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So I’m going to a new psychiatrist tomorrow and asking her to switch meds. I hear Zoloft is good? Anyone else have a good experience on Zoloft or any other med?
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So I’m going to a new psychiatrist tomorrow and asking her to switch meds. I hear Zoloft is good? Anyone else have a good experience on Zoloft or any other med?
Can I talk to someone about my hocd?? Please!!! I'm very anxious
Im worried because in the beginning these thoughts didn't disgust me. I knew I didn't want them and that I would never do anything that my mind was suggesting to me, but my head tells me I should've felt disgusted.
Sometimes it's really a source of shame to see how much you affect your skin or scalp when you have a BFRB. I shared my story to destigmatize. Feel free to ask questions. I recommend our support group! https://app.treatmyocd.com/support-groups My Journey: https://www.treatmyocd.com/my-ocd-journey/picking-your-face-or-pulling-your-hair-you-may-have-a-bfrb. Hope you share your journey too!
Sometimes it can be a good reflection moment to take time to notice patterns in your life. What have been some of your patterns? How did you cope throughout those periods? What is different now than back then? For me, I totally have had ROCD periods. Compulsions included checking, ruminating, and asking for reassurance. Sometimes it's hard not to believe it all. The distress can get so high. If I had worked on on my values and the things I cared about sooner, I would have worked through my ROCD so much sooner. What works for you? What do you value? Doing this work and focusing on my family helps!
Defusion is a way to get distance between our thoughts and behaviors. Here are some ways to do it: -Imagine your OCD thought with a silly voice or sing it outloud -Imagine your OCD thought on a movie screen, playing over and over again and moving yourself to the back of the theater -Imagine your OCD thought as a color, shape, or a character- name it! Sometimes funny names can give you space. :) Hope that helps!
A month and a half ago I was looking up outpatient centers for moderate to severe ocd. I didn’t understand why I wasn’t getting better because I was doing therapy with an ocd therapist but then I realized after hearing someone on Instagram mention META ocd and I was shocked! I was trying to get rid of the icky feelings and constantly questioning why I was doing the exposures and not getting better. I convinced myself I wasn’t doing erp right. It wasn’t until I began to say “maybe it won’t get better. I have to live with that uncertainty” that it began getting so much better.
Anyone else a partner of rocd , my boyfriend has confessed a lot of bad thoughts to me about other girls my appearance his feelings towards me ect ect for a year and a half now he’s a lot better but I have been left feeling worthless a cell of myself he’s in a lot better place and says my bad vibes brings him down when he’s the one who’s been brining me down for so long no fault of his own I feel so low and down almost abit sucidal have had a tough year also lost my dad last year
Do most of y’all see a psych doctor or a family doctor for your ocd? I see a family doctor and wonder if i should see a psychiatrist instead. Idk. My family doctor is fine but we just don’t go much into detail and all they do is write me a script for my SSRI and benzo I need. I have to wonder though if it’s better to see a doctor that specializes in mental health for meds. What is your opinion?
So I have diagnosed OCD and my therapist specializes in OCD so that’s really comforting. But when we talk about OCD I don’t really tell her much of my compulsions because I feel like she will judge almost but I know she won’t but I can’t shake that feeling. It’s like I know a lot about OCD I do research and other things. It’s just I know a lot but I feel like there is a possibility almost that I could be wrong about something and then be embarrassed when I say something that might be incorrect. I don’t know I really like my therapist and I trust her and I don’t think this has anything to do with her I think it had everything to do with me I need advice asap.
Has anyone had any luck with Lamotrigine? I have heard wonderful things about it in regards to OCD
Does anyone have any tips that help with stopping rumination? I’ve spent hours sitting here thinking and thinking and trying to seek reassurance in my brain or in my texts or online and I can’t do anything else. Help.
This is hard to explain sorta but I’ll try: Does anyone else feel like paranoid over certain words. For example, I have harm ocd so words that bother me are “murder. Kill. Serial killer. Etc”. When I’m texting on my phone, if it auto corrects and spells the word “kill” when that’s not the word I was typing, I get a weird feeling like “oh no”. It’s like these words are “haunting” to me. I also feel like I can use slang with these words either. It would be hard for me to say “oh I killed that!” I just hope at least one person understands because I have never opened up about this before. It can also happen with numbers too. Certain numbers that I think are evil like the three sixes (notice I don’t want to type them out lol) make me panic when I see them.
So I’ve been getting treatment for about 3 months now and it’s been slowly starting to work I think and days are slowly getting easier. There are still plenty of bad days and days where I just feel completely defeated but I’m gradually learning how to deal with these emotions. Part of me is really relieved and excited as OCD was absolutely awful and the worst thing I’ve ever experienced. It held me back from so many things and I felt so trapped and I never imagined I’d be in so much agonising discomfort everyday. However part of me is also really uneasy as OCD is what I’ve known for so many years and I don’t know life without it. It’s almost unsettling integrating back into the ‘normal’ way of life as part of me doesn’t know where to start and I feel like I lack foundation if that makes sense as I have been unable to do so much for so long. I’m also finishing school soon which makes things even harder as I don’t know what comes next, or who or what I’ll become and do with my life. I guess my question is, is life beyond OCD worth it and is it worth climbing out of this hell hole? I also know that I’ll probably always have OCD and there may always be bad days but it’s just becoming less disabling and time consuming which is so exciting but sort of terrifying at the same time. I also am worried that I’ll live a boring and miserable life because at least dealing with OCD left me with something and made life more interesting, much more painful but It almost became my identity. But I guess there has to be something more beyond this life I’m living. Sorry this is long.
i’m so thankful for this app and the kindest of everyone on it. Knowing I’m not alone in these feelings has helped me tremendously. I hope everyone has a great day.
I've been depressed for the past few days and it has made me not want to talk to anyone. Every time my family ask me what's wrong I basically tell them to leave me alone and not talk to me. They've been asking what they've done wrong which makes me feel sad because they haven't really done anything. But I feel so low that I don't even have the energy to explain that, i just want to be left alone. It's gotten to the point now that I'm not talking to them at all, even though we live in the same house, and I am just in bed all the time. I know my behaviour isn't right and I should apologise, but I just feel so down that everytime I think about talking it makes me want to cry. But I can't keep treating them this way, it isn't fair. How do I explain this to them?
My OCD is a little different. It doesn’t latch on to a specific thing, it just says, if you don’t do the compulsions, you will be stuck ruminating and won’t be able to enjoy your life, which is exactly what’s happening to me. Doesn’t that mean my intrusive thoughts are true?
My anxiety is through the roof at this point. This current lapse has lasted for so long, I feel like I will never be my old self again. I AM STRAIGHT AND ONLY WANT TO BE STRAIGHT, NOTHING ELSE! Current symptoms: Unwanted groinal responses Unwanted tingling from male ASMR No feeling towards female ASMR This is especially distressing as I am reliant on ASMR to help me relax and sleep
Im strugling with harm ocd for a while now and i use the method what people told me but it still doesnt help me and when i get into a bad situation or life sucks, this always comes back. So i got into a conclusion, eitherway the obsession is to hurt myself and the urge to do it is the compulsion which after time turns into reassurance from people cause i do not harm myself, never did, OR the life problems are the obsession cause im affraid of suffering, pain, i dont want to feel any so the compulsion would be to harm or kill myself. This one sounds more real cause theres the actual fear, but in the first one theres no fear. But either way its still bad. I got to this conclusion cause im tired of hearing people with harm ocd saying they fighting with fear, while i feel like im fighting with the actual urge, i always have to remind myself the reasons why i shouldnt to it which doesnt sound like what other people with harm ocd do cause they already know why they shouldnt do it. Anyway can this 2 obtions be possible? Or im just overthinking it
I’m not very sexually active and my ocd is a big part of that. Sometimes I’ll feel “In the mood” and my ocd will take it as a challenge. What do you do in a case like that? Persist? Stop? I can’t do anything without a flare up of intrusive thoughts and shit. How do you help this?
Last night my boyfriend reacted annoyed at me when I wanted to pick a pimple of his face. I get it because he doesn’t like it. But he reacted really annoyed. He said sorry for it later. He was really sweet all night. But he said he didn’t sleep so well that’s why he reacted so annoyed. Is it normal to be annoyed sometimes by your partner?
Wow. Exposures this morning were way less anxiety inducing than usual. The anticipatory anxiety was about an 8 but during the exposure it was like a 3. Super pleased with how well I’m progressing through and can’t wait to keep going. Parts of today were hard, but doing my worst case scenario and identifying some deeper fears really seems to have helped. At the end of the day, we can handle it. Keep going guys. One day at a time. You can handle it. Sit with your discomfort. I like to say “I’ll worry about that later.” Or “that’s a future John problem” and not respond in the moment to derail it. Thanks y’all 🙂
Would love to hear success stories of Zoloft helping your OCD. If you took it for a long time did you find it hard coming off? Was it worth it? I know everyone responds differently to meds but would be great to hear some positive stories. Thanks!
Im remembering when I was younger I talked to girls that were very young , I’m not 100% what my age was I think 16 but then my mind goes maybe you were 18 but I’m not sure , she was 13-14 , all I remember it there was a 3 year age gap , we asked some naughty thing but nothing happened but after that day I remember deleting her and nothin happened, we didn’t meet, we didn’t call each other, we didn’t talk longer then 1 night maybe 2 and then another girl that I can’t remember anything of what happened only that she may of been young and I was young , is this bad? , I feel like I did something wrong
is it weird that i’m starting to befriend an 18 year old when i’m almost 21? i had friends older than that when i was 19, but the difference there is that 19 was a year into college, where as this person is first year. i know i’m probably overthinking it but wanted to verify
My OCD says that if I don’t do compulsions, I will feel anxiety and ruminate. It doesn’t have a specific fear it latches on. Doesn’t that mean my intrusive thought is true?
I was in the sun today and now one of my eyes is sore like a stye and its blurry im worried im going to go blind or cancer
Do any of you compulsively pray as a response to intrusive thoughts? I feel like this might be a niche compulsion, but if any of you have overcome something like this, please let me know
Any tips for dealing with obsessive thoughts at night? It’s easier for me during the day because I can distract myself. I’m trying meditation and guided imagery, with limited success. I’m managing not engaging in compulsions, but just barely. I’m just trying my best to sleep.
I just was curious if anyone has ever taken natural vitamins/pills for OCD? I’m currently taking Saint John’s Wort and I really like it but I’m just trying to see what also works and what others have tried!
Some positive news for a change. Today I managed to stop myself from going down a spiral of thoughts that disgusted me. I managed to be able to separate myself from the situation and not think about that anymore. It's a small victory and I know that may not be enough to some, but it's good to have a break from reoccurring immoral and vile thoughts.
does anybody else feel really worried and guilty when talking to others about their ocd? i’ll mention it to my friends every now and then and when i do i worry a ton about what they’re thinking. i always feel like they think that i’m lying about having ocd, or saying the stuff for attention. i feel guilty when i talk about it to those who don’t understand i don’t know why. i am also typing the rest of this because i typed more but deleted it and now i need the length back to be right lmao. anyone else?
After my boyfriend of 2 and a half years and i talked yesterday, we decided we needed space apart. i feel like this is going to end in us breaking up. i’ve been with him since i was 15. he is all i have ever known. but now, i feel differently about him. i think because i feel differently, it has caused me to spiral in why. do i feel differently because i am actually gay? do i feel differently because i don’t love him anymore? i’m not sure. i know i do love him, and i always will. but i’m not sure if i want to commit to someone at 18. he says he knows he wants to be with me, but i don’t know. i have nothing to compare him to. i have no other experiences. i feel like i need other experiences, because i feel like that’s how people should live. i don’t think i feel the same way about him as he does about me, and that’s devastating. 16 year old me would be absolutely crushed to know i’m in this spot. because i remember feeling so in love with him. i guess the fact that i don’t feel as compatible with him as i used to is a turn off, but it makes me think i’m gay. i’m really not sure if i am, i have liked boys all my life and i don’t ever remember liking a girl in that way. and i really feel like i would’ve noticed. but the fact that my boyfriend and i aren’t working out, seems like proof i am gay. but really, i don’t know. i could not be as attracted to him as i used to be because of so many different things. it could be because i’m gay, it could be because we aren’t compatible. it could be because we just don’t have great physical chemistry. i tried to make us work, but at the end i still just don’t feel compatible with him and i thought i was. this really triggers me, because it’s hard to understand why we aren’t compatible. it makes me think, well what if this happens in another relationship and i don’t feel the same way, that would definitely mean i’m gay. i don’t think i ever would date a girl, but at the same time i don’t know. i don’t know if that’s internalized homophobia speaking, if i’m in denial, or what. i mean i thought i was going to be with my boyfriend for the rest of my life, why is this any different. i’m just scared.
Lately I've been feeling like I don't actually have OCD and I'm actually terrible, like I feel like my intrusive thoughts aren't as strong as before and I'm starting to think "what if I was being dramatic about the whole situation?"
My main theme and really the only one that bothers me since this all began a year and a half ago is pocd. I have a lot of guilt and shame tied into this theme due to my past and my current thoughts. With nocd and therapy and getting back to working and everything it has been at bay for months up until i was retriggered by a dream and extra stress/anxiety that i have been going through recently. I feel myself slowly slipping back into that dark place but i am trying to cling on and not let that happen. I just want to say even though sometimes i use this group as reassurance and it can be a compulsion I am so thankful that there are others out there that understand and wont judge. This disorder is horrid and there have been many days where i have contemplated on ending it due to the pain and suffering that I have endured since developing this theme. I eventually want to be a mom but sometimes it seems so out of reach. I hope one day this theme really wont have a hold on me like it does and that everyone else who suffers can feel the same sense of relief. Keep holding on and keep putting one foot in front of the other❤️
one of the most frustrating things about ocd is trying to form a solid identity. it’s so hard to know when and when not to label thoughts intrusive and sometimes i feel as though i have no idea who i actually am and only have a picture of a terrible person i could be
When feeling mad or annoyed does your Harm OCD thoughts come out ? Like you don’t like the thought but the anger is contributing to the thoughts
i had my first day of work today. work has been very difficult since the onset of my ocd. my obsessions can get very dark and lead to a lot of shame that impedes my ability to interact and connect with others. i haven’t been able to hold a job for more than a month or two. today felt different, whether it’s my meds or the treatment i’m in, i sat with extreme discomfort and i’m proud of myself for getting through it
REALLY anxious night. how long does it take to “sit with the discomfort” until you feel relief again?
Is it just me or does your brain make everything sexual? Is this apart of my ocd? Or just my teenage brain?
Requesting an assessment for OCPD in the coming days. Was diagnosed with OCD two years ago and thought that all of my difficulties in life stemmed from that. Never occurred to me that I may have another disorder. I moved across the world, virtually on my own, and was struggling as it was without realising that I may have to try and recover from yet another disorder. I honestly don't know what I'm going to do. I'm so exhausted, hopeless and on the verge of giving up completely.
Has anyone tried Ketamine / Psilocybin / TMS for Ocd? What was your experience like?
What are some of yalls symptoms with worrying about developing schizophrenia?
My best friend and I share a very deep bond together. She’s my rock. She was one of the first people I ever came out as trans to. I chose my first name because it was her grandfathers name. He was such an amazing man. But for some reason when I go to introduce myself I always automatically start to say her last name. It’s completely unconscious and I don’t mean to do it. Could it be because our last names start with the same letter? I don’t understand why my brain does that.
When I turned 25, things started to seem different. What could be going on? I was thinking quarter life crisis.
I feel like sometimes my theme is so bad and what I’ve gone through (groinals, thoughts, etc.) is so bad that OCD doesn’t apply to me and that any advice doesn’t apply to me. It sucks cause it feels like I’m in this forever :/
After 4 years in a relationship, the butterflies and "feeling" in love isn't there as much. I miss it a lot sometimes and it definitely triggers ROCD, but I'm trying to be okay with it
My coworker and I were talking about past relationships and I told her about this guy I was seeing a while ago and how he started dating a girl right after me but would randomly still send me songs every few months. She asked his name after and I told her and she said she’s heard of him. Now I’m scared she’s gonna tell people I’m was talking about him and the message will spread back to him. I wish she never asked his name. Now I’m ruminating about the whole thing.
When I pray, sometimes I get certain thoughts that either curse God out of the blue or just have gross thoughts that aren’t my own. According to my religion, cursing God and meaning it is an unforgivable sin , and I am scared that I will go to hell which is my absolute worst fear. I’ve talked to my boyfriend about it and he says it’s not how I truly feel, but I feel so scared when it happens often when I can’t help it. I don’t know how to stop this since the more I think about it the worse the thoughts get.
I have actually thought quite a bit about this and basically I realised my fear was actually about trying to live the life I promised younger me that I'd have. I watched my mum put everyone first as a child. My parents had a rotten relationship, there wasn't any level of intimacy or kindness. They were together for the kids. My mum Stuck in a life that I don't think she ever wanted. I promised myself I'd never have that. That my life would be full of adventure and putting myself first. Realtionships hold a lot of routine, safety, compromise. So naturally I want to reject it. but my mind is telling me that not the real reason and I'm lying to myself. I feel that I fail myself and missing out the life I deserve and this thoughts really killing me inside! I just want to be alone and free , loving myself and take care of it don't let anyone else sharing the love of myself with me and no one save me except me ! I want to experience love only in my imagination at least until I meet the perfect one . I don't want to be in a real rn or settled , have a normal life . I'm not capable of giving or receiving love with him that's too much for me..but the possibility of it to be an issue letting me hold on while it doesn't feel like that !
If so, what’s the process? I have yet to be diagnosed with OCD, NOCD will be my first experience with therapy. I’m just a bit nervous for my first session and wondering what I should expect.
Hey! Does anyone have any book recommendations where the main character has OCD that’s actually well represented? (Preferably fictional books) <3
What are some OCD Themes , Would love to hear that I’m not alone ?!
can ocd make you feel like you have a crush on someone? i genuinely can’t tell if it’s my actual feelings or not and it’s really disorientating
I am really struggling today and have been the last couple of days. Does anyone on here struggle with fear of eating/ taking meds because you’re afraid of the side effects/ what could happen once you ingest something?
Anyone experience more anxiety the first week on this medicine ? If so did it subside and what did you take to help it? I noticed it’s helping the thought intensity but the chest tightness is killing me !
My false memories makes me anxious cause my mind tells me maybe this happened and makes me doubt
Hey everyone! I was writing to see if anybody else struggles with mental health ocd. For example, always checking your body and actions to make sure you aren’t “going crazy” and having panic towards these thoughts. Even having obsession about having ocd, fear of developing more obsessions or ocd becoming bad to the point where you can’t function. This is something I’ve been really struggling with lately but I don’t see many people talk about it. If anyone else is struggling with this too and would like to connect please leave a comment!
I managed to carry 1 (one) disgusting cup from my room to my kitchen without vomiting. Please, hold your applause.
my anxiety is going crazy because of where i am sitting in the restaurant with my boyfriend, we usually sit with me on the left him on the right but tonight we’re not. why is this causing me such anxiety that things are not how they always are?
I feel like I notice ppl here talking a lot about trying to distinguish/being unsure which thoughts are really theirs vs which “are OCD.” And i feel like that’s a potentially really counterproductive distinction to make? Labeling some thoughts/intrusive thoughts as OCD as though somehow “OCD” is a mutually exclusive category from “thoughts” just feeds into some form of reassurance, right? To be clear it’s for sure helpful to label your RESPONSE to triggering thoughts as OCD, but the thought itself is just a thought. And many (even most?) people without OCD also have intrusive thoughts of the same sort as those of us with OCD, it’s just that we have the obsessive/compulsive response to them where others are able to brush them off. Shouldn’t the ultimate goal be to stop attaching so much importance/meaning to thoughts so that you don’t Need to have a separate category for the “bad” ones?
I literally had a sex dream abt my abuser and I feel disgusted after waking up or just shocked bc now I feel now and how I felt in the dream are different.. and it’s weird bc I it’s like i didn’t know it was my abuser but it was yk? Like he was clearly physically present but I didn’t feel that vibe or aura abt them so I thought it was a different person but but physically they looked like them and I feel so disgusted bc I remember the details and I feel so ashamed bc I felt the dream and i saw myself like it :((( idk what that means bc now I’m kinda worried that means I had sexually feelings for my abuser deep down but I woke up like chill until I remembered and I felt disgusted ofc but I feel like I’m so used to anything being a possibility like maybe I do think or that like the ocd exposure thing that I feel bad that I kinda am not scared as much anymore? But it still concerns me bc I feel so disgusted by it now and even more bc my groinals and I still feel it like bleh :/
Question. How can “oh well, guess I’ll never know” and “your ocd is a big bully who is lying to you” both be response prevention? They seem in conflict. Thank you, sending strength to all you warriors out there.
Does anyone else maladaptive daydream? I’ve done it since I was a kid and now a days OCD is making me feel so guilty for it. I dream about scenarios that make me feel like a rush if serotonin if that makes sense but the things I dream about aren’t things that align with my values now and I feel terrible about it. I would never actually do these things but it’s like I automatically start thinking about these scenarios especially when music is playing and it’s easy to drift off and think. Everything I dream about I would not be doing in real life but I feel disgusting and terrible for thinking these things. I feel like with intrusive thoughts you can help but think about them but when it comes to maladaptive day dreaming I think about these things in purpose? But I don’t want too but I’ve just always done it since I was little. Please tell me I’m not alone. Does anyone else experience it and if so how do I not feel bad about this.
Hello everyone. What do you do if your spouse really doesn’t believe you have OCD and doesn’t like to spend money on therapy? I’m retired and on a fixed income. Thanks.
so my knuckle may have briefly touched this woman’s back when i was walking past her and playing with my earbud, i’m constantly scared of touching people because it makes me feel like a creep. she didn’t seem bothered at all but i am nervous wondering it may have been slightly intentional.
*Be me, nervous to go see friends after a while, questioning whether or not you have OCD* *Mostly no intrusive thoughts but you have one intrusive thoughts, immediately arrange silverware to be flat and upright on table*
Does anyone else feeling comfortable with less thoughts even if he still feeling numb towards his partner ? This makes me feel like it's my truth not rocd which return me back to anxiety/rumination !
I hate when these happen... “What if you did this terrible thing?” “I won’t.” “But, what if you did?” “I won’t.” “But, what if you did?”
Haven’t posted here in a few weeks. But just had an aha moment lol, glad I’m able to identify when it’s my ocd speaking for myself and not me, but at the same tike I been having this question in my head, curious if ocd or any other mental health disorder can cause you to push away your partner when they about to kiss you, or show love to you. To add on to this, this is something i already identified as part of my ocd, and it’s in regards to the FUTURE, oh boyyy… the future scares me so much, because i keep thinking we not going to have a future together, or that we are incompatible. This can affect you so much! Imagine your partner telling you all the plans for the future and you just sitting there fully triggered.
After being calm for about 3wks ( although l was feeling numb but I didn't care ) my intrusive thoughts attack me again and I fall on the trap 😭 why this is never end !! I'm so exhausted. ohh god please help me I can't take anymore more of this !! :(
My brain feels weird if it is quiet - i can try stop compulsions and rumination’s but ill be bombarded by thoughts Is this going to last forever - im trying but it seems like its getting more intense
Could the back door spike make false attraction feel genuine? And convince you that just because someone is aesthetically good looking it means sexual attraction?
The hardest part for me with being in the ocd cycle is that if feel like I’ve lost myself or that I’m not me anymore. Anyone else relate?
is it normal to get intrusive thoughts about something you’re not even sure happened? like you’re brain is saying “what if you did this in the past” and you don’t even know if you did it or not??
Man the ocd has been crap this afternoon. Trying to ride the wave. I just feel emotionally but I’m also on my period so that could be it to 😂😩🫠
For a while I started to have a break from POCD and started to obsess over different themes. I've been handling them better, I don't know if this has to do with anything, maybe the POCD theme started to come back exactly because I was going well with the other ones. I'm getting triggered more and more. I just feel so miserable.
Idk if this makes sense but sometimes I think I hear my friends’ problems or bad situations and even stuff online and my brain like subconsciously acts like it’s my life and my problems. Like I take on the anxiety and can’t differentiate between what their situation is and mine. Anyone else have this? I don’t think it’s like an empathy thing either like my body physically absorbs the terrible situations of other people and can’t understand that it’s not my reality.
I just had a really scary intrusive thought that I really haven’t had in a long time and it scared me and I started worrying and rushing time so I can leave so I could be safe and nothing could happen that my intrusive thought sent me. I did notice the difference since being in recovery like I recognized it labeled it as intrusive and ocd and got back in my car afterward and drove home but it’s just sitting in my mind but I’m not ruminating which is a good thing I think.
Hey everyone! it’s my first time writing something here. Reading what you guys are saying has been really good for me. About two weeks ago I discovered that everything that what I’ve been thinking compulsively during some years has a name : OCD. Today I had my first therapy session, and was so good to express my worst thoughts during this time. After so many anxious days and so many hopeless moments, I felt freedom. It was not ERP yet btw, which I feel a bit anxious about. I would like to express my first achievement that is being brave enough to look for help. I know that maybe the goal of the app is giving the opportunity for us to express our worst thoughts and worst sensations, but I would like to share something good with you today. There is hope, we are not our thoughts and we deserve to celebrate our small achievements during this journey ☺️
So i went to the doctor about my constant headaches i thot i had a brain tumour. He looked in my eyes to see if there were any signs of who and did a physical exam i was completely fine. I feel so out of it right now like I am a robot or something everything feels so weird and out of touch I don’t know how to explain it. what if My obsession with my headaches are a dillision. What if i sm going crazy. I feel so out of it so either i do have a brain tumour and that’s why i feel so out of it like i am on drugs. Or i have absolutely lost my mind. Are people aware of having a phycotic break? like if i am having one right now would i not be aware of it? Like i am completely aware that i feel crazy and something is off? Should i be in a hospital
I don’t feel comfortable sharing exactly what my ‘intrusive thoughts’ are about but they can make me feel super uncomfortable and/or depressed. What are some ways you guys distract yourself? Or minimize them?
I understand that OCD isn't logical and no matter how much checking you do it'll only create more uncertainty that OCD will use against you but I still can't and don't understand why it causes loss of attraction, groinal response and feels so real. No matter the theme it feels so real.