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I’ve never told anyone about my obsessive thoughts, I get random irrational obsessive thoughts that play over and over almost like a broken record like: “killing myself would be fun” or “‘maybe you should just kill yourself” I have absolutely NO suicidal ideation whatsoever, it’s just this empty thought that replays over and over, it feels like my mind is torturing me. Like it’s doing this on its own. There’s sometimes I’ve mentally screamed STOP!! Because I just wanted the broken record or my obsessive thinking to end. I’ve never been officially diagnosed so I’m not sure if I do have OCD but I’ve lived with these obsessive symptoms my whole life. I also always think I made a mistake, so I do things over and over and over again, always double checking.

I want to do a personality quiz to see how much we ACTUALLY have in common, because nearly every time I read a post- it’s a thought that I’ve already had. If anybody else is curious, respond! If this is super dumb, please ignore me ? Age- 21 Age when ocd started- 8 Sex- Female Star sign- Libra Best subject in school- English Worst subject- Science Introvert or Extrovert- I like being around people but it drains my energy so I’m introverted Big groups or small groups- I like small groups because I like to be heard Short temper- Yes!!!! Do you like being a leader- I do Democrat or republican- Democrat Good at art- I am average when I apply myself What’s your best trait? I think mine is my loyalty. I’m a friend for life. I have so many more questions but this is enough for now!

Anyone have tips for harmful thoughts? I’m really on the verge of crying because I don’t have it out for anyone, but now that I’ve envisioned certain things it feels like I won’t see things the same again...

I am having an extremely strong urge to text my gf, because she hasn’t texted me in two hours which is unusual for her. I’m super anxious and keep thinking about her cheating on me. I hate this, but I’m using it as an exposure. I just recorded on the app’s loop tape feature: “my girlfriend is cheating on me with someone else” and I’m listening to it over and over again. Anxiety is still at a 7 but hoping it goes down.

What kind of treatment plan did your counsellor/psychiatrist/psychologist/etc put you on? I don’t have a treatment plan yet and I’m trying to figure out what works for me

I can feel myself slipping back into depression which I haven’t dealt with for a full year. I’m so over my stupid body and my stupid mind. I just want to feel like a normal person.

How do you guys do ERP for harm OCD? Especially the jumping off building thought? I am afraid by deliberately bring the thought on I will somehow gradually agree with, listen to, and act on the thought. Why is sometimes the thought not that strong and I can shift my mind to something else? But sometimes it feels like I am facing a real danger or I can act on it very soon

TOCD is making me really depressed. I just want to feel normal.

My guilt over my pocd thoughts has been progressing and it is because of that same reason I'm scared to fall back into feeling guilty again and not having control over it. I'm like what if one day the guilt becomes so bad that I end up having self destructive behavior because I deserve the worst??? ?

I’m holding a presentation at school about OCD, partly in an attempt to raise awareness in my social studies class, and I wondered how OCD restricts you in your daily life. Also, have it changed your view on life and happiness?

what are some diets that are beneficial and fairly doable for those w anxiety and OCD? I saw a post about paleo down below, are there any others?

How does one do school and also have OCD? I used to be alright at school, now I can barely get anything done. I really don’t want to fail but every time I start working I get overwhelmed and my head hurts.

One of my goals is: if I can successfully make it through this treatment program, and learn hardcore ERP, I would love to share my story with the IOCDF. That motivates me.

Sometimes I feel like I’ll never get better. It worries me. What if there isn’t a path forward from where I am? I might spend the rest of my life like I am now. I would rather have not existed at all than live like that.

Too anxious to sleep ?

Why does the HOCD make me feel things that I know are ridiculous. I’ve never been aroused by the same sex but now every time I even just see a guy I feel like I will, but I never have. I’ve been in tons of situations, before I had this ocd, where I would’ve been aroused if I was homosexual. I keep trying to analyze my past and it’s stressing me out. Does anybody have any good coping mechanisms?

As some of you guys probably know, if I’ve been leaving annoyingly chirpy comments on your posts (?) I’m a huge believer in ERP. It works consistently with my OCD when nothing else has, its pulled me out of some dark places, etc etc. But I also see a lot of posts asking a heap of different questions about it. I totally get your frustrations and confusion. It was easier for me, in a way, because I was so hopeless when I discovered it I went, “if this doesn’t work, I’m just gonna give up an end it.” It was my last resort so I guess that helped in a way, but it did work. It really did. So where I’m going with this is, If anyone has any questions about ERP, dump them here in the comments and I’ll answer them as soon as I can. All questions, any questions, throw them at me. I want to help, I know what you’re going through and as an obsessively good researcher (even before my OCD kicked in) I have a tonne of different explanations on how it works, why it works, how it feels, and so on and so on and so on. Honestly, I just wanna be useful. I wanna help. Being able to help people through this stuff makes my OCD a teensy bit worthwhile. Give me your best shot :)

Does your head ever get numb from all the intrusive and helpful thoughts going through your head, and you start buzzing, and feeling like you just can’t talk?

Just posted something, unrelated, but who is medicated for OCD and what works for them. Anyone use medical marijuana - does it help? My therapist thinks we’re at a standstill with ERP until I try medication/medical marijuana to curb the anxiety in the beginning

Skeptical about ERP? I found ERP really conflicts with some other theories, like the theories of Louise Hay (who wrote the book “you can heal your life). I will elaborate on my confusions. 1. ERP asks us to experience obsessions without thinking “no I won’t hurt myself” “no I won’t hurt others”. “No, I am safe and those thoughts are not real”. Thinking “i won’t do dangerous stuff and I am completely safe” is considered as compulsion to rid us of anxiety, but Louise Hay thinks it as positive affirmation. 2. Will ERP make us believe what we think even more? ERP asks you to write your fears into those stories and scripts and repeat them again and again until you habituate. But why would I say to myself “oh, maybe I will kill my parents and I will accept that and move on”? How does this make any sense? 3. I read the book of Shannon Shy who has recovered from OCD and he used his own strategies. I remembered that when he confronted his obsession of whether he left the pot on, he would say to himself that “do you think the pot will turn itself on”? to help him better move on to do things that he should do. But according to ERP, isn’t this a compulsion? Cuz ERP asks us to accept that ok the pot may be on and my house may be burned down and I accept that and I move on? I just find ERP theories weird.