Welcome to
the NOCD Community

Hey guys I get songs stuck in but since a few days ago I’ve had this static sound stuck in my head. It’s so annoying I feel like I have schizophrenia🤦🏻‍♀️ and my ocd is just running with it.

I have been doing really really well for the past year ish. Of course I have some bad days or weeks but overall I feel almost back to pre diagnosis. I have recently gotten in the most incredible relationship I could have never even dreamed of. This has caused my real event ocd to flair up. He often talks about hurting people who have hurt children which as you can imagine triggers my real event. I believe my ex left me bc I told him about my real event bc my non ocd therapist told me I had to while she also told me how horrible I was. I can’t decide if I have to tell my current boyfriend how horrible of a human I am to give him the chance to also dumb me despite the fact that I am not who I was at 6/7 years old… what do I do 😭

Do any of you ladies struggle with wearing bras? Lately I can not stand the feeling of wearing bras. I get so uncomfortable even in most sports bras that obsess and stress myself out so badly. There has to be some bra out there that is just soft and comfy enough so it doesn’t drive me insane. Anyone else experience this? And any bra recommendations?

it feels like i actually want to kill people. i know i don’t but it feels like i do. it’s like when i first got this theme i knew it wasn’t real but now i don’t know anymore. i don’t want to kill people, especially my family. i would never do that ever. but the urges and thoughts feel different now. even my reaction feels different. i feel like morals changed, i feel like a monster. i want to cry so bad.

I know I shouldn't, but someone please tell me I'm not a monster bc of an image. It's making me cry. I can't believe this. I feel like I've lost my whole person. Can anyone relate? I'm not me anymore.... and I want it back so bad!!

I was in the bathroom and I noticed a big blister like bump down there and now I'm just more worried than I already have been about my health for months now. It just came up there out of nowhere and all I've been trying to do is keep myself clean ever since my impulsive behavior from my addiction. I'm really worried and I don't know what's going on. Now I have a hideous bump there and never in my life have I ever had something like this.

Does anyone else’s rocd try to convince them that they have feelings for someone else when really you just love your partner? I hate when my ocd does this.

I’ve been with my partner since November of 2022. In the beginning, we had great times together and I can still say that I truly care about him. However, my feelings for him started to decline a few months after we were dating but I was scared to cut things off because I didn’t want to hurt his feelings. With my harm OCD, I would have intrusive thoughts about him, but I know deep inside that I really do care for him, but I’m not sure if I’m in love with him. I’m now trying to figure out if it’s my OCD that’s making me want to break up with him to stop having these intrusive thoughts, or if I genuinely want to. Has anybody else gone through this? Some advice would help!

Does anyone else struggle with normal everyday things like going downstairs to get food? I’m really hungry right now but don’t like being downstairs or in my kitchen because I’m scared of being contaminated I live with my parents and siblings still so there’s so many people and I feel contaminated being in contact with them or having to touch door handles /cupboards and food in the fridge Because I find it really hard to leave my room sometimes because of how alert and aware I constantly feel like I have to be because I’m worried of things contaminating me And people in my house don’t really understand and aren’t aware of me and not coming into contact with me My room is my safe space and I don’t like people coming in here because it feels contaminated if they do but they just don’t get it It just takes a lot of my energy to be doing normal things If anyone has tips or similar experiences please share so I know it’s not just me 💕

Does any get rejection thoughts about God & Jesus? My current theme is doubting them and I love God & Jesus so much! Yesterday I had a thought about “I reject ___” and it scared me so bad and hurt my heart so much! I’ve had that thought before and was able to move forward and i believe I was forgiven but I feel like my OCD is now trying to latch onto this theme. Any advice? Has anyone had those thoughts to?

What are some examples of mental compulsions and how can you identify them in yourself? I am struggling with what counts as a mental compulsion since it’s not as black and white as a physical one.

But nobody even replies on your posts

I really hate this trend of people going "my intrusive thoughts won" in reference of something that is not a intrusive thought...at all. This whole trend of people conflating intrusive thoughts with impulsive ones is exhausting because when these same people actually hear about the types of intrusive thoughts that people with OCD have they paint them as some sort of monster when the whole basis of OCD for most people is the anxiety of being the opposite of what your morals and beliefs are! This trend definitely adds more to the stigma, everyone is always pro mental health and want better for the mentally ill until the mentally ill actually show symptoms

I keep seeing things about end times. I have always suffered with OCD about religion. Like solar storm/solar eclipse knocking out cell phone service and the solar eclipse happening. Does anyone relate??? I feel so alone I keep talking to my boyfriend about it but i don’t think he understands what I am going through mentally from it.

Does anyone else feel like a switch in their head gets flipped and they become the worst version of themselves. Like I can love life one second and then the anxiety hits me like a truck and I’m completely winded. I’m exhausted on every level. I feel it in my stomach. I’m tired. I’ve had OCD my entire life and I’m not sure I’ll ever live peacefully. Trying to stay hopeful.

I’m new to all this and just wanted to post what I’ve been going through. After experiencing hallucinations from sleep deprivation, an overwhelming fear of possibility developing schizophrenia has become like.. a theme for me? I also have visual snow/bad vision so lately, I guess a compulsion I have been doing is double checking if I’m seeing stuff or hearing voices, but it’s nothing. I’m just stressing about a sound of an ac, for example, y’know? Another one is checking my heart constantly in fear of a stroke/heart attack. Any body sensation or muscle twitch makes me spiral so bad. It’s gotten to a point where if I laugh or get up from my bed, or do something that requires physical movement, I stop to check my heart and panic if it’s fast. This all has just been so distressing for me and I have a lot more things that I think and worry about obsessively. It’s the constant what ifs that are so debilitating.

Hey, all. I’m feeling really terrible right now and feeling utterly alone. So, I’ve been dating this guy for a couple months. He has been so great. He’s treated me well and we have had a lot of fun. However, my mental health got super terrible when we got together. I realized I started experiencing pretty bad ROCD a month in. The doubts about the relationship and the uncertainty got debilitating. But, I was committed to making the best of things and being with him although I was feeling a lot of emotional turmoil. Anyways, I decided to bring up a pretty uncomfortable topic recently with him, regarding our relationship, like any normal couple would do. I asked him if I could call him my boyfriend and it lead to us talking about the relationship in general. He said he really really likes me and wants to continue things with me but doesn’t want a relationship over the summer because he has trouble with long distance, as his last relationship failed when he went long distance. Him telling me this has turned my world upside down. I’m worried everything is ruined and that we have lost everything and I have to move on. I don’t know how to cope with this. All of my friends and family says he is an idiot and is ruining everything. With underlying ROCD, I know my decisions could be seriously biased. My mind is so quick to think everything is ruined. However, in reality, what he said is a big deal. It’s caused so much pain, sadness, and hurt, as I had assumed that he wanted a relationship with me. Anyways, I know how all this sounds but please, if anyone is there, I desperately need someone to talk to. I am not feeling great and am feeling so alone. I want to tell him my feelings but I’m worried I’ll ruin everything.

I’m in the process of overturning a SZ diagnosis in favour of one of OCD. So they put me on escitalopram and reduced my dose of antipsychotic. For a while I’ve been getting really triggered by stuff and today I took a little extra antipsychotic and felt better. I mean I have an OCD dx now but it looks like I might have both. Every day I get new hope but things often just get worse. I’ve been having a lot of days where every little thing goes wrong. I’m tired.

Today was so nice, I had a girl who I’ve like for so long at my house today and she was hugging me and laid in bed with me. My heart was racing everytime she laid with me. Life didn’t feel real. She made me hard every time she was on me. But then when she left I got the scared thought that what if I don’t really love her and what if I’m gay and bring a guy home one day. What does this mean.

I feel like I’m at the end of my ropes. I feel sick to my stomach that my false memories might be real. I have so many memories of assaulting children and raping people that I can’t tell if it’s real or fake but it FEELS REAL. IT FEELS LIKE A REAL MEMORY AND EVERYONE AROUND ME THINKS ITS JUST IN MY HEAD. I can’t continue thinking I did something so egodystonic. It makes me physically ill. My memories feel real too real. What do I do how do I LIVE WITH THIS PLEASE SOMEBODY HELP ME