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I’ve been prescribed this but I have never taken medication and I’m really scared of getting worse? Has anyone got a positive story for this? Thank you

is it possible to even have a relationship while i’m suffering with real event ocd and ocd in general. i’m just so scared they’ll find out everything bad i’ve done and leave me

This obsession is very random and particular, but it revolves around relationship OCD and is causing me a ton of distress. Basically, I found out over the weekend that my ex the one before my current boyfriend is engaged. I promise you Im in a happy and healthy relationship of over 3+ year relationship, and I’m moved on from all of my ex’s. But for some reason when I saw his post, it triggered me and almost hurt my ego if that makes sense? I can’t stop ruminating and looking at his post and announcement of the engagement on Facebook and it’s just upsetting seeing him get engaged because it’s like no you really hurt me and don’t deserve to be happy in my opinion. I know that sounds toxic to say but that’s how I feel. It also hurts me because I was his first serious girlfriend and he didn’t treat me that well and now seeing him all cleaned up looking nice and seeming matured is pissing me off. I know I shouldn’t think about it, but ocd makes that seem almost impossible. Please let me know your thoughts bc I feel like I’m going insane…

I want to get married and I’m scared I might end up being like those female pred because they’re always married!!! I’ve always wanted marriage Because I would feel like i would cheat on my husband because of the thoughts and unwanted urges and the intentional thought at the salon

In Harm OCD, do you feel uncertain about your values because your intrusive thoughts questioned them so much? Earlier, I felt horrified whenever these thoughts popped up because I knew they were against my values. But over the past few months, I’ve had so many intrusive thoughts that questioned why I should believe my values. And that questioned if it really matters if I believe my values. Now I’m not sure if it’s OCD anymore because when I think about what my values are I’m really confused and not sure anymore. And if I think whether I would act on my thoughts I’m not sure and I don’t have an answer and I don’t feel horrified. Has anyone experienced this? I’m really concerned that it’s getting worse

seriously someone pls give me advice 😭 I think last week I posted about how I have a crush on my friend and how my brain was making me question everything (mostly my sexuality). Well now I know he has a crush on me too and I’m already worrying about not liking him anymore, even though I was thinking about him all day before he confessed to me. I went to look at pictures to make sure I still think he’s attractive and I didn’t feel the same. Now I’m worrying about if I’ll no longer feel attracted to him when we hangout in person. Why can’t I at least have a simple crush? Why must I question everything??? WHY CANT MY BRAIN JUST FUNCTION NORMALLY THIS IS DRIVING ME INSANE!!?? If you have any tips on how to deal with this please let me know 😭.

What do I do if I pray really intense prayers when I’m going through a hard time and nothing changes still. I don’t wanna go to him just cuz I need help I try and talk to him all the time but this thing just keeps coming back and idk why if it’s out of my control or it’s cuz I’m lukewarm I just don’t know what to do. Does that mean I’m unsaved if I’ve been not treating him good or feel close

I’m a bit confused because whenever I hear the term neurodivergence I think that it means someone has a condition based in a variation of brain structure. Like autism, adhd, ocd, dyscalculia, dyslexia, tics, etc. (although I recognize sometimes it’s a hormonal thing and can go away over time). What I’m confused on though is whether other people with ocd resonate with a lot of the content on neurodivergence? Like through TikTok, YouTube, etc. I feel like it’s mainly targeted toward people with autism and adhd. But I also think maybe it is a common experience for people with ocd to have things like difficulty with social cues or sensory sensitivities and I just assume other people with ocd don’t have it because I don’t have it. Any thoughts?

I was recently prescribed Zoloft for my OCD and GAD. I was started on 12.5mg once a day. I’m really nervous and I’d love any good advice. I’m scared of gaining weight and becoming numb (what I’ve heard on tiktok). Is 12.5 or 25 mg enough for one to feel numb to emotions or crying?

Trying my best to stop ruminating and practice acceptance and the possibility and not possibility of things being real. How many times am I going to have to tell myself the exact same thing

i’ve graduated and it just seems terrifying now because my pocd is flaring up again and i’m terrified of myself , i was planning to become a teacher but i just find disgust in even applying and I want to avoid children I have had these recent thing where i have intrusive thoughts and im scared to look at children because im scared i might look at their intimate areas and it’s killing me because i avoid looking at children or even have conversations with them because im scared of what my ocd does. Even when i try to conquer my fear of looking at children and just letting the fear sit, my OCD convinces me that i do look at them in a weird sexual way and I feel like ripping myself into shreds even saying that.

Is this just me or when you come across Christian shorts on tik tok or YouTube do you feel obligated to watch them. I feel like if I don't watch them then I am sinning. But most of these videos are just repeating the same thing. Idk if this is just me but I just feel like I have to watch them because it's would be worse to not watch them than to break a commandment.

I did the deed yesterday for girlfriends day and after I finished we felt a little emotional to the point we almost cried and telling my girlfriend that I love her so much and then I said I’m scared of losing her and I wanna be with her forever. And then I started getting scared like what if I don’t like her actually or I don’t love her for real after this and I started panicking and got scared and had anxiety for a bit. Then in the shower after she went home and I told her I would give an arm and a leg for real to be in love with her if I’m not and I felt like crying again after typing all that stuff like that because I wanna be in love with her so bad and I don’t wanna have to leave her

i'm suffering so much, i don't know if this is only OCD but i can'f do this. i'mm to frustrated to even type or do anything so ignroe the awful spelling. i'm so sick of this, i keep having such extreme urge in my hands to move, also in my arms & legs. it's a stmptom of medicatuon that i had but i had it before & still jow it keeps getting worse. every sibgle thought intrusive or not keeps yelling at me, i have no rest, i can't rest. i can physically feel every single thought, i want to crawl out of my body. i have the urge to touch everything , i cant do this sorry im feeling so fucking awful. i feel weird. pleadhelpme i already spoke about this with someone & i tried to test some things out but its still just so extreme. i cant do anything at the moment jot even lay down, half if this is OCD half is bot i dont even care i keep attemtping anythunv to make it go away

Hey, I really need your opinion – I think I might be struggling with Relationship OCD, and these thoughts are driving me crazy. I’ve been officially diagnosed with OCD, and I believe I also have ROCD. My obsessive thoughts often focus on one specific girl from my boyfriend’s past. She had messaged him a few times, and I think she liked him – but he never liked her back. He barely knew her, never found her attractive, and never wanted anything with her. She’s just a good friend of his best friend – not an ex or anything like that. He told me that he happened to be in the same group as her a couple of times – once at a birthday party and once at a fair – just because his best friend brought her along. He made it clear several times that she’s not his type at all, neither in looks nor in personality. He described her as someone who likes to go out and party a lot, and said that’s just not what he’s into. He also said he didn’t ask about her – these things were mentioned to him before our relationship. Almost all of this happened before we met – except for one thing: the fair. That was just one day before our second date, back when we had just started getting to know each other. She was with his friend group that night. He said he only said hi and bye to her, nothing more. The next day, when we met again, we were talking about his friends’ heights. He casually mentioned that his friend was the same height as that girl – 1.70 m. Ever since, I keep wondering: If she meant nothing to him, why did he even talk about her? Or did he actually talk to her that night, even though he said he didn’t? I know he said they barely exchanged a word, but somehow he still knew that detail. I just find that strange. Another example: He once said she was “kind of slutty.” Then, one or two months later, when I brought it up again, he said he didn’t know if she was or not, and that he didn’t care at all. That really confused me. I keep wondering: Why did he say something like that in the first place if he supposedly doesn’t care about her? I also notice this really frustrating cycle: When I talk to him about something that doesn’t make sense to me, I feel brief relief. But then, almost immediately, another thought or detail pops up that feels “off” again – and I feel like I have to bring that up, too. I can’t tolerate the uncertainty. It’s like an endless loop. These little “inconsistencies” – or what I perceive as inconsistencies – make me spiral, even though I do believe he’s being honest with me. I want to trust him. But I have this constant urge to bring up every little thing that doesn’t feel logically right. Every detail stays in my head for days, and it’s really hard not to talk about it. Does this sound like Relationship OCD to you? Do any of you go through this constant analyzing and doubt? I’d really appreciate your thoughts. I’m slowly ruining my own relationship..

I hate each and every one of them. They're money hungry people who gatekeep the mental health I need all because I'm unemployed. I can't function because these idiots charge like $200 each session. They skimp when it comes to the sliding scale. It's all about profit to them. I'm right here dealing with an OCD loop that has been lasting like 3 days and there is no way to stop it because I've been priced out.

So I haven’t been on this app in a while. But I just want advice on how to overcome this. I’m now 18 and I’ve been trying out dating apps. I’m not gonna lie I’m kinda picky when it comes to dating only because I plan on dating to marry…so I take it a bit more seriously. But for some reason it’s so hard to click with people on these dating apps. So my friend was helping me through this dating apps process. I told her that I wasn’t interested in this guy I was texting anymore because of the way he was responding to my messages. And she says maybe you’re gay…this is honestly the sixth time (I’m definitely over exaggeration but this isn’t the first time someone had said this to me) someone has ask/said this. Every time someone says this it literally sends me down this spiral of are they seeing something I’m not seeing. Despite never having a crush on a girl my mind goes down this loop of overthinking. And when I say I don’t want that lifestyle or I don’t really find pleasure in being apart of the lgbtq community my mind is like in denial. I just wanted to have a fun teenage dating experience and now every time I open the app I always think what if I really am gay and I’m just in denial…or what if the reason why I’m not connecting with anyone is because I’m really into girls. Since i’m also religious, my mom wants to go what you’re denying who we are because of your religion. And I tried to reassure myself by saying I would know if that was the case like I would feel deep down who I’m truly attracted to and know that I’m trying to cover it up by dating men. This whole thing is so mentally taxing because I was going through this all throughout my senior year of high school and I’m not going into my freshman year of college so. Like I literally felt so much anxiety next to one of my classmates who was gay and a masculine presenting. I feel like if I would’ve told this to anyone, they’d say of course you’re in denial. But ig reply if you can relate

Where it's like "help the poor, oppressed, marginalized or youre a bad person" but also "don't help them too much cause that's saviorism" but also "don't talk about how you help because that's virtue signaling ," but also "silence is complicit speak out!" Like how do we know if we are doing the morally right thing?

hiiii everyone I’m new to this app :) I’m not sure if anything in here is a trigger for others so I just put a trigger warning js in case 😭 Sooo I’m actually not medically diagnosed with ocd, but I’ve had a very very strong feeling that I do for a few years but I haven’t told anyone abt it, bc i feel like it will sound like I’m trying to fake a mental illness for attention or something. Also, I know it’s bad to self diagnose, but my symptoms just sound a lot like ocddddd ans I want to go into therapy and get diagnosed or something bc I’m pretty sure I have ocd and even if I dont, I know what im experiencing is not really normal 😭 Some of my symptoms: Having like very sexually or violent disturbing images or thoughts pop up in my head that won’t go away and I have to like (this is so hard to explain) block it out in my mind over and over Having to repeat things and count things over and over for example I ALWAYS like I mean ALWAYSSSS. have to repeat “thank you God for today please keep us all safe and healthy” in my head especially when I’m anxious. And I don’t have to repeat it just in my mind either I have to like mouth it outttt. It’s so annoyingggg 🥲 My “magic” numbers are 3 and 10 bc I have 3 sisters and 10 is just the perfect number like it’s so equal. So basically I have to do things three times and if I count over three by accident or even think of it I have to count up until 10 and if the same thing happens I have to keep going until I reach 30 NOT 20 bc that means that bc there’s a 2 in the number one of my sisters will die 🥲 And if I don’t do any of these stuff that my brain tells me to do, you know that feeling when you have a huge itch and it’s itching super bad but you can’t scratch it?? It feels exactly like thatttt and I think that if I don’t do it smth bad will happen even though I know it won’t but like just in case I guess?? 😭😭 When I decide to try to go against these stuff it makes me super super anxious and sometimes, I have random like “attacks” where just nothing is perfect or just right but I can’t fix any of it no matter how many times I count, repeat, or cross it out in my mind, I get so much anxiety and it’s the WORSTTT. I’m not asking for a random person to diagnose me instead of a professional, but I just need advice. Thank you guys 💗 (edited)

I don't even know why this suddenly started upsetting me when I've been doing it for months, but it's triggering my OCD so badly now. I feel like crying. I do creative writing and it's my haven, my safe place, my favorite thing to do. I write fanfictions and write about things that are important to me and it's helped so much. For a few months, I've been using DeepSeek AI to help give me feedback. I show my work every 1000 words in and then it gives me bullet points that I'll show a screenshot for. After it gives it critiques, I go back and manually fix everything; edit sentences, add more pacing, remove stuff when I feel like it was going on too long, etc. It helped a lot with seeing mistakes I didn't notice before, but my writing wouldn't change that much with or without it since I just use it for help proofreading when I'm done with a large chunk and just need to edit. For whatever reason, I feel this horrendous guilt for using this tool-- like I'm cheating or not a real writer. It feels terrible because I write everything myself and it gives feedback like a friend or teacher, but I feel so terrible. I think it's because a lot of people on Tik Tok or social media would judge me, even though my online friends love my writing and think that I'm overthinking this a lot. I can't write without feeling guilty or like I need to confess the whole process so people know that I write everything myself and I'm not using it to write anything for me. I'm scared people will assume I'm lying. I never worried about this before I started seeing so much stuff on social media. I just want my favorite hobby back :( (note: the story was about a boyfriend comforting his trans boyfriend through his period)