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What is meant by not “solving” your worries/thoughts? Does it mean not trying to make yourself feel better by dissolving them/ telling them they aren’t true, and if so what is the alternative that you should do?

I’ve seen people mention sitting with the anxiety and not trying to solve your thoughts. What does this do/help in the long run?

So I was at work, and I kept practicing disregarding/accepting the intrusive thoughts which we too many (some of them messed up) but I managed to hold on. I went for a bike ride after though, and everything came flooding back. Mostly, its because the loss of attraction. If I see any girl and I feel nothing (even if she not my type) I get scared that "it's all real and it's over, f-you J!" I'm so sad that I've had to battle this for as long as I have. 10 years of this and its stronger than ever. I've never been diagnosed and I gotta wait 13 long days til my first therapy session. This doesn't feel like my life. I'm in hell.

when i was little, i would feel aroused by sexy images of women.. i would even look at them while i was pleasuring myself, but it never registered to me that doing was gay.. until now. i find women to be be really attractive, but i always thought it was aesthetically, not sexually. i have never fantasized about being with another woman or ever seriously considered being romantic with a woman. i just see myself as being friends with them, but my HOCD has made me start reviewing my past for evidence that i really am gay, and it’s kind of making me question and even forget my attraction, crushes, and even relationships with men... i came out to my bf as bi when we started dating but never questioned if i should be with him to date women. i knew i liked men so i wanted to date men. it was easier for me to connect with men so it started to make me doubt being bi. im ok with being bi because i would choose to be with a man but my thoughts keep telling me that im a lesbian or that i could be gay. or that i dont see myself with a woman because society doesnt show that, even though i grew up always wanting a boyfriend and always wanting to get married and have kids. i feel so confused i dont know whats real or whats OCD

My dad smashed my laptop today. He threw it across the room because he was angry with me for not doing something he'd asked me to do. I'm scared I've lost work, a lot of my work is on google drive but I'm scared I've lost access to some things like my main email because I forgot the password to it. Anyway I have his card here and I intend on buying a new laptop with it. I just don't know what to get. I cannot decide. :( I'm worried I'll make the wrong choice.

Super weird question. I identify as a straight female. I’ve been madly in love with my boyfriend for 5 years. I occasionally watch lesbian porn and “enjoy” it. Does this make me bisexual? I now and so anxious about all of this when I never in “real life” have been attracted to women

Can anyone give me advice about having ocd while in school because it’s starting soon and I’m scared that I won’t do my best?

I think I accidentally stumbled across child porn. So I was on YouTube, watching adults of course and enjoying myself (finally without intrusive thoughts.) And I saw this video with "super young" in the title. I got the urge to click on it and I did, and I quickly got the urge to check out the other super young titles video. I didnt get off it to, not did I watch it at all. But I quickly exited out of it. Now I'm fearing that I accidentally just watched child porn. This was about twerking too. It was all adults twerking and the person in the video had adult curves but I'm honestly freaking out right now. Please help me. I'm not and don't ever want to be a pedophile. I was doing so well, up until this happened today. Fuck my life.

I know started developing a fear that anyone in my life is a pedophile. Okay so this is my situation. One time we were at a party. And a guys comes in with his 2 sisters. His sister are both teens one is 19. The other one is younger but I’m not sure. They look around the same age tho. And we were all there. And they guys says something like “yea they’re ugly and that’s why I’m pretty” & my dad says “oh maybe it’s the other way around”. He said it in a certain way. But I don’t remember exactly. I don’t know if he was trying to be “flirty” or just be nice and give a compliment. Or if he was just being playful/joking around. I also know finding someone “pretty/good looking” doesn’t mean they’re attracted to them. But I got really scared. And I keep wondering about things. Like I know sometimes my dad says things to get a reaction from me (or my cousins). I also know that many men find younger women pretty and good looking but will always stick with women their age. But I’m worried what if my dad is a p3do. Should I talk to him about it?

Did anyone have success doing erp on their own? If so what are your tips? I have tried to seek out therapy but it didn't work out in my favor. (I ll spare you the stories) I have been doing erp on my own for 3 weeks and made some progress. I have done fewer compulsions in general and I start seeing how absurd some of my obsessive my thoughts are. What is the danger in doing erp on my own?

U feel this urge to search gay things for example i go to the instagram search bar and i get this thought what if you search #gay or #lgbt or anything related to that and i wnd up doing when i go to porn sites to test myself i get this thought or urge to go to the gay category and i end up doing it i dont watch gay porn but i watched a gay erotic scene today and i got hard from it and still feel arousal when i think about it please can anyone tell me is this normal or am i just in denial?

Does anyone else struggle with this? To start, I’m not looking for reassurance. I know I have OCD and have a diagnosis. However, I’ve had trouble verbalizing this aspect of my OCD to my care team and haven’t met anyone who struggles with the same thing. I’ll do my best to explain! So pretty much, I spend probably 75% of my day thinking about social “mistakes.” Whenever I talk to someone I keep track of parts of the conversation that don’t feel just right and then afterwards analyze/review to figure out it if the other person misunderstood me, if something I said was offensive or made them uncomfortable, or if I accidentally came off as incompetent. It can be hard to talk to me because I repeat “I don’t know” and use long pauses so that I have time to think through the perfect most exact wording and how what I’m about to say could be interpreted by the other person. These situations where I’ve decided I made a mistake or someone might have misunderstood me then pop into my mind and replay intrusively over and over and causes me a great deal of distress. I will repeat certain phrases aloud to myself to “right” the wrong I made in the interactions and to try to get rid of the thoughts (which of course doesn’t work). I also get these thoughts about situations from years ago that felt fine then but now I think could have been harmful to myself or others. I am usually flipping between reviewing and trying to avoid thinking about like 20-30 different interactions per day. I will think about them for weeks and then as new mistakes come up I may let go of an old one for awhile. This applies to my written communication as well and I also ask for a lot of reassurance and confess to my loved ones. So, I don’t know if this was very clear but I wonder if anyone else deals with this? My therapist always seems to want to put OCD into certain subtypes and symptom dimensions but I’ve struggled to figure out how to explain this to them.

Hii .....i m facing a new problem 3 days ago I had dropped a neighbour boy on my bike to some destination at my town.today I came to know that he is a hiv infected patient....now I m afraid of contracting HIV...this thought troubles me a lot ....

I have my first therapy appointment with NOCD this afternoon. I keep telling myself to be honest and open as I can tend to minimize my OCD and fears in therapy. Here's to going "all in" on getting better.

For the ladies— I’ve had a really rough week, all to discover, “Oh. I was PMSing.” I should just 1) write it out on my calendar 2) don’t plan important stuff that week 3) plan breaks & self care. Stuff like that. Because this happens frequently. I just worry if I put it on a calendar, it’ll become a self-fulfilling prophecy and I’ll train myself to feel and act like crap that week. Thoughts about any of this? Now I need to explain to my male therapist the real reason behind my flurry of emails...

Hi there I feel rather alone with my OCD Iv suffered from contamination OCD for almost 20 years, I have OCD about a unattractive girl who went to the same high school as me, I feel compelled to wash my hands with disinfectant if I come into contact with anything she may have touched I also have a mild dose of intrusive thought OCD and religious OCD I’m just wondering if anyone else has experienced anything similar in regards to the contamination OCD

Does anyone have an issue about wanting to change clothes after being outside (in a restaurant for example) and wanting their partner to do the same? I'm finding it difficult to manage Not changing my clothes. I feel that I'm bringing the virus home and onto everything in my house of we don't. But my partner refuses to and I find it very difficult.

OCD isn’t a separate thing? It’s an integral part of who you are and what you’re experiencing. It’s not something sitting in the corner of your mind, it’s an integral part of your brain and it’s processes. Let’s be real here. You can put lipstick on a pig 🐷 it’s a cute little piggy 🐷, but it still rolls around in caca 💩.

Lately I’m been super obsessed over my body image. I will randomly cry at times when I see myself in the mirror. May I mention I have been working out consistently, or almost everyday, for about a month. I was originally trying to grow my glutes, but now I want a flat stomach It gives me conflicting interests because in order to lose weight you have to restrict and in order to gain muscle you have to have surplus. I’ve always been bad about making decisions, too. Not only this, I used to have a problem with checking in the mirror constantly because I thought I was fat, but I was underweight. It sucks because I’ve started this cycle again. I really don’t know what to do and it’s overwhelming because I have to make this decision for myself. Has anybody had similar experiences??

Hello, I'm new to this group. Ive been dealing with ocd since I was 5 and I am now 25. It's awful. I spend at least 4 and a half hours checking everything in my house (outlets, candles, lights) and it gets 10× worse at night. Does anyone have any words of encouragement or advice? I'm so tired.