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My current boyfriend is great and sweet and loving and kind, I love him but I don’t know if I want to be with him for the rest of my life. We’ve only been dating for 1 month and he’s already talking about marrying me one day. This kind of freaks me out. Like we just started dating. As the days go by I think more and more about how something just doesn’t feel right with him. Like I love him and think he’s amazing but something just doesn’t feel right. Idk if it’s my gut telling me that it’s not meant to be, or it’s just my anxiety taking over. Everything just happened so fast with us, and I’m struggling to keep up. Sometimes I think about life with someone else and that feels more right then when I think of life with my current boyfriend. Does this make me a horrible person? I just honestly don’t know what to think anymore. Thoughts??

Anyone willing to help with my speech on OCD? :) So I have to write a speech for my English exam and my topic of choice is OCD and the stigma around it. The title question I’ve given it is: ‘Should society be more conscious of the ignorance and prejudice circulating obsessive compulsive disorder?’. In the speech I’ll then argue why more should be done to tackle the misunderstood nature of OCD and the impacts of this! But there are two things I need help for. Firstly, I need to give examples of the problems and consequences of the stigma. So any ideas and first hand experiences would be greatly appreciated! And maybe some solutions to this too. It’d be great to embed some real quotes and stories. But secondly I need some help on a more personal level. I’m having a lot of doubts about this speech as I feel like a part of me is only writing it for attention. I know so so much about OCD because I have it, so I know I could make a really powerful speech. But I just feel like I’m ONLY doing it to make a powerful speech, not to raise awareness on the severity of the stigma. And I feel so wrong for this. Even worse, a part of me is EXCITED to reveal my struggles to the class. I don’t even know why. Very very few people know about my OCD, because I worry I’m faking it for attention. I’ve always felt special for having OCD and feel so wrong for that. So advice on this would also be appreciated as I’m really devoted to this speech, I just feel like my intentions are impure. Thanks for your help (on either of the two issues!!).

A new fear has arisen that I’m a latent racist. I hate this. The worst part is, I’ve actually thought some racist things in the past. I can only remember about two, because they worried me, but that’s still wrong. I had one about an hour ago hence I’m writing this. I want to love everyone and not judge. I’m wrong for this. It’s not right nor fair.

Does anybody else get triggered with post about finding your true self while under drugs? I had a bad experience smoking some weed. I was telling my self I wanted to be with a guy. That I wanted it.

anyone else on here with hocd, can we talk? please

what if i only had a crush on beck on victorious because he was constantly characterized as the “hot guy”?

HOCD back again ughhh

I feel terrible. I feel like my compulsions have stopped. I feel genuinely like a trans person. I feel like all I have to do is accept it but I don’t want to accept it! I don’t even feel anxiety anymore

feeling so numb. I dont feel anything. My mind is telling me i have to break up with my bf, i dont want to.

Dk what to do... its like i wanna have sex with my bf but everytime we do it i feel wierd and anxious and the hocd kicks in and i feel like i dont enjoy it. Can anyone relate? ?

Having some very very bad thoughts about STIs. I’ve only ever had one sexual partner and that was my ex, and we had a serious relationship. However, he had four other partners before me and even though he said he’d been tested I still panic. Now, due to some spotting that happens after I do stuff on my own, I’m starting to really panic that I have an STI. He sweet talked/guilt tripped me into having sex without a condom a couple of times, which I really REALLY didn’t like but because of my OCD I can be made to feel guilty so easily and so I caved. Now all I’m doing is panicking thinking I have an STI even though I’ve only had sex whilst in a monogamous relationship. Just, help. I need something to put my mind at ease because I’m terrified.

What a benefit of having homosexuality ocd? Since we been complaining about it

how would I ask for help with this , like to anyone ..? How do I get rid of these intrusive thoughts ??cos I hate myself so much when I think about young kids and their so innocent that I want to cry , ,but like I think about some weird stuff ,about how attractive some kids are . Just their eyes and cute features. Like I don’t understand why I like watching and looking at kids I see randomly seriously it’s really not in a sexual way it’s like I’m attracted to them in a weird fking way and oh my god I’m so fcked up literallt when a kid comes near me idk what to do like I get all flustered coz I never know how to deal with kids and their parents are gonna think im fucking weird cos I don’t know what to say to them ?? but like I do want to be near them and see them ..why????? im wondering if I’m showing signs of starting to become a P ??? I’m 19 btw in case that changes anything coz I’m not under 18 anymore and I feel like I’m such a creep ??

why are there so many videos on tiktok about girls leaving their boyfriends for girls what the fuccck

Anyone have OCD where you have intrusive thoughts about your spouse and confessing them is the only way to get relief?

Comment what takes your mind off things and/or blocks any obsessions/intrusive thoughts

Is ERP for hocd to look at lesbian couples on Instagram? And do it until you don’t feel anxious? I feel like I’m so worried about groinal responses (idk what those even are) when I look at it almost like it forces something down there to happen cuz I’m focused on if something happens or not

i wrote a post about a calorie obsession about a month ago. now i am currently struggling with an ed does anyone else have ocd and an ed?

Which is the best way to make Ocd go away?

I started to smoke marijuana,every night 1 joint,3 nights now. Guys i can tell i sleep better and my thoughts are almost gone i have them but they dont scare me anymore. Maybe its a cure for my OCD. I read about marijuana and ocd and anxiety, it can trigger more anxiety and panic attacks but it can help u with anxiety it depends on people it's not the same for everyone!!