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Is there anyone that has overcome ocd without medication? Or is this not possible?

Does anyone that is diagnosed have experience having different themes come up in a day? It’s like I ignored one thought and then my mind comes up with another one until it figures out one that is scary enough for me to ruminate. Does it ever make sense? Like today my intrusive thought was an image of me in the space or falling into space which made me also think - this is non sense! Am I going crazy for having such an unrealistic intrusive thought? And then my psychosis OCD comes to play 🫠 it’s EXHAUSTING but I’ve been answering with “maybe or maybe not” and “I don’t care” which is something I saw someone saying that helps and I’ve been using it. I haven’t started ERP yet but hopefully soon. Just this year this came up and I still catch myself feeling so sad and remembering how I was before this. 😭

I was at the mall with my aunt's. First we accidentally saw some of my cousins and when I was turning to say hi I was extremely close to the youngest who is about 8 and my brain thought that we almost kissed. This was the first thing my brain was telling me that I had to confess to my boyfriend:( Then accidentally saw a friend of mine and one of my aunt's decided to say that he was cute. It literally made me feel weird and that was the second thing OCD told me to confess. Then I mentioned that there was a party tonight from a friend ( I used to have intrusive thoughts about but I'm over that) I talked about this person with my aunt's and then OCD told me that because I was talking about him I had to confess to my boyfriend. Then the worst one came. I was overthinking about every interaction I had, and for some reason my brain just slapped me with an intrusive thought that made me want to cry, and made me feel distressed. About the friend I accidentally saw at the mall. My OCD told me "what if you like this friend and not your boyfriend" and it felt real. But I have had this intrusive thought before and couldn't be bothered, but now it was bad :( made me completely sad because I imagined my boyfriend's face and I just got sad. I'm scared now:(

Does anyone else tell themselves "don't do 'this' or something bad will happen!" or if something bad does happen you go "it's because I did 'this' thing beforehand" and you end up avoiding a lot of stuff you really enjoy? I get in a bad habit of it. I assume some stuff is cursed, in a sense, even if it's something as mundane as using something in video game or eating a certain food.

content warning: mentions of sexual acts things took a turn for the worse and I ended up opening up about the intrusive thought I had about some random guy while self pleasuring and my boyfriend took it really badly. we calmed down pretty quick and he apologized but I don't know how to feel anymore. with everything else he has been so caring and gentle and understanding. I didn't expect him to be perfectly fine but it got really mean and I don't know how to deal with this. he has apologized and doesn't expect me to forgive him and also made it clear that he knows he messed up, I just feel so upset by how the interaction went. has anyone had a partner react badly for a moment but we're able to move past it? I know how exhausting it can be fir the partner of someone suffering so much and I'm not mad that he felt that way, I just feel so taken aback and in the moment it felt like a dream and everything was just a haze and so intense. please help I don't want to lose him and want to know if other people have worked past this before

I hope someone can respond... Im genuinely so triggered and so anxious... This youtuber was accused of grooming a minor, making inappropriate sex jokes with a minor, and planning to meet up with him at dreamcon when the minor turned 16, talking about doing explicit stuff in the presence of minors, etc... this was all when the youtuber was 20 and the minor was 13... POCD is saying that my situation with me venting about 18+ HOCD stuff to people in the PM's on an OCD groupchat I found from NOCD, including minors, means that I am just as bad as they are... or worse... I pm'ed them from the support group and vented to them (including the minors) about my 18+ HOCD struggles... I dont ever want to ever be attracted to minors in any way... I dont ever want to ever engage in any inappropriate relations with minors in any way...

Taking a walk down memory lane ❤️I used to stare at the knife blocks in my house because I was picturing myself committing suicide in vivid detail terrified I would do it. I was probably 7-9. I also had one about a stuffed penguin I had, where I’d imagine it lost and crying for me :,) that one still gets me even as an adult.

Has anyone have been in a weird state like everything feels weird? I have OCD about schizoprenia and now i am not just dealing with that and fear of hallucinations, but i also feel weird. I am scared of everything, even people, but like i know that everything is fine, its just my mind makes up delusions that everything is dangerous and i am walking on a thin ice. Nothing feels right and its soooo weird and scary 😭 it also feels that any second i will lose my mind and i feel constant tingeling in my chest like im in stress about something

Hello! I am pretty early in my journey with receiving treatment for OCD, although it seems I’ve had it my whole life. I would love to hear any inspirational stories from people who have seen improvements from treatment! I am feeling good about ERP so far but I could use some inspiration as I embark on the harder parts :)

Im 16 and i’ve always wanted to drink and smoke weed to use it as a way to ease my tension and anxiety like people say it would . I never have because i’m terrified id say something horrible or do something bad and not remember it . I don’t tell people that’s why i don’t wanna engage in drinking or substances because i just know they wouldnt understand and they’d tell me to ‘stop being so paranoid’. So, instead , they call me boring and frigid which is putting pressure on me. i wish i could have fun like them but i actively avoid parties and dont get invited to them because of it. Im just so scared of something bad happening that’s out of my control. Im not too sure what to do because i don’t want to stay a social outcast forever. Any advice would be appreciated ❤️

My OCD flared up and went to town on my mental well being yesterday. Intrusive thought after intrusive thought, groinal response after groinal response, rumination after rumination. All three of which lead to a dark rabbit hole. Trying to figure out if I am capable of any of those actions presented in the thoughts, coming up with scenarios in which the “possibilities” is high for said actions and lastly, trying to determine if I need to unalive myself or have myself institutionalized to prevent all of it. I know it was all just what I would usually tell many of you, “A bad day with OCD,” but today as the title says. I’m just emotionally drained. Don’t care to fight back against the OCD. If the OCD says I’m a pedophile, maybe I am, maybe I’m not, I don’t care. If my groinal area wants to move, let it, I don’t care. Now for my personal question, anyone ever get to this point? Just emotional indifference? Please reply, today is already a bad day but I promise to try to have a better day tomorrow.

OCD is so strange because I feel so mentally exhausted 24/7 but i’m so good at masking it that like it’s like i can think double. I’m not sure that makes sense. But i am so used to the OCD thoughts racing through my head that i can respond to my environment whilst completely existing in my head. I can have conversations when intrusive thoughts are taking over my inner dialect. I feel like i am even doubting whether i have OCD and whether it’s all just an excuse. I feel like my rumination hasn’t stopped for the past 3 years. Everything i used to enjoy or look forward to, is now dread and tainted by the thoughts telling me i never knew. I don’t even know what i like or who i am anymore. The thought of getting help and talking through it all scares me because what if i’m invalidated or if i speak about it too much then what if i don’t stop thinking. I’m so exhausted

Have you ever been feeling okay and then suddenly an old intrusive thought comes back but worse and you can’t seem to get past it as easily?

I have had OCD all of my life. It affects absolutely everything I do. Those of you that have it know exactly what I mean. I'm a 50 year old male and I have been on meds for 30 plus years. Most days I'm fine, except for a bit of compulsive checking. Lately, I have been absolutely overwhelmed with my job, which I absolutely hate. I have been at it for over 14 years. I'm at the point of a nervous breakdown and feel so terrible and ashamed for my poor wife having to deal with my emotions. I feel like a failure of a man and husband, though she's always by my side. I'm currently looking for new work but my OCD just accentuates everything. Lately, whenever I'm about to clock on for the day I nearly have a panic attack. And over what? A stupid job that would replace me in a heartbeat?? They have already led on that I'm not too far from that. OCD just makes everything soo damn big. Instead of realizing it's just time to move on and just take the necessary steps to do so, I Instead overthink and panic. This is my current struggle. Just wanted to share. Soo damn tired that all I think about is retirement. I'm just wishing my life away to the age when I'll seemingly be more at peace. Thanks for reading.

okay so i slept at like 3 am last night, so i obviously slept in lol. i woke up at like 1:40 to be exact but i also woke up multiple times in the morning just for no reason, i check the time and go back to sleep. i had to pee since like 6 am(the first time i woke up) but i didn’t because going to the bathroom and getting back in bed makes me feel dirty so i just went back to sleep. so fast forward to when i wake up at 1:40, i get up normally and as i’m walking to the bathroom i have to pee really bad like i can barely hold it. which is normal duh bc i’ve been laying down too long to know i had to pee really bad. i go to the bathroom and i sit down really fast so i felt a little pee get out before i sat (sorry if it’s tmi) but as i’m sitting i realize a wet spot on the lower part of my underwear and i start freaking out bc i know it’s pee but i’m asking myself what if i peed myself in my bed. so i felt my pants all over the inside and it wasn’t wet at all on my pants but i’m still scared. i showered and changed but now i’m asking myself what if i peed in my bed.. but what if i just peed a little on the way to the toilet bc i had to pee so bad i could barely hold it? does anyone else have this problem😞 i’m trying not to wash my bedding again bc i did like 3 times this week and i’m tired.

I have a lot of change going on in my life and I just saw my girlfriend after being 2 months apart. I missed her a lot but the whole day was feeling a bit off mostly with rocd. I’ve been trying to do exposures but none give me that crazy feeling and it’s been worrying me that I don’t care anymore. I also have been struggling with rocd for almost a year now. Does anyone have any clues as to what makes exposures really expose lol??

hi so i posted a couple days ago talking about the intrusive thoughts i had telling me i was a lesbian. so i know that i am not but my brain has been trying to convince me that i’m extremely attracted to women. it doesn’t affect me so much in person because if i see a girl and think “wow she’s pretty” it’s pretty easy for me to redirect the intrusive thoughts that come after it. however when im on social media i seem to have this problem. i have a variety of content creators i enjoy watching either on tik tok or youtube. however when i scroll through a girls account on tik tok, my brain tells me that im stalking her because i have a crush on her which i know is not true. so eventually i have to stop watching the videos even if i don’t want to because it feels “wrong” and like im cheating on my bf with a girl that i don’t even like. i am trying to still watch videos and sit with the uncomfortable thoughts to prove to myself that nothing bad is happening and that i can enjoy a girls content and style without automatically feeling like i must be lesbian because i think she looks nice. i love my boyfriend very much and don’t think anybody else would satisfy me romantically, sexually, and even just as a friend as much as he does man or woman. im mostly just writing this to get it out because it helps me calm down and to see if anyone else has similar experiences.

Tried to say "ok im just gonna accept that i'm gay" and you felt calm, like It was true and then It freaked you out wven more cause It felt real???

Hi everyone, it’s hard for me to share this but I wanted to give it a shot. OCD onset got really bad when I turned 19 and it’s been a huge struggle ever since. Even being able to accept help from NOCD was hard at first, I wasn’t brought up in a family that ever took OCD or other mental disorders as valid reasons to struggle. I’m turning 21 next week. These past few years have so much emotional baggage from OCD and trauma exacerbated by OCD. Sometimes I feel like it’s really hard for me to even assess the severity of my triggers and obsessions because I’ve become so used to being under constant distress. I can’t help but to feel at times that getting this disorder under control seems close to impossible. I’ve basically dropped out of college after trying to keep my head above water (and failing) for my freshman and sophomore year. I’m unable to study or even keep a normal job right now. I believe that now more than ever the world is in need of community building and organizing and I feel so much guilt for not being able to participate in that either. I feel like everything I want to be doing with my life right now, especially socially, feels so out of reach because of this illness. It makes it even harder to feel joy about life in this position, which can’t be good for my depression. I hope that soon I’ll be able to track my progress on here. I know growth isn’t linear and everything comes with time…but damn. This shit is hard.

I’m crying and panicking right now because I previously made a post about moral scrupulosity ocd and how it focuses on my partners jokes and I got an answer that triggered me very badly. I put that he used to say very “offensive/dark” jokes but I made him aware a while ago that some were too far and he realised/acknowledged it was wrong it and stopped and also thinks they are weird now too. He did it because he was influenced by past friends. He still makes some dark jokes but not on the same level as he used to and my ocd nitpicks them and I feel like I have to tell him off for every joke just cause I see a small handful of people on the internet be offended. The smaller jokes used to pass over my head but since my ocd symptoms it latches onto everything he does. I’m not sure if someone read my post wrong and thought my bf was continuing to make the old jokes he used to make but it looked like they were saying my bf is a really bad person which is extremely triggering for my partner focused rocd :( Whenever I see people comment things on my post that my ocd wants to hear I get reassured (I am aware that isn’t good for ocd 😞) and this is the first time I’ve seen the complete opposite and it’s what my ocd doesn’t want to hear and I got sent into a very bad panic. Is me reacting this way part of ocd??