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I’ve been wanting to further my own self help when it comes to OCD since I don’t have access to therapy just yet. Please give me your best recommendations !!❤️‍🩹

Ok so this Friday I wanted to go to training and usually I’m always in a cabin alone bc the rest always splits up into different ones but I wanna stay alone. But then while I was standing there charging and using my phone, a little girl walked in. And now is the thing: based on all what k remember and that I know and am 100% sure happened that way, I instantly started to feel bad and decided to leave the cabin. I plugged out my phone, packed my stuff into my bag, put my jacket out first and then came back another time to get the rest of my stuff. But the thing is that the second I left the cabin, I started doubting „what if I had assaulted her?“ and like I still remember going to the toilet a couple of seconds after that and while being on the toilet I thought „yes no nothing had happened“ and I mean my memories were still extremely accurate there but the doubt wouldn’t leave me. Like I just kept thinking „but what if I did?“ and no matter how often I go back in my memories proving to myself that I literally hadn’t remembered this at any point and barely even saw that girl bc I just instantly ran out of the cabin and that that’s obviously not even the point of running away. I also remember I was on my phone right afterwards. So basically I was on my phone before she had walked in and right after. Makes not even a minute of not using my phone. And she only changed her shoes from what I know. I didn’t even look at her. But I keep and keep on doubting that. Even though I remember everything else really well. I even remember I had chuckled at something on my phone right before she had walked in and then stopped when I saw her and ran out of the cabin. I also remember that I was hurrying up extra much to get out as fast as possible. Basically I remember everything and I even thought pretty surely that nothing had happened maybe a minute after. But I’m still doubting that. Like, wouldn’t I remember that? Especially since I didn’t have any memory to doing this right afterwards.. Idk how to get rid of this thought like I know how to trust my memories but then I still doubt it even tho I know I’d remember it

I've been on Zoloft for about 39 days now and I've noticed a positive change. However, I've had an 'Aha!' moment. Sometimes, I get an intrusive thought and start to ruminate, but then something distracts me and hours later, I realize I stopped thinking about it. At first, I was worried, thinking, "Why am I not ruminating or trying to understand these thoughts? That's dangerous," because I often ruminate mentally. Then it dawned on me that my OCD had traumatized me into believing I needed to think constantly to protect myself from nonexistent dangers. I was so used to being trapped in my head, thinking it was keeping me safe, but it was actually keeping me from living my life. We're not meant to think all the time; we should be able to live without constantly checking our thoughts.

Hi everyone, I’m new here and this is my first post. For about a year now I have not drank any tap water (not even filtered). Somehow I became convinced a while back that my tap water was not safe to drink straight from the tap, and shortly after that I became convinced that filtered tap water was contaminated too (and that the filters themselves are somehow contaminated). Logically I know none of it makes sense, and I’m not even sure what I am afraid of happening if I do drink it. It doesn’t feel like a fear of getting sick, just an intense sense of dread at the thought of drinking the water. I also have some problems with drinking bottled water especially if I feel like I can taste the plastic. So I have almost exclusively drank canned sparkling water for a year now. Has anyone dealt with similar contamination fears?

so I just wanna know if the ERP is working or not. I still have a lot of repetitive thinking, but I don’t get anxiety around it anymore. I’m more or less emotion wise. Just get annoyed and tired that it is still trying to be repetitive in my mind. So I’m just curious is the ERP working or do I need to push a little harder?

Any of you ever accidentally say a a word mispronounced that sounds like a deity if another religion or the d*vil and then you worry if that means you worshipped another deity against your religion. Which wasnt my intent but if i mispronounce ir accidentally say the word i freak out

Hi everybody I have a quick question. I have been dating for a while and unfortunately we had to break up because of all the fights and troubles. We also had really really nice moments and I am pretty sad it didn't work out. Mostly had something to do with me boyfriends past. I have always been an overthinker, had lots of anxiety and stress etc. But last year was really bad sometimes. Now my question is; I am so scared due to all the stress (alternating with really good moment) causing cancer. Stress was always just 1 or 2 days, so not months on end. But I know stress decreaseds your immunsystem and therefore can cause cancer. I am not looking for reassurance regarding if stress does or does not cause cancer. But what I wanted to know is: is it my fault when eventually I do get cancer due to the stress? It was really a mix of things and the breakup was nobody's fault but it feels so annoying that now I don't have a boyfriend anymore and maybe I get cancer from all the stress... so I am beating myself up for not ending it sooner. There was no physical fight or anything, it just didn't work out and we both know this is for the best. Still I am mad at myself for all the stress I caused myself

I have been making progress with certain elements of OCD, however I still can't get comfortable with whether or not the stove is off when I go to sleep. I know I check it but if the knob feels slightly not over the off label I feel that the stove gas might be on and I don't know it. How do I overcome this?

I'm starting my OCD therapy in two days and I'm nervous. I'm hoping this helps because my intrusive thoughts have returned with a severity after I experienced several losses within a week. My mind feels so heavy and the way this feels, feels different than the other times. Am I just not processing things which is making my thoughts worse? Probably, but I'm stuck. And I'm angry I'm having to go through all of this because of a medication that was supposed to help me. Does anyone else experience a kind of cloudy mind with intrusive thoughts and you feel unsure about everything?

So I'm doing erp and it's going well or at least it was a thought arrived this morning it said "what if the reason your not doing that action is because your scared" and I was like well yeah because that's not who I am and then it moves on when ocd is gone and the fear "what if you do that action" and I started to panic any advice now I'm worried about the future about a what if question I know I'm not in to or like at all. Because it goes against who I am.

I feel like me and my best friend and ending for many reasons but when I talk to her about it she says it’s really all in my head and she doesn’t feel it at all. What is going on??

I don’t know if there is a light at the end of the tunnel anymore this feels so real I get headaches all the time and the thoughts are like if you come out it will go away and life will be back how if used to be i hate hate hate this just had enough I miss having attraction to women and it feeling natural and not a checking ritual this is hell and I just don’t know what to do I am so down every day with this I just don’t understand why this has happened to me I feel cursed it been 4 years now I never felt like this or had any thoughts like this as a kid or a teen this all started when I was in a toxic relationship with my ex girl friend and some one on a night shift said I can see why gay guys are happy they don’t have women in their life and bang ‼️ it started a thought out of no where saying I am gay on loop it been that way ever since I just want to be at peace it don’t help when I hear sexuality is fluid or on a spectrum that is very triggering for me and it don’t help that I have Aspergers as well which only magnifies this whole thing times a million I just feel so lost and have no idea what to do just want to be like I used be I feel like I have a massive chunk of my life robbed from me I feel so alone I have no problem with gay people at all you what you like I guess but me and don’t want to be like that I want to be with a women but my mind is like no you don’t it’s torturing this is can anybody help PLEASE !!

As soon as I wake up in the morning all I have in my head are these thoughts and it gives me an awful pit in my stomach. My brain tells me ‘you love someone else that you used to speak to’ ‘you want to be with them and not your partner’ the quotes go on. I love my current partner and I want these thoughts gone. I have had enough.

Hi! I am posting this NOT to give reassurance but more to give hope and help in people’s recovery. I have had really bad SOCD since I was 14 I’m 29 now and started experiencing false attraction for the first time which sent me spiraling and it was VERY debilitating and confusing. I can now say it’s been two months since I experienced it and I feel I have conquered this aspect of OCD and am no longer experiencing it. Now let me say that these feelings did not just “go away” but I put in the work. I sat with the ick, I didn’t overanalyze, I recognized it for what it was and let it go. Easier said than done I KNOW. Is it possible I will experience it again? Maybe. But if I do I know I can face it and overcome it once again. So yeah just wanted to share my recovery with you all and let you know it can and will happen for you too ☺️❤️

ive had harm type for years. it’s focused around my mom and if i want to hurt her and i spiral and it’s terrifying. sometimes i get scared that im insane and that i don’t actually have ocd, ect. my compulsions are usually going on my phone (what im doing now, i know, im trying) to distract myself or i try to comfort myself almost like reassuring. does anyone else struggle with this? I just need to know im not alone.

I’ve been feeling depressed lately, because I’ve gone down a rabbit hole thinking about how it seems like everything is connected or underpinned by something unjust or inhumane. For example, the clothes we wear may have been made by people in unsafe working conditions, the animals we eat may have suffered in cages, the child actors from the shows we watch aren’t always protected and taken care of, and the materials from our phones were produced by oppressed children in the Congo. It just seems like there is something wrong with everything and it’s hard for me to see the good. I feel complicit in these unjust systems. I see people saying “boycott this” and “boycott that”, because money talks. But honestly I don’t want to boycott certain things. Nor do I want to become vegan. Then I feel guilty, like this makes me a bad person. It feels so hard to be a good person in this world. It feels impossible to be a good follower of Christ. Like what’s the point? How do you find joy when there is so much wrong with everything? Almost everything I love has lost its joy and the things I used to like doing, reading and writing and film, now feel wrong. I’ve become obsessed with being moral and it’s making me miserable.

Try to stay off of social media and the internet? I don’t want my OCD to get worse or attached to something new so I don’t have any social media and limit my internet access. I know this is a compulsion but I think it’s also self care…. Maybe. 🤔

Hey guys I get songs stuck in but since a few days ago I’ve had this static sound stuck in my head. It’s so annoying I feel like I have schizophrenia🤦🏻‍♀️ and my ocd is just running with it.

I have been doing really really well for the past year ish. Of course I have some bad days or weeks but overall I feel almost back to pre diagnosis. I have recently gotten in the most incredible relationship I could have never even dreamed of. This has caused my real event ocd to flair up. He often talks about hurting people who have hurt children which as you can imagine triggers my real event. I believe my ex left me bc I told him about my real event bc my non ocd therapist told me I had to while she also told me how horrible I was. I can’t decide if I have to tell my current boyfriend how horrible of a human I am to give him the chance to also dumb me despite the fact that I am not who I was at 6/7 years old… what do I do 😭

Do any of you ladies struggle with wearing bras? Lately I can not stand the feeling of wearing bras. I get so uncomfortable even in most sports bras that obsess and stress myself out so badly. There has to be some bra out there that is just soft and comfy enough so it doesn’t drive me insane. Anyone else experience this? And any bra recommendations?