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Did some exposures in therapy today. Not very fun but I know that's the point. Of course my mind tries to seize on loss of attraction to make it worse. Hopefully turn a corner soon. I need some rest.

I am in so much debt and cannot afford therapy but I have a list of nootropics that I would like to try and I truly don't know where to start... I'm so scared of everything lol! I wanna go to therapy but I really can only afford my bills right now so I need to get out of this depression to go job searching ... any advice?

Hi, this is not specifically about OCD, but about anger (buti think anxiety contributed to or partly fuelled the anger if you get what i mean. I am hoping some of u guys out there with good temper can help me out. I am someone who can get triggered by inconsiderate acts by others or being a victim of unfair / unkind treatment (I don't mean on regular basis like abuse). I'm sure we all know there are circumstances whereby it wouldn't be wise or appropriate to speak up. Some people would be able to understand & accept the experience for what it is; feel annoyed, then shrug it off and move on. But i belong to those who would fume inside.. and then sometimes i would feel like raising a complaint which somehow makes me feel like an ugly person (like why can't i be more big-hearted).. and i dislike myself when I'm angry / annoyed.. and what's worse is sometimes i can feel that this caused my head to hurt. I feel moody and unwell.. I know anger is normal but how exactly to deal with it? I'm really envious of people who are not 'sensitive' and can let go easily.. To the sweet souls out there, pls share tips with me! I wish to become a better person.. more peaceful / less easily triggered.. Thank you in advance!

Hi, I created a Discord Server for people with OCD. You can chat here and/or game but you don’t have to play any games whatsoever. The server name is called The Plaza of Friends; the link is https://discord.gg/CX4xDtyRHN And that doesn’t work use this one https://discord.gg/Wt32YRCmHC If you are on your phone and it doesn’t work, try using a computer to join. Here are things we do on the server: we usually can just chat, whether that is voice chat or text chat (pick the ones you prefer) and chat about our OCD. You can also chat about your traumas or things that have happened in your past that have bothered you. We mainly discuss things about how we can help with OCD or our experiences with OCD at 12 pm eastern time but we would prefer that we get more people with different time zones because there is a person in India in our server, so that would be good for them. Please, if you join, introduce yourself with your theme, so that If I don’t know about your theme I can add it and make it a channel. It doesn’t matter what type of theme it is or how severe your OCD is, I just hope you have a community that can help you out. What we prefer (but you don’t have to do right now): We hope that you can get in our voice channels at least once a week, or chat in our general chat once a week (I hope you do both because I don’t have anyone to talk to); we want everyone on the server to at least to participate at least a little. This isn’t something you have to do right now, or for a month, but we hope that when you join the server, you can at the very least participate in the chat. We hope to have 40 to 50 people on our server. Right now, there are 14 (at least right now, some people keep leaving) and so if 36 people can join, that would be great. What we want (meaning I would personally like but you don’t have to do): We would like that if you have some sort of game in mind. This can literally be any game. It can literally be phone games like candy crush, pocket edition Minecraft, the fancy pants adventures to console games like Call of Duty and Grand Theft Auto 5 to Nintendo games like Mario (I don’t know any more types of games) to PC Games like, again, Call of Duty, Minecraft, Grand Theft Auto 5, whatever you want. Whatever will keep people chatting. About complaints and Adjustments to the server: If you want me to add anything to the server or make adjustments to the server, just message me personally or comment in the area of the personal complaint of the server. Whichever makes you comfortable. If you want me to upgrade you to a role where you can become an admin and you can join private channels, add roles, and add bots to the server, please contact me personally about that. I want to make the server a comfortable and interactive place and I want to make sure I’m doing everything right. I hope you can join the server, whether it's to chat or help me out. I will only be accepting 8 people for this but if you can join the server just to chat and/or game that would be great. When you join the server, Introduce yourself. I will try to join the voice channel at 12 pm eastern every day but I might not make it all the time. If you can join, that would be lovely. I hope I see you there. I can comment on this post so that I can make sure people are seeing this post. Please feel free to ask me a question in the replies or contact me on discord KaniYadoKari #9997 Remember, you can be of all ages, colors, and backgrounds to join this server. So again, I hope I see you there. I really hope I and other people in the server can make some friends.

Hi, I created a Discord Server for people with OCD. You can chat here and/or game but you don’t have to play any games whatsoever. The server name is called The Plaza of Friends; the link is https://discord.gg/CX4xDtyRHN And that doesn’t work use this one https://discord.gg/Wt32YRCmHC If you are on your phone and it doesn’t work, try using a computer to join. Here are things we do on the server: we usually can just chat, whether that is voice chat or text chat (pick the ones you prefer) and chat about our OCD. You can also chat about your traumas or things that have happened in your past that have bothered you. We mainly discuss things about how we can help with OCD or our experiences with OCD at 12 pm eastern time but we would prefer that we get more people with different time zones because there is a person in India in our server, so that would be good for them. Please, if you join, introduce yourself with your theme, so that If I don’t know about your theme I can add it and make it a channel. It doesn’t matter what type of theme it is or how severe your OCD is, I just hope you have a community that can help you out. What we prefer (but you don’t have to do right now): We hope that you can get in our voice channels at least once a week, or chat in our general chat once a week (I hope you do both because I don’t have anyone to talk to); we want everyone on the server to at least to participate at least a little. This isn’t something you have to do right now, or for a month, but we hope that when you join the server, you can at the very least participate in the chat. We hope to have 40 to 50 people on our server. Right now, there are 14 (at least right now, some people keep leaving) and so if 36 people can join, that would be great. What we want (meaning I would personally like but you don’t have to do): We would like that if you have some sort of game in mind. This can literally be any game. It can literally be phone games like candy crush, pocket edition Minecraft, the fancy pants adventures to console games like Call of Duty and Grand Theft Auto 5 to Nintendo games like Mario (I don’t know any more types of games) to PC Games like, again, Call of Duty, Minecraft, Grand Theft Auto 5, whatever you want. Whatever will keep people chatting. About complaints and Adjustments to the server: If you want me to add anything to the server or make adjustments to the server, just message me personally or comment in the area of the personal complaint of the server. Whichever makes you comfortable. If you want me to upgrade you to a role where you can become an admin and you can join private channels, add roles, and add bots to the server, please contact me personally about that. I want to make the server a comfortable and interactive place and I want to make sure I’m doing everything right. I hope you can join the server, whether it's to chat or help me out. I will only be accepting 8 people for this but if you can join the server just to chat and/or game that would be great. When you join the server, Introduce yourself. I will try to join the voice channel at 12 pm eastern every day but I might not make it all the time. If you can join, that would be lovely. I hope I see you there. I can comment on this post so that I can make sure people are seeing this post. Please feel free to ask me a question in the replies or contact me on discord KaniYadoKari #9997 Remember, you can be of all ages, colors, and backgrounds to join this server. So again, I hope I see you there. I really hope I and other people in the server can make some friends.

last night i tried to tackle one of my biggest fears/compulsions: leaving my bedroom door open and only having one light on instead of all of my bedroom lights. i saw things moving around my room all night, a shadow cast on my wall looked like an upside down cross with blood dripping off of it, i was hearing shuffling in the hallway, i thought something kept pushing my door open further.. i cried all night/had a mental breakdown on the phone with my boyfriend which i have never done, i was awake until 7:30am. why does erp make things so. much. harder. before they get easier.?😔 i am so embarrassed my boyfriend had to see that side of me. but at the same time i feel like it was eye opening on how hard this is for me and how badly i want to improve.

if anyone knows a lot about different tic disorders, please let me know about them! i think i have anxiety tics, but when searching for more info, i don’t find much. any knowledge is greatly appreciated!!

What good does God do by screwing up people’s lives?? 🤔 I think I should die because I have ocd. I’m honestly done with it and I’m done being God’s fuckin punching bag.

The past is all I have left of myself.

Anyone else feel like OCD is making their whole world change? Like your perspective on literally everything is shifting which means your future isn’t going to be what you wanted it to be? I have HOCD and ROCD and feel like I’ll have to leave my marriage or leave my religion or end up with a woman but none of those things are what I want? I love my religion, my husband, and the previous ideas I had for the future before HOCD showed up.

Has anyone else had OCD over a person?? In an ugly, anxious way?? Like obsessing over their appearance and what people think of them because you don’t want them to have any good??? I know that sounds awful and I FEEL awful, but I just can’t help it. Don’t know how it was triggered, but I think it usually starts when I think people are full of themselves/narcissistic... I just feel alone :(

I keep getting intrusive explicit images of a 12 year old that looks 16. Ugh. And sometimes I look at them out of anxiety but mostly am able to block it . It’s horrible because I’m 17 and don’t wanna like be attracted to a freaking 12 year old this shits scary . I think it’s false attraction because I wasn’t attracted to her when I saw her just shocked but it’s so scary . What if I accidentally fantasize about her , which is sexual abuse !

before you post... think! t- is this true? h- is this helpful? i- is this inspiring? n- is this necessary? k- is it kind? This makes me laugh 😂

I’ve noticed my OCD is getting worse and worse each day. Even with therapy, ERP skills, and all my other resources. My thoughts are getting darker and darker. Yesterday I realized I have been having negative thoughts about my boyfriends job and that I didn’t want him to work because of my own strange thoughts. He’s a truck driver and It’s not like I don’t want him to be successful and make money. It has nothing to do with that but It’s really weird thoughts about him driving and stuff, (not about his safety or other’s safety. It has nothing to do with other people at all either) it’s weird sort of kinky thoughts that are based out of anger that wouldn’t make sense to anyone. I’ve been having these thoughts forever and I just now realized how weird and wrong they are. The fact that I just realized this makes me feel so guilty. He needs to work and make money and I feel guilty that I don’t want him at this job because of the strange thoughts I get about him driving. And I know all about intrusive thoughts and have them myself which makes me able to identify that these are not intrusive thoughts and that makes me feel even worse. I need help so bad.

I feel really alone in my ROCD struggles. I feel like it's never going to get better. I'm worried because my relationship is LDR and because of the virus I can't see him to build our connection in reality together. I worry because my rocd isn't getting any better. It's been 6 months now and no clarity days and I worry I have to let go cos its never getting better. Yet I don't want to. I just live in hope. I feel doomed and like the odd case here because my damn think happened just two weeks before meeting him irl. And worried I'm doomed as a result. Could someone please help me. Sorry, I just feel like the odd case because of the things I mentioned and it really upsets me. ❤️

To the ones in college, has OCD put a huge impact on our school work. Honestly I’ve spent more time thinking than actually doing assignments this year... it’s eating me up because now I feel like I’m behind and a disappointment

False memory ocd, how do I deal?

NSFW I remember when I was around a junior in high school, I looked up “freshman boy senior girl” on pornhub(for clarity I’m a straight boy who had an older girl kink at the time) and while I’m not 100% sure if I was just looking for fantasy or the real thing, I eventually stoped caring because even if it was the real thing I know it’s not a big age difference. But then my mind started going to “what if you knew it was harmful at the time and still looked it up?” Is it normal that I don’t know the answer to that question?

This article just helped me so much. I was terrified that if I didn’t purposefully direct attention toward my obsession to make me aware of it, that I was just suppressing the thought and doing ERP wrong. But this article helped me see that any type of engagement with the thought/obsession, including directing my attention toward it, IS rumination — and that I can choose to stop! Please read this article and this guy’s other articles — they are AMAZING and a literal God send for me! https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/awareness-attention-distraction-and-rumination/

Let’s take a mental pause. Answer the three questions below and be as detailed as you wish. 1- What’s your favorite scenery to see out a car window? 2- What type of coffee drinker are you? 3- Name your favorite sound. I’ll start: 1.) Large green fields or city night lights. 2.) The decaffeinated or herbal tea type. 3.) Crackling firewood