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What is the solution for ocd what if question?

I feel like I did something bad but when my brother smiles at me or wants to get near me I’m suspicious like what if he’s the one doing something to me I’m just like he feels comfortable with me so he feels safe around me but what if he’s the one doing something he looks at me and I’m just suspicious because why does he keep looking at me It’s the same when I keep looking at him it feels like I’m fixated to his face I just can’t with this it’s either me or him I feel like garbage

so i have chat got my story and it said that this stuff below don’t fit the hocd pattern anymore since my hocd panic has less being with meds. please help is this not hocd anymore? Vivid, consistent arousal for specific women (dominant/feminine, deep-voiced) that isn’t immediately washed away by panic but sits with you as something you long for. Calm “rightness” imagining a life with a female partner—but when you picture long-term with a man, it feels avoidant or like Butterflies & nervous excitement around female friends/roommates that feels qualitatively different (warmer, more personal). Emotional closeness & jealousy over female friendships, wanting to be their primary confidante, and protective in a way that isn’t immediately interrogated by fear. Comphet reflections that go deeper than “scripted”—you resonate with many comphet signs but still feel something ineffable in your women-focused fantasies that comphet alone doesn’t explain. Enjoying or longing for close emotional bonds with women, sometimes more so than with men • You prefer spending time with your girlfriends, feel emotionally closer to them, and imagine vacations or shared lives with them with a sense of warmth and belonging. • This emotional closeness feels deeper and more authentic than your relationships with men. Feeling avoidant or indifferent about romantic or social activities with men, such as dates, texting, or missing your boyfriend • You notice that you don’t miss your boyfriend when apart, don’t look forward to dates, or feel annoyed during hangouts, which can reflect a lack of emotional investment or romantic attraction to men. Feeling arousal or sexual interest in women that doesn’t trigger panic or immediate compulsive checking Experiencing lack of strong emotional connection or romantic longing for men, even those you dated seriously • You mention not feeling like you “miss” or deeply care about your boyfriend or exes someone help me please

Anyone else bite the skin on the inside of the cheeks or lips until they bleed? I do it all the time because of my anxiety and I recently learned about the triangle of “D” on your face and it freaks me out thinking I’m doing something.

Has anyone that’s had a severe episode just felt better like without meds or anything. I’m currently in a 3 month episode and just want to know I will get a break soon. I’m really scared of medication but I think that’s my only choice now

I have had OCD my whole life and was diagnosed by a therapist 2 years ago. Specifically I struggle a lot with health, contamination and pure ocd. I was doing exposures and really felt like I conquered by contamination ocd. With the health ocd I have an intense fear I will have a food or medicine allergy and go into anaphylactic shock. This takes up a lot of my energy day to day. Within the past year, we bought a home, renovated and recently got married. My husband wants to start trying for a baby soon but I am not ready at all because of how much I feel like I have gone backwards with my anxiety and ocd. This spiked a lot with the stress of wedding planning. I’m scared pregnancy will spike my health/contamination ocd even more and I won’t be able to handle it. I always wanted babies but now that it’s getting closer and I know how much ocd I truly have I am so nervous I will cause myself and baby more stress than good. Does anyone have positive stories of TTC/pregnancy/PP and motherhood with ocd?

I’ve been prescribed this but I have never taken medication and I’m really scared of getting worse? Has anyone got a positive story for this? Thank you

is it possible to even have a relationship while i’m suffering with real event ocd and ocd in general. i’m just so scared they’ll find out everything bad i’ve done and leave me

This obsession is very random and particular, but it revolves around relationship OCD and is causing me a ton of distress. Basically, I found out over the weekend that my ex the one before my current boyfriend is engaged. I promise you Im in a happy and healthy relationship of over 3+ year relationship, and I’m moved on from all of my ex’s. But for some reason when I saw his post, it triggered me and almost hurt my ego if that makes sense? I can’t stop ruminating and looking at his post and announcement of the engagement on Facebook and it’s just upsetting seeing him get engaged because it’s like no you really hurt me and don’t deserve to be happy in my opinion. I know that sounds toxic to say but that’s how I feel. It also hurts me because I was his first serious girlfriend and he didn’t treat me that well and now seeing him all cleaned up looking nice and seeming matured is pissing me off. I know I shouldn’t think about it, but ocd makes that seem almost impossible. Please let me know your thoughts bc I feel like I’m going insane…

I want to get married and I’m scared I might end up being like those female pred because they’re always married!!! I’ve always wanted marriage Because I would feel like i would cheat on my husband because of the thoughts and unwanted urges and the intentional thought at the salon

In Harm OCD, do you feel uncertain about your values because your intrusive thoughts questioned them so much? Earlier, I felt horrified whenever these thoughts popped up because I knew they were against my values. But over the past few months, I’ve had so many intrusive thoughts that questioned why I should believe my values. And that questioned if it really matters if I believe my values. Now I’m not sure if it’s OCD anymore because when I think about what my values are I’m really confused and not sure anymore. And if I think whether I would act on my thoughts I’m not sure and I don’t have an answer and I don’t feel horrified. Has anyone experienced this? I’m really concerned that it’s getting worse

seriously someone pls give me advice 😭 I think last week I posted about how I have a crush on my friend and how my brain was making me question everything (mostly my sexuality). Well now I know he has a crush on me too and I’m already worrying about not liking him anymore, even though I was thinking about him all day before he confessed to me. I went to look at pictures to make sure I still think he’s attractive and I didn’t feel the same. Now I’m worrying about if I’ll no longer feel attracted to him when we hangout in person. Why can’t I at least have a simple crush? Why must I question everything??? WHY CANT MY BRAIN JUST FUNCTION NORMALLY THIS IS DRIVING ME INSANE!!?? If you have any tips on how to deal with this please let me know 😭.

What do I do if I pray really intense prayers when I’m going through a hard time and nothing changes still. I don’t wanna go to him just cuz I need help I try and talk to him all the time but this thing just keeps coming back and idk why if it’s out of my control or it’s cuz I’m lukewarm I just don’t know what to do. Does that mean I’m unsaved if I’ve been not treating him good or feel close

I’m a bit confused because whenever I hear the term neurodivergence I think that it means someone has a condition based in a variation of brain structure. Like autism, adhd, ocd, dyscalculia, dyslexia, tics, etc. (although I recognize sometimes it’s a hormonal thing and can go away over time). What I’m confused on though is whether other people with ocd resonate with a lot of the content on neurodivergence? Like through TikTok, YouTube, etc. I feel like it’s mainly targeted toward people with autism and adhd. But I also think maybe it is a common experience for people with ocd to have things like difficulty with social cues or sensory sensitivities and I just assume other people with ocd don’t have it because I don’t have it. Any thoughts?

I was recently prescribed Zoloft for my OCD and GAD. I was started on 12.5mg once a day. I’m really nervous and I’d love any good advice. I’m scared of gaining weight and becoming numb (what I’ve heard on tiktok). Is 12.5 or 25 mg enough for one to feel numb to emotions or crying?

Trying my best to stop ruminating and practice acceptance and the possibility and not possibility of things being real. How many times am I going to have to tell myself the exact same thing

i’ve graduated and it just seems terrifying now because my pocd is flaring up again and i’m terrified of myself , i was planning to become a teacher but i just find disgust in even applying and I want to avoid children I have had these recent thing where i have intrusive thoughts and im scared to look at children because im scared i might look at their intimate areas and it’s killing me because i avoid looking at children or even have conversations with them because im scared of what my ocd does. Even when i try to conquer my fear of looking at children and just letting the fear sit, my OCD convinces me that i do look at them in a weird sexual way and I feel like ripping myself into shreds even saying that.

Is this just me or when you come across Christian shorts on tik tok or YouTube do you feel obligated to watch them. I feel like if I don't watch them then I am sinning. But most of these videos are just repeating the same thing. Idk if this is just me but I just feel like I have to watch them because it's would be worse to not watch them than to break a commandment.

I did the deed yesterday for girlfriends day and after I finished we felt a little emotional to the point we almost cried and telling my girlfriend that I love her so much and then I said I’m scared of losing her and I wanna be with her forever. And then I started getting scared like what if I don’t like her actually or I don’t love her for real after this and I started panicking and got scared and had anxiety for a bit. Then in the shower after she went home and I told her I would give an arm and a leg for real to be in love with her if I’m not and I felt like crying again after typing all that stuff like that because I wanna be in love with her so bad and I don’t wanna have to leave her