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I’m really anxious but I really need to sleep. How do you calm yourself down? I have been not doing great with my ocd at all lately my head feels like it’s going to explode.

I’m just trying to find a bit of hope, I feel horrible, I always think my partner deserves someone that doesn’t have rocd Am I going to be happy again in my relationship? Is it better if I just die? I just need to hear if someone has overcome this, I just want hope, I don’t want to suffer anymore Thank you

I am a very selfless person. I tend to put others before me and I’m working on that but in general I think it’s always best to consider others before you act on things because you don’t want to hurt anyone. I am involved with someone who is opposite of me in that way. They don’t care if something bothers me or negatively affects me, depending on what it is. If it doesn’t make sense to them, they will continue to do the thing even if I explain with reasons why it bothers me. And typically it’s about social media/girls, because in the past we had those issues. And yes trust is the biggest part and i trust him to a certain extent. But it’s not just trust, it’s about how he isn’t even willing to compromise this thing for me. He constantly does it and it’s in my face and I have to see him under every girls photo of girls I dislike or going out and adding every girl he meets, he is an overall VERY friendly person, I know this about him but I genuinely hate that it involves girls. And i just told him we needed to talk but I just don’t even know what to say anymore. I know that if I can’t handle it, I can leave, but I know it is a stupid reason to walk away over Instagram. But it isn’t only over Instagram, it’s the mere fact that he simply hears me and goes and does it anyway because he says “he can”. He said word for word “I do it because I can”. And feels it’s controlling for me to expect him to make me feel comfortable at the expense of him….. deleting girls…. Or not adding them….

Why do I worry that things will be bad if I don't worry?

Is this OCD existential? So started last week, I began to have OCD thoughts about our faces. This may sound silly to some of you, but my mind trying to get me to panic about how our faces look. It's like, it is trying to question about, "wow, our faces look like that. That's how ppl look." I'm freaking out right now and trying to calm myself down and think logical or realistic here. My heart is beating really fast and I can't concentrate. Please help me what should I do. I'm trying to tell myself, like "it just OCD, calm down". It's like it's trying to trick me into believe our faces look weird. I was okay yesterday and trying to managing it, but man I had panic attacks all today. Off and on all day while I'm at work. Its not making it any better when I look at ppl faces. Please, please tell me how I can I deal with this. I thinking about getting on medication. Have y'all ever had this experience before?

Been stuck for 3 days now. I have one (of many) very weird theme which is nudism. I’m constantly stuck within myself about why its wrong for me. It’s constantly making me question deeper & deeper. So deep in thoughts it physically hurts. Just when i think im ok & solved, it comes right back. I’m trying to get into see a new psychiatrist bcuz my current one is booked until June bcuz she recently put me on zoloft after telling me it would maybe help more bcuz i was still suffering so much on fluvoxamine. & then the other themes are just surrounding it. Really, really painful. Does anyone have any tips? I don’t mean to offend anyone with this post.

I don't know how I'll ever be truly happy if I just remember all the things I didn't do right, did wrong, and messed up on. If I move on with one thing, I'll just ruminate on the other. I'm always afraid I'll end up in jail one day. Be accused of something that I did horribly wrong, even if I regret it every single day. I just don't know what to do. I feel like I can't be happy with myself because bad things have happened. All day on the way home I just thought about my insecurities, what I didn't do right, what someone could make fun of me for, and this time where my elbow brushed up on a woman's behind. I didn't say sorry, I could've moved my hand, I feel I could've prevented it but didn't. I feel disgusting. I just beat myself up every single day and I worry about everything that's happening or could happen in the world if I'm not ruminating about every single bad thing that could have happened. I just don't know how I should be happy with myself when I've messed up so badly in the past. I don't get it

I was prescribed Fluvoxamine today. I hope it works. At first she wanted to put me on Wellbutrin, as it’s a much easier medication to tolerate. But I told her I had done research in Fluvoxamine since it’s specifically made to treat OCD. She scared me when she said it’s not prescribed as often because of the side effects. She called it a “harder drug.” I didn’t really like hearing that. We had it filled anyway but now I’m just scared to take it because of course I’ve been online reading negative reviews. Hope I didn’t make a mistake. Maybe I should have stuck with the Wellbutrin.

My husband told me in a text he wants a divorce…. We were already talking about it but yeah pretty intense. Sorry for all my marriage posts. Just grateful for the community here.

Has anyone switched therapists? I had a terrible meeting with my therapist and it makes me not want to do the therapy anymore. I feel like they lost hope in me, and that's not a good working therapist client relationship. I signed up for therapy because I need help, so I dont want to leave. Its just frustrating

What is it like to not have OCD or an anxious mind that is frequently ruminating? What do people like this think about? When they go run errands or are driving, what is on their minds? I've realized how I'm usually worrying about something--to the point that it makes me wonder what my life would be like if I didn't. What would I notice? What would I think about? How would I feel? I'm tired of worrying. I'm tired of listening to that mean voice that says I'm not good enough & that there's something wrong with me. I'm tired of feeling down, sad, & anxious. I want to be without all this mental noise, without this feeling that I have to be worried about something or fixing something about myself. How would I behave if I didn't have OCD or an anxious, worrying mind? I think we can all benefit from asking ourselves this question and focusing our energy on making it happen.

Has anyone dealt with slightly swollen lymph nodes? I keep being worried that I have cancer/lymphoma. I’ve had a swollen lymph node on right side of neck since last year. It’s small can’t be seen. Got an ultrasound, doctor said it’s not significant in size and looks normal. This was last year in October. A week ago I went for a yearly physical exam and doctor said there is another small node swollen on left side. She’s not worried and she told me to check back in a few months. She kept mentioning it could be due to sickness, infection, mouth inflammation or something random like that but I have not BEEN sick or had an infection or anything. I’m freaked out has anyone experienced anything like this? I constantly tend feel them to see if they’e still there too. Headaches run in my family my sister and mom get bad headaches and I never got them but for about 2 months now I’ve been having SEVERE headache/pain when I move my head and feeling generally sleepy / tired throughout the day. I’m scared.

I am just so frustrated right now. I’ve been in ERP with NOCD for almost five weeks and I can see a little progress but yesterday I got triggered and did not handle it well. I couldn’t stop crying and today I am struggling too. Is this apart of recovering? Ups and downs like this??

Hello. Is there anyone who has both soocd and rocd?? I think I have both and right now with my soocd, I am afraid that I will just get up one day and decide to experiment or I secretly want to. But I don't and I have never actually wanted to even when my soocd got bad but now my brain is telling me to do so and I am afraid I will follow it and do so. Is there anyone who goes through this??

I am new to NOCD and I have been really battling to understand and accept ERP. I feel intense sadness all day everyday, I feel no relief from feelings of intense depression, which is probably caused by the OCD. I can't fathom how I am supposed to just accept this state of depression and constant fear and not allow myself any room for trying to fix myself. I want to fix myself, I want to get better, but apparently I am not supposed to feel that, I need to say that maybe I will get better or maybe I won't. I am not supposed to do anything and I just can't understand it. Please help

My SO-OCD is morphing into another sexual theme now, love that 😍😍

I suffer with harm and intrusive thoughts about my children. Sometimes I'm good sometimes I feel like a crazed woman. I was trying to put my 2 year old to bed last night and I was so scared something was going to happen but I fought through and my son was being wild as always lol and jumping on my belly and I had my hand on his chest for support and then he moved and I scratched him right below his neck on accident but when I woke up this morning I felt like I did something bad. This constant worry is driving me mad. I know deep down it was an accident but my OCD brain wants me to think it was intentional. Can ANYONE RELATE/? I FEEL SO ALONE

I'm a girl interested in men and I've had a close female friend for about 10 years now When we were younger, we used to like exactly the same things and bond over them. I'm older than her, so I kinda took the role of the "older sister" - listening to her vent, help her find a school and so on Now she's sort of drifting away and having her own interests and stuff, while I feel like I'm stuck in place and with nowhere to go About a month ago my SOOCD started and I immidetaly started to think about her because we are/were besties. The thought that triggered it was "Jesus I'm acting with her like we're platonic lovers or something" Through this period I isolated myself from her and I'm morbidly scared that I've ruined a great friendship My OCD makes me think over and over about whether this is some kind of platonic/QPR type of relationship that I wasn't aware of my whole life or just a friendship I couldn't keep myself from googling and I think it may be closer to something platonic. The thing is that I don't want any platonic relationship with her or any girl. It affects my thinking about boys, because when I see a attractive guy my thoughts immidetaly jump to "what if you love your bestie and would ruin your boyfriend's life" I'm trying not to break my friendship so I write messages to her from time to time (before the SOOCD I used to do it literally 24/7) and I'm super anxious about the future. I can't write to her normally without any weird feelings now, and when I don't talk to her I'm afraid that I'm gonna lose her. I feel jealous when she goes out with other friends, everything reminds me of her somehow and I can't move on with my day I feel like I should end this because of all these thoughts. Or at least limit my contact with her to just make her one of my many friends. But I'm just so afraid of whatever may happen and what if I ruin a beautiful friendship? I'm writing this to vent, but also I wanna know if anybody had a similar experience and how it affected your life. Thank you in advance

Hi there! I’ve just recently received my OCD diagnosis and found out that I’ve just been raw-dogging OCD since I was a young child. Im considering taking medication to help me and my therapist suggested Zoloft. Has anyone taken Zoloft for OCD/anxiety? Any side effects that I would want to be aware of from personal experience? Thanks !!

Hello guys quick question, I’ve been in a relationship with my girlfriend now for 8 months coming up to 9. Last night and nights before I had dreams with like girls who aren’t her is that bad and does that mean anything I feel like if I didn’t have ocd I wouldn’t think twice about it. Like am i unfaithful and I can’t tell her and I just feel guilty.