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I fear of hurting my loved ones i obsess over the what ifs every single day from the minute i open my eyes to the minute i shut them. It wont stop i try to distract myself i work a full time job and try to work over time as much as they will let me yo keep me ditracted an i feel like the thoughts, worries, fear & doubt i am obsessing over are getting worse. Please help me i dont want anything to happen! Ill try anything that will give me a postive outcome please im begging anyone and everyone to lend a helping supportive hand.

The past year I’ve been dealing with OCD about free will, consciousness, and instincts. The latter two stem from the free will problem, but basically I’ve been having anxiety and OCD about having no control over my life on a biological basis. It all started because I watched a YouTube video called “Why we Don’t have Free Will and why that’s OK” from a health channel called “What I’ve Learned” about a year ago. After the video, I started panicking and thinking what if I have no control over my life? What I really am just a product of my environment and I have no freedom? I went and scoured the Internet for counters to these questions and actually found some really good stuff, but my search for answers kept leading me to other topics that threatened the idea of free will. This is where consciousness and instincts OCD come into play. From this research, I found out some scientists say that a lot of our actions are unconscious, but luckily however I did more research and found out that a growing number of psychologists don’t think the unconscious mind actually does not even exist. As for instincts, it all started because I saw a Quora questions that asked “Why is human instinct generally considered to be overriden?” I thought I would get more answers about how human have free will, but instead the top answer was the complete opposite. That answer to this question talked about how humans always act on instinct and that the reasons we give ourselves for acting a certain way are always an illusion. He claims to have done 20+ years of research on human instincts to further his business. The guy doesn’t have a bio degree or anything. I want to be suspicious about these thoughts, but I STILL think about the possibility of him being right about how humans might not be as free as we think. All my research and counterpoints to my own existential crises are nice to know, but I still haven’t been able to shake the thoughts “What if all these people are right? What if we really have less control than we think?” One thing I try to still tell myself is that pretty much everything we know is not a certainty. There is so much uncertainty in the world, and we shouldn’t try to find certainty all the time. I want to just live my life without thinking about all these existential things and just enjoy it. Please let me know if any of you have had similar thoughts or experiences. I’d love to hear your tips, tricks, and anything that can help. Thank you, and have a great day, wherever you are.

In the last two days, I was deeply sad and unmotivated (If you read my posts, I think you noticed it). So, today, I woke up "better". It's just like I'm in a tiny moment of clarity. I'm so sick of this. It isn't true, but it won't leave me alone. I just feel mentally and emotionally exhausted. And when it comes back, it just feels so real. OCD screams that I'm just in denial, and it takes all my will to live, like it's taking my identity and ripping it to shreds. "What ifs" flood my mind. It puts a weight on my heart. It makes me believe I need to "come out". It takes my attention from other areas of my life. I am always in a bad mood. I mistreat my parents. I'm cold towards my colleagues. This lie is destroying my life, treatment is expensive, and I have no one to talk about this who would really understand. If it wasn't for this app, I'd be completely alone in this dreadful illness.

I have this amazing boyfriend. But he communicates in different ways than I do, which my OCD tells me means that there’s a million red flags, we won’t work, he doesn’t love me the way I love him, etc. This causes a disconnect between us because I’m constantly seeking validation and getting triggered and having obsessive thoughts that constantly ruin my day. How do I keep my triggering thoughts from dictating how good of a day I have or how happy I am? How can I stop depending on my boyfriend for validation on our relationship’s health and strength, or his family’s thoughts on me? Because my OCD could turn this relationship sour and unhealthy real fast. So how do I put a kabosh on it? Anything helps. Em

Anyone here effected by the cognitive distortion of magical thinking? If so how? Looking for help.

how do you PROVE you’re not a paedophile

Ugh, my sensory OCD gets triggered whenever I have a fight with my husband and we are in a phase where we’ve been fighting lately due to stress and business at work plus doing a lot of work on our home. So now I’m focused in on every time I swallow again, convinced it will never go back to normal.

Has anyone suffered from post partum OCD harm thoughts? Please share your experience

Man I hate ocd

i just wanted to ask on here if anyone could share from experience what to do if it feels like you’ve already tried everything to get rid of ocd or as much of it as you can??? So basically when all of this first started about 2 years ago, I was actually in counseling just casually for a few months trying to just cure my anxiety but then I realized the bigger issue was OCD months later and i started going to talk (cognitive behavioral) therapy for it for about 6 months. During that time i tried Zoloft for a couple months, kept increasing til i hit true max but i honestly never felt anything! I didn’t try anything else bc i really didn’t like the idea of being on medicine especially at such a high dose and apparently zoloft is the best for ocd but it didn’t work even a little. then that didn’t work after all of that, so i i’ve been going to a hypnotist (who has a phd so he’s actually a real doctor) and it was supposed to take 3-4 sessions to help me, but so far i’ve done 11 sessions and nothing!! i’m still functioning but this is not how i want to live. does anyone have any suggestions please on what i should do or try??

anyone here with severe misophonia (sound hatred like being sent into a panic attack or strong aggression with hearing sounds like chewing or tapping or breathing)?

i used to be able to just fuck around and kiss girls for fun at parties and even consider threesome fully knowing i was straight and was just open to it for fun. now if someone brings this up to me or whatever i get so scared. like hocd completely changed my mindset in that way. i always knew i was straight and was confident in it and now i’m worries i’m bisexual or lesbian. and it takes my attraction away from boys. which is what i actually desire in my heart. fuck this man

Ok.. so another one of my fears is the fear of being schizophrenic or psychotic. I’m 9 weeks post partum and I read about psychosis and it freaked me out!! I’m 29 years old and I know schizophrenia happens in your teens or early 20s. My therapist told me that as long as I don’t have a voice telling me to act on my intrusive images or thoughts that it’s not psychotic. Once she said that later that day the words “do it” kept repeating in my mind. I have 0 desire to harm anyone and I’ve never been a violent person. If anyone has experienced something similar please share! I feel like my mind loves to switch things up and play tricks on me.

Does anyone else ever have the thought of “what’s the point?” Every time they try to better their life even in the smallest way. When I go to buy clothes I think “what’s the point” or when I think of going to the gym and losing weight or decorating my house, etc things that shouldn’t really be a big deal it’s like I demotivate myself but I want to do these things. I don’t get why I even think this it started a few months ago and it’s making me depressed :(

Beyond the what ifs - Does anyone else feel like their OCD tells them they have to be gay... I don’t want to be with a woman but it feels like I have to be gay. I’m trying to tell myself it’s OCD and that it’s a lie...but what if it isn’t? What if I’m lying to myself that I don’t want to be with a woman but I actually do?

I was curious is obsessing over like Harry Potter part of OCD? Its my favorite movie and book series and i have so many clothes and decorations and stuffed animals that are all harry potter related.

Hello, im really anxious right now, for years I have had the fear to Go crazy and jump out of the window, is awful, I live in low places but now im in vacation and in a 9th floor. Im anxious all the nights to jump on my sleep or at any time, thoughts come like, "you should do it now and stop suffering" and right after that its, just chill deep down you now you will be fine you have been feeling this fear for years and nothing happens, but u hate this feeling of fear.

Anyone with contamination ocd struggle with feeling irrationally contaminated by their triggers either just by being close to them or thinking the air spreads contaminants that stick to their bodies? Really struggling with this right now as the public bathroom I used today was not great. The period trash bins were full and I felt like as I pulled the toilet paper roll to get toilet paper the air got me contaminated. Really trying to sit with the anxiety and having such a hard time.

I have severe sensorimotor obssession about my breathing i dont know what to do

im super duper new here and i immediately want to get this off my chest. its such a confusing situation. a few months ago i was in an online friendship with someone who was 16 (i am 13), and they dealt with constant abuse that was both physical, emotional, and sexual. i began to cry about them every single night and check messages to see if theyve replied almost every single minute. id edit my responses if they didnt respond for a bit in fear i had said something wrong. after they told me about multiple traumatic situations in detail, i began to obsessively think about me being hurt like that or me hurting other people. i questioned if i had ever hurt someone before or someones hurt me- the thoughts felt too real and absolutely terrifying. i felt like i wasnt allowed to be happy or be me. i literally began avoiding everything that made me happy. i wouldnt even read books or draw. just seeing that persons icon gave me a sense of despair. i completely pushed away all of my other friends. there was a specific fictional character that i find comfort in (and still do), but because that person had an incredibly negative concept of the character, i thought i was a bad person for liking them (and i still feel this way) i didnt know it was a bad friendship until i told somebody else about it. it got worse though. eventually i began to think that self harm was the only way out- that it was the only way that person would feel better. throughout all of this they kept on saying they were okay, but that unfazed my anxiety and obsession. i constantly tried to cut myself, watch things that made me upset (crime stories etc), and enforce rules on myself to be a "better friend". this went on for months. i found out i had ocd through all of this, and the person finally cut off the friendship. i cried very hard that night. its now been a few months out of that friendship and i still feel the need to constantly trigger myself-ill search up childhood sexual assault on social media and be absolutely swarmed by my emotions. my compulsions get mixed up and i will pace around for hours to the point where i physically cant walk. im in stages of recovery, but that situation hurts me so much- i still feel as if i cant be happy. i feel like im connected to that person on chains. am i allowed to be mad at them? they didnt mean to do any of that, but the damage was severe. im recovering, and so far what i need help with the most is hygiene and cooking. please suggest helpful ways to not be afraid or anxious to cook or have better hygiene, or your thoughts on the situation i went through. thank you!!! i hope this app helps me