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Anyone here tried ART therapy (Accelerated Resolution Therapy) If so has it helped them? Im currently two session in and i always leave with a migraine

Lately Ive been having blasphemous intrusive thoughts I wonder if God knows about my OCD and that I would never willingly think these things I'm constantly asking for forgiveness and sometimes I feel like I go searching for these thoughts just to have something to obsess over Uuuuugh!!

Anyone struggling with RJ?

I’ve noticed an increase in intrusive thoughts when doing what I actually WANT to do and having healthy coping mechanisms, as opposed to staying busy or going out for drinks, etc.. what is this about?

I’ve been dealing bad with POCD and all my head has been thinking about is think about children and you will get turned on I honestly felt disgusting and till this day i still do i wake up scared thinking i dreamed about something like that or that i end up liking it because of how much I think about the more i try to push it away the more it stays there and honestly i get scared because the more my body tells me like think about the more I feel like my body is gonna react without me even wanting it to like i feel like my lady part is gonna work on itself and then I’m gonna get scared and actually think i am a perv if i do I’m honestly so scared by this whole situation i use to be around children all the time without even having a thought that way like i never ever thought of children in that way and all my mind thinks is that and it feels horrible I don’t even wanna wake up because I wanna keep living in my dreams instead of the real world.

Does anyone else wake up with such a guilt feeling or like a very heavy heart from your sleep like tired of feeling or still having ugly thoughts in your mind?

Today my friend was texting me about her sleep disorder and I felt bad because I literally had nothing to say about it, but I didn’t wanna come off as a bitch so I just told her that it’s not her fault that she feels that way and I asked her if there was any medicine that could help. Then because I didn’t have empathy in that moment, I am worried that the only reason why I show people care and try to do nice things for people is because I want to be seen as a good person. Think it was because I’ve been through a lot of stuff and I would never wanna make anyone feel how my mom made me feel but now not so sure.

For backround, I've been with my bf for 1.5 years. I've haven't had any compulsions related to our relationship since my last relationship 3 years ago. Basically, I'm extremely worried I emotionally cheated on my bf. It is my worst nightmare. My boyfriend is very understanding of my OCD and knows about false memory. I'm worried I cheated on him. I have a coworker, one of the only guys in our office, and I used to dislike him but we started to be friends and have conversations. We only talk at work, normally about school or work. I have gone out of my way to ask him questions about Anatomy (he is a doctor) instead of just googling it. Is that cheating? The main focus of this instrusive thought is that I maybe had wrong intentions when talking to him. There's another girl in our office, one who we all thought has a huge crush on my male coworker. We talk and joke, and I remember saying "I don't think he likes her back though" and what if I said that because I thought he was attracted to me instead? What if I wanted him to like me? I do not want him. I love my boyfriend endlessly. My bf is my prized possession. Do I need to confess to my bf? Is it wrong for thinking things but not acting? Does it count as emotional cheating? Please help. I've even considering quitting my job to escape this. I do not want to confess to my bf because it is a compulsion and when I had a similar experience with my last bf, he was extremely not understanding and I felt like I was a cheater for months. My past relationship never got over it but my current boyfriend knows my OCD almost better than I do. Do I confess? How do I feel better? I have made myself sick. My stomach has been churning for a week telling me to confess to my bf.

Hey everyone. Not exactly OCD related. Broke up with my boyfriend a month ago. When we first started dating I realized he had some qualities I knew he couldn't change about himself just from his upbringing and the way his personality was. He made very hurtful, belittling, and hypercritical comments all the time and instead of leaving because he couldn't change those things I thought I just had to deal with them. But now that it's been a month I'm realizing how much I was hurting in the actual relationship from these comments. Did I just supress the pain while I was with him? The worst part about it is I found a way to blame myself because I didn't "stand up for myself" as much as I should have. Which may have been true but it's never your fault if someone is being manipulative and cruel. I felt the pain from these comments when he first started making them but when I realized he couldn't change I just acted like the pain wasn't there and now I'm dealing with it. I'm just discovering new pockets of pain everyday. I remember something he said once literally randomly and start to cry because of how much it hurt and still hurts and then keep going with my day. Has anyone had an experience like this in the process of their healing?

First, because that thing that’s written if you post more than 3 times haha Second, my therapist told me that she thinks I may be feeding my obsession through here. I love this app and I think it’s like a support group, helps a lot to know you are not alone. What do you think?

an aspect of my OCD that i’ve struggled with for a while is anxiety induced nausea and vomiting. in romantic situations where most people would get butterflies, i sometimes get extreme anxiety that leads me to throw up. this experience is always very scary, and it has, in the past, led to me having trouble eating enough because i’m worried i’ll throw up during a meal, especially if i’m eating around around the person i’m attracted to. something else i’ve noticed is that the anxious nausea tends to act up first thing in the morning, as i’m coming into consciousness. this doesn’t happen every morning by any means, but when it does, i notice that it starts by me having thoughts about whatever (or whoever) is stressing me out and they make me feel nauseous. but i’m going in and out of sleep so i’m also going in and out of nausea. but by the time i’m fully awake and not half stress dreaming, the nausea kicks in full force and sends me running to the bathroom. no matter if it’s in the morning, during a meal, whatever, once the pre throw up mode kicks in, it’s really hard for me to just move on from it. like my mouth starts to get filled with saliva and i keep swallowing it until i can’t take it anymore and i have to vomit. once i’m in that state, it’s hard to apply what i’ve learned in therapy bc i’m in such a panic mode. my therapist said that the goal is to not have to get to that panicked state in the first place, which i agree with, but still have trouble doing. i’m in ERP therapy right now and have been specifically focusing on this vomiting facet of my OCD, writing my worst case scenarios of throwing up daily. i think that’s been helpful, but i wanted to post this to the community or whatever in case anyone can relate to this or has some other exposures they’ve worked on that are related. so yeah if anyone can relate to any of this, let me know i want to chat! and if you have any advice for me regardless of if you’ve experienced this before, i’d love to hear it as well.

I just want to say, it’s been a few months now, I went through a stage where I was on here all day everyday, also compulsively googling all of my fears, isolating myself from others, feeling immense guilt, fear, shame from my intrusive thoughts. It gets better. It wasn’t all at once, and there was so much conscious effort and doubt during that time, but it does. I remember thinking day after day for months will this ever get better or am I destined for a life of basically ongoing mental torture. The best advice I can give, don’t give in to the sense of immediacy. Believe in slow gradual growth, and start to accept that OCD is a master of deception. Wherever you are at with your progress, You can do this. Seriously, it might not seem doable but it is.

I’m going through what is hopefully just a really bad hypochondria episode where I’ve convinced myself I have schizophrenia. It’s been about 8 months and I’ve been through a range of crazy symptoms but the most prevalent symptom is getting crazy delusional thoughts like “what if my wife is a demon and trying to get to me” “what if nobody is real and these are all monsters/demons out to get me” etc etc. the thoughts are absolutely terrifying and they make me look at people differently, and i have to question myself whether I truly believe the thoughts or not, they feel so real, when they come on I almost catch myself genuinely feeling paranoid that they are 100% real and having a panic attack, but then the tiny bit of me that’s still rational brings me back to reality. And from then on I have to question myself all day “do I really believe this?” “Well you technically can’t disprove those things” “if it’s not real, then why does it FEEL real?” “This really is schizophrenia” “ what if it’s not schizophrenia but ACTUALLY real?” “who do I go to for help?” “What if I can’t trust anyone” etc, it’s literally hell. I can never give a satisfying “No, I don’t believe this” to these thoughts. I can go days and weeks and be able to confidently shrug them off and tell how ridiculous they are only for them to come back with a vengeance the next day. I could really use some reassurance even though I know it’s bad. I have never been like this before until I started obsessing over schizophrenia. I’ve been like this for 8 months now.

Anyone else experience breathing OCD? I keep focusing on my breathing and if I’m breathing “correctly” or if I’m getting enough oxygen to my brain or body. It’s scary and annoying. I am hyper fixated on my breathing and if I am lightheaded or other symptoms in case its an emergency. 😭 It sucks.

hi guys i’m currently having an ocd episode… basically i’m in a very healthy relationship with the love of my life & i am petrified of hurting him. it’s got to the point where i feel if i speak to someone of the opposite sex, i convince myself im cheating on him or being flirty even though the thought of cheating on him would never cross my mind & if i do that the guilt would end me. before i was speaking to someone on reddit regarding pip & mental health n were in the same situation as me. we talked and i found out it was a guy, i tried to calm myself down and tell myself its ok this is just a civilised chat but in the end the guy ending up making a flirty remark and now im spiralling thinking its my fault & i gave him the wrong impression even though i mentioned i have a boyfriend numerous times which i catch myself doing quite a lot, not that i think everyone i talk to is into me or anything but just to put it there im not interested im just casually talking. its really hard because im scared that this will hurt my boyfriend even though it was just nice to speak to someone who understood what i was going through - it was totally anonymous due to it being on reddit. this anxiety though is all consuming, im finding myself engaging in compulsions and my heart is racing so fast i want to pull it out of my chest. i just know i wont sleep until my boyfriend has read the message i sent him telling him about it.

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My ROCD is throwing all of these intrusive thoughts at me and one that is particularly sticky is “you’re not excited enough about getting married to him” because we are eloping on Friday. It’s really making me anxious. Just gonna let the thought come and go. I just really want a Wedding, so I haven’t been in the head space of excitement if that makes sense? But I’m happy, and I love him, and I’m ready to marry him regardless of ROCD. I just hate this sticky thought. (Side note we are going to have a proper wedding in about a year or so once we know when his first deployment for the Navy will be, but right now eloping is the best step for the military and to stay living together through it all. Plus he really wants me to have his military benefits which I understand.) it’s just hard to get excited cause it’s not our proper wedding and I think I’m just being a baby about it. Rocd is not helping.

So I am new to this app but I was wondering if anyone had any tips and tricks to deal with skin picking. I tend to pick at my eyebrows and I have before and it got bad and then I had it under control but now I feel I can’t control it. What should I do?

Like I am so used to expecting the worst and this will help

I've struggled with emetophobia my entire life, and when I was in 4th grade I got the stomach flu and was sick one night. It caused me to have severe intrusive thoughts around eating, being around other people, traveling, not being clean enough, and more. Over 16 years I got so much better, and thought I was basically "recovered". I was wrong 🙃 about 2 weeks ago, I got another stomach bug and was sick (threw up) for the first time since 4th grade and I relapsed back to that point. I've lost more than 10 pounds in less than 2 weeks because I have barely been eating, I've been struggling to go back to work, and I can't go 12 hours without having an anxiety attack.