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Has anyone ever had a fixation on words? It sounds weird but sometimes I get obsessed with the meanings of words or whether I understood something I heard or read, and then that intrusive thought distracts me from the conversation, book, tv show, etc. and I freak out because I feel like I can’t track/retain information normally. If I don’t have that thought I’m fine, but if it pops up, it’s so hard to get unstuck.

Hi I'm at school and my OCD is killing me and on my birthday too. I just hate it and want it to end. I have no access to any help so can anyone help me out please?

I used to share a room with my cousin and sometimes woke up with morning wood. Does that mean something ?

NEED INSIGHT: Ok so today as some people know is ash wed. I’m not a very religious person anymore but I do believe in God, just not so much the formalities of religion. My Mom wants me to go get my ashes today and was guilt tripping me by saying all that God has done and I believe her but now I have a lot of Guilt induced OCD. If I go get my ashes it’s going to be partially because I want to but mainly because of OCD induced guilt of my mind telling me how if I don’t get ashes I’m a bad person and will upset God and it would almost be like a compulsion if I go. I’m not sure what to do here... Any insight would be much appreciated.

my OCD has caused my marriage to start to fail because I cannot controls my impulses and get very angry when I can’t make someone understand. Does anyone have advice on how I could controls the anger better or make my spouse understand?

Im truly fighting everyday to get past this because im tired of living with this disease. But the embarrassment that comes with telling people about my compulsions makes it difficult to seek help. There is no life with ocd. Just bleek survival

Just went down a rabbit hole of googling a lot of stuff for almost 2 hours about pedophilia. And now I’ve got my self scared. I haven’t done it this bad in almost 2 months. I hate this. I was diagnosed with OCD, but some stuff I masturbated to a while back when I had a slight porn addiction is giving me proof. (Not actual children by the way) I’ve had OCD my whole life, and I’m starting to wonder if when I had thoughts about children before my huge spike if they were also intrusive, and I just didn’t care much about them then? Why would I just start caring now. I’m so broken.

Hygiene ocd. Recently I’ve been plagued with constantly washing my hands and fear of contamination. My biggest dilemma right now is I used the washroom this morning and the soap dispenser was near empty. I was able to get a little bit enough to make suds and washed my hands. However after waking up and touching the milk container / making breakfast. I feel as if the germs from my hands may have gotten to the container. So I spilled it out and now I can’t stop thinking what it the germs are all inside my fridge now. Annnd it’s supper time and I’m suppose to somehow cook dinner for my kid ?? Ocd please go away....

Y'all this pocd is so stupid. I know myself. I'm a 21 year old woman who has literally been into older men since i was in elementary school lol. And I've been into my age and older too in women since 4th grade when i figured out i was bi. BUT, in all those years, I've never thought about children in the same manner. Kids actually always highly irritated me. Also, when someone I've dated acted too childish, i wasn't into it. The only thing I've been into is being the dominant over an ”innocent” acting person during sex. And this also goes with the daddy kink. BUT i never actually thought about kids in regards to these things. Literally nothing adds up to me wanting to seek out kids, but now, because of intrusive thoughts, I'm suddenly worried that I'm a pedophile? It's so stupid but here i am and i feel so gross and I'm so done. I don't want to worry anymore. I swear I'm a good person, i just want to believe it.

Is ocd just a coping mechanism for resisting feelings you don’t like? Something has occurred to me in my recovery process. I’ve spent years fighting my feelings and thoughts. I tried everything - meditation, yoga, Cbt, somatic experiencing, Ativan. I wanted to escape the pain I felt and the anxiety and bad thoughts. Now that I think about it, my dad turned to alcohol for that and maybe I turned to OCD. I always had general anxiety as a kid, some depression too. Over the years, my anxiety attacks and panic attacks decreased, however my ocd has gotten completely out of control. The last few weeks I’ve been working on exposures to anxiety and my thoughts. It’s horrible stuff because I have to let myself just feel the anxiety attack and all of the horrible sensations (including derealization!). Just ride it out and let it do it’s thing. However I noticed that when I get anxious these days if I just let it do it’s thing it’ll peak and come down after some time. And I actually feel some relief afterwards. It feels very natural. The old me would try to squash it using Compulsion strategies to escape that feeling. Has anyone else encountered the notion that OCD might be a coping mechanism for dealing with difficult feelings you don’t like?

Everyday I see a trigger that most people can walk away from but having contamination ocd I’m really struggling. Today I saw blood on the public bathroom floor and while I saw it before I stepped in the stall, I’m just really struggling now as I got close to it and public bath and blood are my trigger. Really looking for tools to fight that ocd voice please.

[Long im sorry] Hey everyone. I took a break for a while. I made a mistake a week ago and i googled a bunch of things i shouldnt. They worked their way into my ocd and its been harder since it morphed. I have good days and bad, since ive been working out trying to cut down on ruminating and compulsing and working on responding instead of reacting to my intrusive thoughts. I broke down and ritualized twice the other day. I tried being kind to myself since i know im human and it happens. Its just hard because im stubborn. I know my truth but my brain wont accept it and im too stubborn to go along with it to stop the obsessive wheel. It constantly feels like im being dragged against my will. I tried to join the HOCD reddit board but my situation is so unique i dont feel like i belong enough to post, which i think is hurting me the most. My self esteems in the toilet. Why would a gay trans man be afraid that hes a lesbian? I know that its stupid, hypocritical and ridiculous but honestly its been one of my biggest fears in talking about my issues. I feel like such a niche case, despite all my symptoms being spot on and screaming "hocd". Ill try to be kinder to myself today, work with mindfulness, try not to get so wrapped up. Ive just been so depressed over it all and needed to just get it out.

Is it possible to have POCD about someone else? Like I fear that other people, especially my bf, are pedophiles. Is that a part of this OCD, because my life has been hell for the past few months analyzing everything my bf does to see if he’s a pedophile. It’s caused so much anxiety and depression, especially since we have a one month old together now.

Is it possible I need to be on medication forever? Like does my brain have less serotonin than it's meant to

I believe in God. Recently I was in the church with my boyfriend. At the end I was praying and I heard from God something like: ‘you two won’t be together’. I don’t know guys what to think about it. Maybe he is trying to tell me this. I pray less and less because I don’t want to hear that. Help me please ?

So I’ve had some anxiety crop up related to POCD this week. Intrusive thoughts, etc. it’s happened once before but I wasn’t educated on OCD then or seeing my therapist so I’ve never talked about it. I’m terrified to tell my therapist because I’m terrified of being reported. I’ve never done anything harmful or even WANTED to do anything harmful. I am NOT a danger and I know it! I just want help dealing with the thoughts but am scared to share in therapy. Anyone else experience this?

Hello everyone. I feel like everyone talks about similar obsessions and compulsions. Let’s shed some light on the different ones and talk more about them. I always feel like nobody has the same ocd as me and that frustrates me so much. Let’s Leave below some your crazy, weird, unique, and different intrusive thought, obsessions, compulsions, and feelings. Let’s see if you find your ocd twin.

I have had hocd for a while now almost a year... and I am in a happy realatship with my boyfriend but I still get the feel of doubt like what if I don’t love him... and then the next day I will be completely fine and now I was just laying in bed and then all of a sudden I thought what if I become transgender and my heart just dropped I had like serval mental break down I have been doing so many compulsions because I know I am heterosexual and I love my boyfriend like why am I thinking of all it ? I am so scared please help

LONG POST: Can someone help me by answering this? I’ve had intrusive thoughts before but I used to just push them away. In September, I had intrusive thought about life after death and it sent me into a spiral of fear and anxiety. I had trouble falling asleep and focusing during the day. I went to see a therapist a month later. It was a walk-in session and they told me to do CBT. Accept uncertainty and move on. This gave me even more anxiety. Eventually, with meditation, i was able to keep the thoughts at bay. Then in December, I began to have intrusive thoughts about my sister. They were sexually disturbing and I even wished that I could have intrusive thoughts about death again. I then it switched to sexual thoughts about my brother and he’s only a kid so I feel even more disgusted by myself. It’s been like this for three months now. I’ve tried meditating but it’s not doing much. I’m ashamed to tell my parents and I don’t know what to do. I’m afraid I’ll act on the thoughts all the time. Then I wonder if I actually want to have them. It’s so draining. I hate waking up each day to these thoughts. I wonder if I actually want to have them since I have had them for so long. I’m so frustrated with myself.

I feel triggered by the sight and shape of breasts. My anxiety goes away when the other person puts on a coat. But when she takes it off, I feel like I am trying to have a normal conversation while strobe lights are going on from her breasts. I am female. I feel distressed at this fixation and sad because it interferes with my ability to connect with the other person, and I really value my image of myself as sociable and warm. But I just can’t shake this sense that breasts are an aberration, that they shouldn’t be there, and I’m puzzled at how people can go on with life as usual when they have these weird things on their body. Breasts, to me, feel “other.” When this anxiety arises, I wonder: Is this OCD, or should I just accept myself as queer, or is this sense of breasts as “other” actually a psychological outcome of having very petite breasts and a mother with literally no breasts? Or maybe all three explanations are in part true? Whatever it is, the scariest thing is that it may always keep happening to me. It’s been going on now for almost 30 years! I did OCD treatment but am not entirely sure that OCD is the best explanation of what’s going on here.