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How do you stop yourself confessing to something you did wrong? Nothing good would come from it and I know it wouldn’t make me feel better. I’ve never wanted to confess it before but suddenly today my perspective on it has shifted and I feel an overwhelming urge to sabotage my whole relationship.

Looking for answers: I went to a very good medium (known around presidents) on that time i didn’t know I had HOCD, and I told him that inside my mind it was a voice telling me: “you are gay” and he told me very secure that i was bi! And he asked me if I had gone to a therapist. And i was 1 year and a half going with my psychologist, i was soo angry and confused, he told me that I was denying myself, so he suggested me to go witg his psychologist. It costed me like 4 months to cover from that. But now my mind is part with his voice: “you are bi”. So I learnt that nobody can give me the answer of who I am, even though he was a good medium.

I need to vent. Hopefully someone will relate to this- that would offer me so much comfort. An obsessive fear I’ve had for quite some time is getting poisoned. I have struggled with that obsession for years, but its peak manifestation has persisted ever since a “friend” gave me laced marijuana. It was the worst I’ve ever felt. It topped all of the trauma I’ve ever experienced because the drug enhanced the worst attributes of anxiety that would otherwise be somewhat manageable in a sober state. Now almost every time I eat, I have a panic attack. Almost every time I touch a foreign object (gas pump, door handle, etc.) a panic attack follows. Often these bouts of severe anxiety have to be internalized due to situations, making the physiological fixations far more severe. I fear that I may ingest some kind of oral poison or come in contact with some topical poison. I fear my food is laced with psychedelic drugs. Of course I understand these fears are unwarranted and irrational, but lately they’re the most prevalent obsessions in my mind and body. I don’t trust any food, even if I make it myself. I do have a history of anorexia (I was diagnosed with anorexia at the same time I was diagnosed with OCD) and the analytical part of me wonders of my illnesses have coincided to breed some kind of new combative way due to my successful efforts to manage both issues. I just feel like I’m going crazy sometimes. If you read this whole thing, you’re a champ and I thank you. Can anybody relate in any capacity?

This TOCD is really fucking me up in the head . Putting me in a really dark place and just fucking me up mentally feels like I’ve turned into a different person.

OK so I need some help. How do you accept uncertainty? I'm freaking out and can't go anywhere to help

How do I stop worrying about being on camera or on the internet? I keep remembering embarrassing fights or a drunk night I had. I’m such a shy person sober and when I blacked out once I lashed out at an ex who was emotionally abusive at the time. All I remember is crying, shoving people, and outside I threw my heel, and was sitting on the floor crying and my hand was bleeding. It was all fuzzy. My ex made me feel horrible for months about it. The parking lot area where I threw my heel was empty and my friends that were there were also drunk and couldn’t remember details. My ex told me my thong was to the side and when I was on the floor in the parking lot everyone could see my private’s but my friends said they don’t remember that happening and he was known to exaggerate or lie, but I can’t help but obsess that I’m on some website or on YouTube because someone secretly caught my outburst and taped it. Happened a year ago and I’m so embarrassed. This also goes for any other embarrassing moment I’ve had I obsess Im on camera and posted somewhere.

I wanted to get some advice about therapy. I have had OCD since I was a kid and I am just now starting therapy/treatment ( so it has been like 20 years). I have also had some very traumatic events in my life and was in an emotionally and physically abusive relationship. I just started seeing a psychologist that specializes in OCD. I thought when I started going to therapy I would be able to address my OCD and also the trauma that I have gone through. But my therapist has a very targeted approach that only focuses on the OCD symptoms but she doesn’t want to know anything about the trauma that triggered these symptoms. When I told her that I had been through some things that I might also address she told me that she doesn’t do talk therapy, and she doesn’t specialize in trauma. Is this how all OCD therapists are, or do I just need to find a new therapist? I’m new to all this and I don’t know what to expect and I am feeling kind of lost. Also, does it matter if you see a psychologist vs a psychiatrist?

My ocd is bringing up ex’s and it’s like “love is a choice u guys could have worked out if u made it work” but I love my bf now and ugh any advice or tips?

Tell me guys what are y’all fears

Anyone here obsessing about whether or not they'd be able to sleep at night? And that in turn causes you to stay awake?

Been looking into private therapy as I'm on such a long waiting list for it through the NHS. This women got back to me and said she charges £48 a session and that will rise to £54 a session in September! I would ideally like to have 2 sessions a month at least but no way can I afford that ? Especially with being out of work now ?

What is the difference between bisexual, gay , lesbian , queer and heterosexual ?

Not questioning my sexuality anymore but still getting really gross intrusive thoughts , anyone else have this experience ? I really want them to go away and I’m not sure how to make them stop

This app is going to help no one if all it gets used for it reassurance seeking posts being responded to with more reassurance seeking replies.

I was wondering does anyone else with OCD lie a lot? Even about things that aren't to do with their OCD?

Just burst into tears because I've just saw a photo of my family from today, yet again another family event I didn't attend because I didn't feel strong enough. I know it's my own fault I reacted in the wrong way to my anxiety and intrusive thoughts. They all look so happy without me and I feel like sometimes perhaps they are better of without me anyway ? feel so sad

Does anybody know what causes someone to have hocd

Have people lost their aesthetic attraction to the opposite sex because of HOCD? How did you manage to recover your attraction ?

Does anyone get the consist idea of being something they don’t want to be. Like they are not necessarily getting intrusive images but can’t shake the thought of them being for example of a pedophile or a killler .. whatever the theme that ocd takes. Like I’m having real trouble letting the thought go - and it’s like inevitable that I am this thing and I need to confess Help please :( really struggling

I just had this interesting thought and I decided to share- sometimes things that are regular every day things such as taking walks or playing a game on an app can be torture for someone with OCD but totally not anything for someone without OCD. Idk why I found this such an interesting thought