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I want to start by saying that I’m ok, I don’t want or plan to kms or anything. I have been haunted a lot lately by not feeling like I have a solid reason to really want to live or fight to enjoy life. There has to be a reason, I mean there’s 8 billion people rn who have some sort of a reason or will to live. When you’re struggling and you start to think/feel that you don’t know why you’re doing this, or what the point is in trying so hard or fighting so much, when you wonder what makes it all worth it, what comes to mind for you? What keeps you going?

Does anyone else have adhd and ocd and taken adderall? Did it make ocd worse?

does anybody ever get a stream of intrusive thoughts and then you try to just ignore them and then you just start spiraling. then you feel like you’re going crazy, and all the sudden you’re convinced that your going to loose control and go crazy. i don’t know if that made any sense but it’s a super scary feeling and i don’t know how to work myself out of those moments, all i want to do is just disappear or check myself into a mental hospital😭

When I hang out with people, my boyfriend and his friends especially, I feel like I don’t belong there. I always feel like a burden and like I’m ruining everyone’s good time. Nobody has done anything to make me feel this way, I just feel unworthy of being in their company. I feel lame and annoying and I don’t even do anything most of the time. I’m borderline selectively mute because I am usually afraid to speak. I have been coming out of my shell more recently but some days are harder than others. I’m not really sure what to tag this as. I don’t even know if it’s part of my ocd but it probably is.

Sometimes I'm not feeling that anxious but when a specific thought and fear come up I feel paralyzed. I sit and write down my thoughts, I try to rationalize, sometimes search it online, and I am consumed by grief. It feels so real that I can't tell. If you ask me I really don't know, I don't have the "deep down I know it's not true" thing. I have other things to do but I can't focus on anything else. It makes me want to cry.

I have this thought where i think ive chested on my partner 2 years ago when drunk at a party I really really dont think it happened because i only had the thought a few months ago “what if i cheated at this party with this guy who i barely even know” I see a future with my boyfriend and i don’t want to confess but i just feel like i have to JUST IJ CASE but i know it could hurt him so much and it probably didnt even happen I cant just ask the guy who i think i cheated with because were not friends and dont speak so if i message he will think im some freak Anyone in a similar boat or overcome this I just don’t know how i can move forward without confessing

I’m in such a depressed mood right now. I finally got two days off after being full time work and full time student and now that the semester is over I can have days off and I literally have laid around and slept because I’m really depressed. My mind won’t shut up about my fears and it’s scary. So I just lay around. I want to do things but I don’t because my motivation is shot down by anxiety and fear. I feel hopeless 💔

i just shared one of my intrusive thoughts with my mom for the first time. she looks at me, crying, and goes “that’s not normal, that’s not right, you need to get help” and now my anxiety is through the roof and i’m so stressed out. how donyou deal with this?

The thoughts always try to kick me down with things of the past that happened. Porn messed me up as a person. Not just as a teenager, or an adult, but as a person. I have a lot of guilt and shame about it. There's events I regret. But I'm just trying to focus on what I want to do now. The semester has come to an end, I'm planning to work this summer, and I hope to just take it easy. It's hard to have all of these thoughts, images, and feelings, and I'm just supposed to let them flow naturally.

Does anyone on here know of any natural medicines/supplements/vitamins to take to make ocd a little bit more bearable? I’m getting to the point now that I feel like I can’t function and I’m struggling so much. I’ve been on prescribed medication before and it doesn’t agree with me at all so looking to see if there’s any sort of natural aid that could help ease it a little?

Therapists or advocates here, or anyone else far along in their treatment who have OCD, depression and ADHD, asking for your help bc I feel terrible and dysfunctional. : I have OCD, depression and ADHD. I am in ERP therapy, therapy for depression and take pills for ADHD. I saw a Jenna Overbaugh video on Youtube about procrastination and OCD called "Can OCD cause you to procrastinate?" and all of it resonated. I don't know what's what though. And I understand that OCD wants us to "Get to the bottom of things", and I am not trying to do that: I legitimately need to know if I need to up my stimulant medication of ADHD, or if because that medication is making OCD so much worse, and I am depressed, that I am procrastinating more. (And I am not able to take an SSRI, Stimulant combo FYI.) How do we know what is OCD that needs more help, or ADHD? Or what's OCD vs Depression? I'm trying all the things, but I don't know which area needs more attention.

Hello I have been dealing with OCD my whole life. I have had every theme known to man and have gotten through it. I have relapsed pretty bad this time dealing with SOOCD TOCD ROCD I am a happily married mother of two. We live a good life. A month ago I had a super stressful time and felt a thought sticking.”maybe I’m really supposed to be a man because I’m so masculine” I felt it stick and I knew I was in for it. I always knew I had OCD but was afraid of treatment. The thoughts changed to you know your a lesbian you know you want to be a lesbian and your dragging your poor husband along who adores you and your not living your true self. I’m miserable these thoughts are so scary and I am constantly thinking about it. I always questions my sexuality because of OCD always liked boys and am in love with my husband. Some woman are hot and I would sometimes get intrusive thoughts and find myself looking at woman . It’s so confusing because sometimes I feel like that’s absurd then I think about times where I was acting a bit gay and it’s almost like confirmation that I’m not being my true self. It won’t stop ruminating, all day every day. I look up forums and experiences and see so many who explain my thoughts exactly and take comfort knowing ah this is just OCD But then I go back to doubting and questioning and remembering every weird thought or action and every woman I see I am checking. I don’t know what to do I’m scared and so tired . Just sucks that just a month ago o could have these weird gay thoughts and not care but now It’s almost like I have to figure it out. For a while I would say I’m Bi but honestly that never felt right. Being with a woman dosent feel right but I feel like my mind is creating this masculine personality where it seems so possible it’s hard to shake What does it all mean? I love my husband I want to be with him he is my best friend my soul mate . I feel like I’m ruining everything I always dreamed of.

I want to start by saying ERP has helped me immensely, especially with things that invovlve an action, such as fear of stabbing myself. That being said, I still struggle with some "truths" about existing. For example, we are all going to die, we don't know what will happen when we die, and we know very little about reality, etc. These and many other existantial thoughts can be very disparaging and make me fear that I will never love life like I once did. OCD keeps trying to convinve me that it is right and life is horrible and not to be cherished because of these existential fears. For those of you who have struggled with similar thoughts/fears what did you find worked best? I could be wrong, but I feel existential fears are particularly pernicious.

I am feeling absolutely hopeless that ERP will work. I am in a state of near constant heart pounding, restlessness, and my head spinning and spinning. I feel like it’s too hard and I can’t do this and if I don’t get this, I’m out of options and will end up in a mental institution. This is the most insane experience I’ve ever had in my 43 years alive. I have two young children and a husband that are my world and I just want to be free of this!! I want my old life back before I woke up like this on some random day. I feel completely hopeless and like I’m not supposed to reassure myself, encourage myself, etc. I just needed to get this out.

Hi all! I did 2 months of intense ERP and I have felt great for the past few weeks. Not anxious at all really anymore and the thoughts have reduced/don’t bother me. I feel so happy and free again. So now, I am asking for those in recovery —- how do you make sure you stay well and don’t relapse? Any tips? Thanks! 😊

Can ocd make you doubt if you really do want to do something Eg i had an intrusive thought earlier of kissing my father in law with an awful urge like i was seconds away from doing it! Initially i know i didnt want to do it, dont find him attractive dont see the point in doing it ect now im really questioning if i actually want to do it? Will i do it next time because now i want to? Can it confuse you like this to where it makes you believe you actually want to even though im still questioning i dont as never thought of it before this though

i skipped and avoided final exam last year and failed because of ocd now this year ive been okay until this month because final exam are 2 week away i have same thaugh of last year should i do skip and run again ? is it worth suffering exams that i already know im failing it ? which is more painful ocd or my family blaming me again for skipping "please dont tell me to face my fears and take exams because its not easy its impossible especially final exams policy where u can't leave class for 3hours straight i can't hold on that long I'll probably have heart attack during all that time"

Feels like I’m gonna have this for as long as I’m dating my boyfriend…. Feels like I wouldn’t have this problem if we broke up and I would be “free”. It just is hard because I’ve had these thoughts everyday for the duration of our relationship and even some months before that. So I’m not sure how our relationship is supposed to feel tbh. The thing that scares me is I feel like I’ve never been fully aware of my sexuality. I mean in high school I used to be sure I think? But in college something changed with me and I felt unsure then. Now I just feel like I don’t even know. Anyone else has been struggling with this since they got with their boyfriend ?? Or has everyone been super sure of their sexuality beforehand and then these thoughts came?