and I can stop thinking about how it’ll affect my future. What if it gets worse. What if I get in a relationship and he wants kids. I don’t ever want to have kids and I don’t ever want to explain to my s/o what i’m going through. What if my ocd gets really serious like it was last year but I won’t be able to get help because I can’t tell anyone. Ik others without ocd will never understand. Sometimes I really wish that I die so that I don’t have to deal with that. But I want to live and enjoy life. I want to travel and fall in love and have a family, but Ik my ocd will never let me be happy.

someone said something WORD FOR WORD what i am going through. i want to post it to see if you guys have any advice. to me, it’s the fear that my values or morals have changed forever. i don’t want them to change tho, i have no idea what to do

Sooo.. for 7 years i havent worried about demons magic and other evil things.. because i prayed, and told my self. God is protecting me because og my prayers. And that worked very good. But my ocd just jumped to everything else in the religion like ocd do. 7 years of hell. Off all the things that ocd attacked in my religion from everything about sinning to perfect in prayer etc. I Got sick off all the stress. I then learned that prayer is a compulsion and that i have to face my darkest fear. Which is not to pray and face the possibility to get possed and attacked by evil. I Got the balls to do it. And i still beleive god Will protect me even if i dont pray. But. I worry if it Will work ore not. That i just should not Care if i get possesed ore not. To be honest i dont Care anymore.. But im afraid that it wont work this method. So i gues its the fear of fear.. what are u guys experience with this?

I love my boyfriend so much, but I often fear that I’m lying to myself and him im like “what if I’m gay?” And when I see another girl that’s about my age I’m constantly checking myself to see if I’m attracted to her. I’m just really afraid to lose my boyfriend and these are the thoughts my brain is stuck on right now. It used to be stuck on other ones too. It’s so exhausting.

I’m super anxious about starting ERP therapy and worry that it will be super distressing and/or I won’t be able to will myself to do it. I have a visceral reaction in my body if I feel forced to do things and leave my comfort zone. Any tips?

i wanted to reach out for some guidance i feel like i really need it. as we said, my anxiety levels have increased over the past week as i’ve gone forward with my scripts. i felt like our last session made me feel pretty off. one thing im struggling with is doubt within myself about my thoughts and train of thought. i feel like i constantly am checking and monitoring my thoughts and if it’s reassurance for anything. it feels like im not allowed to think a certain way and its become confusing. when i identify my compulsions and my reassurance i feel okay, but i feel like i don’t know where to go from there. it feels like i don’t know where to turn my mind to and that im not allowed to think any thoughts about my partner at all, even good one or my other situations in general, i feel like i get worried its just reassurance. it makes me feel sad because anytime i have a good thought my mind just feels blank at some points and it freaks me out because i just feel lost in that feeling. i’m doing my scripts and they seem to be going well, but i just am struggling because i thought i knew my feelings and had accepted these fears, now i feel like i just don’t know how to go forward with this.

Reassurance used to “help” me feel better and now it doesn’t. Does anyone know why that is?

How do you all see ocd? I see a lot of demonised perspectives on it. Just curious as to how you view it.

So my theme has revolved around the fear of having schizophrenia for about a year now, many therapist and mental health professionals told me they believe it’s a mix of ocd and hypochondria. Well my main symptom of this disorder is the fear of having delusions, so over the course of this year I’ve had thoughts ranging from “what if my wife is a demon” “what if this song means something” “what if there’s some hidden message in this movie” “what if the government created the world and controls everything” “what if Satan is the true creator of the world” “why did my cat look at me like that, what if he’s a spy created by the government, what if all animals are?” Literally crazy shit but it all feels so real, I’ve thought about this stuff so much that I’ve started to have almost an emotional detachment from the world around me, I’ll have thoughts like, “why should I care, nothings real anyway”. And now it’s starting to feel like my normal line of thinking, like now I genuinely feel like everything is fake or staged in some way, nothing feels real or genuine, it feels like everyone around me, the media, news, politics, all feels like some sort of big act or lie. Feels like there’s something more to reality that I’m missing or something, everything feels “too perfect”. I’ve lost all happiness in everything and I’ve become SO suspicious of every single thing, everything has to have some deeper meaning according to my brain, it sucks. Has anyone ever had the fear of schizophrenia and it got this bad?

Here’s my biggest issue. I see men that I think are attractive or I’ll notice a good looking man, but not in a sexual way, I don’t wanna cuddle them, no of that stuff. I simply notice how good looking they are, then the thoughts trigger that ask “I wonder if think he has a good looking face means I gay”, then I keep asking questions along those lines. Then sometimes I’ll put my self in a gay situation in my head to try visualize whether I’d enjoy doing something gay. After all the mental gymnastics, I come to the conclusion of no. Then I proceed to ask myself, “is the answer only no because of what society would think, or how you were raised?”. And I genuinely can’t come up with an answer for that, I can’t tell if I’m just in the closet, or if this is just OCD, or what. I don’t know what to do and it drives me crazy.

ive been questioning these past weeks, what js wrong with me? i just feel like i FEEL the thoughts but i dont HEAR them. I felt all these things, i saw these images but than i didnt. I felt fucking insane. Until, after a short anxiety attack, and some spiralling. I realized what the problem is. Im repressing the thoughts, im forcing them shut. Im just not letting them flow. I would tell them to stop, to shut up. And i fear, after doing that, the thoughts are still there, and i feel them there, i just dont hear them. Its weird, and probably doesnt make sense. But i honestly fear my own mind, i fear my thoughts, i fear the images, i fear the power it holds. And ive been chicken to it. It makes me feel crazy, like a lunatic. I feels like someone is squeezing my brain. Idk, does any else relate?

I was doing great for 4 days straight then it just hit me…like a giant wave and intrusive thoughts just started bombarding me…now I’m in the back yard in tears & sad…arrrrhhhghg

I am really curious to try the GeneSight test because I think that it would help me understand what medication will work better for me. I spoke with multiple different people about this, and it was brought to my attention by my hairstylist and my therapist. They both think it would be really good for me, and I’m willing to try it if my insurance will cover it. I then texted my psychiatrist and she seemed very unsure about the testing. Part of me thinks that she just wants more money so she is not willing to help me find what medication works best for me, the other part of me wonders if it is not a good idea and a waste of money to do the testing. I want to see the best in my psychiatrist, but she tends to not listen to me anyways, so I don’t really have a reason to listen to her in this situation. I’m curious to know if anybody else has tried the Genesight testing and how it worked for you. Or if you have medication recommendations? I know that is more tricky, because it’s different for everyone.

Hi, do you have any tips on how to resist searching answers online? I spend so much time watching reels, reading other experiences trying to understand if I can relate ecc... I want to stop, it's not helping me or giving me a definitive answer, but it's difficult to resist.

Can ocd make me think i want to act on them when i dont pls respond

Suicide OCD people help. Tell me your stories, tell me it gets better and eventually stops, tell me it’s normal. Tell me something !

If there is anyone hete that has made it through this, how does one manage the fear of the intrusive thoughts being true when trying to do erp? it terrfiies me to my core and gives me a overwhelming amount of anxiety to a point where i developed ocd tics and freeze. Its very scary but i really want and need to get better. Any advice?