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Hi everyone, I’ve been struggling a lot with my thoughts and feelings about my boyfriend. He’s an amazing person—kind, loving, and supportive—but I constantly feel like I’m faking everything. It’s like I’m a liar pretending to love him, and deep down, I don’t actually want to be with him. Whenever he tells me he loves me or shows affection, I feel guilty because I think, What if I don’t love him back? It feels so real, like the truth is staring me in the face and I’m just refusing to accept it. I keep asking myself: Am I just staying with him because I’m used to him? What if I’ve never truly loved him? What if I’m a bad person for stringing him along? I don’t feel anything when we kiss or when he’s sweet to me, and that terrifies me. Sometimes I even feel irritated by him or like I don’t want to be around him, and then the guilt becomes unbearable because I know he doesn’t deserve that. This constant analyzing is taking over my life. I can’t even tell what’s real anymore. Am I lying to myself because I’m scared to face the truth? Or is this just my anxiety distorting everything? I feel like such a horrible person for even having these thoughts. If anyone has felt like this, please let me know how you managed to deal with it. I’m exhausted and just want to feel like myself again. he is also at my house amd i feel numb he tries to make me understand that i do like him and i feel so bad.

I don’t even know who I m gonna overcome health ocd I don’t think is possible I m here trying to be okay but my brain keep remainder me that my blood pressure was super high on dec 26 and that I could have a stroke or heart attack at any minute I m believing this thoughts because is true my blood pressure was high I know I m supposed to let the thoughts be and lean to the uncertainty but how do I accept that I may have a heart attack or no or stroke but the chances seem high because I have proof blood pressure is high I m so done :(

hello, guys! since may of last year, i have been facing intrusive thoughts that have been punishments from hell in my life. i have been in therapy since september, and my therapist says she sees a lot of OCD in me. i have actually been suffering from this type of intrusive thinking, since 2021, involving children, and before i did the exposure without even knowing anything about OCD or related issues, because for me, they were intrusive thoughts and nothing more than that. the problem was that in may of last year, i think i actually had a trauma, and i started to feel groin sensations..i don't remember if i felt them before, i assume not. these feelings and this tightness in my chest is what drives me crazy about this! i read so much about POCD and pedophilic disorder, many of the things, i know..the ones i don't know, i try not to know, because my mind would not tolerate one more coincidence. i will not be a hypocrite, i know that what i'm going through sounds a lot like OCD (although i don't have a diagnosis), but i'm afraid it's not. most of my thoughts are in the third person, i think because of the traumas i've had, and that bothers me a lot, because it seems like a fantasy or something that i desire. i'd rather be burned to death than hurt anyone, especially children or teenagers who are easily influenced. i have my morals, my empiricism and i will never exchange that for this primitive "will" inside me, i don't want it! the fact is: a few months ago, i went to a barbecue, and there was a little baby and a little child, i played with them, they hugged me and had a lot of physical contact. i was careful with my hands and my body, but the problem was the groin sensations! i am a woman, so i was very afraid of being lubricated or that feeling being really pleasurable..i was always in agony, and at times i avoided contact. i went to the bathroom and saw that i had actually stayed, and it left me devastated. what i do now?! do i commit suicide?! i check myself into a hospital ?! i know that anxiety may have contributed to this factor, but i could never bear to live with this for the rest of my life. i have avoided contact with children ever since, even looking at them is uncomfortable for me.

I’be been struggling with intrusive thoughts for about a couple months now and it’s actually driving me insane. I’m afraid it isn’t POCD and it’s just the person that I am. I’ve started therapy and started seeing a psychiatrist to get some relief, but I feel like the medications are scaring me more because my reactions to these thoughts aren’t as intense as they used to be this past week. At all costs I try to avoid being around children and it causes me so much anxiety, but I feel like my life is over because I’ve always wanted to be a parent and actually work in a field that is specialized with children, now I don’t know if I can. When the thoughts first appear I’d go into a full blown panic attack to the point I thought I’d have to go in-patient because it was just too much to handle, and I would wake up and it was the first thing to pop into my head and it just never stopped throughout the day. I wouldn’t leave my house because I was so scared of myself. I’m just so scared that I’m actually a bad person and im gonna do something bad that I don’t want to do. I’m not questioning ever bad thing I’ve ever done to anyone and feel like some reason my life is either over or I belong in prison for the rest of my life. These thoughts make it so difficult to want to go out and do anything and it just makes me so scared. Is this actually POCD?? or am I a truly bad person????!

**PLEASE READ** so one of my compulsions is frequent pornography consumption as my hypersexuality and ocd compulsions enable one another. as i was looking for something to watch, a website just popped up on my computer while i was in another tab and i looked up and it said dark web and then what I believed showed up were thumbnails for cp. i immediately clicked out and got really scared and started panicking and exited out of all my tabs. i almost screamed too bc i my computer is pretty good with blocking pop ups and random websites and idk how that came out of nowhere. i then went on google to search what would happen if the dark web was accidentally accessed and people were saying you cannot accidentally end up on it. so now i am panicking and do not know what to do bc I would never ever in a million years willingly even attempt to access to dark web and all of its atrocities. someone please help i feel like i am losing my mind and as if i am now going to get into legal trouble and have my life derailed. i am crying in the bathroom and trying to call my friends but no one is available. help

So for almost a month now I've been dealing with a very confusing problem. One day I woke up feeling weird after a week of that feeling like a heaviness in my chest which lead me to start crying for no reason. I ended up with the conclusion that I might wanna break up with my lovely boyfriend.( we have been together for almost 3 Years , There's absolutely nothing wrong in my relationship and he's the most amazing person I've met and I want to always be with him). So I started searching up on the internet what's going on and I came to a post saying I might be losing feelings and that's when it got worse that heaviness in my chest spread to my whole body I couldn't sleep or eat for 4 days. Everything sucked. I was scared really scared. I talked with my friend and she said it's normal and relationships can run their courses etc etc and the reason why I'm not accepting it it's a problem etc etc. I went on quora and talked with a psycologist and he reassured I'm just really anxious and it's all in my head. The moment I saw that text Everything left and I went back to normal. I did get abit triggered though once in a while. After 2 weeks of feeling normal it came back but it was 10x times worse. I had a panic attack. That heaviness was unbearable and my anxiety was severe to the point where I couldn't function at all. Although after a week or so it left again but only for 2 days. But it came back again. Right now my brain is telling me I wanna break up. The thing is I don't want to like I know I'll regret it and I'm very very sure that I love him. This constant urge of wanting to break up has created a knot in my stomach and throat. I cry almost every night. At some point I turnt numb. I felt like that was the end. I called him but while calling him he made me smile and this anxiety was relieved for abit. And that made me wonder what's wrong with me. What do I want? The truth is I've always been anxious and I've always have attachment issues but this feeling hurts me so bad. I'm abit better but I feel disconnected from everything. I still make sure to show love to my partner and to say to myself that I don't wanna break up. But my mind says to me that it's all a lie and someday soon we will break up and I'm scared. I wanna stop thinking that I wanna break up. I wanna go back to normal. I'm not sure what is this. But I miss my boyfriend idk why I feel like that. I miss feeling normal... what should I do? Is this something OCD related? What therapy is suggested for this?

Hello guys.I'm new to this. After a reddit post it has been suggested that I might suffer from OCD. I'm not sure if that's true or not(my brain says nuh uh lol). But I wanna hope that I'll get better soon! And I hope everyone who has it gets better as well !! Lots of hope and hugs!

Hi, I suffer with ROCD and POCD and I’m really scared that it may effect my relationship and I really want help not only for him but for me too, I am on the waiting list for free cbt therapy but I really want help and advice in the mean time and if any one has any advice on my questions please I’m begging you comment any advice you have, How do I not over share my ROCD intrusive thoughts with my partner for reassurance and deal with it on my own How do I battle ROCD and get rid of it How can I calm myself down when overthinking and panicking and feel the need for reassurance but can’t get it please help by giving me advice

I don't know if this is OCD but I feel like I need help in many ways. I'm not very good at sharing my emotions and I dated this guy for about two and a half months. At first, it was great, like you know when you want to know what they're doing all the time and they give you that butterfly feeling? I lost that feeling the second stopped listening to me. Him and I about a month into dating finally kiss, this was the first time I had EVER kissed someone. I was so embarrassed because when he first tried I moved my face away and said no. He respected that. At least I thought. I look back at it now and I realize he didn't even listen to me. I told him that I'm super sorry and embarrassed that I swerved at him and laughed but I'm too scared to. He didn't understand why I didn't but said it was okay and that he'll wait so I started to ramble on about how I just don't know what I'm doing and I'm really sorry for laughing and I feel terrible and that's when he leaned in and kissed me and I was shocked but happy about it. But the more I think about it, the more I'm realizing that even little things like that, he didn't listen, even though in the end I didn't like it. After a little bit, there started to be more making out seshes and his hands started going places I wasn't expecting. In the moment, and there's no good way to put this, I was getting horny after his hands were slowly rubbing against me. So he grabbed my hand and moved it down to my pants basically asking for permission to stick his hands in pants. At this point I couldn't control myself and I knew it was sooo wrong but I felt like I had no control. So I let him and he tried to get me to put my hands in his pants but I pulled my hand out and then he tried to put it back again and I told him I don't know how to do that stuff and I'm not ready. He told me it was fine and we moved on. After that, every time we hung out we were doing this stuff and he made me feel like I had to give him pleasure because he was doing it to me. So I did and I hated it but I didn't know how to share my feelings so every time he tried to put my hands down him I would just laugh and say I can't do it and he just would groan and move on. After a week of almost hang out like every day and doing this stuff, he started to lay on top of my fully clothed and I could feel him almost entering me. But I didn't say anything because I felt like I was being dramatic since he wasn't necessarily doing anything to me. This went on til our 2 months hit and we both agreed that we need to stop doing this stuff and do more relationship stuff. So the next time we hang out was unfortunately in the back seat of my car, but not for any suspicious reasons. I had a really important appointment for my knee and said I probably wasn't gonna go out to his house because I'd only get an hour. So while I was at my appointment, he came to me and we decided to watch the movie in the back of my car. But he said he didn't want to be there because people could see us and assume things. So we drove to this park and sat in the back and half way during the movie he wanted to get freaky and I told him no we promised each other this wouldn't happen. And he told me he takes it all back and that he at least wants to kiss. I told him absolutely not I'm not gonna change my mind but he continued to grab my face and try to kiss me. So I felt like I was being over dramatic and just let him but every time he did I would stop and say no we can't do this but he wouldn't listen. I finally said that it's past the time I'm supposed to leave so take me back. After that, I was annoyed but I didn't care because again I was telling my self it was only kissing who cares. A couple days later we make plans to hang out as soon as I get out of work. When I do I park next to his car and he see him sleeping. So I thought it would be funny to his window and scare him. But not like bang it or anything just like my palms hit it enough to scare him. I open his door laughing and he tells me it's not funny don't ever do that to my car. I was shocked and quickly apologized saying I'm sorry I don't know why I did that I wasn't thinking. He responded saying it's fine just don't do that again. And I just go in his car with his birthday present I got him. We decide want to make bracelets that match our eye color and we get all the supplies and head to his house. He took me to his bedroom and I asked if his dad was okay with this and he said yes. But then his dad tells us we can't be in there and kicks us out. Nick gets angry and is very snappy towards his dad and doesn't agree either him. So I told him it's nothing he should be angry about because it's called good parenting. After that, he wanted to get something to eat so we were getting ready to leave. I saw him grab a big blanket and I asked what that was for. He told me to be quiet his parents could hear. So I didn't ask and went to the car. After eating I thought we were just gonna end the night like that but on our way back, he says shoot I missed my turn. I realize we're going back to that same park we did last time. I didn't know what was happening so I asked what he meant by missing his turn and he told me so that was can watch a movie. So I don't know what to do or say so I was like whatever it's just a movie. He opens his MacBook but it won't load. He decides that we should just leave it to do download but in the meantime we make out. I tell him no, we agreed not to and he said well like it's just kissing that doesn't count. And I said yes it does but proceeded to try. I finally let him and sits on top of me as we make out. Within like 5 min his hands are in my pants without any permission. I didn't mind because it was giving me pleasure but then he unties his pants. So I quickly remind him that I don't want to have sex and I also told him that on FaceTime the day before. He says okay and we continue. His pants are still on but he leans over to grab something and it's a condom. I quickly remind him again that that's not I want and he tells me he understands and that it's just for protection in case anything gets anywhere. So I was like okay whatever as long as he's not thinking sex. As we're making out he starts to pull down my pants and claims he couldn't move his hand with how tight my pants were so I let him. We proceed to kiss but it's pitch black and he's starting to do the motions of having sex and then I feel his penis. He wants me to give him a hand job and I tell him no. So he says whatever and we continue to make out. I feel his penis rubbing against me but it's not inside me so I figured like if that's what he needs to control himself then whatever. But then it gets pushed inside of me and I can barely breathe and I freak out saying his name and telling him no. He doesn't say anything but he removes it, after a minute goes by he does the same thing again and says he's sorry it was an accident, but then he does it AGAIN, a third time. I don't know what to do because I've tried pushing him off but he didn't seem to understand I was scared to freak out because we were basically in the middle of no where, no cell service, and he's my ride. So I ask him what time it is and he tells it's 8 so I tell him I need to go home. He doesn't like that and tells me that I'll be fine for a little longer because the roads are fine now. So I tell him I can't I'll get in trouble. I get dressed and go to the front seat but he tells me he doesn't want to move. I tell him fine then I'll drive because I really need to pea. He finally gets up but then says wait I do too and then walks away to go pee on a tree. At this point I'm being extremely impatient because I want to go home and get away from this. When he comes back, he tries to talk to me and I tell him I'd rather not talk right now and then he realizes something's wrong. He asks me if I'm okay and then tells me I look like I'm gonna cry so I tell him im totally fine and that I'm tired. He makes me pinky promise and he hugs me. I've thought and thought and I still can't figure out if this is rape. If it is, I don't want to make it serious because I feel like I was also in the wrong. I shouldn't have gotten in the back seat or let him pull my pants down. I still think about this and this happened two days before Christmas. No one knows but some of my trusted friends. I wanted to talk about it to him but he kept asking me to hang out and stuff so I finally told him Christmas night that we are unhealthy for each other and need to break up. And we call about this for an hour and just basically go in circles. I don't know why but I still care for him and can't stop thinking about him. And on new years when the ball dropped he kissed another girl because he was mad at me. Yes we were broken up but we were still texting and trying to figure this out. And he even drunk texted me saying he was angry about not having a New Year's Eve kiss but then he admits to me the next day that he got one from a stranger. I don't know what to do because I still care but it's obvious I shouldn't be with him and I don't know how to go about it. We are still texting and are kind of on good terms. I need help but I don't what's the best way to go about this.

Does anyone like go through waves. Your mind is super silent maybe a couple of thoughts but you are able to brush it off? But then out of nowhere your mind just starts rushing with every thought? If so, how do you cope with this? It drains me.

A few years ago I was watching porn and stumbled across a very grotesque video. I do not wish to say many contents of the video but included an underage person and a person over the age of 18, it was very inappropriate and boarderline sickening. Just a few days ago my mind jumps back to the time I stumbled across the video and my mind immediately starts jumping to conclusions that I’m pedophile. As well as my mind making up different scenarios that could’ve happened when I saw the video because I don’t remember in full detail of my thoughts looking back at it now. Such as my mind saying i’m a pedophile. Even though i’m not. I know i’m not. I haven’t ever reached out to those kinds of videos voluntarily and I have deleted the browser that I would normally go on for pornography. I’m very lost since and I’m having an internal battle with the myself and my own mind. It has made me feel sick to the stomache just thinking about when I stumbled across that video involuntarily. It has made me feel as though I don’t deserve the love, happiness, and support i’m getting today. Please if anyone has any tips on how to help letting go of past mistakes or moments like such reach out to me. This app has brought me some ease because it doesn’t make the other moments I face struggling with OCD a problem I face by myself. My OCD has ruined my past relationships to the point where I am agreeing to never get into a relationship again. I’m only 17 and I feel completely trapped. Since yesterday marks the second year I was diagnosed with OCD.

18+ please When I was 18, I started to talk to people on Instagram, and used to use the hashtags to meet new people. Well, I also deal with histrionic personality disorder, and I used to send nvde to people. My first person I sent a nvde to was 14. That person lived in another country, and he said that he’d get me in trouble, but he only said that when I set my boundaries and said I can’t continue talking to him. He never got me in trouble. Then gradually as I got older, I still continued to talk to people who’d just give me any sort of attention as a young adult. From 19, I started talking to a 16 year old, but not because I’m attracted to young people at all but because on Instagram, there was people who could lie about their age at any point, and I was stupid and made poor life decisions at this point. Then from 20, I started talking to a 17 year old, and then I told them I cannot continue talking to them. I feel so disgusting. Some of these people have pictures of my face and my name, I’m scared to ever remember telling them my last name, I just can’t remember. I even remember sending nvdes to random people that I never talked to, just because. This is a part of my past OCD that I think about every waking day of my life, it’s something unforgivable, and I’m ashamed. I am currently 27 years old and I no longer do those things, I feel so ashamed and mad at myself looking back. I feel like I completely ruined my future. I told my partner who is 28 about everything I just admitted not too long ago, and he said everybody makes mistakes. I just feel as if it’s something unforgivable, as I’m scared and ashamed that people know who I am, or still have pictures saved of me. I need help, or similar experiences that someone has had before?

hey I really need help right now, I feel so lost and stuck. I've experienced intrusive images before but right now I'm so scared that I'm hallucinating, so this one image started out after seeing a video on tiktok about what this girls hallucinations looked like, some of them being like a black figure. only for some reason this triggered me rly bad later on and made me scared that I'll start hallucinating and what she saw as a hallucination is now what I think is an intrusive image for me but this time something is different which really makes me think I'm hallucinating, it's like I'll be in my room or like the kitchen or something and my mind will put the image as if it was actually in my surroundings like for example if you have a table right in front of you (you know the table is real) and you imagine an apple being on it, (you know the apple was created by your mind) and you know it's not actually there, this has freaked me so so much that I can't tell if this is hallucinating or if it's still just a way that my intrusive images are manifesting just earlier today I was deep on Reddit searching intrusive images, or hallucinations or schizophrenia, and then I was asking chat gbt so many stuff like what are the differences between intrusive images and hallucinations and just rn I was panicking about these images because they feel so real even though I know they aren't I need to genuinely know If I'm hallucinating and/or have schizophrenia :(:( (I'm not diagnosed with ocd or any mental illness only I have suspected that I potentially do because of my past experiences with what I'm pretty sure were themes of somatic and harm ocd) I do plan to bring this up to my counselor because I genuinely feel like im at my breaking point, my mental health has never been this bad, somebody please tell me if they have experienced anything like this or if this is even somewhat normal I'm scared I'm going to go crazy and lose touch with actual reality

OK, this has been something that has been bothering me for a while. Growing up, due to how I grew up and I’m assuming how I was raised, I developed very bad control issues. Especially with my peers. I was very toxic, controlling, and even sometimes manipulative. I remember having this friend who was about two years younger than me, well two grades below me. We met in middle school, and we were friends with the same people. We ended up getting closer and I guess best friends down the line. In the beginning of our friendship, the very beginning, I had made inappropriate sexual flirtatious comments to her, which she did go along with, but obviously she was a little, taken a back by the nature of the comments. I don’t recall anymore those comments continuing throughout the friendship, only stuff like compliments when we would hype each other up on social media. Throughout the beginning of our friendship, I would like to say the first half, these negative behaviors were more prominent. Me and her were in drama a lot, whether it was her being fake to me, me being fake to her, us talking mess about each other, her going behind my back and doing fake stuff, so I do remember being rude to her quite often or sometimes being like do you wanna fight? If I felt that she crossed the boundary. We trusted each other with a lot of our personal business and trauma, confiding in each other. As our friendship went on, these negative behaviors stopped, but obviously, since she is a little bit younger than me, it took her a little longer to mature, so I had to cut her off eventually due to her doing something that actually crossed my boundaries. Looking back on it now, I get scared that I groomed her. I asked ChatGPT, and it said that some of the things I did fall under the criteria of grooming, but I did not directly or intentionally groom her. If I am a groomer, I would like to know. I feel like that is irredeemable. I hope I am explaining all of this. Well, I am not trying to put too much blame on her as I am trying to take accountability for things I did in the friendship.

i feel so overwhelmed. i’m moving back home bc i just graduated college and my boyfriend and i will be about 10 hours apart. i’m freaking out because im worried if our relationship will last. i’m worried about what will happen. i’m visiting him this weekend and he’s gonna make plans to visit me, but i just feel heavy and like idk what’s gonna happen. i don’t wanna end it bc of fear, it’s just hard.

Hi, I’m struggling so much right now, and I feel like I’m falling apart. My OCD has latched onto intrusive thoughts about pedophilia and other horrible topics, and I can’t escape them. They feel so real sometimes—like my brain is trying to convince me that this is who I am. It’s not just ‘what if’ questions anymore; it feels like affirmations, like my mind is telling me I’m a monster. I keep getting these false memories that I did something horrible in the past, and it makes everything worse. I can’t even trust my own mind anymore. I’m terrified that these thoughts will never stop, and that I’ll somehow end up acting on them, even though deep down, I know that’s not who I am. I’ve also had an enormous addiction to pornography, and I deeply regret everything I’ve watched. The shame and guilt I feel because of that addiction are overwhelming. I can’t help but feel that it’s all connected to the mess in my mind right now, and it makes everything harder to bear. I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, and I spend most of my time hiding under the covers, wishing I could be the person I used to be. I love my family, but I can’t even be around them because I’m so consumed by shame and fear. Sometimes, I have mental scenarios where I imagine admitting to being something horrible, and it completely breaks me. I don’t know who I am anymore. I’ve even stopped going to work because there are children there, and I’m terrified of what my mind might do. On top of this, I have borderline personality disorder, which makes everything even harder to manage. I’m on Effexor (started 75 mg on December 23, now 150 mg), but I feel like I’m losing the strength to wait for it to help. This has been going on non-stop for a month now, and I don’t know how much more I can take. I feel so alone in this, like I’m trapped in my own head. I don’t know how to live with this constant doubt and terror. I just want to feel normal again. Please, if anyone has advice or support, I need help so badly.

Something made me sad and imediatelly i felt anxious. People say change your reactions but sometimes these "reactions" are so automatic, you cant change it, so i dont understand what they mean by change it. The anxiety was automatic like the sadness. But for some reason even after trying to focus on the present, the emotion stayed and i struggle to shift my focus on the present moment when theres a symptom like dizzyness or a strong feeling. And this is happening right now, i jist notice the automatic reactions to the feelings which feeds it more but also makes me frustrated cause they are automatic and i cant shift my attention, i cant stop them, cause trying it will make it worse, but also focusing on them feeds my anxiety and it doesnt go away. I also noticed and automatic reaction like "this wont work, i cant do this, this is so scary" and i dont know what to do with this, i dont like it cause it doesnt help me, but trying to fight with it makes me desperate and frustrated... Also weeks before i had a really bad anxiety attack and i started feel so dizzy, i felt in danger, it didnt went away and i was afraid that i either faint or i will vomit because of the dizziness. How do you cope with that? How to you lose the fear of it cause now i notice deep down im frightened to experience that again cause i cant cope with it...

Really bad theme right now is death, I keep thinking about how one day or at any moment my heart will stop my brain will stop & my memories & everything I know will all fade away. It is giving me so much anxiety I’m only 18, but I realize it all happens to us it is bound, we are born to die. I know it’s a silly thing to be scared because it’s not helping the quality of my life worrying about it and even when I do die, I won’t care , if you don’t have a working brain then how can you care 🤷‍♀️. It is tainting my everyday life currently & honestly making me terribly depressed & it is giving me derealization & making me feel nihilistic, I’ll remind myself it’s okay but then with my ocd i don’t stop thinking and thinking about it and it’s seriously so hard to stay present in the moment because this thought just feels like I can’t scrub it away it’s miserable I struggle with religion, but I do pray to anything that’s out there possibly listening, because it is comforting, it just feels like this whole experience Is pointless & I am afraid of the unknown and what is to possibly happen but I’m subjected to it anyways so why should it matter

I’ve been dealing with intrusive thoughts as long as I can remember. I’ve had several different themes that always come up at the worst times. Example In 2009 I married my high school sweetheart. Before that time my theme always revolved around health concerns. After we got home from our honeymoon someone at work said “nice ring, looks gay on you”. That statement alone sent me into a spiral of questioning my sexuality which I’ve never done before. That theme lasted a while and I can now burst out laughing about how ridiculous it was. Fast forward several years. I’m dealing with harm and any thought that my mind labels as intrusive. It’s very difficult because I have two kids that my OCD loves to attack. My family is my whole world but my intrusive automatic thoughts make me doubt everything. Do you sometimes check your feelings and notice that you are numb? I’ve even started being stuck on the idea that maybe I’m bipolar which terrifies me. Does anyone fall in the trap of reading symptoms and now you think you have them? OCD is a terrible thing. Just looking for someone who can relate. Knowing someone can relate is a big help. Stay Strong out there my OCD friends.