Is it possible for you to get a memory and think it might have been real and then realize you don't think it happened that way but then get scared that it has to be real because at first it seemed like it was real?
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Has anyone ever been in a situation where someone has made a joke but it was about your theme? I’m having a hard time not going down the rabbit hole of, “why would they say that to me if it wasn’t a sign or something?” Like why did I have to hear that?! How do you deal with that type of situation?
Is it normal to feel kinda out of it when you’re in ur head 24/7? Like a foggy brain and derealization? Everything around you just seems off?
I'm too scared to start meds because of sides effects and the fact that most people experience a relapse after a couple months of stopping.... Your brain literally comes back to what you were before the meds so what's the point? More than 50% who start SSRIs need to keep taking them forever. Has anyone recovered without meds? Or natural remedies? I believe in science and doctors, but the risks are wayyyy too scary.
Trigger! Major harm ocd trigger. Does anyone else deal with false memories that happen right away? For example I’ll tell my mom goodnight then suddenly picture that I’ve killed her. I can see all the details and feel what it felt like. I freak out and run in her room to find her sound asleep totally fine. Am I just loosing my mind? I think my mom is getting tired of me waking her up at night but it feels morally wrong to resist the compulsion to check.
genuine question on intrusive thoughts..? like i can see someone with harm ocd having thoughts like i want to stab someone and obviously that’s intrusive. but my thoughts aren’t like that. currently fixating on my ex while i’m in a different relationship with a man i love. the thoughts i have are random and somehow connected to my ex like reminders or associating everything with him. are those still intrusive thoughts? genuinely asking because i’m confused. would appreciate any feedback and the thoughts make me very anxious and i don’t want them but they’re not typical “intrusive thoughts”
incest ocd tw it really feels like i’m attracted to my uncle and it’s so distressing. i’ve never been super close with him but never thought anything much of him. then on christmas day we called him and i really liked his voice (it’s quite low) and since then i’ve been scared i’m attracted to his voice and, by proxy, him. i’m meant to be visiting him this summer but i’m terrified. it feels like it’s 10% real.
Is there a term for fearing feeling any emotion , even happiness?
how do you let go of past mistakes? i just have memories constantly swirling around my head that make me feel like i want to vomit, and i just can’t get them out my head. i have an urging need to perform compulsions instead, but because a lot of my compulsions are mental, i really struggle to tell the difference between what’s a compulsion and what’s a healthy self-soothing mechanism ://
So I was talking with my gf on call and she told her friend about me. We talked on call. It felt so good that she introduced me to her friend, but after 2 minutes, a thought popped up in my mind " what if I break up with her right now in front of her friend and spoil her mood". Is there some issue with me? I dont know if I have rocd or relationship anxiety or anything but I wanna love her forever, I dont wanna feel this way. Please comment below and help me 😔
I’ve been fine recently, thoughts popping up occasionally but not as often and then I had a dream last night that’s triggered me quite a bit. Then I saw a post on Instagram saying fantasies are pleasurable/intrusive thoughts are not. I know that’s true but truthfully I have found lesbian fantasies pleasurable before so that must mean I’m in denial. I’m stressing out.
HELLO! EYES HERE! IT MIGHT HELP. My previous posts here were horrible just results of me drowning with my own feelings. (I don't know if yall remember my previous posts) BTW, I'M 2 WEEKS FREE FROM MY OCD!!! ❤ I'm so so so tired and mad of my ocd & anxiety and it just happened that one night I said to myself enough is enough!! my rumination and compulsion was never a help after all, it never answered my continuous problem solving in my head it just giving me more anxiety. That's why I said to myself "okay I will accept the worst case scenario eventhough it is hard to accept it but I don't care anymore! Past is past!!! I'm not my past. I have my good values today. Today is what most important not the past. Eventhough I did terrible things in the past (that I already repent numerous times) some things maybe I don't remember that I actually did (besides I'm not supposed to remember everything) what matters are my actions today (always choose to do whats right) (and I know to myself that I'm a good person today and will forever be! Plus I don't need anyone's validation with regards to my whole being!) AND I REALIZED THAT WE ARE NOT DESIGNED TO REPENT FOREVER. So my fellow ocd strugglers, ACCEPTANCE IS REALLY THE KEY it was really hard at first but pls TRY because at the end of the day the only true friend we have is ourselves. There are still times that I feel uncomfortable but I try to sit with it and accept that "its just ocd that tries to keep knocking on my door but hell no! I will not open my door for you anymore hah! 😝". We cannot change the past guys I wish we could but no, and we have to accept that. So the present moment is all that matters and we can control the TODAY so I suggest we better make the most out of it! ❤ Believe me, we can still live our lives the way we want to live our lives! Learn to forgive yourselves guys, move on and live with uncertainty. I PROMISE THESE ARE THE BEST THINGS I REALIZED DEEP IN MY HEART 2 WEEKS AGO 🥰 Feel free to ask me questions 🤗🤍
Has anyone ever struggled with incest themed OCD? Recently, I’ve had thoughts about doing inappropriate things with my younger brother. Sometimes the thoughts come in the form of, “What if?” But at other times, it’s also “I want to” or, “You should do this right now!” 😭
why am i still doubting myself even if i have the same symptoms as false memory + real event ocd suffers have? deep down i know i would never do that, even if the memory takes place in 2018/2019, but i still ruminate sometimes about it since last december, after i had a nightmare with one of my ocd themes. it makes me feel scared because it felt so real and took place in a real event i want to die somedays because i don't want to live if i really did something wrong
Okay so I have to vent, Anyone else has the fear to stare at someone inappropriately like in their private area and have intrusive thoughts about it? Beacuse I’ve struggled for this for a while and I just stared 2 times by accident I feel like it was or it was just an impulsive behavior but what if I did do it on purpose am I okay? I feel like screaming I don’t know why I did it and I don’t want to do it, but what if I do oh my gosh please someone tell me am not the only one
Say something drastic happened and we were on our death bed rn? Would all of this worrying, anxeity, and fear and all the time we spent trying to get rid of it, and avoiding, and worrying about what others think be worth it? If we were gonna die today would you be proud or is there still things that we want to do? Adventure, Love, Live and Laugh. I think this is a pretty strong message, something to give us that extra boost when the going gets tough
Hi. When you feel extreme guilt, do you ever doubt that you have ocd? For me- my mind will convince me I’ve done something bad so then I feel extreme guilt. Then my mind will make me think I don’t even have ocd, I’m just trying to “excuse my bad behavior” ???
So someone I love said something offensive and I feel guilty. I told them they shouldn't say that and they listened and apologized and probably just didn't really know it was bad. I know I can't take responsibility for something I didn't do, but I'm afraid a good person would break up or something... I love them and they are not a bad person. How do people in relationships usually deal with each others' mistakes?
I love you all. We can do this. ♥️
I hate false memory. Does anyone develop false memory immediately after something happens? Like not after a long time, but almost immediately? This happened to me. Something happened and immediately I questioned if what I did had a more sinister motive/intention. And now I’ve really come to believe it did. And the fact that I’m labeling it as a false memory, my ocd is trying to tell me I have just convinced myself it’s a false memory to cope.
kinda scared to do the free call hey! if anyone has done the NOCD call before, how did it go? i would like to be prepared since i wanna be direct and the most understanding possible and not too nervous (which is hard) i really wanna start my plan but i know i won’t if i don’t do the call first
i feel so fake, i don't even know who am i. ocd keeps telling me that I'll only be myself if i come out as gay and change my gender identity. everything feels so strange to me. i try my best to stop doing compulsions and to stop reassuring myself, i was doing well awhile ago, the thoughts didn't bother me but i feel so different now, i usually don't post but i just need to let it all out today
Rumination is my worst compulsion. Tips on how to stop? It’s like an endless stream of thoughts I feel like I can’t control.
Is it still a groinal response if it feels like real arousal? Honestly I hope this doesn't sound inappropriate or tmi but I haven't read this anywhere and I'm just dying in anxiety and fear, hoping I'm not alone: do they feel 'good' but disgusting and disturbing because you know you don't want it to feel like that? I talked with someone and they said it's normal because it's a sensation that is meant to feel like that but then I spiralled thinking, so is a groinal response essentially unwanted arousal? Is that what it is? Because hyperfocus doesn't feel the same at all. I know that I get random movement every day but I don't care because that's happened all my life. But this?
Ocd attacks anything in your mind and gets you stuck at it feeding you false fear So You must kill it and free yourself As hard as possible Live free tottaly different life
Do you ever feel certain in the moment of an OCD episode and then nothing else matters? Future gone, who cares about looking pretty, no one will ever accept me, life has changed from this point onwards, a fraud in your own body, etc? And even after the massive panic goes, you still feel anxious and low about it - it’s been nearly a day and I’m worried it will be forever now
does anyone else get worse intrusive thoughts at night? it’s like they feel more real / believable.
Anyone have recommendations for good songs that are relatable for us ocd folk?
Does anyone else’s pocd make you feel like you need to do certain bad actions in order to feel better? Like things you know you would never do? I’ve been questioning myself a lot lately and if it truly is my ocd or just me being that kind of person.
A couple of related themes I have - it started with SO OCD, went to gender identity, to ROCD and one more theme I cannot even describe - are cycling for a while now, means my brain brings up the 4 themes again and again in a cycle. It seems I come KIND OF to terms with 1 problem, it brings up the next of the group - and starts with number 1 again after I went through the the 3 other. I always think I get somewhere but I never do, it always starts again. And even though I know this now and went through it several times, it seems more real than OCD and I worry I am just denying, hiding and will never get out of it. I think I will never be happy again if I do not live it. :-( It feels like I just need to get over this hurdle and once I do and accept the change I miht be happy, but I do not get over it since I feel so scared to have to live this different life. It seems that I want it not to be true because I do not want that dramatic change - while it is true. I stuck in the "middle" not able to move. I cannot forcefully become the "new me" because it hurts so much - and I cannot go back either because it feels like denial and a lie. :-(
Can someone provide the link to sign up for group zooms? Cant find it on webpage nor on the App. Thank you!
Help- please reply I never post but I’ve had one of the worst triggers today. I suffer from POCD and have done so for years (15 years+) - varying degrees but especially bad in the last 2 years. I started therapy with NOCD a few months ago. My issue is I worry about micro-actions that aren’t easy for anyone to spot - for example I might be standing and then a c runs or walks past me and I have thoughts and urges and commands to move towards them- then I see or feel my body move slightly in the direction of what my mind has said or for a second it moves until I move it back and it makes me feel like my life is over because what I’m worried about has happened. Today I pushed the button for the lift and out of nowhere a c came past me and I got the thought to bend over towards them but I did slightly bend over and then froze in fear but I think the “freezing” happened after they passed me and Im worried by bending over slightly that they did touch me when they passed me - I felt certain in that moment and the anxiety and the doom and despair is too much to handle. It’s only later once the anxiety starts to settle that I can think “maybe this doesn’t matter” or “maybe nothing happened” as in the moment I feel a huge amount of distress and certainty. Then the distress, certainty, anxiety in those moment(s) are also evidence that it did happen. Does anyone relate to this? I feel so alone and so helpless and never seem to see these types of worries so if this sounds like you too please let me know.
Has OCD/anxiety ever given you guys any physical symptoms? Such as false yrges or twitching?
I’m at dinner with my family and I feel horrible. I don’t want to be here because I feel like I don’t deserve to eat or be happy or have a good time with my family. My past has been haunting me for so long. I feel so much guilt. I don’t think I could ever be free from this. I hate myself and I want to give up because my mind is doing everything in its power to find proof that I’m a monster and I’m scared that my past mistakes make me one 💔
Does your ocd make you ACTUALLY feel like you want the thoughts??
There’s this 17 year old who used to hit on me all the time, he’s actually 18 now I think, but it started when I was 13, I never lead him on, I always firmly told him no, which didn’t make him very happy. But now my brains like “well it’s just 3-4 years... it’s not wrong is it? It’s not weird. You’d like that.” I hope I don’t actually think that. But idk, I keep thinking “well what if you like 14yos when ur 17-18!!” Omg. I hate this. I don’t want that..
Can OCD make you question your morality?
I will type Everyday one method To overcome OCD . But you can join in condition you will not Follow your obsession for 10 days Can you ? Let is Go . First method and techneque is to " Try to relax put yourself in a position And call it " Shell positioon " so no any Compulsive attitude or thought can bother you . Be calm . In your Shell posion and turn it on . See you in the next one .
Does anyone recommend a certain OCD workbook? I feel like I absorb more information if I’m able to write it down and work with it. Thank you!
Will my existential ocd go on its own? I just can't see how? I can't stop thinking the most weirdest strangest things..like ...every single thing I know, can see, feel and touch could be fake...how do I know even this site and the people posting on it are real? And even everything I've even learnt throughout my life might be not be real or is just fake and made up for me ?? Keep thinking I'm going crazy thinking all this 24/7 ... is this normal for this sort of ocd? I'm not looking for reassurance... just wana know this is ocd and not me going mad? Some of the things I think are so bizarre and beyond I just can't understand how it can be ocd? And its scaring the S*#t outta me?
Does anyone have ideas for a simple tattoo relative to OCD? One of my favorite Podcasters has “its lying“ tattooed on his wrist as a reminder that his brain is lying to him when it spews negative thoughts at him. I love that concept and I’m looking for ideas relative to OCD and ERP. Current ideas are “it’s OCD“ as a reminder that my thoughts are OCD and not a representation of my values… Or something like “maybe“ which is a more direct ERP option
Trigger warning, contamination ocd, female anatomy, sex. Do u ever feel disgusted by your own body and how do you deal with it? Sometimes I feel like I can never be clean enough. If you're a person with a vulva you know there are a lot of "nooks and crannies" and I feel like I'm probably missing an area when I shower or that I'm not doing a good enough job. I feel disgusting and like if I am intimate with someone I'll probably gross them out. It doesn't help that when I was like 12 I got bacterial vaginosis because my mom never taught me how to properly clean myself (she was super repressed and old fashioned and barely taught me anything!) It was so embarrassing when i started having symptoms and she took me to the gynecologist and the gyno said I had bv from not properly washing. I have a lot of shame from that. I don't wanna let anyone go down on me because I'm afraid I might be dirty. I use a mirror to make sure I inspect everything down there and if I don't do that for a few weeks or months (and actually start to feel happy again) then I start to feel gross again and like I need to obsess over it again. But the thing is sometimes if I'm not obsessing, I *do* miss a spot. And so when I find that I am like, "see, thats why you need to obsess over it!"
about to watch a triggering movie for an exposure 💪
i feel like im going crazy and its so hard to explain like i physically feel like im going insane and recently ive been getting anxious about having different personalities basically like scared im schizophrenic or some other mental disorders like DID where i start showing up as different people and its really scaring the shit out of me because ill feel anxious and in my head the whole time saying things like " what if im not devika right now and what if i start giving myself other names" " what if i have DID" and ive also been struggling with DPDR where i feel disconnected from my reality so it makes my fear of going crazy even worse and some days i can handle it but days like today i feel like im actually going insane and ill never be normal again and i dont want to take any meds i want to put in work like ERP n get over it but im genuinely scared im going crazy and starting to have different personalities. Like for example i have ROCD so usually when im away from my girlfriend i feel even worse because im more alone and im able to give my thoughts more attention like do u love ur girlfriend and qns like that. But when im with her im instantly happy and feel like im so much better therefore making me feel like its my other "personality" n idk how to stop this. Does anyone have any tips
I need help! My ROCD has improved over the past couple of weeks and now I’ve got new intrusive thoughts about my ex boyfriend and it’s making me feel guilty even though I know I don’t love him anymore and am in love with my current boyfriend. I’m having vivid memories about our past relationship and I want it to go away. Is anyone else going through the same thing?
Now it’s all black i have returned to phase i fought so much to stay away from it’s start making me doubt my religion and look up things about evolution and that there is mo god and bla bla and i am not stable enough because of my ocd doubting phase and i don’t wanna lose my religion it’s a dead end i don’t want to and i want the constant checking thoights to leave me because the internet has so many misleading info and it only feed my ocd wrh negatives and make doubt everything i hte that i don’t want that i don’t know what to do really! I got better few months ago idk why the hell this happened now!!!
Hi guys, I wanted to suggest Emotional freedom technique (EFT) tapping, Google the procedure. It has helped me a lot. Suggested by my therapist and it works.
Hey i Need help With this . I do not 100% know if what I feel is „real“ love for a person. And saying I love you is hard sometimes because it feels like i‘m „lying“ or something like that . At the same time I’m religious and do not want to lie and it makes me feel bad what do I do ?
does anyone else feel like OCD has made them trust absolutely no one. it’s so lonely not feeling like i can trust anyone. and so exhausting not trusting myself
I was just diagnosed with PCOS. My OCD has taken me on a run and has me thinking all sorts of things, that I will become infertile or I will die. I know I am falling back to depression abs severe anxiety attacks. The point of this post is I feel so alone and I was wondering if there is anyone who has the same diagnosis as me. I might delete this later, but if you do maybe we can talk and connect with each other?
Why does OCD make me feel like I want to do the thing?! Like I don’t, but it makes me feel like I do. Agh.
I just listened to the most recent ocd stories podcast and what the actual heckinbob. Towards the end Dr burns explains how most of his ocd patients have a underlying problem in their present life that is causing them to suffer from ocd. For example hating your job or not speaking your true feelings. But of course ocd wiggled their big butt on in and sat on my shoulder and said “what if your underlying problem is your relationship, you need to break up” “your lying to your self” What are your guys thoughts on this? I’m rather triggered by this episode and how Dr burns was rather vague on how to try and find your supposed underlying issue.
Does any of you guys repeat words? I do it unconsciously, it just kind of happens in my mind but i don't think it "gives" me relief like most of my compulsions, but it does prevent my mind from being occupied with the intrusive thoughts for a while. Is it a compulsion?
Omg the last week has been one of the worst ever... As I have posted here few days ago, I am waiting my period and I am bombardised by horrible intrusive thoughts. My Rocd seems more threatening than ever and I can't get out of it. I get these thoughts and then I have to do many compulsions to go on in my day. I made some serious scenes to my husband, I doubted, agonised and cried like a small kid. I can't describe how bad I feel, how sick and low trapped in this never ending illness. I really couldn't resist the compulsions no matter if I thought I made the smallest progress. I feel a monster that makes my husband's life misery and cause fights inside my home with my small baby being present. Why do these thoughts seem so real??? They tell me Iul must believe in them, and cannot get out of it. My mind wants me to live in sadness, doubt and misery. I feel so losty friends like I want to hide in a cave and never get out... I feel like there's trauma inside my soul that wakes up through rocd thoughts...
does anyone have those days where you want to delete all your social media apps and just go out and do things you enjoy but then you feel like you have to have to distract yourself in your intense moments with your phone so you dont? what do y’all do when you’re tired of distracting yourself with social media?
I wonder Does anyone have transformation obsessions around here? Like something unknown wants to give you someone else's characteristics or turn you into someone (usually a person you don't like). Please text me, I would love to share experience, I've never met someone with the same problem as mine.
My partner and I just had a date night. Despite enjoying myself I still couldn't stop obsessing and mentally checking my attraction to him, my sexuality, etc. Which is the loop my brain has now been stuck on for over 2 years. :/ why does soocd have to be so hard?
You ever have those periods in time where you’re like… happy. Not nervous and minimal intrusive thoughts. Then all the sudden you’re like, “Oh I haven’t been anxious in a long time” then you jinx yourself and you’re an anxious mess again. 🤦🏽
i just had a thought that said what if i just relaxed and stop trying to look for proof and i just gave up and then i got really scared because i feel like if i stop doing compulsions and stop caring and i just give up then i’m gonna lose my boyfriend and i’m gonna realize i like girls and not boys and i don’t know what to do
I once read that with general anxiety you get the symptoms first and your mind searches for things to be worried about because you have symptoms associated with worry. Example... stomach upset causes your brain to think "upset stomach means I'm worried...what am I worried about?" Then it starts going through everything you could be worried about which obviously makes the physical symptom worse and the cycle continues. I've found this happens with me but worse because my ocd latches on to the new thing to be worried about.
I feel like I’m just going through life just used to this feeling of always being detached and in my own world 24/7 like it’s so weird the last couple days it’s almost like I feel numb like everything feels fake like I’m disassociating from my reality like I don’t know if that makes sense but I just don’t get what’s going on with me most of the time o just feel nothingness and sorta numbness and I just am tired of feeling this way. Anyone else?
resisted a compulsion 😎
1) Strive for long-term freedom from OCD by teaching your mind not to take it self so seriously 2) OCD is the fear net work of the brain sending a signal that something is wrong and something needs to be done about it !! 3) OCD only reports and feared consequences that are important to a person 4) OCD may inject into your awareness with a thought oh no or what if !! 5) if OCD taunts you with images or thoughts then it must be really important to you 6) what keeps our city alive and well it’s not the experience or the intrusive thought but actually one’s reaction to them 7) The human mind is consistently spinning around trying to find interesting problems to solve. 8)OCD loves taking anything that is reassuring and turning it into a compulsion 9) talking about your OCD problems get it out in the open because you will start to hear your OCD as blah blah blah maybe even laughable your brain will be one step closer to understanding that thoughts are spam mail and nothing more 10) learn how to recognize spam from urgent mail 11) don’t allow yourself to start exploring the idea or contact of your thought don’t try to come up with a plan or solve any problem that appears to be created by your thoughts when you do this you are trying to figure out the answer to a problem that has no answer furthermore it is not a problem 12) remember that anxiety will be working hard to trick you into believing that your thoughts really to represent all the upsetting myths that we’re debunked remember that acceptance is the opposite of fighting with the feeling or fleeing from the thought and it is part of the paradoxical nature is anxiety that accepting the feeling and the thought is the most effective way to get rid of them Remember thoughts are just thoughts and only thoughts Anxiety tries to convince you that intrusive thoughts have a special meaning . Beating anxious thinking is refusing to be taken in by this misleading message
The key is using the experience to grow when you apply what you’re learning to your future choices and actions you move forward not backwards you become stronger and wiser it’s not easy but it’s worth it at the end. It’s all about accepting the reality of what is you cannot find peace by avoiding life life spins with unexpected changes so instead of avoiding it take every change and experience as a challenge for growth. Either it will give you what you want or it will teach you what your next step is. Remember finding peace in life doesn’t mean to be in a place where there is no noise no challenges and no hard work it means to be in the midsts of those things while remaining calm in heart life is too short to spend at war with yourself. Letting go of needless expectations is your first step to happiness Open the mind to acceptance of your OCD and you will be surprised about your growth In every situation you choose your attitude be determined to be positive chase happiness over hurt. You are not who you used to be and that’s OK you’ve been hurt you gone through numerous of ups and downs and that has made you who you are today over the years so many things has happened things have changed your perspective taught you lessons and forced your spirit to grow . Every day we change and we grow but remember we’re still the same human beings just a little more stronger now than we were before 🌸🌸🌸🌸
I did some research on what supplements may help the most with OCD, and aside from the ones like Ashwaghanda, I've found that vitamin B12 and folic acid actually showed signs of improvement for patients with OCD! So even if you're not vegan, make sure you're getting your much needed intake of B12, as even 40% of people with an omnivore diet have B12 deficiency. I hope this information helps!