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I started vaping not even 2 weeks ago. I haven’t finished my vape which is a cuvie plus, but now I’m worried about my health and lung cancer. Ik it’s my fault I’m just scared...

How do I know if I actually need help? I don’t know if how I feel is serious enough to the point where I need to talk to someone. I’ve had obsessive thoughts over HOCD for over a week now and they cause me such a sick feeling in my stomach to the point where it boils over and I start hyperventilating and cry and self harm but sometimes it feels like I’m faking it for attention or exaggerating how I feel even though no one literally knows I’m like this or sees me like that. I feel like deleting all my social media so I don’t see triggers. I feel nauseous and sick 24/7 and seeing anything having to do with a relationship makes me want to cry. In the past I’ve had obsessive thoughts over what I was going to eat. I kept going in and out of calorie counting and always obsessing over whether or not I should skip a meal or whether I’d be able to hold out or how many calories I may have eaten/burned. I felt like I had no control over whether or not I’d binge. Now I stopped doing that because I just started binge eating instead but I really want to lose weight still. Could these types of obsessive thoughts be OCD too? I would literally think about food 24/7 and not even homework could distract me from it but when I actually binged I’d get so angry at myself and frustrated it was like a never ending cycle. I don’t even know if I actually have OCD I don’t know if I should seek help and I definitely am NOT telling my parents about my HOCD thoughts there’s no way. What should I do??

distraction post: what's your favourite dish??

Any other Christians have an obsession that they will go against their values? I am so afraid I am going to start doing things other people do that are wrong in my beliefs

Please tell me I’m not alone in this. I read an article today because I’m trying to do more exposures. It was very violent and it instantly triggered violent thoughts towards my mom which is something I’ve been dealing on and off with for the last couple of days. I kept telling myself it was just a thought and that I was triggered by the article. I ended up going out with my mom and it just progressively got worse because I kept reassuring myself that I wouldn’t hurt her but then I got the worse possible thought possible and it was what if I have to hurt her to make the thoughts stop and that just TERRIFIED me. I don’t want to hurt my mom and I know that won’t stop the thoughts. But now I’m scared that I’m going to somehow convince myself that that’s what I have to do

Anyone on here been diagnosed with ADHD?

i’m going to have a panic attack (i beg that u read) i became very close with this guy i met on omeagle a he definitely told me he was 17 and i told him i was 15 (which i am) and forward a few months he is the guy i go to for mental health support because he has been through the same. and i told him about my first bf when i got him. but then this guy started to get a bit too interested and he asked for nudes. i said no. but then considered what if my bf wants them ?? i want to know that he would like what he saw. so i asked him ( the omeagle guy ) if he would tell me honestly if my bf would like it. it wasn’t a nude it was litterally a bikini top. that’s all. and i’m not gifted so nothing was showing. he told me my bf would love it etc etc. and i was happy. but the omeagle guy got more interested and because i felt like i liked it i kept using it as proof that i’m not gay. and me thinking he was 17 i kind of let it happen as banter while continuously reminding him that we are just friends and i have a bf and he said yes he understands. today he told me he’s 18. making him an adult and me a minor. and he’s telling me i told him i’m 16 when i’ve had 15 in my bio for ages and i told him i’m 15. i’m scared i’m going to be arrested or that he still has that pic of me but he’s screen recorded his camera roll to make me feel assured that he doesn’t have it. i’m reallly panicking what do i do

I cant fucking sleep haven't spoken with my girl in 3 days after I told her my mistakes i made. Ofc a spike in HOCD. 5 years and I feel absolutely lost. Im scared to see her with someone else and I hurt her with my stupid mistake i regret so bad and wish to make things right.

This is driving me nuts I don't know if this is reality or not or the thoughts are real. The thought of being with man disgusts me 😔

Just woke up from having loads of dreams. some of them were quite sexual involving women and some of them were involving having to choose a sexuality and bisexual kept popping up. Trying really hard to just accept uncertainty and not dwell on it but it’s very difficult when it shows up in dreams too :( I don’t get much anxiety towards this anymore either which I worry is a sign it’s true.

is ocd genetic?

My ROCD is driving me insane lately. It's not giving me that much anxiety, which I know isn't a bad sign. But there's always that "if it's not making you anxious, it means you don't care" or something like that in the back of my mind. I get thoughts that I don't love him, or that he's just a friend (this one is because I don't enjoy sex that much.) I see myself putting too much thought into sex, as it isn't the most important thing in a relationship, but then I also see it as "if you're not having sex then you technically are just friends." Because that's like the difference between platonic and romantic. Another thing is the intrusive imaginations. Like, I'll imagine myself telling him I no longer love him, that I'm just not feeling it anymore, that he's not attractive enough, tall enough, or I think that everything he does is annoying/cringey even though it isn't, and the list goes on. We also live together, so it's hard because it breaks my heart to imagine doing those things, but I also know a lot of people who also get upset when breaking up with people even though it's what they "have" to do. You know, those couples that, nothing really went wrong, things just "weren't working." I'm scared I'll end up like that, where nothing is wrong, but I just don't feel the same anymore. Anyway, I just really wanted to get that off my chest. The part that bugs me the most is definitely the "just friends" thing because it's the most realistic.

distraction post: what's your favourite movie?

Anyone here on this app who also experiences this? When u have ocd such as POCD, Incest OCD, or just sexuality OCD in general. And you're constantly thinking about it and because of that you start doubting yourself, 'Do I do this because I'm actually in love with this familymember/kid/person, or because I'm overthinking my OCD? It's freaking me out, please help, I'm not asking for reassurance (tho I wish I could) but more for a conversation and/or tips with and from people who've also experienced this.

I feel suicidal. I’m aware that ERP will help me deal with the anxiety and function better while alive, but the thought of battling with these thoughts forever makes we want to check out. Why keep going? I feel like I’m living a double life where I’m a monster half the time until I “sober up” (I don’t drink) why keep going?

Is any there to talk about hocd I’m going crazy. Please help me.

Confessing is a compulsion I understand that but what if someone tells you “if you have an urge then you need to tell me” but I don’t want to tell them because I’m afraid of how they will react because they don’t believe I have ocd then what should I do? I feel like I’m keeping it from them or being secretive and I don’t mean to be. I believe they meant if I wanted to act on the urge? I definitely don’t want to act on anything

Has anyone ever went through grief/a break up where it seems that ocd makes the process worse? Like having anxious/intrusive thoughts that aren’t even reflective of your feelings about the situation?

I think my hocd is making me think im gay or bi, why does it feel like I like dudes? It feels so real, it feels geniune. This never happened before and in the early days of HOCD. Should i just come out as bisexual. I dont even get desires but i feel like they look good

So urges are apart of ocd right well anyway here’s what’s bothering me. One time I confessed to my mom everything that was wrong with my intrusive thoughts and feelings. And they are mostly about my niece because she’s the only kid really in my life right now. So my mom doesn’t believe I have ocd. She gets mad at me every time I mention it and it makes me really upset to not have a supportive parent even thought I’m 22 but still she’s my mom. So one time she told me that if I ever had an urge to let her know. I’m guess that she meant if it was a real urge if I wanted to do something. Ocd is different. It is unwanted and absolutely sucks and causes fear and anxiety. I’ve had a couple urges recently regarding my niece and I would never EVER act on them or even want to. I absolutely hate that this is even happening to me. I can’t confess either because it’s a compulsion and makes things worse. I don’t know what to do. Should I just keep everything to myself. I tried talking to my therapist about it and it didn’t help and hopefully in the future my mom can talk to my therapist. I know this is a long story I just feel so alone and feel so misunderstood. I’m scared my mom thinks I’m a monster or if I actually told her about my “ocd intrusive urges” she will hate me forever and never let me near anyone again.