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I’m beginning to notice more and more how OCD works...as soon as I get latched onto any bad thought about myself, I begin to believe it. How crazy is that. You believing your thoughts (not to call people crazy)...but just the phenomenon of it all. Like someone with OCD sees a rape, they think they could be a rapist. They see pedophelia, they believe they could be a pedophile. Your brain will latch onto these ideas and hold them hostage because you fear them. Just remember who you are under these circumstances...get some confidence back in yourself. Create objectives or wins for yourself everyday. And celebrate when you do good things. I believe my OCD absolutely came from my lack of confidence over the years and my brain rewired itself to always think of the worst possible outcomes. It’s so toxic

The diary of an POCD sufferer, getting treatment after 6 years of silence. I've just booked my 15 minute session through the app and I'm so scared. I've never spoken about my problem outloud. I just broke down histerically crying because I just commited to talking to someone through the app. I just commited to acknowledging my problem. The shame is so over whelming and I can't imagine being free of shame. I feel like I've lived my whole life by pretending to myself that my OCD doesn't exist, so I only remember that I have OCD when I'm triggered or I'm alone. I have developed a coping mechanism where I have a double life, and most of the time I feel fine because I distract myself. So now, doing treatment is going to make my problem feel so real. I've built up so many walls, so I know that if I acknowledge it, it's going to feel like im living a lie to everyone I love. I know I'm not ready to tell anyone about my POCD. I know I could just tell them I'm getting treatment for OCD but not mention the theme. But if I did that then i'd feel like I was living even more of a lie to them. I feel like I can't tell anyone im getting treatment, because they would probably think its something minor, but really I'm scared that I'm attracted to children. It makes me sick to even write it, how could I ever tell anyone that I love this? They would be so shocked and discusted. I don't know how im going to be around my boyfriend and not tell him that I'm getting treatment for OCD. I don't know how I am going to be around my friends, whilst knowing that just hours before I was breakind down about my mental health. I want to get better but I feel like I just want to be in the country side, alone. Where I can be with my shame and not have to hide it. Instead, I'm going to have to go through treatment in secret. It feels like all my walls are coming crashing down. The shame is too intense and i'm just scared it's going to break me. But I'm doing it for me.

Guys, do your partners trigger your rOCD?? I don’t know if I’m too sensitive or he’s saying something wrong, I get triggered by his jokes and by him teasing me. I know that it’s his personality, he makes maaaany jokes but now they’re triggering me more than ever. My period is coming and I think it has a huge influence on my mood and OCD...

I often have this ritual where I spend an hour or two a day just pacing around in my room listening to music while I let my mind wander and just get lost in my wildest fantasies. I've never been sure whether this is a compulsion or just some sort of personality quirk. Sometimes I do it just for fun, and I think it can help me come up with creative ideas as an aspiring artist, but I think I also use it as a means of escapism, so I can imagine something more pleasant than the miserable reality OCD thoughts create for me. Deliberately spending this much time in my head, oblivious to the world around me, probably isn't useful in learning to practice mindfulness and maybe is even a form of avoidance. Can anyone else relate to this odd habit of pacing/rocking/skipping to music for long periods to trigger your imagination? I don't do this every day, just whenever I get the whim, which is often multiple times a week. I've done this ever since I was a kid, even before my OCD really manifest itself that strongly to me. I'm not sure if anyone else ever does this.

Anyone else rather have any other ocd than HOCD

i read that if u feel happy from ur thoughts, it’s not ocd and it’s most likely being in denial. so i get happy sometimes from my thoughts and it terrifies me, now it’s terrifying me even more.

Is someone experiencing any Exsctcental OCD right now. I need someone who can somewhat relate a little. I’m having some trouble with my obsessive thoughts and fears of the universe and my existence and alternate universes ex and my purpose in life.

Is it possible to act on a thought but not have its intention? Like when I changed my baby girl, the thoughts kept telling me to wipe her in a specific area over and over again, I even had thoughts that were agreeing with the others like “yeah I do but I can’t” “yeah I like it” yadda yadda. I wiped her again over and over as the thoughts said but does that mean I had that intention? Or did my thoughts make me believe I did when I had a mental breakdown over it after and even now. Uncertainty is the worst because I feel like I committed an evil thing but I can’t remember my intentions because I’m an idiot and when I panicked while I grabbed her clean diaper to put back on her I forcibly made myself forget it. So I’m just wondering if that’s even possible. To wipe again out of impulse of thinking it not because of the thoughts’ intention. I’m not like that this I know because I can bathe and change them just fine today. However I’m more mindful now to hurry when change or bathe them so I don’t get in my head again. I’m just wondering here. Because I still havent let the event go and it was months ago. I had a brief period where I let it go and felt fine but it always comes back. I’m a good man with a good heart and big one at that. Especially for my baby girls. So let me know if this is even possible. I’m losing my sanity.

My suicidal OCD is making me avoid stuff i want to do, I want to make youtube videos but I am scared bacause of youtubers who have comitted suicide in the past, and agh its so scary, I get so scared that somehow I will just snap into a suicidal way and kill myself even tho I really dont want to, im just scared ill randomly suddenly become suicidal and never get better even tho i have never been suicjdal in my life and I have never ever agreed with it being the right thing to do

Oh my god... I really feel like I wanna break up with my partner... I am not panicking i know I love him a lot.. oh god... 😞😞

Are you gay if you find men attractive ?

Hey there’s one thing I’m unsure about about treating OCD. I’ve heard exposure therapy works and you’re supposed to just agree with the thought but then what about those CBT worksheets that challenge the thought ? Doesn’t that clash with having to agree with the thought. Sorry if I don’t make any sense I just want to know the best method so I can heal.

tw: moral scrupulosity; cancel culture I’m interested to hear about your opinions with cancel culture. During my early teens, I got pretty radicalised over the internet which really determined my political compass. I was obsessed with cancel culture, making sure I wasn’t following someone that was problematic in some sort. I thought by following cancel culture, it would help us as a society move to be more accountable and progressive. I realised how toxic cancel culture was later on, and even though I’m a minority and a leftist, and have spread awareness, signed petitions, donated, gone to protests, studied politics - I obsess over my actions as a child that may have been problematic. My therapist asked me a question, on how are we as a society, have evolved to think in this morally-inclined way? I told him, “maybe we’re more progressive as a society now?” He said no, so I replied with, “maybe we’ve evolved to have an increased response to flight-or-fight responses?” And he agreed. Which is technically true, especially living with OCD, we are so hyper vigilant. I always found it difficult, especially as being gen z, on how to distinguish rights and wrongs in the eyes of cancel culture, despite being a changed and much more educated person. I am totally against bigotry and not trying to normalise it, but I have seen some instances in cancel culture where I have no idea how it came to be an issue in the first place (for example, I remember a couple of months ago, a plus-sized celebrity was shamed for being fatphobic cause she had a smoothie), and that people should divert their energies into much more urgent situations. How is everyone else trying to navigate morals and cancel culture? What is your opinions of it?

I'm ashamed of this, I fear that it'll never go away I'm dealing with O.L.D

What’s a good OCD book?

What’s up guys? How is everyone tonight?

@ Tales???!!!

DON’T GOOGLE! It will just give your OCD ideas. People survived before Google. All their worst fears didn’t come true just because they didn’t Google it. Even if you found that bit of reassurance, it will never be enough.

So my mom finally listen to me about the whole having-OCD-thing. I tried insinuating I have it by telling her my symptoms in the simplest way possible until she realized it was probably OCD. I lied to her about the kind of thoughts I had because I was so ashamed of them and was on the verge of crying. Then she told me I shouldn't try getting medication for this because she said she didn't "want this to go on my record" and she doesn't want me to go back to the mental hospital even though it could probably really help me, and I enjoyed the stay I had last time. This just kinda frustrates me to be honest, I just want to get help.

How do you deal w the constant thought or doubt that this is all made up? Like what if my therapist is wrong? What if she’s telling me that I am my true when I am present and mindful, but she’s just saying that? For example, I just started feeling better. I think I feel more like myself. What if this isn’t myself though? What if I’m just another version of my ocd self? What if I’m lying to myself?! Does that make sense? Do I just deal w the uncertainty? Does anyone have a good exposure they do? Or a good statement, maybe something a little more specific than “maybe, maybe not”