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Does anyone else feel REALLY uneasy when you’re happy or when you’re unbothered
Hope everyone has an easy weekend dealing with their OCD, regardless of what theme it is.
Does anyone have a feeling of guilt if they have a random groinal response to something they feel it shouldn’t have happened to? I can’t shake the feeling of guilt. The thing that caused the reaction makes me feel gross whenever I think about it so I know there is no attraction to what caused it, but I just feel so guilty about what caused it.
I don't know where to begin, all I know is that OCD is ruining my life. My mother is crying because I'm like this. I never want to cause anyone pain because my mind is broken. In the past month I can't shower normally or do anything bathroom related. That part of my home disgusts me for some reason and there is no thing I can do normally in there. Neither pee nor wash my hands nor brush my teeth. What the hell do I do? I am talking to a therapists but nothing. And I've changed quite a few of them.
I just saw a post of how people can unfocus their eyes and well I can do it I do it a lot or randomly but now I can't stop and I'm freaking out in silence! My eyes wanna keep doing it but I don't!
Hi All 🙋♀️ it’s nice to be here. Basically I’m at the point where I’ve given up on most of my standards. I’m in a constant state of emotional overwhelm to the point I’ve lost sight of how I’m feeling. I hold in everything to the point that my self harming behaviors are showing on the outside, and I’m emotionally disconnected. I need to find a way to connect with and process my emotions in a healthy way again.
Does anyone else hate being near kids in public? I hate it so much. I just try to avoid them as much as possible.
The intrusive feelings are so difficult, I can accept some of the thoughts but when I get intrusive feelings with it or following or I don’t feel “a certain way” then it brings anxiety. For example, I get a constant feeling and thought that I only have a boyfriend to fit in and when I say i have one or “my boyfriend” I have feelings that come up like I don’t want one, I’m lying, I don’t like him, and would rather be with woman. Like it’s a I feel “wrong” feeling that I have never had before these thoughts. What is a good way to combat intrusive feelings instead of thoughts? Is it more so acceptance of them being there and not trying to push them away or feel something else??
What are some example of mental compulsions? Most of my OCD themes have mostly mental compulsions, like ruminating, rationalizing, trying to solve the thought/come up with an answer, think about my past, self assurance. It’s been hard for me to identify my mental compulsions since they’re mental and not physical. My other compulsions like assurance seeking and such involve physical action, so I can stop those one quick, but my mental ones are harder. Do you guys experience these kind of mental compulsions too?
Does anyone ever obsess over worrying or wondering if they’re a bad person, feeling like they are a bad person and then feeling guilty when anyone compliments them because you think to yourself “omg if they only knew x,y,z” they wouldn’t believe I was a good person.
If I just let them be thoughts and not give in to them then will they reduce? How can I get them to reduce? I feel like my ocd is attacking my family members now like my mom and grandma and I feel so ashamed. How can I make this all go away?
Hello everybody. Hope you are doing ok. I have a question. I'm so scared to share my obsessions with my therapist. Im afraid she make them worse. One time i had an obsession and i decided not to do the compulsion. I said it to my therapist and i was expecting she encourage me to not do the compulsion. But instead she said why don't you just ask? And she ruined all of my efforts. Recently i told her my obsession and she gave me reassurness that it won't happen. The same thing my previous therapist always did. So when i read about ocd in NOCD it said getting reassurness is not good. Do you think i should change my therapist? I'm so confused. My previous therapist who always gave me reassurance didn't help me at all. Before that i went to another therapist who claimed to be an ocd expert and promised me he will cure me in 10 sessions but he didn't help me at all and it was really expensive. I don't know what to do. I wish i lived in America so i could use NOCD therapist. I'm scared. I feel alone in the path of curimg my ocd. Do you think i can overcome it with self help books and medicine? Because i don't think my therapist can understand my situation in OCD.
I HATE my intrusive thoughts I would never like them. I feel so incredibly guilty and ashamed. I just want it to go away forever
Ocd or quirk? I have a nocd therapist and have been diagnosed. But this is prob my ocd mind speaking. How do I know when a quirk needs to be treated as ocd? Like I hate dirty dish water but still do the dishes and also like my husband will ask for me to scratch his back especially when she's super sweaty and it grosses me out lol but those two things don't interfere with my life. Just curious
I woke up today and just felt like everything is so difficult and the exposures aren’t working yet for my particular thoughts and I just wish I never had to deal with OCD in the first place. I just wish it would go away and I could go back to living my life the way I did before all this
I’m so scared to go in public. How do I bring myself to go in public? It’s so hard for me to leave the house.
hi friends, i am posting to see if anyone can see this? am i softblocked? i have posted twice in the last few weeks and no one has responded 😞 i am really struggling and haven't found a new therapist yet
I feel some of my compulsions are so resistant to ERP no matter how many times I practice.
sometimes it feels so hard to keep trying
My main goal of trying to recover from OCD was so that I could start a family (my ocd fears just caused so much panic around having kids) Now that I feel like I’ve got my anxiety more under control, now I’m afraid to take the dive because I have high blood pressure. Sometimes I feel like I can’t ever catch a break.
So today I was shopping with my grandma and we went to a crystal store. There was a table with different kinds of crystals and the cashier told me to buy the crystal that I thought felt right. My eyes landed on the Tree Agathe, a stone that gives you a feeling of warmth and safety. But I accosiated the green of the stone with my mom and was scared to buy it (I have incest OCD). I decided to ignore the compulsion to not buy it and I bought the crystal. And it really gives me a safe feeling but I'm still scared. Like the OCD voice says things like: 'The warmth you feel isn't normal love it means that u are in love with your mom.' and stuff like that and it scares me. I really loved this crystal but the second I wanted to buy it those thoughts started appearing. Is it normal that the love I feel for my mom feels like warmth in my chest? Or does that mean I'm in love? Someone help please!
Kinda scared. You know how I’m going to the doctors office for a checkup? Well, I’m kind of scared that the doctor will 1. Make my dad stay 2. Not believe me 3. Say I don’t have it without doing anything And what if my dad finds out? Here’s what I’m planning on telling her/him/them through a letter: “Hi, Can I speak to you alone? Thanks, patient” and that’s all.
going for a long drive today to pack up my old apartment. feeling emotional to close a chapter but happy that it’s a lovely day 💞
Tw sexual intrusive thoughts I’m so upset because I love my family so much I’m 22 and I live with my mom and grandma (used to be my dad too by he passed) and now I’m getting horrible intrusive thoughts about them that I do not want. I feel extremely guilty and I feel like I have to talk about it and I really don’t want to. I tried explaining to my mom that my ocd attacks the people I care about and that’s all she needs to know. I used to get intrusive thoughts about my dad too before he passed that felt awful too. I just don’t know what to do. I know this isn’t me. I would never have these thoughts at all if it weren’t for ocd. They are so disgusting!
Hello! What are some medications that you have tried and had success with in reducing symptoms and anxiety? Prozac worked great for many years, but is no longer effective. Thank you!
Just some good news this morning! I switched medications recently and am feeling SO MUCH BETTER. I am keeping the intrusive thoughts at bay, obsessing way less and am able to overcome the obsessions quicker, and have a lot more energy. Sometimes I think we just need good news and to know that hope is out there. :) Drop your prayer requests below! (I'm a Christian)
What’s everyone up to this weekend? Anyone doing something exciting?
hope everyone’s having a good day That’s all, I know it’s tough but you always get through it :)
It's all over now. I stepped out of my house today, saw two girls. I thought that I would find them beautiful. I was straight before. But anxiety kicked in. Why?😭😭😭😭. I want to like women but instead of that, anxiety kicked in. Can someone please help me out😭😭😭😭
Has anybody ever question whether a memory is a repressed or a false memory? About a couple months ago, I got a image of a memory that I experienced on a chat site several years ago. This image is disgusting so I won’t go into detail. For the past couple of months, I have been ruminating about how I responded to what I saw. With my OCD, the memories that I have been able to make up have only been negative, suggesting that I responded in a sexual nature. The problem is I don’t remember the memory at all but remember it at the same time. I just remember the memory being traumatic and trying to forget about it the next day. I’m unsure if the memory was repressed because it was traumatic or it’s a false memory that I am creating in my head
Good morning everyone! My day is not off to a great start because we had no hot water and I had to take a sun-zero shower. Anyways. Question of the day: What’s your favorite candy? Mine is Sour Patch Kids :)
Recently every morning I’ve been waking up to very strong groinals regarding a dream that is absolutely in line with my OCD subtype SOOCD. I really struggle with how much these dreams make me doubt my attraction to men and my boyfriend and make me think I’m attracted to women. Nothing wrong with being attracted to women, but I really don’t feel like I am, but idk anymore like I’m doubting everything. The weird thing too is these dreams have been only happening within the past year of my life, and I’m 24. I’m kind of just venting right now, and my therapist tells me not to put meanings to my dreams. But it’s really hard not to, these dreams have been keeping me in the OCD trap throughout the day. Lmao can’t get a break from this subtype anywhere. AND it’s not the only subtype I deal with. Wondering if anyone can relate?
I saw a reel where the girl was doing some hand movements on a song 🖐️- Straight 🤟- Bi 💅- Gay And she did 🤟 this. I have very low anxiety nowadays so I wanted to do this 🖐️ but I did this 🤟 and I don't understand why did I do that...omg I am freaking out if I've accepted I am bi and this didn't cause any disgust or anxiety. Whyyyyy😭
Today is the day. I'm going to the doctor's office for a checkup. I'm gonna tell her about my OCD without my dad being there in the room. Wish me luck. I think I'll need it.
So... Typically if I do get out of bed, I just end up going to another one in the house and lying down there for the rest of the day doing whatever and not being productive (my motivation is very low too). Is there anything I can possibly to keep myself out of bed besides doing any type of compulsions? 👀
i had a thought while liking a rlly lovely piece of art on twitter and then like a split second after i realized it was a bad thought but it didn’t feel intrusive but i know that i don’t like that i had that thought and it bothered me that i thought that but i feel like bc i thought of it ‘naturally’ i must actually believe it and ughhh
After working with something that isn’t edible and can hurt you if you eat it, I feel a sensation in my mouth that it got in my mouth when it didn’t. Anyone else? Also what subtype does this fit under I’m curious.
Hi all. What does rumination look and feel like to you?
Hey guys do u know the feeling when u know there’s a huge wave of intrusive thoughts coming and you start to get extremely anxious about it. Like my minds starting to search for something that triggers me. I read before that the main cause of OCD is anxiety if anyone knows a way to try to relax can u help me❤️.
I just told my best friend I may be bisexual... it helped relieve the anxiety by a lot for a few hours, but now I’m back up again at night worrying about sex dreams and what not... I told him because I thought he was already thinking I was, and just coming clean would make the anxiety and rumination go away... it hasn’t..
i cant tell if the thoughts i just had were intrusive thoughts or actually me, im going ti end up sad:(
Hello Guys! I, decided to create this post to share that it's been a third week in a row I performed 0 Rituals!! I have been suffering with OCD for 9 years and before maximum one week I could stay with no rituals. I am so excited and happy and I am going to make it, I am going to continue staying without rituals and I am focused to completely recover from that. I just want to encourage each of you Guys, never give up, never quit, no matter how bad it is or how bad it gets, always keep faith, motivation, if you fail try again and again and again, because I have no doubt you can recover from it and your life can be beautiful as never before without OCD, without anxiety, fulfilled with happiness and joy. And yes it is possible!! No matter what you heard before but I am sure it is possible to fully recover from OCD! Wish you all best of luck and may success lead you in each battle you have. Keep moving, never give up! Thank you for everyone who read this and take care!
is it possible to stop your intrusive thoughts halfway while they are being said?
Sometimes I feel like I don’t even have ocd but I can relate a lot to people with ocd
i forgot to request time off for my job because i had a panic attack my last shift. i cant work one of the days and this has happened before. it’s a minimum wage job im so scared im going to get fired 😭
Are there any other Bible- believing Christians on here who have struggled or are struggling with the idea of letting yourself think what is not "pure, lovely, honorable, etc" - even if it is in the name of mental health and ERP? Is it my OCD telling me it is "unholy" to give myself permission to trigger or allow certain thoughts (for the purpose of recovery)? Or could it be a warning from the HS? Is that something I wrestle through on my own...or another uncertainty perhaps(?) Idk of anyone in my church who would be familiar with OCD or its mind games, so if you've struggled with this I'd be appreciative of any input.
I know this isn’t about ocd but does anyone else here have emetophobia?
i’m a little too relaxed right now and it’s freaking me out my intrusive thoughts have not been frequent lately like… what’s happening the feeling of anxiety is low and it’s making me feel weird.
I just wanna fantasize about being with a woman my age and above... not some dude or underage kid... I want to be with a woman my age and above and yet I barely have any experience apart from a girlfriend I had for a month before she left to be with someone else... I just want to be with a woman my age and above...
Anyone else still up? I'm having a hard time, feeling like I'm faking OCD, a horrible person, etc. and part of me just wants life to be over. I'm tired here. And yeah. I don't have anything else to say. Just a little rant I guess.
Hey guys. I had a really good day today. Had my first therapy appointment this morning and I’m in one of those moods where I’m feeling like my OCD doesn’t even exist. I was about to say I didn’t ruminate once today but I definitely did 😂. The techniques are so so helpful though. I hope this reminds some of you that good days are absolutely possible❤️.
Anyone else have the fear of developing schizophrenia/psychosis? I don’t see a lot about it.
I carry so much grief in me because of how my OCD makes me focus so hard on all the negative in the world :(
Hi! I'm new here 👋 Anyone else feel like their brain is doing gymnastics all day trying to keep up with managing anxiety, intrusive thoughts, compulsions etc. ? My mind is so exhausted. 🥱 Also, anyone else just recently discover that they have OCD after years of hiding your "scary" intrusive thoughts from pretty much everyone? It's like everything weird that has happened in my brain over the course of my life suddenly makes sense....and yet it still makes no sense 🤦
I have strong unconscious reactions to thinking about saliva, feeling saliva in my mouth, brushing my teeth and spitting out into the sink, and certain textures in my mouth. I physically start uncontrollably gagging. I have been struggling with this for a while and have gotten stuck in a loop of obsessive disgusting saliva thoughts many times, but I am working on it. I'm on a medication that has really helped me with my nail biting and nail picking compulsions, but a side effect has been dry mouth. This has been a terrible problem when combined with the saliva OCD stuff. I know there are certain over the counter mouthwashes and products for dry mouth, but the slimy mouthwashes trigger those unconscious, uncontrollable episodes of gagging. I'm trying these things called Xylimelts to help, they are like little mints, but when I start thinking too much about them my obsessive thoughts get really bad. Does anyone have any suggestions on how to improve dry mouth without slimy mouthwashes or any other comments on these issues? Thanks! 🙏
Trigger warning this is in no way homophobic But why do I want a “lesbian style” haircut so bad? Why do I even want this? Why am I so curious? I have a boyfriend and when I get groinals looking at models I wanna look like I get worried I’m gay
Does anyone else have moments where you’re not phased by your intrusive thoughts or “what if’s” but then you feel like you’re faking it
I need motivation. I was feeling great for a few months and then I relapsed. It’s the worst feeling and I feel like I’m back at square 1. How do I get through this ?
okay i’m not sure if this makes sense but does anyone else feel like if they don’t tell anyone that thinks ur a nice/good person every single part of anything bad/weird you’ve ever done that you’re like a fraud and being a secretly bad person hiding it? and like feel guilty about it? idk how to explain but sometimes i feel like i don’t deserve my friends or the friends/relationships i’ll have in the future and i feel guilty and like im hiding something even though im not?
My intrusive thoughts tell me my partner is lying to me, even though they are a very honest person and I do actually trust them. I've been doing ERP for about a week and it's helpful, BUT after doing sessions where I repeat to myself over and over again that my partner is a liar, not to be trusted, etc., it becomes very easy to start believing those thoughts. Yes, I say to myself, "She could be a liar or she may not be, there's no way to know." But having that uncertainty in my mind makes it really hard to develop trust with my partner and bond with them. I have no idea how to handle this. Does it make sense to anyone else? Open to suggestions! Thank you.
Can I join a support group if I'm in Mexico? I was so excited that I could finally talk with other people with OCD but I think I'm not in a selected country :( I'm a C1 certificate in english so I really can communicate and understand pretty much everything in a conversation 👉🏻👈🏻
I’m getting so frustrated guys . It’s so annoying to think the same thought over and over again . And if I’m not thinking it , I feel worried because I’m not giving it attention.
I don't get groinals a lot, but I do get false feelings which feel very real which is what leads me to anxiety attacks. Today I was playing a game and interacting with ppl of a fandom I'm in, and they were girls and you can guess how I felt (really anxious but I was trying to ignore it) with intrusive thoughts like "you probably like them" it makes me feel sick. Everytime I interact with a girl it feels like I enjoy talking to them bc my thoughts tell me I like them, but I hate hate that feeling, and it also leaves me feeling more confused and anxious bc I keep thinking "what if you do like girls" This makes me think it's real, and I'm just so upset, I feel sick
I just feel disconnected everything looks weird I don't feel a connection to the person I see in the mirror which is me. I constantly look at myself in the mirror to see my self in 3rd peraon point of view cause seeing from my eyes makes me feel weird which I wish I wouldn't have to do because I'm worried I'll go to school and have to desperately need a mirror! I just feel weird like if I'm not really here! So confused about my personality and emotions questioning if they're real ir im faking it!
How can I overcome false memory ocd? My brain tries to tell me I did things I never actually did. It drives me crazy cuz I feel like it's so real and like why would my brain even do this?
What’s your “OCD Mantra”? (Response prevention message)
It’s taking a lot of courage, and many failed attempts at hitting share for me to post this. I have never felt more vulnerable, or used an app like this before. I have been reading comments from those who suffer from SOOCD & I feel such a sense of relief knowing that I’m not alone, and have found a community that understands me. I am in a constant battle with my intrusive thoughts as they tell me lies about my character, values, and sexual identity. I always feel the need to engage with the compulsions as a way of standing up for myself. Telling it “that isn’t true” “I know I’m straight” “there is nothing in my past to support you” etc. For those with SOOCD, what techniques have worked best to manage the lies your intrusive thoughts tell you? I feel so powerless sometimes & that my true self is fading away. If you have read this far I really appreciate it. The support I have read on this app is outstanding. Thank you!
Is there anyone with Racism themed OCD who could possibly direct message with me? I've been really struggling with this theme & I'm finding it hard to function/find myself avoiding people out of fear of being perceived as racist. I've been struggling with what I found through a NOCD article, is termed "Race OCD". I constantly worry that I'm being perceived as racist. I'm white, I consider myself to be an ally of BIPOC and to work on being anti-racist. Lately though, I get hit with a ton of intrusive thoughts about coming across as racist when I speak to a BIPOC, which causes anxiety, which my anxiety probably then appears racist to the other person. I can't imagine what BIPOC have to endure on a daily basis just because of their skin color, so I'm not trying to make this about me. I'm just wondering if I'm alone in this or if other people struggle with this OCD theme. To be honest, it's pretty severe and it's attacking my core, because this "theme" feels opposite to what I value (being an ally, fighting to be anti-racist & dismantle racism) & who I am. I can tell that other people notice I'm anxious, and I just hate that I'm displaying nervousness because im sure it makes the other person uncomfortable. I know I'm coming off as anxious to other people. I know it because I'm trying so hard not to be perceived as racist, to get the interaction "right", that interactions just get weird, anxiety filled & awkward & I'm sure the other person is like wtf, this person is a racist. I don't know how to stop getting so lost in my head. I've tried to tell myself "Maybe I am a sick, racist human being, oh well", but that doesn't help because I don't agree with that statement.
You're going to get through this period of hardship. That might be reassurance but everyone has a chance to recover. It will happen for you. I promise.
Hey all does anyone have experience/success with Lexapro? My doctor is putting me on a low dose for anxiety and I’m kinda nervous.
here’s to wishing a better day for everyone tomorrow 🤍
Does anyone have irrational HOCD anxiety focused on a single person? Any tips to overcoming this? It’s clearly obsessive thinking, anxiety producing, not something I want and unproductive. Any help, ERP or other suggestions are appreciated. Feels like if I could get over this I could beat anything, focus on ERP and beating OCD.
i’ve literallt always despised this one content creator bc he’s a groomer and a creep like i’ve always hated him but now my mind keeps trying to like defend him and idk whats my conscious mind or my intrusive thoughts anymore all i know is i hate him and i hate my mind
I don’t know why I always feel anxious whenever I don’t do anything productive. today was a pretty chill day, did school work, watched TikTok, played video games, but for some reason I’m feeling on edge. I feel like I’m wasting my time by not going out today or hanging out with friends. And yesterday when I did go out, I had major anxiety over intrusive thoughts about my parents. All my siblings will be gone for college so I will be the only one in my house for a year (my sister moves back in once she graduates) and I’m afraid my anxiety will be high because of that. Although I do like spending time by myself, I don’t like being alone because my mind starts to wander and I get very anxious
Is it normal to experience your ocd in like episodes? Like I had relationship ocd very suddenly about 2 years ago for a year or so, and now that is gone (mostly because I’ve been single for a while), but very suddenly now after being fine for about a year I think I’m experiencing real event ocd. The feelings, rumination, reassurance seeking, etc are all the same again. Does this happen to anyone else?
When you recover from OCD or at least get better, do you start to feel normal again? Like be focused on and worried about other things like school, family, future, etc. instead of just obsessing over one thing and being able to do the things you enjoy and living without constant intrusive thoughts or guilt that’s always there. Does that all go away?