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hi i just started using this app, i am 13 with hocd/so-ocd (undiagnosed due to financial problems) and i really want to get better and recover, i hope i achieve my goals before my birthday ! ^__^

I would love to start with this app but $123 is so expensive especially because I don’t think my insurance covers it :( I’m so sad I need the help. I want to get back to who I was, I want a better relationship with my honey, and I just feel like it will never get better if I don’t get the help that I need :(

Can someone with hocd tell how it is for them? When i first got it it was so bad, my anxiety was so bad i couldnt sleep, i was 100% sure i was straight but couldnt stop fearing i was gay. It went away completely for about 2 weeks and it came back and now its been 3 months and its still here :( i dont think its going away, its so much different, its causing me attraction and other stuff i didnt have before, which is making me feel like i am gay. I hate it. It feels like im lying to myself now when i say i want to be straight. UGH

When my intrusive thoughts gets too much, and I have to do response prevention. I listen to 'no easy way out'- Rocky soundtrack. 💪

I really need support right now. I’m having a bad moment :( I’m having one of those moments where I just can’t see the bright side of ocd and accept it. I’m just so mad at how I have to live with this and how sometimes it affects everything.

I want to build my sims a new house but now I have intense ocd thoughts and it is problem to just open the game so I think I'll let it be for a while😂

Mental checking kicking my ass everyday ruining my time. Fuck this shit

Anyone with confessing as a compulsion here? My OCD got better, which means I don't feel like my life is worthless everyday. But I still don't have the security I used to have around my bf... I still don't believe that I can live with this feeling and the uncertainty that I may did something unforgivable. I feel so sad and angry when I go through Instagram or when I see those couples in the streets, like they seem so sure that they never did something really bad what could hurt their partner. I know you should not compare yourself but I just can't help it. I envy those people so much... Do y'all know that feeling?

So I was doing an exposure and I think I finally nailed down the exact obsession even though it takes on different forms. I was in a toxic relationship in the past so I fear that since I still struggle at times to make sure I don’t fall into any bad habits I formed that it will cause something bad. The biggest one is that I fear being attracted to or wanting to date other people. One of them is my toxic ex so I just fear that he will try to inch his way back into my life and I’ll lose control in some way. The fact that that is something that *could* happen theoretically is terrifying and creates a lot of confusing compulsions.

I’m having a breakdown please I don’t know what this is anymore and I’m terrified I can’t do this every one thinks it’s questioning but I know it’s not I just feel terrible and anxious and I can’t stop crying, I don’t want to do this anymore

It all just feels so real. I literally think I've overthought my way to another sexuality. Ugh

i feel like everyone hates me :(

How do u know if a thought is intrusive. I cant tell if a thought is intrusive anymore. It sort of feels like as if I brought the thought up myself, but it's also something I wouldnt want to think. Y'all know what I mean?

I cut my “best friend” off of 11 years this week. I have given her chance after chance to get better and she continued to treat me like shit. So I feel free from that, however my other best friend of 11 years stopped being friends with both me and the toxic friend just because I was still friends with her. I’m 20 and go to a community college and it’s been very hard for me to make friends even before the pandemic. I haven’t had any other friends outside them since hs and my hs friends honestly weren’t great to me either (we distanced, all of us) and of course I’ve looked at myself and considered myself to be the problem and blamed myself but even my therapist doesn’t think that’s true... but anyways. I’m here. Lonely af. Officially no friends. And the sad thing is I don’t know when I will have any. It could be months or years from now and I’m so focused on school... I have no idea if I will ever be happy with someone (like a vest or close friend) or even be in a relationship. Anyways this is what I’m going through and I’m feeling very alone

I’m finally having a moment of clarity and it feels so good. I can’t believe that I feel love. I forgot about my OCD and when I saw my fiancé I truly felt so in love again ❤️ by not over analyzing my thoughts I was able to live in the moment and feel how strong our connection really is. I have been struggling so much with this and it’s so nice to get this break. I want you guys to know that by doing ERP and learning to love ourselves we can all heal from this torturous hell.

Currently really struggling. I have had Relationship OCD and other themes for almost a year now. I was doing so good until a couple of months ago. My new obsession is questioning if my boyfriend of almost 5 years is abusive, or a narcissist. (TMI story ahead, just a warning lol) Earlier, my boyfriend and I were laying down and he asked to ya know.. touch my boobs. I said yes, then he was doing that for a bit. I then said “mkay” in a silly joking tone and went to go grab his hand away, and he said “nooo wait I’m just squeezing it” and I let him do it for a couple more seconds then I said “wait no I said no” and he said “oh okay” and he stopped. I then mentioned that it bothered me that he kept his hand there, but he said he was sorry and he thought I was okay with it. We have been working on boundaries and before he would just randomly grab my boob lol. Not disrespectfully, just at appropriate times while we were at home just hanging out he used to do this. Before OCD it really didn’t offend me, it would annoy me sometimes but I never really thought anything more of it. I loved that he was attracted to me and often showed it. Now about a month ago I told him it kind of bothered me (I think this was a compulsion because I was researching it and obsessing about it) and he has really worked on it, sometimes he slips because he has been doing it for so long, but now he’s always asking before grabbing anywhere near my chest area. I just want to not think about these things. Be like a normal person and just forget. He is so amazing, respects my boundaries, and I can tell he is really trying to love me through all of this no matter how hard I push him away. He always sits and listens to my concerns and really is constantly working on this relationship. I love him so much. But it’s hard to love him when my ocd is not even letting him touch me without being so sensitive about it. I know his intentions because I have been with him for almost 5 years, and I know in my heart he never has bad intentions. I don’t want so many boundaries up. I feel so far from him. I feel like he is afraid to touch me, and I don’t want him to be. I want him to touch me. I want things to go back to normal.. How do I expose this, any advice? Not asking for reassurance, I just am trying to finish strong through school and I am so tired of having panic attacks everyday. It is getting so bad. Thank you for reading if you got this far. Sorry it was so long.

I need advice. Should I quit my job? Its making me very depressed and anxious everyday. I'm a cashier at a grocery store. I've been there for almost 4 months now and I thought it would get easier but it hasn't. Customers are so rude and it makes me feel like shit about myself. I also feel like a failure for not being able to handle it:(.

how long does it take for the intrusive thoughts to stop to making me feel like I’m not who I am? im dealing with gender identity ocd on top of so-ocd and it hurts so bad. ive never wanted to be anything other than a girl, ive never even considered anything else. but ever since the anxiety faded it feels like i actually want to be a boy bc whenever i imagine relationships with guys i see a boy and it’s so unsettling.

Please someone talk with me. I need someone to talk. I am so sad right now. I dont know what to do anymore. I feel no anxiety, there are too many signs. I dont want to become something like that, I am so scared. Please help me

I saw a tik tok post about hocd. It made me kind of happy that we were being represented, because i don’t see things about it very often. I scrolled through the comments, and one of them said “I used to do all these things, then I found out I was bi.” It triggered me. I’m trying to do my erp, and trying not to do mental compulsions. I’ve been doing pretty well the past few days... I can do it.