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Hi! I’m new here and have trichotillomania. I’ve had it since I was about 6 but in the last two years it’s become a huge problem. It used to just be a stupid habit that I did here and there and now I have full on bald spots and can’t wear my hair down or only up in one style. I’ve shaved my head before for different reasons and don’t want to do it again. My pulling got worse when I started taking antidepressants for the first time and it tickled that part of my brain just right and helped so much with my Major Depression disorder but my pulling was put into overdrive. I started doing it without realizing it until I looked and there was a huge pile of hair next to me. I’m in traditional therapy and I speak to a psychiatrist regularly, but I found this site through a google search so I’m hoping this will be different. Most of my therapy is me trying to teach the therapist and psychiatrist about the disorder rather than getting real assistance with it. Does anyone else here have trich? They’ve also done research that suggests it is more closely related to Tourette’s syndrome than OCD but it’s different for every person.

I searched about this, but all i found about religious ocd is questions like "did i commited a sin?", "do i go to hell?" , but not questioning God's existence. Do i struggle with my faith or this is ocd? How should i deal with this cause "maybe God exist, maybe not" will not work, it just makes it worse. I dont know if this is ocd or i actually realized that maybe believing God is just a choice,its imagination, and i feel bad... What should i do?

It’s annoying, how come when I’m having a good time and enjoying myself it has to act up?

Anyone else get a racing heart feeling when they try to sleep? I feel like I'm hyper focused on my breathing and it's been preventing me to go to sleep tonight. Now I'm scared that it'll come up and bother me if I try again. I have a bad headache due to this happening for 3 days straight. I know it's my anxiety disorder, but I don't know what to do.

Hello NOCD members, it's nice to meet a humble people like you, my post may be long but it's talking about the time line of my life with the OCD and it's gonna b, First of all my name is Ali now I'm 17 years old "gonna reach the 18 by the fourth of July" "NOT A NATIVE ENGLISH SPEAKER SO, SORRY FOR ANY MISTAKES" First, let me talk about my childhood, i was born in 2005, my childhood wasn't terrible but it was tough, you know families problem, and due to the community i was living at, i was getting abuse "hit 🤜" if i did something wrong, and I've lived with my family and i saw many problems and many things happend to me and affected me (mentality& psychologity), "in my opinion my childhood is one of the reasons that caused me psychologist problems" Anyway, months ago i really got sick of the OCD, what happend? Basically there's a sentence came in my mind, and i didn't know if i said it, or it was only q bothering sentence in my mind, i was suffering for weeks, i was sleeping only 4 hours a day and still thinking about that sentence, did i say? Or it was only a OCD, anyway my mom really took care of me, she paid a lot to get me fine, she prayed to me and alhamdulilah, after weeks i went to a psychologist and i told him what I'm suffering from and he told me that I have OCD, imagine all that i had a weird energy only sleeping for a few hours and thinking about the sentence for the entire day, i was about to lose my mind, even there was a new sentences come to my mind i was about to literally lose my mind "i even in that time had a fuzzy memory too i couldn't remember" anyway i went to the doctor, he gave me some drugs for OCD and alhamdulilah i got better, but not for long! What happened? The symptoms decreased, but the mental illness did not go away! As i mentioned before my ocd got decreased, but then it raised again! How? My head teacher slapped me in my face, And that's because I forgot to wear my tie, he slapped me in front of the other students!! and in that time i pushed his hand away after he hits me, then he pushed me in front of the students out of the class and as i remember he asked me to go to his office,and then he started talking "while I'm writing there's something in my chest really makes me sad," anyway he started talking to me in his office about what i did, then after that the school time ends i went home and then the OCD started!! Did i pushed his hand? Why couldn't I talk in confidence in front of him? It's all because my family didn't build me a confidence personality and then I started blaming my family, "And I really regret that" anyway then i went to the phycologist doctor and actually he wasn't helpful He began to justify and told my mother that he or they "my mom's and the doctor's generation was always beaten, insted of telling me that what the head teacher did was wrong he started saying the excuses 🤦🏽, and then i said that my certification is better than the head teacher's certification then he asked me what certification do i have and i told him i got certifications from the internet and then we got into discussion about my certification "okay i admit it my certification isn't better than the head teacher's certification but he must understand my situation and don't discuss me", i really hated him! i didnt go to him again, and i took the OCD drugs and then i Left them, and could live without them for a short period "i was experiencing some of the same problem, such as the not welcome thoughts "i even was hitting my head to stop thinking" anyway there's something new happen" The last stage I'm currently at "stuck at it now" Four years ago i was only 13 years old, and i was fat i was 135kg, My mom advised me to lose weight.” And in that time i also was suffering from the OCD and it was tough i was even crying alone midnight, anyway i lost my previous weight and I reached the 71.5kg, that's Cool isn't? Then why I'm uncomfortable? Because in that time i was not adult, I wasn't aware of what I was doing, what was i doing? I'm ashamed of what I'm going to say, but this is what happened, I was taking a picture of my genitals, and I was taking pictures of myself, not for some impolite purpose, I just wanted to compare the two pictures when I was fat and when I lost weight, And that must have been the most wrong thing I've ever done in my life. I uploaded a picture of my genitals and a picture of my naked body on the site. The problem is that I lost access to that site, and I cannot log into my account in order to see the pictures. But I could not, because my phone that had the account in it had deleted the account from it “I deleted it from the phone only and not a final deletion” and then my phone broke down and I bought another phone, and I don’t remember the link to my account on that site There is no link to the images even, which raises my concern. Only the person who has the link to the image can access the image. In short, my problem is that I do not remember the links to the pictures or the link to the account. I contacted the technical support of the site and they did not respond to me, and now I am worried about whether someone will be able to see my pictures? Was my face visible or just my body in the naked picture? When I think, I get the feeling that I am not so smart as to post a picture on a website with my naked body showing my face Until now, I am afraid and worried, and the thought does not leave my mind, did I show my face or not! And is someone going to see this picture and be digitally shamed? i even feel ashamed to talk to a online psychologist about the current stage. "PLEASE IF YOU HAVE ANY COMMENT TELL ME IN COMMENT SECTION" Thanks for reading

I had a phone call today and got told I’m extremely low on vitamin d. (No puns please) It’s been making me feel ill and constantly sleepy. Not only am I mentally ill and exhausted, I am physically as well. Great.

I did it cause i felt like i only believe cause i suffer and i need something to hang onto, so i challenged my belief, i imagined how would look like or feel like if God wouldnt exist. And i imagined the world as atheist do, we are just here, theres no God, everything happens without a reason, theres no afterlife. Then i imagined it as spiritual people that you are the "universe" and you manifest things to you, and your life. And then i thought all this can be true, and i had a weird feeling to, and again i thought that "all of this is just a choice, theres no evidence, is just a choice" and now im afraid that theres no God, or that i will lose my faith cause i have this weird feeling... my faith really gets tested.

So I have hocd and my OCD literally plays games of chance. Like if I don't see a certain car brand in a certain time frame that makes me gay. It's absolutely ridiculous. Just wondering if anyone has experienced this.

From the way I sit, to the way I walk, hugging younger siblings , holding babies, rubbing someone’s back, even just looking or having a conversation. All innocent acts but my pocd makes me feel like somehow every action of mine is creepy. I can’t stand this.

What do you do with numbness?

I’m afraid NOCD therapists wont understand my obsessions/think I have OCD since my obsessions dont fit into the classic themes right now. I’m diagnosed OCD by my old ERP therapist (she’s now out of practice) and having a relapse, and I’m afraid of being invalidated and it making me feel worse. For example, my biggest obsession right now is not being able to sleep, and I have a lot of compulsions like asking family for reassurance in the night, needing to go to the bathroom a lot, eat a snack, change rooms, etc… It feels like my OCD as it follows the pattern, just afraid they won’t be able to help me and I’ll be stuck not sleeping forever and be more panicked because the therapy didnt work.

I understand you dont say "thats a bad thought" cause its just a thought, theres no bad or good thought, but the action is bad. I usually judge the action, my mind says to something terrible and i say "that would be a bad thing to do, not what i value". And its automatic that you know something is bad to do so you judge it still. If i would stop judging it and see everything the same thing than im afraid that i would act on the thoughts cause i dont remind myself thats a bad thing to do, not what i value. Then how to not judge them?

I’m terrified that I’m treatment resistant and I’m never going to get better. It’s causing me so much anxiety I’m actually throwing up it’s that bad! I’m trying to stop ruminating about it but I feel like I physically can’t stop it 😭

I’ve convinced myself that I have bpd and major derealization. I went to school today and I was totally spaced out. My life just hasn’t felt real recently like I’m outside of my own body. Help.

Hi, I've been having a huge problem lately with some work at school. For context, I am a technical lead and lighting designer for my school's show but recently I've taken on being lead to all production and stage roles. The problem I am starting to find with my work ethic is definitely going to the extreme to make things correct. I will work multiple nights and do extra work, other people's roles, just because I need something to be correct. I have been doing so and it's been hurting my health. I am unsure how to fix this since I need to work to feel satisfied and at ease most of the time.

hii! nice to meet y’all. i’m new here in this app and i hope we can all get along and helped each other through this draining process. i wanted to let some things out today, i hope someone can listen to me or give me an advice on how to deal with what has been bothering me. i started having intrusive thoughts ever since i was a kid :( it mostly were sexu4l intrusive thoughts about my teachers, classmates or family members. i felt so disgusted and i ended up developing an anxiety disorder and depression too :( i never knew it was pure o after some years later. some years ago, i started finding comfort through therapy and through music and my favorite artists. but what happened next was torture for me, my intrusive thoughts starting getting related to them and i couldn’t handle it. now i can’t seem to like someone or an artist because my brain just relates it to the disgusting thought. i feel so bad, i am already handling the situation so much better. the thoughts sometimes appear and then disappear. it’s been awful, i don’t know how i’m still standing.. i hope all of you are okay :( i would be really grateful if someone helps me or replies , or has a similar story. i feel really lonely in this

I'm so nervous that I like the thought. It feels I want it and I when I try to react I can't. It's like I just don't even want to fight it anymore. I know deep down it isn't true, but it feels so real right now. Anyone else have this?

I was on Instagram when I saw a post from a ocd creator that I follow. It was talking about micro aggressions that people with SOOCD have against the LGBTQ+ community. One of the examples was about how it is a micro aggression to say “I would rather die than leave my husband and be gay” if you are straight and how that’s homophobic. This left me super confused because I fully support the LGBTQ+ community but the thought of not being able to be the orientation I have always been and want to be makes me feel so stressed out and depressed. Now I am questioning whether I am homophobic and a bad person :/ I am not sure if anyone else saw this post or if anyone has similar experiences or advice

I’ve been with my boyfriend for 3 years and he is an absolute angel. All throughout the relationship I would have nightmares and intrusive thoughts “what if he leaves/cheats”. And he would reassure me and treat me like the world revolves around me. Lately I’m realizing this was actually ocd and not anxiety as I had previously thought. I would get paranoid if he didn’t check his messages for a couple hours, I’d get anxious if I saw an ambulance heading toward his street while I was driving, I would ask for reassurance that he loved me constantly. Bear in mind, I have no reason to have these fears. My boyfriend is my best friend and has supported me through thick and thin and he’s amazing. One time a couple months ago I was being a bit snappy with him one night and I had the thought “only people who don’t like their partners are snappy with them” and it just stuck. Now I struggle with intrusive thoughts about my own feelings, do I love him, do I miss him enough, is my relationship going to end because this couple on social media broke up. I could deal with the thoughts about his feelings because he is so so good about making me feel loved but now I’m stuck in this constant guilt loop where I question my relationship for no reason then get anxious and feel guilty for even thinking that way because I think I’m manifesting it. Was wondering if anybody else in a healthy long term relationship has had this happen to them and how you talk yourself down :(