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It’s been 4 days and I can’t seem to get over the thought, I need help because a part of me wants to move on but a part of my brain keeps holding on to the details and I keep coming back to it to reassure myself that it’s just ocd. I’m so sick of feeling like this no matter how hard I try I keep falling back to the traps of ocd. I hate the fact that I keep obsessing over the thought and trying to turn back time by analyzing every movement I did the day when I got triggered. I just want to feel like I don’t have to be cautious of my brain trying to make me terrified every 5 minutes and live life like a normal person would I’ve been trying to recover but when I get two great days one absolutely horrible trigger comes and I fall back down again. Just feeling hopeless and lost at the moment I wish I could do a compulsion to make it all stop but there’s no physical compulsions I can do to get a relief from the thought. It’s all mental compulsions and rumination I’m tired of feeling like this

This feels weird. I feel like I’m gay, and when I “accept” My thoughts I don’t feel good or pleasure, just this weight on my chest. Like my mind says “okay you’re gay see” but when I think of me in gay scenarios I feel no pleasure at all. Yet I lost my attraction to women. My mind still says I’m gay though I feel nothing towards men. But it appears my attraction to women disappeared as well. What is this? Why did I used to have extremely mad anxiety over gay thoughts and now that I finally faced my thoughts I feel nothing as well? Like seriously what is this. I used to be girl crazy like to another level. Now I’m not attracted to women at all apparently but when I “accept” my thoughts and say ok I’m gay, I feel nothing towards men either. Is this still ocd? And why when I do have anxiety with gay thoughts it seems like I AM attracted to men. I don’t understand this. Do any of you have any experience and share some insight?

My OCD fear of herpes constantly makes me think my mouth has touched random left behind drinks from stores, lipstick testers, one time I even thought maybe I kissed a homeless man. It makes it so much harder to fight when I could just clean to alleviate some degree of stress. : ( I don't want to accept the risk when I feel like there's something I could have done to prevent it (clean enough) I don't think I could live with the guilt if I infected others.

Does anyone else have depersonalization? I don’t feel as dreamlike lately but I just don’t feel like me anymore. I question everything, am I real, I look at a pic and think is that really me, will I ever feel like me again? Does anyone else have this?

Trigger warning yet again, I posted this a few days ago but noone replied! Does anyone else worry they've put bleach in their drinks etc, or that you've swallowed glass by accident and you start retracing your steps etc? Or anything like this? Is this contamination ocd?

I have to live alone for a week on Sunday and I'm really anxious about it because I've never lived alone before not even for one night

What is the difference between delusional thoughts and intrusive ones? Genuinely just curious. My OCD theme has been about becoming schizophrenic. I googled for my compulsion which I know I shouldn’t of but I keep getting scared that I don’t have intrusive thoughts and that it’s something more. I think deep down I know it’s just anxiety but still I’m struggling. Any reply would be really appreciated! Thank you guys?

It’s anybody here with OCD contaminación scared of germ my symptoms are so bad I’m in the hospital right now and feel so defeated

(HELP) Hey guys, I almost had a panic attack about 5 minutes ago, I thought I was going to go insane and lose entire control of my thoughts and have to be admitted into a mental facility because of me wanting to cause harm to myself and others. Me and my mom were in the car and I was thinking about jumping out and of course I know it was just my dark intrusive thoughts coming strong BUT I actually opened the door a little bit and almost wanted to jump in the traffic, I got SO DAMN SCARED because just doing that made me feel like I was going insane and I felt like I was going to go insane and end up in a psych ward for all of the intrusive thoughts I was having! I’ve had thoughts about hurting myself, my parents, loved ones, friends, and it’s scary as hell because the dark thoughts are making me feel like I want to do them but I don’t want to do them! This is all new to me! I’ve only had these dark thoughts since Sunday and now I’m scared for my LIFE! I am losing hope because I don’t want to have to go through these thoughts anymore for that much longer, and even almost attempting to jump out of the car was REALLY a scare for me, I am getting help and going to a group therapy, going to a 1 on 1 therapy and I started Prozac 20 MG last Saturday night BUT, I’m feeling like my case is severe and that’s even worrying me, I’m so scared for my life, SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!

Hello..so I stopped doing compulsions and my harm ocd has gotten weaker but it I’m sure switched to a new ocd but I don’t have any physical compulsions to do, however I’m pretty sure I’ve been doing mental compulsions which in my opinion is harder to deal with than physical. Any tips? Sending love and strength to us all ocd is a nightmare to deal with I can’t wait to live my life again without this bully inside my head

So looks like I’ve hit a wall I haven’t hit ever with this ocd. If you can even call it ocd. I genuinely feel confused. Idk what’s real or not. Idk what my mind or body wants. I feel so stressed out. My thoughts don’t give me anxiety anymore and sometimes it genuinely feels like I want it and I’m just hiding it. I don’t get it. I even lost attraction to this girl I was madly interested in. I don’t know what to do anymore really. I see any dude and my mind automatically starts thinking “you’re attracted to him” literally every single guy I see. I’m not even kidding. I really don’t get what’s going on with me. I haven’t been diagnosed yet because there are no ocd specialists in my area. My mom told me once she thinks she has ocd and my aunt as well. But their ocd seems more like the “traditional” type of ocd where you can actually see their compulsions. I think I struggled from Religious ocd a few years back. Also with my ex girlfriend there was a period where I struggled with ROCD I believe but got over it. Now Hocd has definitely been the worst and what makes it worse is that I actually had a gay experience but even after that I didn’t question my sexuality. I maybe would get the ocasional “you’re gay” thought but wouldn’t pay it attention and it just went away. But now it just can’t leave my head. This has been going on since February. I used to be crazy for women, don’t know what’s wrong with me. I even had sex with the girl I really like about 2 weeks ago and really enjoyed it! But now my attraction for her seemingly disappeared out of nowhere when this hocd bull starts acting up again. I’m so tired of this.

REALLY REALLY LONG POST BUT PLEASE PLEASE HELP. Hi guys, I’m suffering immensely from ROCD at the moment, at least I hope I am. My thoughts have been alternating with everything to do with my relationship, but currently they’re doubting my own love for my boyfriend. I’ve finally told him what I’ve been thinking and he’s understanding of them, but I just need some help. I found out his heart still skips when he sees me and that he gets butterflies when he holds my hand, which doesn’t happen to me although it has happened before (when I had a huge crush on a guy who didn’t like me back as much so when I saw him or got attention from him I went bonkers). Obviously, this makes me think I don’t love him as much as he loves me and it scares me to death. I feel like I don’t love him and that I’m only in this relationship to make him happy, which panics me even more. I know that I have ocd, I’ve been diagnosed with extreme ocd and suffered with a horrible case of HOCD a few years ago so this stuff is nothing new, but my issue is that the only romantic experiences I’ve had before my current boyfriend were very limited and as I was infatuated with my crushes and only had my imagination to know what it felt like, I was disappointed to not feel what I imagined everything would feel in a proper relationship. I always imagined it being like the films and that’s how I felt when I had crushes before, and when they showed me attention I got excited because I felt like I always imagined. But this is real and it scares me that I don’t feel like that and like how he feels. He told me he always falls hard and I thought I did too, but I haven’t stopped thinking about this since we properly started talking. We did meet online whilst I usually prefer knowing people in real life and basing an opinion on them from what they do every day. I don’t ever want to lose him, I always want to touch him and be near him, I like treating him and laughing with him and seeing him and I get so jealous and don’t want to disappoint him. I need some help, because I’m terrified that I’m not in love with him. I also have aspergers, which I figured out was the reason why I wasn’t fond of kissing, as I really really don’t like the feel of wetness, if anyone kisses me I always wipe it off like a child. I just need some help, I keep comparing how I feel in this relationship to how I’ve felt before, even though this is my first proper, and longest relationship to date (4 months so far). Anybody else ever felt like this? I’m really struggling so much.

Is retroactive jealousy a part of ROCD? Either way I’ve been dwelling on 1 particular person from my partners past tho they are not at all in his present and I think I took it to the breaking point. My partner feels like nothing they do resolves that retroactive jealousy and I don’t blame him because sometimes I feel like I’m just such a deeply bitter and insecure person that I’m just not capable of forgiving and forgetting. This might be the end ? I pushed a caring person to the breaking point

Where is everyone from? I’m from California. It’s so awesome to meet other people with ocd from around the world!

Pocd sucks so bad

What are the different types of ocd. I’m kinda confused a bit an I just want to know the whole spectrum Yk

hello ocd community! my obsessions and fear of throwing up and compulsions of praying about it cause me to have physical anxiety and my stomach hurts almost every night before i sleep. this triggers my ocd because i am deathly afraid of throwing up which causes me to act on obsessions when i start to feel sick. the anxiety and stomach aches can trigger each other, and when one happens, it is a vicious cycle and they make each other worse. i have a hard time getting out of this headspace or relaxing without taking xanax or drinking alcohol, and if i don’t, i will stay paralyzed in fear for 1-2 hours. any suggestions for healthy coping strategies? anybody have similar fears?

Does anyone else with contamination OCD not know whether they touched something dirty or not? If so how do you deal with it?

I have contamination OCD and I have been fighting my OCD all day today. And I ate food through the thoughts but now my head is constantly saying it will make me sick even though I know it will be totally fine and was delicious and healthy. But the thoughts are still bombarding

Honestly I'm just going to rant here. But I've been so mentally ill that I haven't been able to work and I feel so useless and unworthy. I'm 24 years old already and I don't work as much as I need to or am motivated and full of magic as I use to be. And that REALLY FUCKING GETS ME DOWN