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Can POCD make you feel like you don’t know why sexually abusing children is wrong, just that you’re afraid of becoming a child abuser for whatever reason? I’m constantly struggling to figure out why pedophilia doesn’t make me disgusted or angry enough. I feel like I’m actually a pedophile who doesn’t know it yet or is in denial. I know I shouldn’t ruminate but I feel like there’s some truth to the thing I’m constantly obsessing over.

I hate pOCD. I struggle with urges, is it normal to get urges with pOCD? My therapist said I should hold my toddler, change his diaper, etc. But I feel like I am white knuckling it through those. I also struggle after I change a diaper or give a bath that the only reason I cleaned an area was due to desire. This sucks so bad.

I have severe OCD. So many rituals. Can't function hardly at all any more. Fear of contamination and checking. Just found this and I'm so desperate so looking for help to help myself.

ARE THERE MEDICATIONS FOR THE “GROIN SENSATIONS” I would rather never have arousal in my life. Like is there any medications that can just take away arousal altogether? This is annoying I’m over it

I think there should be a sticky post with information on how OCD manifests itself. Most posts here seem to be in the style of "does anyone else have X" and the answer is invariably yes.

How did you tell your partner about your ocd? I’ve never been in a relationship but I am scared to death just thinking about having to tell a future boyfriend about my ocd. I feel weird and alone and like no one will ever want to be with me. Especially if they find out about my mental illness. I’m 23 now and feel like I will be alone forever.

My therapist says I have OCD, but I don’t think I have any intrusive thoughts or images. How can that be?

Anyone else afraid they’re schizophrenic?? I am legit scared that everyone I see if you to put like a tracker in my car or stalk me even though I know not everyone will do that and it’s scarying me?

I’m scared that I want to be a boy! I’ve been diagnosed with Harm OCD about 5 weeks ago and all of a sudden my thoughts have changed into me wanting to be a boy! I’m a 14 year old girl who’s never thought or wanted to be a boy before. I would rather the thoughts just go but sometimes the thoughts make me imagine life as a boy and it doesn’t seem that bad which then gives me anxiety because it makes me think that I might want to become a boy! I’ve always been a girly girl and loved dresses and makeup but ever since I’ve got the thought (which came out of no where) I’ve been avoiding makeup and avoiding seeing my friends! I get so scared that I might turn transgender and that I want to be a boy. Help. Is it ocd or am I trans?

I’m straight but when I watch women twerk I get anxious and sometimes makes me think I’m having some kind of feeling is this normal it always makes me question my sexuality I’m only into boys

Does anyone with ROCD, POCD and Sexual Orientation OCD (HOCD) ever fear they will never be in a stable marriage or a relationship in general due to their fears or because their OCD may ruin it? My biggest fear is that I will never be in a stable, committed or a normal relationship due to this horrible disorder.

My OCD has massively spiked from last weekend to tonight. I usually can pinpoint why. Tiredness, not feeling well, stressed, dreaming (out of my control); these are all wonderful times for OCD to attack because you're already feeling crappy and less on guard, which makes it easier to flare up. However, I have zero clue why it's so bad currently. I'm not stressed, not tired, not not feeling well. And it's not a little flare where it's picking on just one thing. It's picking on the ENTIRE spectrum of sexuality: incest, beastiality, pedophilia, and homosexuality. It's horrible. I seriously want to cry and feel like I'm suffocating. I can't listen to music, go places, really do anything without it taking something and trying to twist it. Like driving in the car with my mom and maybe a more sexual song comes on on the radio: Oh you're listening to a sexual song with your mom. That's weird. That means something! You're into your mom! Cuddling my dogs and just feeling loved: Oh you're too close to your dogs. You're into them. You're sick. Oh you really like your trainer cause she's super nice and funny: You know a good deal of female trainers are gay right? You were wondering if she was gay or bi. Why were you wondering? Cause you're gay and you like her. Like seriously NONSTOP. I can't even watch tv and see a character that's gay or a celebrity who is gay and not start freaking out. I have absolutely nothing against the LGBTQ community. It's just I don't want it or like it for myself. But here I am freaking out. Then you have random physical arousal that goes with all that crap, and it just makes it all worse. There are seriously no therapists where I'm from who understand and properly treat OCD. It's all reassurance based. And then there's all these places I hear about that sound great and like they really get OCD. Think they offer online/on the phone therapy for my state? lol NO. Like how are you supposed to feel any better feeling like no one can help you? I know there are self guided therapy books. But I'm terrified. Petrified. I need a professional to help me get over that first hurdle. Can anyone relate?): Also, does anyone get triggered by seeing the posts on here? If there's even anything that slightly mentions sexuality on here that someone is having trouble with, my OCD latches onto that and turns it into a new attack for me. That's why I've always been hesitant to join OCD support groups. Because I KNOW my OCD will see someone's own OCD issues and latch onto them to further attack me. It SUCKS.

Has anyone who suffers from HOCD feel they have lost that genuine sexual and emotional attraction towards the opposite sex? Or just constant confusion?

Anyone else feel the need to confess to their thoughts to their partners? I burden my bf a lot in this way, but I feel like I'm dishonest or guilty if I don't. He's very understanding but he can only take so much.

How do you deal/ try to stop mental compulsions? Mine seem so involuntary it’s like I can’t stop myself from doing them

has anyone have any experience with any of the following drugs : plz comment :  fluoxetine (Prozac),  fluvoxamine (Luvox),  paroxetine (Paxil),  citalopram (Celexa),  escitalopram (Lexapro), sertraline (Zoloft). clomipramine

When i say to myself I’m straight or I’m heterosexual, i get slight anxiety in my stomach. It feels like I’m lying to myself although I’ve been straight my entire life.

Studies suggest that OCD is heritable. How do you deal with the fact, you might be responsible for your children getting it? ?

Im so struggling right now, any Catholic here who can give me an advice? Im Catholic planning to get married to my Muslim boyfriend in summer. We are both pretty religious, but respectful of each other's religion. We want to do both ceremonies, the catholic and the muslim one, but church law says we cannot add another ceremony to the catholic one. I talked to various priests and even one lady inquired with a bishop for me and ALL of them said they dont see a problem because the muslim wedding is not really a religious ceremony and more of a contract thing. But a friend of mine asked a priest she knows to get in contact with church lawyers to ask them so that we can be sure, and im so scared that they wont say no and that my head will take it as a sign and I will start to worry again whether its ok to get married ... I know it makes no sense to worry about something I dont know will happen or not, but I cant seem to get it out of my head since yesterday and im always on the verge of crying... I dont want to do something thats against the church, but I couldnt stand to break off this relationship either and Im so so scared. I have moments where I feel in my heart that its the right thing to do to get married but one little thing and I get scared again that Im going against God's will...

I always think about one person . Even I try to stop it , it still remains. Iam fucked up with it.I think it's my urge for fatherlylove that made me an ocd sufferer. He is my uncle. He is caring me ,but i always doubt the relationship with thoughts like 'He don't loves me ' , 'Iam no one to him' .etc ..And i also get aroused sometimes when he is with me. hocd is another problem i suffer....I always try not to get aroused and i feel very bad for that. He cares me like a child. What my body and mind is doing? He knows i suffer from these things, he always say to me "Be more confident.it's time to study, do that". But for me that wasn't enough.... I don't know what to do with myself there's no one who could understand me. Feels like Iam sinking down...