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How do I deal with bed rotting? I have been bed rotting for so long due to severe depression to the point where my back hurts and it’s hurts to walk from lack of movement. Pls help

A girl on tik tok basically confirmed my biggest OCD fear of being gay. Her video said “if you feel a certain way about {masculine female athlete}, you’re not straight. This is your sexual awakening.” Iv ALWAYS been triggered by this female athlete because she is an open lesbian and very masculine and I get intrusive thoughts and feelings that i absolutely HATE. Im so triggered right now because now OCD is saying this is more than intrusive thoughts/feelings and is actually sexual attraction. I absolutely hate the thought of me being gay.

can someone tell me how i can start stretching again without it turning into a compulsion? i do acrobatics and whenever i practice without someone dragging me out of there, it takes hours and i get horribly upset if i can’t do something. a few weeks ago when i stretched it took me 4+ hours just to do splits.

Over half a year ago, This girl wanted me to erotically role-play a forced scene with her and to not ask the next time we chatted online I believe... (i cant remember if this happened or not) When we started doing that the next time we met, she suddenly left the chat. So Im scared on if consent wasnt given. I remember her saying that she got booted the next time I talked to her, and asking if she wanted to continue where we left off, but im not too sure and I cant recollect it... as a part of the roleplay, she would say things like "stop" and I think she roleplayed her movements but I dont remember if this was a part of the roleplay, or her genuinely telling me to stop... my friend on the explicit chat site says that since its been over 6 months, that I most likely didnt do anything to hurt her and that I should move on, but my intrusive thoughts keep saying that I violated this womans consent, when a womans consent is the most important thing to me... my harm ocd keeps saying I SA'ed the woman and intrusive thoughts of her saying this and I just throw up every time... now my harm ocd says I SA'ed another woman during an online roleplay session... saying that I started initiating roleplay without asking... (I always ask "if you want of course" while flirting in roleplay) this wasnt a roleplay like before, but it was a classic erotic roleplay... all i can remember is that she and I roleplayed together than she suddenly left during the middle... I genuinely cant remember if what my intrusive thoughts are telling me is true or not... and its absolutely scaring me...

is Freud right about the unconscious mind revealing our deepest segrets? I know he's outdated, but im thinking about it because when i was sleeping a while ago yes I did have an triggering dream but I was bothered by the triggering content inside the dream itself, i was conscious and bothered by it so I knew it was egodystonic, so I'm kinda ok (it was about a youtuber that i enjoyed saying creepy things in a stream and thinking that i couldn't enjoy his content anymore, that didnt happen in rl), but a new memory resurfaced about having an intrusive image while i was i think like half-asleep, or maybe in an another dream that i had along side the other one that i dont remember, and that intrusive image was terrible, it was a n*ked thing with an adult like chest... i don't think I had any reaction when i had that intrusive image while half asleep, but I do now because im conscious and kind of freaked out about that image and mostly for the fact that i had that intrusive image but i don't recall having any distress or being bothered by it, so I don't have that reassuring factor. But I'm trying to keep it cool and move on. What do you think? I'm trying to be rational. I guess this happened because I've been tortured by triggering stuff, doubts accumulating lots of time spending ruminating, problem solving everyday for the past week.

TW I hate that God considers others like Israel and the apostles as more special than me and the Gentiles. And I also hate that everyone has someone they would rather be with than with me.

What was your most absurd obsession? I’ll start. I once convinced myself I didn’t have blood. Yes I am fully aware that you need blood to live, but I just didn’t believe I had any and I was resisting the urge to try and find out.😂

I just did ERP and it made me feel sad rather than anxious. I’m not sure if this is normal but it makes me think it’s not ocd

I need help, please. I cannot stop ruminating and I'm still not getting medicated, and that's the onlu way out I can see right now. I cry everyday out of distress, I feel sick, and I force myself to get arcades so I really feel that I'm not attracted towards women. It’s torturing me, I cannot take this anymore. It makes me think that the slightest thing I notice on a woman means that I'm attracted towards her. And it also makes me obsess over certain people which I found something interesting in, and tries to make me believe that I like them, it's disgusting, sickening, draining. By the way, I have a boyfriend, and I love him, so this makes everything worse. This all goes against all my values, morals, everything. It makes me look for things that happened in the past and alters them, and makes fake scenarios and tries to make me feel as if I'm actually attracted and it makes me suffer a lot. It takes almost my whole day, and it starts over and over again every time I wake up. I'm going insane, please, I just need to get rid of this. I cannot find any reasons to slay alive other than my boyfriend, I could never break his heart, so this is really making me feel like a really bad girlfriend and a failure.

Does anyone have any experience with Prozac and how effective it is for intrusive thoughts? Does it help with the thoughts, sensations, urges?? I’m desparate this is not what I want for my life this is not who I want to be but OCD is making me feel that way. I’m so down right now because I’m afraid this is what I truly want because of all the thoughts, sensation, urges, etc. Someone please tell me I’m not alone in this….i just want to quit feeling like I’m some disgusting freak.

I don’t know if it’s actually de realization or I’m just scared that it is. Either way it puts me into an intense state of anxiety. It’s like my OCD makes me hyper aware

I cannot quit thinking about a certain thing over and over. Its starting to affect my mental health and daily functions

I’ve dealing with this intrusive thoughts for a while, they predict the worst is about to happen, I was in a relationship with someone for 7 years he wanted us to get married and live together, but my intrusive thoughts will tell me that it will not work because in his house I will have to be by his rules and his kid’s rules, also my sister lives with me and will think worry about my sister, me not being around to help her with het daughter, but qt the same time I’m suffering because I feel that I love him 🥲 I feel hopeless.

I’m going on a hen do in 3 weeks to Marbella for 3 nights. I’m a bridesmaid but don’t know the other girls very well apart from the bride. I feel sick at the thought of going which makes me really sad as I should be looking forward to it. It’s the first time I’ve left my little boy and along with the soocd etc I’m really dreading it. It’s not like a fear like scared of an exam or scared of jumping out of a plane it’s a sick to my stomach don’t know how I’m going to force myself to go kind of dread and I feel like I could cry just at the thought of it …this isn’t normal someone please help me how I prepare myself as I’m so worried of feeling like Ill need to jump straight on a plane back as soon as I get there 😔😔😔

Ever have the feeling of “I’m never getting better, I might as well quit if OCD is gonna be with me forever, louder and bigger than me or not.”And in turn, you sit in that feeling of sadness and failure yet in a way it’s comforting cause you don’t have to do anything anymore? That’s me right now. I hit these moments of giving up or losing faith in myself often. I get back up one day, I know I will and can…but when I do, sometimes I feel like a fraud. As if I’m tying to convince or gaslight myself it’ll get better when I can’t really see much change myself. And if there is change, it doesn’t last long. You gotta keep practicing it as techniques start working but for some reason I slip up and ruin the progress and process each time. I go back to the compulsions, I go back to letting the intrusive thoughts make me feel awful and afraid to do anything, I go back to hating myself, my brain, and my life. There’s a strange comforting feeling in quitting and doing nothing, somehow though. I’m not sure why, exactly. I guess it’s familiarity after leaving that old routine? Maybe just not trying and hurting my brain is why it feels toxically nice. I’m not sure.. I don’t really need advice but I welcome it. But I would like to know if I’m not alone in this?

I am doing a lot better! I don't get as much anxiety but I still really try to figure out if I'm gay or not. It makes me want to cry. I also feel like bc l'm not getting anxiety it means that it's not ocd. So I am also trying to figure out if I do have ocd. I started therapy thru here which is exciting. My therapist asked me about different exposures I could do and I really can't think of any that will make me mildly anxious. She had me repeat the phrase "I am gay" for a minute and I felt like my anxiety was really low making me think the ERP doesn't work bc it's not ocd. We have a couple of exercises that I know will make me very anxious but I'm not sure if I am ready for it. I also feel like I have gotten better without ERP so that means it's not ocd. I just want to know that this is OCD. It's funny bc my therapist told me it was but she knows I won't believe her. It's crazy how this works. If anyone had any advice I’d appreciate it

I’ve been diagnosed with OCD and GAD. I pick my skin to cope with this sense of impending doom, then become more anxious because I’m afraid I’ll get an infection through the wound so I immediately pour hand sanitizer on it. The burning sensation provides temporary relief and it’s like I can “feel” the microbes dying? Like idk how to describe it. I also get unwarranted thoughts of self harm. I’ll randomly be like “being dead is easier” or “I don’t deserve to be alive.” I just get so overwhelmed with the future and then my brain is like “you could unalive yourself.” I know there’s some overlap between both disorders so I’m just wondering if anyone else has similar experiences? I feel like even though I have a diagnosis and am on medication and have been in CBT that something is off.

Do you A. Just let yourself keep yawning and learn to not care B. Try to stop or suppress the yawning Trigger warning only because I don’t want all the Somatics to start yawning

I realised I did a bad thing when I was a kid ... I hurt one of my friend.. I didnt realised then what I did. I am ruminating constantly about it ... I cant get over it and I feel like I dont deserve to get over it. I keep ruminating and ask myself questions ... What should I do?

I'm scared I've become my thoughts or I think I'm scared, why does it feel like I genuinely want or like these thoughts. Anytime I remind myself it's OCD or that I don't like it, it feels like I'm lying to myself and that I've liked these thoughts. Please someone give me advice, I'd appreciate it